above the tower

I've been a little depressed lately.

I still haven't read the diary.

Peeking at other people's diaries and prying into their hearts like this is ultimately something that shouldn't be done.

Being a man of integrity, I resisted the temptation for now.

——just temporarily...

With such a picky word, I have strong doubts about my character as an outstanding graduate of the Advanced Magic Academy...

The reason for my depression is also very simple. After reading several diaries of Soleil, I found a very serious problem, so serious that I couldn't help but want to spit on myself.

Suo Lei, in fact, has never felt safe!He has been living carefully, afraid that I will drive him down from the tower!

As a good husband who always thought he was doing his best, I never gave my future partner a sense of security. I feel like a failure!

And I still don't know how I should make up for my dereliction of duty and failure.

Just had dinner and it hurts me to see Soleil smile as brightly as ever - Solely smiles like that and never shows a ray of negativity in front of me, so, as a husband, I never Thinking about sharing something for your partner...

"Field?" A slender, white hand reached out to my forehead, "You've been a little listless lately? What's the matter? Is there any problem with your alchemy research?"

But my partner has been paying close attention to everything about me, showing the most sincere care at any time...

——Comparing the hatchback like this, I feel more and more that I have really failed!

Seeing Suo Lai's bright smile in front of me, and thinking of the distress and worries in his diary, I held the hand on my forehead and asked in a low voice: "Solei, what do you think of me?"

"Huh?" So Lai said with strength, sat next to me, thought for a moment, and replied with a smile, "Field, is a very powerful magician, with a good appearance, good etiquette, profound knowledge, and likes alchemy research... In my opinion, Field is a perfect person!"

I was a little unhappy to hear this answer.

It's all flattery, so Solei still can't feel safe with me?He is still unwilling to speak his mind in front of me?Is he afraid that I will get angry and drive him away?

"Do you think, am I a competent husband?" I asked him bluntly.

The held fingers twitched slightly, and Suo Lai nodded: "Of course you are a competent husband! We have lived for so long, why do you ask so suddenly? Is there something I didn't do well?"

No, it's because I didn't do a good job, that's why you feel so insecure...that's why you habitually find fault with yourself...that's why you blame yourself for everything...

I shook my head: "You are doing very well. I am very happy to have you as a perfect partner! It's just..." Suo Lai kept looking at me nervously, "I sometimes feel that I am not very competent. I have been studying alchemy, Leaving you alone on a high tower, making you lonely... making you wear a dress and have long hair against your will... and not pleasing you... Am I not a very bad husband?"

"..."

"..."

"So..." As if I had opened my mind, Suo Lai seldom thought about it for a while, "Field, you are really not particularly competent!"

"..." The point of view was recognized, and I was not happy at all.

"Then how about it!" Solei patted the hand I was holding with his other hand, "As punishment for Field, can you compensate me for something?"

"Compensation?" I looked at him suspiciously, not knowing what it meant.

"Well! It's compensation! You used to give me an alchemy mechanical dog as a pet, but now you don't give it away...or other things, as long as your compensation satisfies me, I will forgive you!" Suo Lai formulated made a deal.

But this deal is too bad!

I mean, from Sole's standpoint, it's such a bad deal.

——Just like the business I did with his father back then.

Need to meet his compensation... Suo Lai's words revealed the basic option - the alchemy mechanical dog.

It was a gift from me when he was 14 years old.A petite and cute mechanical dog with blond hair, it will circle around the owner's legs, and it will whine and act like a baby. In short, it is the kind of pet dog that the noble ladies in the royal city will like.

I want this dog to help Solei relieve his loneliness, but Solei is probably too obsessed with playing, and one day he wants to help the mechanical dog take a bath-although this alchemy product is waterproof, it is still broken, and water stains seep into it. If the core is lost, the cost of repair is higher than the cost of rebuilding.

Later, I also thought about giving him other mechanical pets, but because the alchemy research had just entered a critical period, so I was busy, and finally forgot...

So, if I spend a morning making another alchemy pet for Solei, can it offset my incompetence?

It's strange, that's not how it works!

Can this really satisfy Soleil?

Or, can I come up with better things to make Suo Lei happy?

I, who is useless except for alchemy, what else can I come up with?

What Suo Lai wants to get, what he wants to have, what I can also give...

I sat up straight, clenched my hands, pursed my lips, and said to my partner, "Sole, let me tell you why I am called a black wizard and wanted by the kingdom!"

Zhanlan's eyes widened incredulously: "You, are you willing to tell me? Aren't you, don't you want to think about it?"

"Well... Actually, there is nothing to hide...Of course I can tell you!"

He showed his usual gentle smile again: "I really want this kind of compensation! If you are willing to tell me, Field, I'm all ears!"

He is indeed a gentle and considerate competent companion...

As for my past, there is really nothing to hide, but, for those inexplicable crimes and the inexplicable people who ruined my good reputation, I have always had an evasive mentality—— In this respect, I am quite gifted - I don't want to think about it, and I don't want to face it.

However, now that I have decided to tell Solei, I feel very calm and say everything I remember very smoothly:

The princess pestered me for two years because of the so-called "love at first sight, love at second sight".

She is of orthodox royal blood, with a noble status, and has been engaged to a prince from another kingdom since she was a child, but at that time, she didn't remember her duty at all. A lot of embarrassing things happened.

I can't reject her categorically, because of the so-called 'gentleman's demeanor', and because a student of a magic school can't let a royal princess lose face; I can't accept her, I don't have any affection for her-after all, she was It messed up my peaceful life, and the difference in identity between me and her and the engagement with the princess made me unable to accept her...

For two years the princess and I had this troublesome entanglement.

In the past two years, I have been looking forward to the day when the prince of another kingdom will come forward to take the princess away. I am looking forward to her wedding day and my free day.

But the princess is a pampered woman. She is unwilling to marry someone she doesn't love, so much so that she threatens her life to destroy her marriage contract.

So her wedding day is gone, and my free day has become a dream.

The princess stayed in the country like this, with a very embarrassing status.

She almost caused political disputes and wars between the two countries, and pointed at me, a poor and boring magician, and said "he will not marry", she has disgraced the nobles and the royal family.

No nobleman is willing to propose marriage to the royal family, and the king has long made an oath "never marry his daughter to a magician of low status today".

Therefore, the existence of the princess has become a laughing stock of the royal family and a stain on the kingdom.

The king was anxious to send the princess away. He was so flustered that he came up with a very ridiculous idea-he asked me to go to the high mountain to find the dragon's lair, persuade the dragon inside, and take the princess away.

Regardless of the idea, I accepted the task and completed it perfectly.

And the princess's elder brother, the prince who persuaded me to "play a gentleman and not make a woman sad", knew nothing about this, but was very dissatisfied.

He didn't want his sister to suffer on the mountain, and he couldn't find a brave enough hero to save the princess, so, like his father, he also came to me...

"He also promised that if I rescued the princess intact, then he would convince his father to give me a title and the princess as a companion..."

"Did you agree?" Solei squeezed my hand tightly.

I looked at him in surprise: "How is it possible? If I agree, I am now a nobleman in the kingdom and have a princess as my partner. How could I stay in this remote place and meet you?" ?”

"...Isn't it good to meet me?"

I shook my head: "It's good to meet you! In my opinion, you are much better than a princess!"

You have been a competent partner, more perfect than I imagined!

"In short," I concluded, "I gave up enduring these inexplicable royal families, so I wounded the prince and escaped from the royal city. In the end, I was wanted by the kingdom and became a famous dark wizard. This is my past."

"Your past... is that all?" Solei looked at me longingly.

It was really unexpected. Could it be that my past can no longer satisfy him?It is clearly written in the diary that he wanted to know about my past... Could it be that I remembered it wrong?Or is it that the him when he was writing the diary and the him now are no longer in the same mood when dealing with my past because of the long time gap?

I frowned: "It's not the only ones, it's just others... Either alchemy, or some boring details... Do you want to know anything else?"

"I still want to know," Suo Lai looked at me straight, "Is there anyone you liked in the past, is there anyone who liked you, your parents, your teacher, your classmates... I want them all." Know……"

Is this the original content?

I frowned: "I used to be obsessed with alchemy, and I didn't have anyone I liked; I don't know if there are other people who like me, except the princess; I was born in an orphanage, and my parents can't do anything about it; My teacher is a very fair and kind old man, but as he grows older, his alchemy ability has gradually dried up. Compared with alchemy, it is better to say that he has a greater influence on the shaping of my moral character; as for my classmates ..." I shook my head frankly, "It's been so many years, I can't remember clearly."

"That's it!" Suo Lai stood up, walked to me nimbly, and nimbly got into my arms, as cunning and agile as a cat.He's only 15 years old, and my arms feel like they were tailor-made for him, they fit perfectly.He nestled between my hands, playing with my fingers: "I'm so happy! Field!"

"...?" I wanted to express doubts with my eyes, but I thought that the person in my arms might not be able to see my eyes, so I could only inquire, "Why... are you happy?"

"Because of mental cleanliness!" Under his fiddling, he crossed my fingers, "Because you were the first person I fell in love with, and also the person I love the most. Now I know that before you met me, you also I have never loved anyone else... I feel very satisfied!"

Mental cleanliness?In fact, I am more familiar with the kind of physical cleanliness...

It is said that black wizards only love virgins!

I blinked: "So, are you satisfied with my compensation?"

"Satisfied. And, very satisfied!"

Solei leaned in my arms, kept his fingers crossed, and turned his head to the setting sun outside the window: "So, let me also express some of my innermost feelings, so that Field can be satisfied!"

"...?"

"I am alone on the tower, and I never feel lonely, because, as long as I think of you under the tower, I feel that my heart is full, and I don't need other things to fill it! Wear a skirt , long hair, I don't really mind, and, you like the way I wear skirts and long hair shawls! I know, when I dress up like this, your eyes are shining when you look at me! So, I would like to wear a dress and grow long hair for you! As for pleasing me...it's not something you need to worry about..."

He turned to face me, but I stopped him.

How can I let my partner see how I blush?My face is so hot now, I must not be seen by him!

Suo Lai didn't force it either, and still faced the setting sun.The red light coming in from the window sprinkled on his skirt, and the tiny dust in the light danced slowly, and the time was quiet at this time.

He said softly in my arms: "Your existence is enough to make me happy for a lifetime!"

"..."

Really can't turn him back!

Because of this thought, I sat quietly holding him for a long time.

The author has something to say: This chapter is really fat!

In fact, the character of the wizard is still very cute!