Sunlight Allure

The picture of Pokemon jumps on the TV screen.Zhao Guangmin hugged the Pikachu doll, nestled on the sofa and watched it engrossed.

Zhao Rongmin flicked and pulled the IPAD pretendingly, but the peripheral vision from the corner of his eyes was tightly locked on Zhao Guangmin.

It's the fourth day.

It was already the fourth day, and Zhao Guangmin still hadn't spoken a word to him.

Zhao Rongmin did not expect things to turn out like this.On the Ferris wheel that day, he saw Zhao Guangmin's youthful profile, and suddenly kissed him uncontrollably.As if lost in mind, my mind went blank.When he woke up, he had already stuck the corner of Zhao Guangmin's lips.

Seeing Zhao Guangmin's facial features so close at hand, the shock in Zhao Rongmin's heart was hard to calm down.

He couldn't believe what he saw.

He doesn't know what he's doing.

I don't know why I did this.

Everything seems to be as natural as the weather changes.

No preparation is required, and no thought is required.In such a scene, as if responding to some kind of divine call, he raised his chin with peace of mind, and kissed him without hesitation.

Seems like a matter of course.

It seems to be against the sky and immoral.

It wasn't until the moment when the two kissed deeply that Zhao Rongmin realized belatedly that he seemed to have fallen in love with his most cherished younger brother, Zhao Guangmin.

Since he was a child, he has doted on Zhao Guangmin to the extreme, and he is reluctant to let him endure a little bit of wind and rain.Even at the age of 17, Zhao Rongmin still followed Zhao Guangmin for ten years.When my parents were still there, I always laughed and joked when I saw Zhao Rongmin's meticulous care for my younger brother, "Rongmin is really more responsible than my parents." And Zhao Rongmin always rolled up the corners of his immature eyes and stopped Zhao Guangmin. shoulder, said quite proudly, "I'm the older brother! It's the older brother's bounden duty to love the younger brother. Besides, Guangmin is already likable. I like Guangmin the most!"

Zhao Guangmin likes Pikachu.Zhao Rongmin likes Zhao Guangmin.

Zhao Guangmin is Zhao Rongmin's Pikachu.

And after that accident, Zhao Rongmin pampered Zhao Guangmin even more.

He understands that Zhao Guangmin is naturally sensitive. Although he is 1.8 meters tall and has a deep and handsome face, he is as fragile as a glass doll inside.A cold breeze and a scorching sun can sting him.

Zhao Rongmin thought, let myself be Zhao Guangmin's warmest and most stable support.

It is the elder brother's duty to protect his younger brother.

But she never thought that this vague liking would gradually twist into a love that never ceases to let go.Then it gradually became ingrained in the endless years, so that when I suddenly realized later, this love had already penetrated into the bone marrow and could no longer be removed.

Therefore, at the moment when the Ferris wheel reached the highest point, a certain opportunity just reached the critical point, and those obscure and unconsciously suppressed emotions poured out from the bottom of my heart, but at that moment, Zhao Guangmin was so beautiful True, the eyebrows and eyes stained with sunlight are completely deceptive.

So, the kiss fell naturally.

As if it had already been destined.

Therefore, when Zhao Guangmin closed his eyes and tightly wrapped his arms around Zhao Rongmin's neck, Zhao Rongmin suddenly realized that he could never go back.

He wasn't sure why Zhao Guangmin kissed him back.He didn't believe that Zhao Guangmin might like him. Of course, he would not narcissistically think that his kissing skills were so good that Zhao Guangmin forgot his brother's identity and responded enthusiastically.

He has never kissed anyone else.

The kiss that landed on Zhao Guangmin's lips was not really a qualified kiss.At that time, Zhao Rongmin just obeyed his instinct, biting and turning on Zhao Guangmin's soft lips, and after receiving Zhao Guangmin's green response, he grabbed the back of his head fiercely, prying open his canine teeth and driving straight into them.

Till now, Zhao Guangmin's lips still had slight scars.When pursing his lips subconsciously, he always frowns at the light but sharp tingling pain from his lips.

Zhao Rongmin didn't expect that his momentary kiss would pay such a heavy price.

After getting out of the Ferris wheel, the two of them didn't say another word.Zhao Rongmin wanted to strike up a conversation several times, but always retreated sadly after seeing Zhao Guangmin's indifferent expression.One is silent, the other is flinching.So that in the next four days, the two had no dialogue.

Zhao Guangmin just sat and hugged Pikachu and watched Pokemon.

Under the guise of surfing the Internet to relieve stress, Zhao Rongmin held the iPad in his hand while staring at Zhao Guangmin, for fear of missing the slightest expression on his face.

Unfortunately, Zhao Guangmin's expression seemed to freeze.There are no ups and downs and fluctuations.

This made Zhao Rongmin even more uneasy.

I was worried that Zhao Guangmin would hate me, worried that Zhao Guangmin would alienate me from now on, worried that Zhao Guangmin would break free from my arms and plunge into a world that I couldn't touch, and even more worried that Zhao Guangmin would look at him with a strange expression.

Thinking of this, Zhao Rongmin couldn't hold back anymore, put down the IPAD neatly, stood up, and stood in front of the TV screen, blocking Zhao Guangmin's motionless sight.

Feeling a shadow flashing in front of his eyes, Zhao Guangmin came back to his senses like waking up from a dream.

He looked up, and as far as his eyes could see, was the face that had been flashing before his eyes for the past four days.Familiar and handsome, so bright that it frightened him.The slightly pursed thin lips and the firm color in the eyes made Zhao Guangmin's heart skip a beat.

Zhao Guangmin felt something stuck in his throat.He opened his mouth, but couldn't say a word.

There are too many things that can't be said at the relative moment, but when they are silently stranded in the bottom of my heart, I feel unwilling.

Zhao Guangmin wants to say "I love you" to Zhao Rongmin.For the first time in his life, and the only time when he mustered up the courage to express his heart, Zhao Rongmin blocked all the words he was about to say.Zhao Guangmin didn't understand Zhao Rongmin's intention.But Zhao Guangmin knew that after missing this only confession, he never had the courage to say these three words to Zhao Rongmin again.

Some things, there is no room for redemption.

For example, Zhao Guangmin loves Zhao Rongmin.

Zhao Guangmin is used to backing down.So facing Zhao Rongmin's sudden kiss, he subconsciously avoided the good result.

I only think of this kiss as the hormonal rush of Zhao Rongmin when he suddenly relaxes after long-term fatigue.

Zhao Guangmin thought, since his love is sinful, why not bury it deeply and thoroughly in his heart?There is no need to spread out this dirty emotion, just seal it in the bottom of my heart until it rots, so as not to make Zhao Rongmin disgusting with blood dripping after it is pulled out, and there is no need to erect any tombstone, just let Zhao Guangmin secretly pay homage to it in the dead of night when no one is around. Just one click.

How can wrong love, which should not exist, shamelessly dream of being fulfilled by the gods?

After calming down, Zhao Guangmin looked at Zhao Rongmin who was standing against the light in front of him, his eyes were cold.

"elder brother?"

The tone and expression are exactly the same, dull and cold.

Hearing such quiet words, Zhao Rongmin frowned, the corners of his mouth curled up in disappointment, and his pupils shrank suddenly.

Sure enough, Pikachu is angry?

Forcibly suppressing the uneasiness in his heart, Zhao Rongmin looked into Zhao Guangmin's bright black eyes, softened his tone, and softly read out the slightly drunken words as if whispering or begging.

"Guangmin."

Very soft and warm voice.Zhao Guangmin felt as if he was in a cold ice cellar.A coldness spread uncontrollably in my heart.Overwhelming.

Zhao Rongmin... never called him that.

Didn't he just call him Guang'er?

Didn't Zhao Rongmin only call Zhao Guangmin "Guanger"?

When he recited "Guang'er", there was an endless fragrance between his lips and teeth.To Zhao Guangmin, it was like the most affectionate and warmest whisper in the lover's world. He had the illusion of happiness and despair of being with Zhao Rongmin through youth.

But now, what he pronounced out was "Guangmin".

Not "Guanger".

What, this is Zhao Rongmin, want to show his card to Zhao Guangmin?

Because I kissed you back, so, looking back now, you feel uncomfortable and want to draw a line with me to calm down the discomfort and nausea in your heart, is that so?

……

Well then, I respect your feelings.

Brother Rong Min.

Zhao Guangmin let go of Pikachu, deliberately ignored the strange look in Zhao Rongmin's eyes, stood up, opened the distance between him and the person in front of him without any trace, and said the words that had been brewing for a long time first, blocking Zhao Rongmin's desire to speak. end.

"I know what you want to say."

Zhao Rongmin's heartstrings tightened, and the words that had been lingering in his throat for a long time were pushed back.He was not sure about Zhao Guangmin's attitude, his fingers curled up subconsciously, his eyes were surprisingly bright, and his nervousness and uneasiness were evident in his words.However, this look in Zhao Guangmin's eyes has a completely different meaning.

His voice became three points colder.

"I'm going to act like nothing happened. It was just an accident."

The look is the same.But if you observe carefully, Zhao Rongmin may see a trace of struggle in Zhao Guangmin's pupils.

When Zhao Rongmin heard this, his eyelids drooped slightly, and his fingertips trembled.

Zhao Guangmin was rational and almost cruel.

"If you really can't let go, I can keep a distance from you. Brother Rong Min."

Before Zhao Rongmin could answer, Zhao Guangmin spoke again. "I understand that you are a stubborn person. I'm afraid it will be difficult for you to let go of this matter. I understand, so I will try to stay out of your sight. By the way, the sun is very warm outside, I think I should go for a walk. Brother Rong Min , you rest at home."

Finding a not-so-perfect excuse, Zhao Guangmin turned and left as if fleeing.He also didn't realize that Zhao Rongmin, who was behind him, immediately fell short after he rushed out of the hall door.

Then, in the sunshine of the city, he hugged his body tightly as if injured, lowered his eyelids, and endured the pain in his heart that no one could see.

"The bits and pieces of the past and the sadness of the past accompanied by the melodious sunlight are the heartache and confusion at this moment."

Zhao Guangmin almost rushed out the door.Then, regardless of everything, he ran wildly as if trying to break free.He didn't know why, and he didn't think about why, he only had the idea of ​​running away.So much so that when he stopped panting for breath, he found that he had already lost his way among the endless crowd.

The sun is warm, and the wind at nine o'clock in the morning is a bit indecisive and cool, but it will inevitably take away the thin heat of the sun.

Only then did Zhao Guangmin suddenly realize that he came out too hastily, wearing only a not very thick knitted sweater, which made him look extraordinarily thin and indifferent amidst the crowded crowd.Slightly calming down, Zhao Guangmin ignored the surprise, astonishment or amazement of passers-by, found a park bench by himself, and then sat down slumped.

Zhao Guangmin knew that his face must be pale at this moment.But he was also indifferent, allowing the passers-by to see through his impenetrable disguise through his invisible sorrow.

Slowly taking out his phone, Zhao Guangmin focused the camera on the source of sunlight.With a flick of a fingertip, the picture is instantly frozen.

A perfect luminous body, and a sunny day with less haze.It seems that there is a burning sensation coming out of the picture, but it can't warm Zhao Guangmin's heart.Zhao Guangmin lost his mind for a while, and then wrote such a paragraph in the mood column.

"I'm used to hiding in the night, but you belong to the day. My heart is full of filth and filth, so don't approach, don't look back, I'm afraid your beautiful pupils will be stained red."

After clicking "Publish", Zhao Guangmin silently turned off the phone.

Zhao Guangmin was not a child with brilliant writing, but when the emotions in his heart were hard to restrain, the words under his pen were instantly tainted with aura, and there was a bit of poetry.

Many times, one person will create many unbelievable things because of another person.

But that person will never understand.

Zhao Guangmin suppressed the soreness in his heart, and did not move again.

No matter how prosperous the city in front of him is, Zhao Guangmin's heart will feel so empty.

He thought that as long as he left Zhao Rongmin's world, all the chaos and complexity would dissipate.But when he really escaped from Zhao Rongmin's side, he suddenly realized that he, Zhao Guangmin, had nowhere to go except the home that Zhao Rongmin gave him.

It turned out that he, Zhao Guangmin, was really homeless after leaving Zhao Rongmin.

With this kind of cognition, Zhao Guangmin felt a burst of irritability in his heart, curled up his body involuntarily, and his eyes naturally fell to the ground.

Then, a pair of red canvas shoes stopped in Zhao Guangmin's vision.

Five seconds later.Still occupying his line of sight.

There was a strange flash in his eyes.Zhao Guangmin raised his head suspiciously, and a face against the light was deeply brought into his eyes.

Red baseball uniform, black sweater, light gray jeans, red canvas shoes.

Sharp short hair, fair skin, high nose bridge, light lips, curved eyes, and stars in the pupils.

A beautiful face, a beautiful smile, and an equally beautiful voice.

"Hello, Pikachu."

I am Apple Lu.

……

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