Immersive sound

"Ah?" Xie Qi stunned and popped out a syllable, and the three of them looked at each other, all of them were speechless.

Xie's father took a few chopsticks to pick up the rice in the bowl, while Xie's mother smiled at Xie Qi in astonishment for a moment, the atmosphere of silence made Xie Qi even more flustered, what did he see?

Afterwards, Father Xie turned around and took Xie Qi's mobile phone from the wall-mounted storage rack behind the dining table, pushed it in front of him and said, "Look for yourself."

Xie Qi's mind had already flashed through the events of this afternoon, and all the pictures and articles he had read were quickly reprinted in his mind. He stretched out his hand and felt that his arm was a little numb.

Xie Qi likes boys, parents know, the last time there was a lot of trouble, even the circle of friends is Xie Qi, almost no one knows, but for so many years, Xie Qi never took the initiative to mention it, and they didn't ask, Occasionally when talking about similar topics, Xie Qi always acted foolishly, and passed away with a smile. This made Xie's father and Xie's mother feel that he was just young and trying something new. Take things seriously.And Xie Qi, who looks grumpy and doesn't know how to adapt, is actually more reliable than anyone else. Since he was a child, Xie Qi hasn't made his family worry too much. He seems to be able to handle everything with ease, even if this Things are really beyond his ability, and he will always have some luck buffs to give him bonuses.

But I don’t know when it started, the direction of the wind seems to have changed, and the parents feel more and more that maybe Xie Qi is serious, telling them with his actions that he really likes boys.

Xie Qi opened the screen carefully, squinted his eyes, and quickly closed the screen again.

The atmosphere was extremely embarrassing, Xie Qi pinched his earlobe, and the base of his ear was slightly warm, which was too embarrassing.He picked up the unfinished mouthful of salted duck in the bowl, dipped it in the soup next to it, and put it into his mouth pretending to be calm.

His parents followed his example and continued to eat quietly. They didn't speak or look at each other, as if they were waiting for each other to speak.

After all, this matter is still Xie Qi's own business, so he should talk about it first.

"You can ask whatever you want." However, he didn't open his mouth to explain. Instead, he threw the topic back to his parents, and the rhythm was still in his own hands.

Father Xie glanced at him, put down his chopsticks and leaned against the back of the chair. He began to look at Xie Qi seriously. He is 23 years old, his head is still messed up like a chicken coop, and his clothes can never be worn properly. The pajamas are also crooked, aren't you afraid of strangling yourself to death in your sleep?Obviously he and Xie's mother are so particular people, why did they give birth to such a son?He moved his gaze to the phone with the black screen, and Xie Qi's gaze also fell on it. It was like a hot potato, and the steaming air stuck together.

It was too difficult to speak. Xie father, a university professor, couldn't find a suitable description for a while.

At the critical moment, Xie's mother came to the rescue and dragged the two out of the embarrassing atmosphere.

"Actually, it's not a big deal. I just want to ask you what you plan to do in the future, such as work and love." Xie's mother is always gentle. He and Xie's father complement each other, one red and one white, forming a very harmonious family.

The question is already obvious, and if you don't answer it, it will be pretentious, but Xie Qi actually doesn't like to discuss such topics, these invisible, intangible, and illusory future things.

He took a sip of the soup, thought for a while and said, "The job should still be at SNK, and I can still play for two years. After all, I just got good grades, and my salary will go up. The benefits of the current club are also good, so I don't plan to vacate space. At this point he stopped, paused for a while before continuing, "I have no plans for love, there is no love," he laughed, "I have no plans."

Of course, this is not the answer that Xie's father and mother wanted. They rarely intervene in Xie Qi's work, except when they first entered the e-sports industry, they talked and analyzed the pros and cons once all night. He left on his own, because he chose it at the beginning.What they really want to know are those things that Xie Qi has been avoiding, as well as those loves.

"Haven't you been in love? All these years." Father Xie finally said it without concealment, his tone was ordinary, as if it was just a common question, and Mother Xie beside him didn't expect him to be so direct, and reached out to catch up with him Her arm, but Father Xie patted her hand to reassure her.

Xie Qi picked up the chopsticks again, the dishes on the table were almost cold, he picked a coriander that he didn't like the most, put it in his mouth, chewed while staring at the bowl and said: "Yes, but we broke up a long time ago .”

He struggled for a long time, and finally chose to tell his parents frankly.

Xie's father had expected such an answer a long time ago. Seeing that Xie Qi's expression was wrong, Xie's mother pressed Xie's father's arm to signal not to ask. This time, Xie's father did not move, but stared at Xie Qi's lowered head, saying: : "When did it happen?"

Xie Qi blinked his eyes twice, and said calmly: "It was two years ago, I forgot."

When he said this, his body moved and he was obviously uncomfortable. Father Xie began to think back. Two years ago, it was because Xie Qi called back in the middle of the night and said that he was going to transfer. While watching?

Father Xie remembered it very clearly. It was very late that day. Xie Qi, who seldom called him, suddenly called and said that he was going to transfer. The contract was a little unclear, and he had already sent it to WeChat. Let me take a look. At that time, Xie Qi's tone was very low. Father Xie asked him what was wrong, and he said it was fine. When he asked him why he transferred, the other party said impatiently, "Dad, don't ask, it's okay."

In my impression, it was rare for Xie Qi to speak to him in that tone, so he remembered it very clearly.

"So you transferred because of the breakup?"

Xie Qi raised his head in a daze, he didn't expect Xie's father to think of such a long time ago, he couldn't think of how to answer for a moment, he just looked at him stupidly.

Father Xie thought he should already have the answer.

"Is it your teammate?" Father Xie asked.

"No." Xie Qi replied subconsciously, but as soon as the answer came out, he suddenly woke up, something bad happened, this time it was completely wrong.

Father Xie's eyes slowly changed. If he was looking at Xie Qi with some consideration and care before, now it is a kind of dissatisfaction and disappointment after the dust has settled. Xie Qi has clearly told the other party what is wrong. , I like boys.When a normal person is asked such a question, they should at least be astonished and astonished, and then reply with "how come", instead of telling the other party "no". .

Mother Xie also came to her senses, she looked at Xie Qi in astonishment, her face full of disbelief.

Xie Qi put down his chopsticks, thinking that today's beating should be inevitable.

Xie Qi's family is a relatively traditional family. His father's family is very large. From his grandfather to the generation above, they are basically intellectuals. Until Xie Qi's father, this line has never been broken.Some people say that the more you have seen the bigger world, the more open your vision and feelings will be, and the more tolerant you will be. This is true, but it is not comprehensive enough, because the more people you see, the more principles and bottom lines you have to stick to. The longer the family and glory go, the less flaws it will tolerate.Just like back then, when Xie Qi was going to play e-sports with all his heart, there was no other voice at home except opposition.

Xie Qi's academic performance is very good. From the first day of school to the last day of leaving school, he has always been worthy of his father's title of university professor. If he continues to study, Xie Qi will not be inferior to his father, and maybe even rely on With his father's resources and contacts go higher and further.

However, all of these were interrupted very suddenly, and all people living in this big dream had to wake up early and accept this change unprepared.

Xie Qi is the only grandson of the Xie family. Xie’s father, an older brother and a younger brother, all gave birth to daughters. Everyone has high hopes for Xie Qi, hoping that he can go further and longer on the academic road. He also has such capital. It's a pity that Xie Qi chose an irrelevant direction, and he was very persistent.

Needless to say, the twists and turns, taking turns to talk, repeatedly consulted, even the parents were overwhelmed, and even the Spring Festival that year, Xie Qi's family did not go back to celebrate the New Year. It faded away, and no one was going to criticize Xie Qi anymore, but comforted each other, and the children had their own lives.

This is already the biggest concession that Xie Qi can think of, so he has always avoided talking about his sexual orientation. First, he has not thought it through himself, and second, he no longer knows how to face such a situation again.If he did it again, he wasn't sure if he still had the courage he had back then.

Even many times, Xie Qi can clearly feel that, without those things that he used to cling to when he was seventeen or eighteen years old, for him now, he hopes to live in peace so much, so he doesn't I am willing to think about the future, and I don’t want to plan those illusory things. When the time comes, it will come. Why think about them.

But today, these things that have been kept silent are finally unavoidable, and he must tell the other party clearly.

"Tell me, what is the specific situation." Father Xie gave an ambiguous sentence, but Xie Qi understood it.

He was silent for a while, trying to make this matter as easy as possible, and in Xie Qi's subconscious mind, maybe he would find another girl to marry in the future, it was too hasty to make a conclusion so early.

"The previous love partner was indeed a boy. At the beginning, it was not because I liked boys, but we got together by accident. Later, we broke up because of some things. Now I am single and I am not ready to fall in love." Xie Qiyong tried his best In concise words, he described his relationship for several years cleanly. He avoided all the key information and just told his parents that he did like boys, but it was not because he liked boys in the first place.

Xie's father and Xie's mother didn't speak for a long time. The previous bar incident was already shocking enough. I didn't expect that there would be even more serious ones ahead.

Father Xie recalled that not long ago he told his students in class that although the current Chinese law has not clearly improved the issue of sexual orientation, every choice deserves to be respected, and there will be a brighter day.

He received a lot of applause for this, but when things really happened to him, he was far less indifferent than he imagined. He couldn't even imagine what it would be like for his child to be with another boy. How to get along, how to kiss, and how to accomplish those intimate things.

Father Xie thinks that he has learned enough for more than [-] years, but when he really touched these things, he realized what it feels like to have a blank mind.

"I'm sorry to disappoint you again." Xie Qi, who was sitting across from him, spoke again. He lowered his head and apologized to his parents opposite him in a tone that could almost be called begging.

Then he pulled out the chair and got up, without any warning, he knelt down in front of the dining table.

Xie's mother stood up, only Xie's father beside him remained motionless, staring at Xie Qi in a daze.