Immersive sound

Father got up without saying a word and went into the inner room. Mother Xie pulled Xie Qi up and hurriedly followed in. After a while, he came out to clean up the dining table. Then pack it up.

No one spoke in the room, and the mother's expression seemed to be foggy, Xie Qi couldn't see clearly and didn't dare to look.

The leftover plates and chopsticks were put into the kitchen. Xie Qi took the gloves and prepared to wash the dishes, but Xie's mother suddenly stopped him. He smiled bluntly and said, "Let me wash it, you give me something to do."

The phrase "something to do" stung Xie Qi, he stared blankly at the mother in front of him, then handed out the glove in his hand, and took a step back.He wanted to say something but found that he couldn't say anything, he couldn't even meet his mother's eyes.

He walked back to the bedroom stiffly, and when he passed the dining table, he took the mobile phone that was quietly placed on the table, closed the door, and sat down by the bed alone.

The lights in the room were not turned on, the curtains were drawn, and the dark space was like a claustrophobic hand, which suddenly strangled his throat. He felt breathless, and his whole body was about to suffocate. His eyes were sore and his head was dizzy. eyes, but found that at some point, the transparent liquid had leaked out through the fingers.

He buried his head into his knees, the breath gathering in his throat was like a fire, burning his internal organs violently.He began to cry softly, his voice became intermittent, and he slid from the bed to the floor. At this moment, the emotions he had suppressed for a long time broke out. He hugged his head, and the tears began to flow violently like an overturned cistern. Take it out.

However, the room was still quiet, and the frozen air seemed to have never changed.

Xie Qi stayed in the room for a long time before opening the door and going out to wash his face. The light in the living room had been turned off, and the whole room was still silent. He looked up at the clock on the wall, and it was not yet ten o'clock. It's time for parents to chase dramas.

He went to the bathroom to wash his face, and stood on the balcony of the living room to dry for a while when he came out. The familiar city was still familiar, and the landmarks not far away were still dazzling. Since the age of 17, Xie Qi has lived in this city. The traces are getting weaker and weaker. Except for the short holiday of the Spring Festival every year, he is almost busier than his parents. Every time he comes back, there will always be some new shops in the places he used to like to go, and there are many. He eats I'm used to watching it, but I don't know when it has been closed, and the time to spend with my parents is naturally very limited.

More importantly, Xie Qi has never been caught in such a deep self-doubt for a moment.

He felt more and more clearly that maybe the harm he had brought to his parents was far more than what he could see with the naked eye, and those so-called achievements might not even be able to offset one-tenth of them.

He lowered his head and looked at himself, 23 years in white, still so disorganized.

He recalled many things, among which the one that impressed him the most was that when he was 16 years old, he saw his father kneeling in front of the sofa at the door of his grandfather's bedroom.

It was raining that day, and the gloomy weather was like a family gathering they hadn't laughed for a long time, anxious and shrouded in an indescribable depression.The family quarreled all afternoon, Xie Qi's name was chewed and chewed, and finally when night fell, the curtain fell slightly.

He was brought into the room by his grandfather, while his father and mother stayed outside, the conversation was very quiet, Xie Qi gently opened the door to listen to the wall, but suddenly saw his father kneeling in front of the coffee table.

Xie Qi's father is a traditional scholar. He was educated since he was a child that "a man has gold under his knees", and he has the arrogance of a typical scholar.In addition, he was strict with Xie Qi, and he was often served with a stick when he was a child, so in Xie Qi's heart, his father has always been a superhero-like figure, and the word kneeling itself is a very distant thing. scene that will appear.

Xie Qi was stunned, he was stunned and almost forgot that he came to listen to the corner of the wall, all his eyes fell on his father, on his still generous back even when he was kneeling.

Xie Qi didn't know what they said. He only remembered that when his father came in to call him, his expression was flat, and everything was as usual. He said goodbye to his grandfather, and the family came down from upstairs. Then his father told him that his grandfather agreed.

At that time, Xie Qi didn't have any extra thoughts to outline complicated emotions, he only knew that he was crazy with joy.Excitedly pulling his mother's arm, he hugged his father's shoulders hard, and ran forward while laughing. He didn't even notice that when he was hugging his father, the man staggered obviously.

Later, it was the mother who drove home, and soon after, Xie Qi went to Shanghai.

Although he has recalled this scene many times, but never like this time, he is extremely eager to know what his father said to his grandfather back then, why he knelt down, and how long did he knelt down?

But in fact, the answer has always been in Xie Qi's heart, it's just that he doesn't want to sweep off the dust on it, and he doesn't want to really take it out to see.

Xie Qi felt that it was time for him to wake up, and he couldn't live like this forever in a dream.

The next morning, Xie Qi woke up very early, or he didn't sleep at all. His parents were taken aback when they saw him come out, and turned to look at the clock on the wall. It was only after seven o'clock.

"I woke up so early." My mother greeted him while changing shoes.

Xie Qi nodded, and turned to look at his father. He was putting on his coat, and he was obviously not in a good mood. Like Xie Qi, he probably didn't sleep much all night.

"Have you gone to work? Don't you eat breakfast?" Before changing, Xie Qi couldn't think of asking these things at all.

The mother holding the bag was stunned for a moment, then smiled and said: "I went to work to eat. If you want to eat, Aunt Wang at the gate of the community also sells pancakes, but you can't scan the code. You can take some cash."

"Okay, then take your time on the road."

After Xie Qi finished speaking, Xie's father had already stepped out of the door first, and his mother followed behind. The moment the door closed, Xie Qi felt a little uncomfortable.

He took the cash and went down to buy pancakes. There were two or three people queuing up in front of Aunt Wang's booth. When it was his turn to thank him, Aunt Wang stared at him and shouted uncertainly, "Qi Qi?"

Xie Qi nodded with a smile and said, "Hello, Aunt Wang."

The woman in a turban and a mask burst into laughter. Her eyes, which had been exposed to wind and frost all year round, were full of creases. She wiped her hands twice on the apron before doing it for Xie Qi. Is it? I haven’t seen you for a long time, and now I have to watch it on TV. A few days ago, I saw you playing a game on TV, with our family Chao Chao. He especially admired you and said that there is such a brother That's great, I even asked you to get your autograph to sell in school hahaha. It's amazing, everyone in this area mentions you, and they all envy you. World champion, it's amazing..."

Xie Qi hurriedly said no, and laughed along with the greetings. After a few words, the pancakes were ready.

"No green onions, two sausages." Aunt Wang handed the pancake to Xie Qi, Xie Qi quickly thanked him, he handed over the money, but was pushed back by the other party, "I don't see you once a year, take it and eat it, a few yuan money stuff."

The other party didn’t want to live or die, and there were others in the back, so Xie Qi had to move the place first. In the end, he couldn’t do anything, so he pressed the money under the chicken fillet bag next to the cart, and ran away after speaking: “Aunt Wang, I’ll put it here for you.” Don't forget to put it away."

"Hey, you..."

It wasn't until Xie Qi entered the corridor that the voice behind him could not be heard at all. He remembered the phrase world champion again, thought about it and laughed.

In the next few days, the house was calm and calm. Every day, Xie Qi and his mother came home. Xie Qi had already prepared dinner. Although the taste was not very good, at least it was edible. The whole family gathered together and watched TV for a while Act like nothing happened.

No one mentioned that matter again, probably everyone needs to adapt, need to find the right opportunity and wording, and need time to digest.

The Chinese New Year is coming soon, the school is already on holiday, Xie's father's work has naturally come to an end, but Xie's mother is even busier. Every year when the Spring Festival approaches, there are always abnormally many people in the hospital.

Xie Qi prepared lunch as usual. He set the dishes and chopsticks and adjusted the TV. He was about to go in and call Xie's father, but the man came out on his own initiative. Let's discuss it after work."

Xie Qi put the water by his father's hand. Seeing that the other party was still frowning, he couldn't help but ask, "What's wrong? Is something wrong?"

Now when Xie Qi sees his father's bad expression, he is worried that something strange will happen to him again, and he is worried, but this time it is not. Father Xie drank a few sips of water and looked at the TV where he did not want to go , He said: "There is an outbreak in Wuhan. Your mother called and said that the hospital may send someone to help. Ask me what I mean."

At this moment, Xie Qi recalled in a trance that the Weibo trending search that had been skipped in a hurry was about this matter.

Then throughout the afternoon, Xie Qi searched all the relevant things on Weibo. He was a little restless. When he went to the bathroom, he happened to meet his father who was sitting on the sofa watching TV. He was also watching the same thing. The father and son were the same. You can understand each other with just one look.

It will be New Year's Eve in two days, and the things that were only sporadic on the trending searches before have been suppressed overwhelmingly.

On January 1, Wuhan announced the closure of the city, and the virus began to rage.And the hospital's final support list came down at this time, and Xie's mother was on the list.

Father Xie was very calm when he received the news. He comforted his mother on the phone, saying that this is a very honorable thing, and that’s the meaning of being a doctor. But after hanging up the phone, he stood alone in front of the window for a long time. Talking, until Xie Qi called him behind him, he turned around in a daze, and asked, "Are you going to eat?"

At [-]:[-] in the afternoon, naturally it is not time to eat, Xie Qi looked at him and asked with a nonchalant smile, "Are you hungry?"

Father Xie finally came back to his senses, and shook his head stiffly.

For a moment, Xie Qi felt that he saw the pain on his father's face, just like the day when he learned that he liked boys, that kind of extremely depressed and confused struggling pain.

On New Year's Eve, the supposedly lively home became extremely hectic. Xie's mother came back from the hospital and packed her things in a hurry. She didn't even have time for the New Year's Eve dinner.Xie's father was helping to pack things while stuffing food into the box. He chatted with Xie's mother, but both of them were silent while talking.

Xie Qi stood at the door of the bedroom, finally couldn't stand the atmosphere, turned around and went to the living room.

About since he said that he likes boys, the family has never been really happy, and things have always been so one after another.

Sending his mother to the bus to the airport, Xie Qi stood under the bus. It was very cold. He stared at his mother in the car. For the first time, he had a deep understanding of the word parting. It wasn't that he didn't want her to go, but I still want to see her eyes more.

Xie's mother got into the car neatly, and waved to them through the car window. Xie Qi didn't cry, and they didn't even communicate too much. The two men who were left at home watched the car go all the way, and after countless Go home slowly with laughter.

A table of New Year's Eve dinner did not eat a few mouthfuls, no one had much appetite, and then the two leaned on the sofa to watch the Spring Festival Gala together, Xie's father remained silent as always, even if it was a very funny sketch, he did not laugh out loud, and the sound of fireworks began to sound outside the house , Father Xie looked out along the glass, and suddenly said: "Your mother should be here soon."

Xie Qi glanced at the clock on the wall, then nodded, "Well, soon."

He thought the conversation would end like this again, but then he heard his father say: "I remember one year when you didn't come back for the Spring Festival, your mother stood on the balcony and looked downstairs, saying that maybe you would come back suddenly to surprise her , we waited until a little before twelve o'clock, there was no one downstairs, even the Spring Festival Gala was over, your mother still didn't sleep, wanted to call you but was afraid of disturbing you, and kept talking to me about you, That Spring Festival was very boring, just like now.”

Xie Qi was a little speechless. He recalled the Spring Festival his father had mentioned. It should have been the first year he and Ye Zhunwen were together. Because of him, he stayed in Shanghai alone, just for more Staying alone with the other party for a few days, he said he would spend the New Year with him, but in fact he did not accompany him for the New Year, he went home, and the only thing left was Xie Qi.

Father Xie suddenly smiled, he turned to stare at Xie Qi, and asked, "What kind of man was the boy you liked before? Why did you like him?"

What should come will come after all, and it cannot be avoided.