Chucheng

During the meal, I learned about their respective situations in the past ten years.Xu Yanbing has not been in touch with other classmates since she graduated from junior high school, so everyone knows very little about her. When she found out that she came to Shenzhen in [-], Chen Jie said in surprise: "I didn't expect us to be so young in a city. It’s been a long time, I just found out today!” Xu Yanbing was also surprised from ear to ear when she heard that Wei Guo and Lin Yongsheng were also in Shenzhen.

Chen Jie took the time to call Lin Yongsheng. He said that he happened to have a client to entertain and couldn't make it.Wei Guo's phone was turned off, and Chen Jie said angrily that he would go to his dormitory at night to arrest him and make amends.

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Xu Yanbing, Lin Yi, and Chen Jie chatted until the sun went down, but they still had more to say.Lin Yi liked the appearance of Little Moon, and couldn't bear to be separated, and insisted on going with Xu Yanbing to the beauty salon where they lived, to make up for the regret of not seeing each other for so many years; Chen Jie, however, was very worried about the shutdown of Weiguo's phone, and said that he must go to the sand In his home, let's see what this Weiguo is doing.So the four soldiers divided into two groups, each going to take a bus.

On the bus from Shekou to Xiangmi Lake, Xu Yanbing looked at Chen Jie who was waving on the platform outside the window, and said to Lin Yi: "Miss Lin, Chen Jie treats you really well, you are really an enviable couple!"

"What are you envious of? You don't know how he pissed me off a few years ago. Our little moon is the most enviable." She sat on her lap with her arms around the little moon, and the little moon's face was flushed. , pursing his lips and smiling lightly.

"Then why didn't you get married earlier? You are all 27 or [-] this year, right?"

"We have just arrived in Shenzhen, and Chen Jie has only been working for two years, and he is not stable. He said that it is too early to get married." Lin Yi said, "Chen Jie said that he wants to accumulate for another two years, and then get married when his career is getting better. Yes Now, were you embarrassed to say just now, where is Little Moon's father?"

Xu Yanbing's eyes dimmed: "We have not been together for a long time."

"You guys, are you divorced?" Lin Yi asked a little worried.

"Not yet, her father disagrees..." Xu Yanbing was very happy to see her old classmate today, but when she talked about this topic, tears welled up in her eyes, and she quickly turned her gaze out of the window.

Lin Yi nervously looked at Xu Yanbing's back. Her slightly permed hair was spread on her back like a waterfall, hanging down to her waist. Lin Yi stroked Xu Yanbing's back lightly, not daring to ask any more questions.

Xu Yanbing was thinking like a tide, and the call of "Guo Wei" brought her thoughts back to ten years ago. That period of sweet and bitter days had been sealed in her heart for ten years.

"I'm sorry, Xiaoyi. You just said Wei Guo. Is he married now? Where's Lin Yongsheng?" After a while, Xu Yanbing controlled her emotions and turned her head to face Lin Yi with a forced smile.

The little moon in Lin Yi's arms was already drowsy, and Lin Yi said softly to Xu Yanbing: "Wei Guo is now the vice president of a trading company, let alone married, and he doesn't even have a girlfriend. Lin Yongsheng is not married either, he just got married two years ago. He came to Shenzhen, but he should be coming soon. Lin Yongsheng was working in Chen Jie’s company when he first came, but he moved to Weiguo’s company not long ago, also doing sales work.”

Xu Yanbing recalled the faces of the students in her mind, and fell into deep thought.She originally thought that she could escape all the people and the past when she came to this distant southern country, but now, she has escaped nothing.She also had the same enviable love as Lin Yi before, but her relationship withered before it blossomed.

The three returned to the beauty salon named "Celebrity Palace". It was already past eight o'clock in the evening, and the little moon had already fallen asleep on Lin Yi's shoulder. Also getting ready to leave work one after another.Xu Yanbing and Lin Yi gently hugged Little Moon, greeted their colleagues, and brought Lin Yi to the bedroom on the fourth floor.

The fourth floor is basically undecorated. It used to be the warehouse of the beauty salon. Because the female boss took care of Xu Yanbing, she vacated a room for Xu Yanbing's mother and daughter.In stark contrast to the luxurious decoration on the first to third floors, the fourth floor is the top floor of this street-facing shop, which can only be regarded as an attic, without a balcony, and even the windows are only half the size. Lin Yi looked at Guangtu four The room on the other side, said sadly: "Yan'er, you have suffered."

Xu Yanbing took the child from Lin Yi's arms, put it gently on the bed, and said, "It's okay for me to suffer, as long as little moon can grow up healthily, I will be satisfied." Little moon lay quietly on the bed, perfectly His appearance was very similar to that of Xu Yanbing when he was young.

Xu Yanbing asked Lin Yi to sit down on the edge of the bed, pulled out a box from under the bed, and took out a bundle of envelopes. She took out a letter from inside and handed it to Lin Yi: "Xiaoyi, take a look at this."

Lin Yi saw that her face was flushed and solemn, and knew the importance of this letter. She solemnly took the letter with both hands. The four red letters of Fuzhou University were printed on the cover.Pulled out a piece of old and yellowed manuscript paper from the envelope, and saw the neat handwriting on it:

Dear Yaner:

Please allow me to call you so abruptly once, I know, this is the first and last time I will call you that.

I can't know how happy you are today. Every time you always tell me that you will be very happy when you receive my letter, you must be very happy when you get this letter this time, right? —I hate myself for bringing you the news at this hour: I can't be with you!

It never occurred to me that I would use such means to push you out of my life, although I knew that such a day would come sooner or later.Yes, I haven't forgotten our vow three years ago. I also said that I would take you away from that small village, but now I can't do it.Before I came to Fuzhou, how much I hoped that this day would come sooner, and I would take you to the seaside of Fuzhou to run to your heart's content; but since I entered Fuzhou University, I selfishly hoped that this day would come later.I have been selfishly hiding it for so long, and I am afraid that its appearance will unscrupulously disrupt your and my life, and I am afraid that you will disappear from my life.I was not reconciled, and after three years of hard work, I only brewed such a glass of bitter wine. What made me even more disgusted was that in the past year, I added various kinds of alcohol to this glass of wine little by little. I have come to deceive you, to deceive you, to deceive your pure feelings that you should not deceive. Only now do I know that I am such a selfish person, so selfish is terribly selfish!

I wanted to ask your forgiveness, but I shouldn't ask your forgiveness, because it was an unreasonable request.

Four years may be a long time in your past, but compared to your future, it is very short... I don't know how you will cry after reading my letter—— What I promised you before, including the meeting in the next century and the vow of never disappearing from the other person's life, now seem to be nothing more than glorious soap bubbles, no matter how carefully I guarded you in the past. Don't let it shatter, but it finally shattered - just like paper can't wrap fire - these are realities that we can't deny!

Reality is like a hideous mask. You see how hateful I am. I say to make you happy, but it brings you the greatest unhappiness. Brought to it, I, I hate myself!

I used to have such delusions, one day I can bring you in front of my mother, I think how happy she would be if she knew that your surname is also Xu!

But there is no way for such a dream to come true. I cannot be so selfish that I loathe myself. I want to disappear from your life voluntarily, without any falsehood, and sincerely. I can’t look back. I can’t put You also bring into that valley that I am going to.

Hate me, blame me, I am not the prince in your dream who leans on a horse and plays the flute.

The letter consisted of only one page and was not signed.

Lin Yi took the letter and said, "Is this written to you by Wei Guo?" When she was in junior high school, she could vaguely feel the unusual relationship between Xu Yanbing and Wei Guo. Because the letter came from Fuzhou University, she made a guess.

Xu Yanbing nodded.

"Is there only one page? This letter is not finished. I don't see any reason for him to leave you?" Lin Yi asked.

Xu Yanbing shook her head: "You don't know, before this letter, I wrote him a letter saying that there is a person in our village who is pursuing me, and I want him to help me find a way to refuse; or he met I'm a better person than me, that's why I never mentioned the promise to take me to Fuzhou."

"No, no!" Lin Yi said decisively, "As far as I know, Wei Guo is not such a person. Did you open this letter yourself?"

"Yes..." Xu Yanbing painfully recalled the situation that day, because on that day, Yang Xiaolong came to her home with a letter, and when she was in pain after reading the letter, he took the opportunity to possess her, making her lose her love forever. She had no chance to tell him the reason why Weiguo continued, the person who pursued her should be Yang Xiaolong, the son of the village party secretary mentioned in her letter.After that day, under the arrangement of her stepmother, she had no choice but to marry Yang Xiaolong, and began a life full of pain in her husband's family.Later, she gave birth to Little Moon, and vaguely knew from the mouths of the villagers that marrying her to Yang Xiaolong's family was an agreement made by her stepmother after she received Yang Xiaolong's 5 yuan. She knows that even if these rumors are true, what can she do, she can no longer go back to the past, and can no longer be with her beloved