Youth Homecoming
Chapter 1 Evening self-study is always led to lectures, the counselor said, credits will be deducted
With Lin Mo in his arms, he dared not take the bus anymore, so he took a taxi directly to the hospital for an investigation. The surgical neck of the humerus was fractured. It was actually a fracture after being so mysterious. After a hundred days of injury, Lin Mo was basically a disabled person. , Chen Tong is ready to piss the shit.
Li Hua went to the hospital with Chen Tong, and Lin Mo asked him, "What are you going to do?"
Li Hua shrugged: "Nothing to do, just apply for dormitory transfer."
Chen Tong stayed with Lin Mo to get the medicine, and the others went back first when they saw that there was nothing to do. Before leaving, Li Hua thanked Lin Mo. Lin Mo waved his hand and said it was all right. Li Hua glanced at Chen Tong. A glance is worth a thousand words, but after seeing Chen Tong squatting in front of Lin Mo, he kept asking him nervously if it hurts?Does it hurt?After that, I swallowed everything, and even a thank you became superfluous.
Lin Mo looked at Li Hua who was going away, and then at Chen Tong who was squatting in front of him. He saw that Chen Tong was sad, and lowered his head slightly, not looking directly into Lin Mo's eyes. Mischievous, after being caught making trouble, he was honestly beaten up and passed away. When he met someone who thought he was right, he would not bow his head even to death. If there was something he thought was wrong, he would admit what he did and stand at attention when he was beaten the kind of person.
When he was in elementary school, Chen Tong soaked his class homework in water. When the teacher found out, he ran fast. Lin Mo, an innocent person, did not run away. He was taken away by the teacher before he knew what happened. Later, Chen Tong found out that Lin Mo Mo fell, and when he went back to the office to find someone, Lin Mo had already been slapped by the teacher, and was being punished by the teacher to stand in the office. Chen Tong covered his hands, tears kept falling, and asked him: "Why don't you follow?" The teacher said I did it."
Lin Mo didn't know what he was doing at all, but seeing how angry the teacher was, he knew that this matter was no small matter. A mischievous student like Chen Tong would be punished severely if he did something bad. Lin Mo only had one thought in his heart: absolutely not Let Chen Tong be caught.
Lin Mo seldom sees Chen Tong cry. Even if Chen Tong is beaten by his father and mother Chen, he can still face it with a smile. Children have a common problem. A boy as dull as Lin Mo will cry when he sees Chen Tong cry. While crying, she asked, "Tongtong, why are you crying?"
Chen Tong covered his hand and asked him: "Momo, does your hand hurt?"
The question aroused all the pain in the hand that he had forgotten at first, and he cried loudly: "It hurts so much!!"
When the teacher came back, he was frightened into a cold sweat, and I swear to God, he just whipped a few times, and he was fine just now, why did he cry so hysterically after leaving for a while.And this bastard Chen Tong!It's okay for Lin Mo to cry, but he was unwilling to let others cry, he cried even louder, lying on the ground hysterically, rolling over like a slapstick, the teacher hugged him helplessly: "It's none of your business, you just cry like this, people think I'm abusing you Woolen cloth."
Chen Tong cried so hard that he couldn't speak in convulsions, pointing at Lin Mo, then pointing at the teacher.
The teacher hugged him and patted him on the back. If he continued to cry, he should be dehydrated: "Okay, okay, I won't call you a parent anymore. Fortunately, I just wrote my homework once. Let's ask everyone to rewrite it tomorrow."
He went out with two children in both hands, and met Papa Lin who came to pick up the children at the door. Papa Lin hadn't run away from home at that time, and he was a good father who loved the children.
The teacher told Father Lin helplessly what happened. Father Lin rarely saw two children crying. It was the first time he saw two children crying, and he found it novel. He said to the teacher: "Children still have to be taught, we Lin Mo don't Sensible, to trouble you."
The teacher said that nothing will happen if you cry like this, but Dad Lin said it's okay, go do your work.
Although the teacher was worried, he went back, shook his head and sighed: This is not crying, this is howling wolves!
Papa Lin held one in each hand, and even though he received the attention of passers-by along the way, he still shook those two little hands in joy. The child cried, what are you afraid of, Papa Lin can handle it, each person has a bottle of Coke, and there is no sound at all.
☆, step by step and move away
The two were sitting on a chair in the hospital corridor. Lin Mo grabbed Chen Tong's hair with his uninjured hand. Chen Tong grabbed his hand and said, "I didn't want you to get hurt."
Lin Mo asked him to hold his hand and rolled his eyes in his heart. Isn't this nonsense: "Yeah." Rubbing his ears, he said to him: "Chen Tong, Li Hua's situation is quite special, you have to take care of it Proper, the way of expression should be properly controlled, if you don’t intend to develop emotions, don’t let people misunderstand, it’s unfair to others.”
Chen Tong said in shock: "I didn't think about that!"
Lin Mo said: "I know you don't, so I need to pay more attention!" I only remind you when I know you are heartless!
Chen Tong said dejectedly: "Lin Mo, do you feel uncomfortable?"
Lin Mo asked, "What's uncomfortable?"
Chen Tong said: "It is possible for me to develop a relationship with someone, will you be jealous? Will you be jealous?"
Lin Mo looked at him expectantly, and slightly raised the corner of his mouth: "No."
Hearing Lin Mo's answer, Chen Tong felt as if he had been thumped in all kinds of ways, and he was a little unconvinced, feeling suffocated and uncomfortable.
Lin Mo went on to say, "Anyway, you won't like them."
Chen Tong's eyes lit up instantly, glowing as if he was encouraged, with a rascal look on his face: "Yes, I will, if you don't think about me, I will leave with others."
Lin Mo said: "Let's go, there must be one who goes first."
Chen Tong's original joy became empty again, he took away Lin Mo's hand that was still holding his ear, and said to him: "Lin Mo, didn't you say that you don't plan to develop a relationship and don't give people hope? It's not good for people. fair."
Lin Mo felt bitter in his heart: "That's all for others to hear, how can you really do what you say if you put it on yourself."
Chen Tong said: "Lin Mo, I have always told you that I know you better than anyone else. You have never denied or admitted that we have known each other for so many years. I said that I know you better than you. Do you believe me? ?"
Lin Mo shook his head.
Chen Tong said: "I know you like me, I know why you haven't had a girlfriend, you have been waiting, you know how much I like you, a person like you who has a mental cleanliness, as long as I don't have a girlfriend for a day If you have a girlfriend, you feel that if you don't have a girlfriend for a day, you are waiting for me to stand it and talk first, and then you can use this as an excuse, and you can feel at ease that your rejection for so long is right, 'Look , You betrayed our feelings, you can't blame me'! You have to leave even the guilt to me."
Lin Mo was scratched by his bloody analysis and calmed down, yes!He is not as indifferent as he appears on the surface, he is waiting every day, and he is afraid again!On the one hand, he hopes that Chen Tong will be in love quickly, but on the other hand, he is afraid that this day will come. He has indeed made up his mind that as long as Chen Tong does not fall in love, he will not. It doesn't matter if they are together for the rest of their lives!
As long as Chen Tong is willing, there is nothing wrong with their life like this, they can be together without hurting their parents.It's not that he hasn't thought about what to do when his parents urge him to marry him. He will use the excuse of not finding a suitable one, and he can use delaying tactics in everything, as long as Chen Tong is still there.
Chen Tong laughed angrily. He was sitting next to Lin Mo. When he turned to look at Lin Mo, Lin Mo's face was full of panic and anticipation. It was ridiculous. Lin Mo actually thought it was possible. In an instant, they were so far away, and when he came back to his senses, his hand had already touched Lin Mo's face: "Lin Mo, what I want is much more than that, I like you, I love you, and I want to be together, as a lover Status, doing what a lover would do, dating, kissing, and more."
So sometimes Lin Mo is really naive and annoying. He was stunned by Chen Tong's refusal, which made him at a loss. This is not like his Chen Tong, who would not reject him so bluntly.
No, his Chen Tong disappeared after New Year's Eve. Lin Mo has been walking slower than Chen Tong in this relationship. Before that, Chen Tong was always behind him, not chasing him, but more like an escort , but since Chen Tong disappeared quietly for three days, the Chen Tong who came back has changed. He doesn't know when he started to walk out from behind Lin Mo, passed Lin Mo, and hurried forward alone. Lin Mo was already catching up. Not on him.
Lin Mo rubbed the index finger and thumb of his left hand unconsciously. Once he didn't know what to do, he would do this habitual action: "Tongtong, I seem to be unable to catch up with you."
Chen Tong said: "Lin Mo, they all misunderstood you. Your silence makes you seem very mature, but you are not. You are more immature than anyone else. You live in your own world and don't know what the outside world is like. Yes. Even now, I still don’t want the world to stain you, but emotionally, we’re both so naive, I’m starting to struggle, I don’t know what to do with our relationship, sometimes I feel so bad You can't breathe, not because you can't like me, but because you can't breathe when you think about the day we have to be apart, can you?"
Chen Tong held his face and pressed him step by step. Lin Mo felt that Chen Tong was different today. He was full of aggressiveness. Lin Mo felt that he seemed to eat himself, but such a strong Chen Tong made Lin Mo think that he It's sad now, Chen Tong didn't cry, but Lin Mo felt that there was a rain in his heart, which only fell on his own head. This rain couldn't reach others, and he kept falling.Chen Tong sees him so thoroughly, Lin Mo knows his selfishness, and everything is based on Chen Tong's liking.
Lin Mo's daze made Chen Tong smile: "You don't seem to be able to, you have never tried to think about our possibility, you have already sentenced me to death."
The doctor called their numbers on the radio, Chen Tong held down Lin Mo, and went to get the medicine by himself.
As he walked further and further away, Lin Mo felt as if he had made up his mind. He wanted to walk alone, far away. Lin Mo didn't know whether Chen Tong would come back to pick him up. He even had a feeling that Chen Tong's head I can't go back.
Lin Mo: "Chen Tong, are we drifting away?"
Chen Tong: "No, we are dying."
☆、Strangeness and substitution
Li Hua changed the dormitory, and the counselor knew about their fight that day, but seeing that neither side had any intention of making a scene, they turned a blind eye and passed by. Everyone was invited to have a cup of tea and talk We chatted wildly, hinting and expressing, even derogatory: You are not young people aged 18 or 9, and Chinese New Year is coming soon. Once this year is over, you will all be 21 or 2, and your cerebellum will be basically developed. Self-control Strength should already be formed, only brain damage can't control yourself, you don't look like it, you need to perfect yourself!
Chen Qiming and a few roommates were also called, and they chatted for a long time. The current university teachers have seen the world, and they don't have many friends who like the same sex.I earnestly persuade those who are still very unacceptable to homosexuality: You country bumpkins who have never seen the world, have you heard a word, I don’t agree with a single word you say, but I will defend your right to speak to the death!Where have you read the books for so many years? If you don’t like or agree with it, it doesn’t mean you have the right to speak ill. You think it’s still primary and secondary school.Y'all come here!
When people stepped forward in fear and thought she was going to do something, she said: "Everyone back down." Didn't a big word 'wipe' flash in everyone's mind!
When they were about to retreat to the door, they were called back again: "Come back?"
A group of people looked blank: "??"
"Now the application for dormitory exchange has been submitted. No matter what, sexual orientation is someone's privacy. Whether you want to talk about it or how you want to make it public is their business. Don't spread it everywhere, you know, go down." This is the justice of a weak woman, The world needs more powerful people like this to stand up to uphold justice and speak for the weak.
Although it was not obvious, but Li Hua no longer left the crowd after class, his running spirit floated out, he would slow down, and occasionally went to dinner with Chen Tong and the others.
It was Lin Mo.Everyone found that he was often in a trance recently, and the frequency of his mind wandering was three times higher than before. A group of people were chatting together, and just now he was elated, and his mind drifted away in the next second.
How do you usually float, it depends on how good you are, it’s fine if you are a secondary painting appreciation, you are absolutely not taken with you in LOL together, let alone playing cards together, you would rather be a god enemy than a pig teammate, this is a universal value, you No matter how beautiful you are, you can't change it.
Seven people got together again, mentally handicapped Kai, Brother Lu Fatty, and Zhang Jingcun were fighting the landlord with arrogance, Lin Mo, who usually didn't participate much, suddenly strongly demanded to fight together, pushing mentally handicapped Kai away to replace him, after a few rounds, Zhang Jingcun asked Brother Lu Fat: "The three of us played well, why must he play along?"
Brother Lu Fat made an in-depth analysis: "Revenge, you see, if he is on my team, he will cheat me, and if he is on your team, he will cheat you. Such a blatant and blatant cheating teammate must have spotted him. Even if we can't see it, we can't help him." Holding back the fire but not daring to do anything, look, Chen Tong is still standing behind him as escort, we have no chance to make a move, as holding back can suffocate us to death."
Zhang Jingcun commented: "What a scheming whore with both beauty and intelligence."
Brother Lu Pang gets [-] critical points every day from this group of people with "cancer in appearance". He seems to be used to the conflict between his appearance and the world, as well as the humiliation it brings.
Zhang Jingcun asked Chen Tong what happened to Lin Mo, and Chen Tong said, "Cross the catastrophe!"
Zhang Jingcun just wanted to scold him: "Du bastard..."
Chen Tong said mysteriously: "You never thought that he might have been transformed by a vixen if he looks like this."
Zhang Jingcun took a closer look at Lin Mo's face, yes, this kind of flawless lines, the eyebrows are Yuanshandai, the hair is like floating clouds, the nose is bright and the lips are straight, one point is too much, one point is too little, looking up Falling head with the flowers, bowing the head to see the sinking fish, supporting the willow wind on the road, demure flowers reflecting the water, there are many poems in ancient and modern times, the most beautiful Lin Langmo.
"Why did this vixen come out of the mountain? What calamity did he survive?" She stroked the non-existent beard.
Chen Tong was struck with goosebumps by her beautiful words, admiration in his heart was more than contempt, and he thought: I love this person so much that I dare not say such disgusting words, yet you come right out of your mouth.Chen Tong made nonsense: "500 years ago, he was injured by a hunter when he was a minor. A passing scholar saved him. 500 years later, the scholar was reincarnated, and he came here to report."
Zhang Jingcun asked, "Who is that scholar?"
Chen Tong pointed to himself: "It's right here!"
Zhang Jingcun felt that he was taking advantage of him invisibly: "CA your sister!"
Chen Tong said: "Instead of you, you saw him injured 500 years ago, wouldn't you take him home and put him in a cage for your own sexual pleasure?" You saw him, he still needs to survive today, and the calamity is all on you There it is!
Zhang Jingcun pointed at the truth: "You don't know how?"
After Chen Tong was silent for three seconds, he sighed and acquiesced, how could he not!
Chen Tong knew that Lin Mo was in the process of facing the impact and his thoughts were transforming into a long struggle. Standing beside Lin Mo, he saw that Lin Mo had a good hand of cards. In order not to spoil this card, he invited Lin Mo aside, After taking his card, Brother Lu and Zhang Jingcun yelled and took Lin Mo away.
When Lin Mo fell into thinking, his other five senses would become dull, and he could be dragged anywhere by Chen Tong.
Fat brother is a fat man who understands people and things, and asked Chen Tong: "What's wrong with Lin Mo?"
Chen Tong never circled when talking to Fat Brother: "Guess." Then he also felt bored, so he said to Fat Brother: "He is thinking."
The fat guy said, "Oh, you've been picking seedlings to encourage them to grow recently?"
Chen Tong said: "It's just that I don't think it's enough. I want more, more emotions, and more responses. Don't look at me, I'm more sad than him."
The fat brother said earnestly: "I can see that he has no feelings for you, but you know the situation in his family better than me. Chen Tong, forget it, no matter how you want him to grow up, he can't be with you." Together this will not change. There will always be one person who leaves first."
Chen Tong twitched the corners of his mouth: "He also said that, there must be someone who leaves first. Why must it be me, since he can't leave first, then I still have the initiative, I still want to try, or want to follow him together."
Fat Brother has been in love with them for so long, since he knew the ambiguous relationship between them, he has paid more attention to it. If Lin Mo doesn't like Chen Tong, then Fat Brother dare say it is impossible!But everyone knows that Lin Mo's feelings towards his mother are afraid of being broken, and their place is not a big city. Lin Mo's mother is a traditional woman, and it is impossible for her only son to accept that her only son is gay. With a perverted personality, he would rather torture himself than make his mother sad. How could he be with Chen Tong? Even if they are together now, what will they do in the future?
In these respects, Lin Mo is so resolute.He is so determined not to be together, but he doesn't cut it off. Fat brother sometimes thinks that Lin Mo is a slut, but Lin Mo is not in two boats. His love is so precious, let him make it first The girlfriend broke up with Chen Tong and thought it was impossible. Outsiders couldn't get in the way of this relationship, so I hoped that Chen Tong would wake up. Someone must go first. The fat brother knew that the one who gave in must be Chen Tong, as long as he left Chen Tong, Lin Mo can live in a world that is only good for his mother.
If you want Fat Brother to say that Chen Tong is fine even if he is with Li Hua, at least the future of the two of them is full of uncertainties, so one of the various endings may be good, but it would not be the case if he was with Lin Mo , with Lin Mo, his future has been determined, maybe there is Chen Tong, but they can only be friends!
Lin Mo said that he will get married, have children, and have a stable job. This is his future and life. He never imagined that there will be so many ups and downs.Lin Mo and Chen Tong are people with such different personalities, their future seems to have been decided for a long time.
Taking advantage of the time when Lin Mo was so full of thoughts, Chen Tong felt that it was necessary to give him some space. On Saturday, Li Hua invited him to a special English training. I passed the test with low scores when I was a child, and I have been struggling with the sixth level.
On Saturday afternoon, after Lin Mo took a nap, he remembered that Chen Tong told him that he was going to study in the teaching building, and the dormitory was gone, so he packed up and went to the teaching building.
Lin Mo didn't know which classroom Chen Tong and the others were in. He picked up his mobile phone and opened various communication software. Sure enough, with Chen Tong's meticulousness, let alone WeChat, even text messages and Weibo private messages were left——Wu Building 605 , Lin Mo just walked to the fifth building. There are many classrooms in their school, the sixth floor is high, and they all climb stairs. Few people are willing to come up, except for dates.Now is the time for fighting, and many people have gone to the library, so when Lin Mo went up, except for a few people in 601 and 602, the other classrooms were empty.
Li Hua's voice was heard before reaching the gate of 605.
Li Hua said: "I know you don't like me, why don't you give it a try, Lin Mo won't be with you, why won't you give me a chance!"
Chen Tong said: "If Lin Mo is willing to fight against the world once, even if he only has one percent of your toughness, I am ready to die for him."
Li Hua smiled wryly: "You are reluctant, if he was like me, you would have given up the idea of fighting against the world with him long ago, you would not let him eat even a tenth of this kind of suffering. "
Lin Mo stood outside the classroom. He knew he couldn't go in now, but he couldn't do without spying on his heart.
Li Hua asked Chen Tong: "Chen Tong, are you gay?"
Chen Tong said: "I don't know. I only liked Lin Mo. Lin Mo is a man. I think I am, but I don't think I like men."
Looking at the confused Chen Tong, Li Hua had mixed feelings. Chen Tong gave Lin Mo all the precious and precious emotions. Li Hua said: "Chen Tong, I am not Lin Mo. You don't have to think about what you want to do for him." The emotion of something is pinned on me."
Chen Tong said with a smile: "I know, in this world, besides Lin Mo, who else can be Lin Mo."
Li Hua said: "Chen Tong, don't try to find Lin Mo's shadow in me? Even if Lin Mo likes men, he won't be in the same situation as me. Now in this world that looks at faces, he has already obtained many passes. You now The pitiful me I see is what Lin Mo will never have. Our personalities are also different. I have a heart to compete with the world, but he doesn't. He can live well alone , so he will never be as embarrassing as I am, you don't have that chance to behave, Prince!"
Chen Tong lay on the table, neither angry nor angry, just a little frustrated, what he said was right.
Li Hua asked again: "Chen Tong, do you want to give it a try with me?"
Chen Tong said: "I'm sorry, I have always regarded you as a brother, just like Fat Brother and Ada, and never thought about that. If I do something that crosses the line, I am sorry." The textbook left, and when I went out, I saw the back of Lin Mo who was about to turn in the distance. He had been here.
☆, awkward and confession
Li Hua watched Chen Tong leave and sat alone in the classroom, feeling a little dazed. He didn't know whether he really liked Chen Tong, envied Chen Tong's character, or yearned for Chen Tong's treatment of Lin Mo. What do you like going forward?
Chen Tong said that when no one in this world would be him, Lin Mo felt that he was slapped in the face by Chen Tong's liking. He was taking advantage of a person's feelings and wasting his time. , Chen Tong may have found a more suitable person. Lin Mo knew that he could not promise Chen Tong a future, but he kept dragging his feelings.
If Lin Mo doesn't like Chen Tong, it's fine, but Lin Mo likes it. He likes Chen Tong so much, he can't bear to hang Chen Tong like this anymore, like riding a donkey with a carrot tied in front of the donkey, leading The donkey walked away, but the donkey chased the radish but couldn't eat it, and it had to carry the people on its back to walk away without complaint or regret.
Lin Mo knows that as long as he doesn't let go, he can hold Chen Tong forever. No matter how much Chen Tong wants to change their relationship now, as long as he doesn't let go, Chen Tong will still be the old Chen Tong, but Lin Mo has no way to do it. To the point of ignoring Chen Tong's urgency, ignoring the longing in his eyes.
What Chen Tong said is right, Lin Mo has always been naive, whether it is about the world or emotions, wishful thinking uses the principles of the fairy tale world to plan his life, which is ridiculous and pitiful.
Zhang Jingcun has been very troubled recently. Yes, she loves Lin Mo's face deeply. She is also very happy when Lin Mo is tired of being with her, but she finds that Lin Mo who is with her now is not known to her. That Lin Mo, Lin Mo without Chen Tong felt less angry.
The unlucky Chen Tong didn't even come to persuade them. No one can interfere with this kind of awkwardness between young couples. Besides, she knows both sides, and she doesn't stand on either side.
Jiao Buli Meng, and Meng Buli Jiao's two people, Lin Mo dragged Zhang Jingcun away after class now.
"Mo Mo, why don't we just forget it and forgive him once." She still has to take care of this peace.
Lin Mo didn't look at her either: "Forgive me, we didn't quarrel."
"Then why make it look like you want to cut him off."
Lin Mo said disgustedly: "Don't ask, I'm in a period of confusion right now."
Lin Mo hadn't stayed in the dormitory for a long time. He used the excuse of studying and stayed outside until he went back to take a shower and sleep at night. Everyone except the fat brother thought that he was going to have an affair with Zhang Jingcun.
Lin Mo said that he was going to prepare for the final exam, so he went to the study room alone at night, and wandered back after the door of the study room was closed. He was blocked by Chen Tong at the corner where the lights were dark, Lin Mo was very aggressive, and he abducted Chen Tong Can't get up on the ground for half an hour.
When Lin Mo knew it was Chen Tong, he knew that he had caused trouble, and he was still dead. He stood upright and said, "It's not my fault, who told you to sneak attack." After being stubborn, he went to help him rub his ribs.
Chen Tong was helped by him and sat down on the spot. While rubbing the wound, he said, "Lin Mo, what are you hiding?"
Lin Mo arched him, asked him to move his seat, and sat down beside him: "I'm just thinking, distance yourself or be better for the two of us."
Chen Tong said: "The distance is a fart. We are in the same dormitory and the same class. We don't see each other when we look up. How do you want to increase the distance?"
Lin Mo insisted: "Chen Tong, let's try it, maybe it's not as difficult as we imagined."
Chen Tong felt sore in his heart. He was a little angry at first, but now he was only sad: "Lin Mo, is this the result of your thinking for so many days?"
In the dark, Lin Mo lowered his head and let out a small 'hmm', completely rejecting Chen Tong's fantasies about the future.
In the second semester of junior year, everyone was preparing for the future. When chatting occasionally, it was no longer full of ignorance and fearlessness like when they first entered college, and the conversation seemed to be confused.
Some people are planning to take the postgraduate entrance examination, some are going abroad, some are preparing to take the civil service exam, and some are planning to inherit the family business, but most people are still not sure whether this is the path they want to take, they just know It seems that we should go this way, and everyone is going this way.
Chen Tong asked Lin Mo: "Lin Mo, are you going back to T City?"
Lin Mo said: "Well, my mother is the only one left at home, so I'd better go back early."
Mentally retarded Kai, Huluda, and Xiaoji are all preparing to take the civil service exam. Brother Lu goes home to inherit the family business. Niubihui has passed the TOEFL. He will go to the UK after the end of his junior year. It seems that everyone has their own arrangements. The dormitory During the chat, only Lin Mo and Chen Tong remained silent about whether they would stay or stay and the future. Mentally retarded Kai asked Lin Mo, "What about you? What are you going to do?"
Lin Mo has never wanted to talk about this topic, especially he didn't want to talk about this topic in front of Chen Tong. Recently, when people in their dormitory were talking about it, he didn't express his opinion.
But Chen Tong seemed to be very persistent this time, looking at him with eyes full of seeking solutions, Lin Mo said, "Go home and find a job."
Mentally retarded Kai asked Chen Tong: "How about you, go back with Lin Mo?"
Chen Tong wanted to say of course, but Lin Mo interrupted him before he could say it: "He won't go back, he will stay here, our small place, what's the use of going back."
Chen Tong said: "Why can't you go back, our place is very good." There are uneven paths, there are leaves penetrated by the sun, there are his childhood, youth and his Linmo.
Lin Mo once said, people should not always look back, let alone you are so young, your future is full of bright, don't let the past corrode your motivation to move forward, the more you miss the past, the slower your pace, Chen Tong is going to run People are people who want to go to the top of the mountain, and no one can stop him, not even Lin Mo himself.
Lin Mo snorted and said, "Okay? That's when you didn't come out. You didn't know how big the outside world was, and you didn't know how bright the outside world was. Now that you've been out for so long, you know that this world is more splendid than what you see. It is much more brilliant, and you are willing to go back."
Chen Tong didn't deny it, yes, he wanted to do something, he was shameless in the history of thousands of years, boys should go out for a break, they are too small, people can't turn over and stand upright.With their majors, they can't do any big things unless they start a business, but now they are like fledglings who don't understand anything. Chen Tong is a person who wants to start a business, but he knows what he has to do. You have to learn something first, you have to understand what the eccentric society is like before you can start your own business.
The city where their school is located is one of the most modern cities in the world, full of opportunities and temptations that few people can resist.For a person who wants to do something, it is even more irresistible.
Chen Tong has no reason to go home, except that Lin Mo wants to go home.
Many people say that in this city, it is difficult for a college graduate to gain a foothold, and it is even more difficult to get ahead. No matter how many opportunities he has, the talents and elites here are directly proportional to his opportunities. Why do you think you Can you stand out?Before they stand out, some people have been forced to retreat by reality, and the actual problems are much more than imagined.
Chen Tong is a lucky man by nature. Among these lucks, his father also gave him the right not to worry about finances. His parents are both young and gave him the confidence to go out. His natural aura gave him no fear. His courage, all of this is enough for him to stay and fight, and it would be a waste of money to go back.
But all the premises of his struggle can be negated because of Lin Mo.
Lin Mo hasn't discussed life with Chen Tong for a long time. Later, even if they chat, they try to go in the direction of gossip and nonsense, and try to avoid sensitive topics. The most pitiful thing is that any topic is sensitive to them now.
Lin Mo was making tea on the balcony again, and Chen Tong came out with a chair to chat with him, and Lin Mo would get involved in the righteousness of life.Chen Tong didn't know, Lin Mo had something to say, and he planned to break the deadlock during this period of time, and prepare for the rhythm of the deep chat.
Lin Mo knew why Chen Tong was so secretive about the topic of the future, and Chen Tong was waiting for his answer before making a decision.
Lin Mo said: "Chen Tong, I can't bear your ideals, I can't bear your future!"
Lin Mo said: "Chen Tong, if you choose to give up your ideals just because of me, I will have nothing to do with you in the future! I can't afford to pay for your ideals, nor can I bear the heavy pressure. I dare not face it. For your future recollection of "I should have...", Chen Tong, you have to know how to handle reality and feelings."
Chen Tong said: "Lin Mo, I'm not as naive as you think, I know what I'm doing, and I'm also responsible for the choices I make."
Lin Mo said: "I can't get out, so let me entrust my dream awakening to you."
Chen Tong said, "Have you thought about staying here?"
Lin Mo said: "I can't think about it! But I hope you stay, you have more space here, and it won't do you any good to go back with me."
Chen Tong has become more and more powerless in the face of him, and now he can't react other than a wry smile: "You don't feel reluctant at all, let's see again, maybe I won't like you tomorrow, but it seems that I don't like you." Maybe, maybe tomorrow I won't like you that much."
Lin Mo said: "Chen Tong, stay here, do what you want to do, and be who you want to be."
Their dormitory is a famous zoo, a bunch of single dogs, nearly three years of college life, except for the mentally handicapped Kai, who had a short-term relationship that ended without a problem, and Huluda was cursed by fate. Just look away, look away and look away, without delaying him from immersing himself in self-fantasy.
Fatty Lu is a person who walks with wind because of his strong aura, and most people dare not climb high.Niubihui, the golden turtle, doesn't look like he's usually so rustic, but he's actually been pursuing a high-level spiritual love, feel!The first sight that must be seen made his heart beat faster, his legs became weak, the bell in his head kept ringing, and the rhythm of "I want to be with her" echoed, unfortunately, until Never encountered so far.Chen Tong and Lin Mo are also "the widows have illnesses, so they don't talk about them", so they are still single in the dormitory, and it makes me sad to think about it.
Mentally handicapped Kai often murmurs: "It's fine if we don't have one, but Lin Mo doesn't have one, it's strange."
It caused Niu Bihui to roll his eyes endlessly: "Don't easily classify us with you!"
Mentally handicapped Kaiquan didn't know, and continued to mutter to himself: "I think maybe our Fengshui here is not good, which broke our marriage line, and the red luan star can't shine on us, and the peach blossoms don't bloom here. It's a disaster!"
Fat Brother Lu suddenly remembered Zhang Jingcun, and asked Lin Mo, "Where is Jingcun? What is she going to do?"
Chen Tong said: "She is a married woman, so she will fight wherever her husband is, and she will go wherever her husband is. She will probably immigrate to the United States to accept the poison of the evil capitalism."
☆, parting and sadness
It's already the second semester of my junior year. Those who should be crazy are almost crazy. I didn't take a single class that I should escape. But in the three years of being freed, the wildness can't be taken back, no matter how many grievances and grievances there were before Resentment, recently everyone has started to get along with each other in harmony, even Wang Qiyi has begun to condescend and stand with the people
Li Hua went to the hospital with Chen Tong, and Lin Mo asked him, "What are you going to do?"
Li Hua shrugged: "Nothing to do, just apply for dormitory transfer."
Chen Tong stayed with Lin Mo to get the medicine, and the others went back first when they saw that there was nothing to do. Before leaving, Li Hua thanked Lin Mo. Lin Mo waved his hand and said it was all right. Li Hua glanced at Chen Tong. A glance is worth a thousand words, but after seeing Chen Tong squatting in front of Lin Mo, he kept asking him nervously if it hurts?Does it hurt?After that, I swallowed everything, and even a thank you became superfluous.
Lin Mo looked at Li Hua who was going away, and then at Chen Tong who was squatting in front of him. He saw that Chen Tong was sad, and lowered his head slightly, not looking directly into Lin Mo's eyes. Mischievous, after being caught making trouble, he was honestly beaten up and passed away. When he met someone who thought he was right, he would not bow his head even to death. If there was something he thought was wrong, he would admit what he did and stand at attention when he was beaten the kind of person.
When he was in elementary school, Chen Tong soaked his class homework in water. When the teacher found out, he ran fast. Lin Mo, an innocent person, did not run away. He was taken away by the teacher before he knew what happened. Later, Chen Tong found out that Lin Mo Mo fell, and when he went back to the office to find someone, Lin Mo had already been slapped by the teacher, and was being punished by the teacher to stand in the office. Chen Tong covered his hands, tears kept falling, and asked him: "Why don't you follow?" The teacher said I did it."
Lin Mo didn't know what he was doing at all, but seeing how angry the teacher was, he knew that this matter was no small matter. A mischievous student like Chen Tong would be punished severely if he did something bad. Lin Mo only had one thought in his heart: absolutely not Let Chen Tong be caught.
Lin Mo seldom sees Chen Tong cry. Even if Chen Tong is beaten by his father and mother Chen, he can still face it with a smile. Children have a common problem. A boy as dull as Lin Mo will cry when he sees Chen Tong cry. While crying, she asked, "Tongtong, why are you crying?"
Chen Tong covered his hand and asked him: "Momo, does your hand hurt?"
The question aroused all the pain in the hand that he had forgotten at first, and he cried loudly: "It hurts so much!!"
When the teacher came back, he was frightened into a cold sweat, and I swear to God, he just whipped a few times, and he was fine just now, why did he cry so hysterically after leaving for a while.And this bastard Chen Tong!It's okay for Lin Mo to cry, but he was unwilling to let others cry, he cried even louder, lying on the ground hysterically, rolling over like a slapstick, the teacher hugged him helplessly: "It's none of your business, you just cry like this, people think I'm abusing you Woolen cloth."
Chen Tong cried so hard that he couldn't speak in convulsions, pointing at Lin Mo, then pointing at the teacher.
The teacher hugged him and patted him on the back. If he continued to cry, he should be dehydrated: "Okay, okay, I won't call you a parent anymore. Fortunately, I just wrote my homework once. Let's ask everyone to rewrite it tomorrow."
He went out with two children in both hands, and met Papa Lin who came to pick up the children at the door. Papa Lin hadn't run away from home at that time, and he was a good father who loved the children.
The teacher told Father Lin helplessly what happened. Father Lin rarely saw two children crying. It was the first time he saw two children crying, and he found it novel. He said to the teacher: "Children still have to be taught, we Lin Mo don't Sensible, to trouble you."
The teacher said that nothing will happen if you cry like this, but Dad Lin said it's okay, go do your work.
Although the teacher was worried, he went back, shook his head and sighed: This is not crying, this is howling wolves!
Papa Lin held one in each hand, and even though he received the attention of passers-by along the way, he still shook those two little hands in joy. The child cried, what are you afraid of, Papa Lin can handle it, each person has a bottle of Coke, and there is no sound at all.
☆, step by step and move away
The two were sitting on a chair in the hospital corridor. Lin Mo grabbed Chen Tong's hair with his uninjured hand. Chen Tong grabbed his hand and said, "I didn't want you to get hurt."
Lin Mo asked him to hold his hand and rolled his eyes in his heart. Isn't this nonsense: "Yeah." Rubbing his ears, he said to him: "Chen Tong, Li Hua's situation is quite special, you have to take care of it Proper, the way of expression should be properly controlled, if you don’t intend to develop emotions, don’t let people misunderstand, it’s unfair to others.”
Chen Tong said in shock: "I didn't think about that!"
Lin Mo said: "I know you don't, so I need to pay more attention!" I only remind you when I know you are heartless!
Chen Tong said dejectedly: "Lin Mo, do you feel uncomfortable?"
Lin Mo asked, "What's uncomfortable?"
Chen Tong said: "It is possible for me to develop a relationship with someone, will you be jealous? Will you be jealous?"
Lin Mo looked at him expectantly, and slightly raised the corner of his mouth: "No."
Hearing Lin Mo's answer, Chen Tong felt as if he had been thumped in all kinds of ways, and he was a little unconvinced, feeling suffocated and uncomfortable.
Lin Mo went on to say, "Anyway, you won't like them."
Chen Tong's eyes lit up instantly, glowing as if he was encouraged, with a rascal look on his face: "Yes, I will, if you don't think about me, I will leave with others."
Lin Mo said: "Let's go, there must be one who goes first."
Chen Tong's original joy became empty again, he took away Lin Mo's hand that was still holding his ear, and said to him: "Lin Mo, didn't you say that you don't plan to develop a relationship and don't give people hope? It's not good for people. fair."
Lin Mo felt bitter in his heart: "That's all for others to hear, how can you really do what you say if you put it on yourself."
Chen Tong said: "Lin Mo, I have always told you that I know you better than anyone else. You have never denied or admitted that we have known each other for so many years. I said that I know you better than you. Do you believe me? ?"
Lin Mo shook his head.
Chen Tong said: "I know you like me, I know why you haven't had a girlfriend, you have been waiting, you know how much I like you, a person like you who has a mental cleanliness, as long as I don't have a girlfriend for a day If you have a girlfriend, you feel that if you don't have a girlfriend for a day, you are waiting for me to stand it and talk first, and then you can use this as an excuse, and you can feel at ease that your rejection for so long is right, 'Look , You betrayed our feelings, you can't blame me'! You have to leave even the guilt to me."
Lin Mo was scratched by his bloody analysis and calmed down, yes!He is not as indifferent as he appears on the surface, he is waiting every day, and he is afraid again!On the one hand, he hopes that Chen Tong will be in love quickly, but on the other hand, he is afraid that this day will come. He has indeed made up his mind that as long as Chen Tong does not fall in love, he will not. It doesn't matter if they are together for the rest of their lives!
As long as Chen Tong is willing, there is nothing wrong with their life like this, they can be together without hurting their parents.It's not that he hasn't thought about what to do when his parents urge him to marry him. He will use the excuse of not finding a suitable one, and he can use delaying tactics in everything, as long as Chen Tong is still there.
Chen Tong laughed angrily. He was sitting next to Lin Mo. When he turned to look at Lin Mo, Lin Mo's face was full of panic and anticipation. It was ridiculous. Lin Mo actually thought it was possible. In an instant, they were so far away, and when he came back to his senses, his hand had already touched Lin Mo's face: "Lin Mo, what I want is much more than that, I like you, I love you, and I want to be together, as a lover Status, doing what a lover would do, dating, kissing, and more."
So sometimes Lin Mo is really naive and annoying. He was stunned by Chen Tong's refusal, which made him at a loss. This is not like his Chen Tong, who would not reject him so bluntly.
No, his Chen Tong disappeared after New Year's Eve. Lin Mo has been walking slower than Chen Tong in this relationship. Before that, Chen Tong was always behind him, not chasing him, but more like an escort , but since Chen Tong disappeared quietly for three days, the Chen Tong who came back has changed. He doesn't know when he started to walk out from behind Lin Mo, passed Lin Mo, and hurried forward alone. Lin Mo was already catching up. Not on him.
Lin Mo rubbed the index finger and thumb of his left hand unconsciously. Once he didn't know what to do, he would do this habitual action: "Tongtong, I seem to be unable to catch up with you."
Chen Tong said: "Lin Mo, they all misunderstood you. Your silence makes you seem very mature, but you are not. You are more immature than anyone else. You live in your own world and don't know what the outside world is like. Yes. Even now, I still don’t want the world to stain you, but emotionally, we’re both so naive, I’m starting to struggle, I don’t know what to do with our relationship, sometimes I feel so bad You can't breathe, not because you can't like me, but because you can't breathe when you think about the day we have to be apart, can you?"
Chen Tong held his face and pressed him step by step. Lin Mo felt that Chen Tong was different today. He was full of aggressiveness. Lin Mo felt that he seemed to eat himself, but such a strong Chen Tong made Lin Mo think that he It's sad now, Chen Tong didn't cry, but Lin Mo felt that there was a rain in his heart, which only fell on his own head. This rain couldn't reach others, and he kept falling.Chen Tong sees him so thoroughly, Lin Mo knows his selfishness, and everything is based on Chen Tong's liking.
Lin Mo's daze made Chen Tong smile: "You don't seem to be able to, you have never tried to think about our possibility, you have already sentenced me to death."
The doctor called their numbers on the radio, Chen Tong held down Lin Mo, and went to get the medicine by himself.
As he walked further and further away, Lin Mo felt as if he had made up his mind. He wanted to walk alone, far away. Lin Mo didn't know whether Chen Tong would come back to pick him up. He even had a feeling that Chen Tong's head I can't go back.
Lin Mo: "Chen Tong, are we drifting away?"
Chen Tong: "No, we are dying."
☆、Strangeness and substitution
Li Hua changed the dormitory, and the counselor knew about their fight that day, but seeing that neither side had any intention of making a scene, they turned a blind eye and passed by. Everyone was invited to have a cup of tea and talk We chatted wildly, hinting and expressing, even derogatory: You are not young people aged 18 or 9, and Chinese New Year is coming soon. Once this year is over, you will all be 21 or 2, and your cerebellum will be basically developed. Self-control Strength should already be formed, only brain damage can't control yourself, you don't look like it, you need to perfect yourself!
Chen Qiming and a few roommates were also called, and they chatted for a long time. The current university teachers have seen the world, and they don't have many friends who like the same sex.I earnestly persuade those who are still very unacceptable to homosexuality: You country bumpkins who have never seen the world, have you heard a word, I don’t agree with a single word you say, but I will defend your right to speak to the death!Where have you read the books for so many years? If you don’t like or agree with it, it doesn’t mean you have the right to speak ill. You think it’s still primary and secondary school.Y'all come here!
When people stepped forward in fear and thought she was going to do something, she said: "Everyone back down." Didn't a big word 'wipe' flash in everyone's mind!
When they were about to retreat to the door, they were called back again: "Come back?"
A group of people looked blank: "??"
"Now the application for dormitory exchange has been submitted. No matter what, sexual orientation is someone's privacy. Whether you want to talk about it or how you want to make it public is their business. Don't spread it everywhere, you know, go down." This is the justice of a weak woman, The world needs more powerful people like this to stand up to uphold justice and speak for the weak.
Although it was not obvious, but Li Hua no longer left the crowd after class, his running spirit floated out, he would slow down, and occasionally went to dinner with Chen Tong and the others.
It was Lin Mo.Everyone found that he was often in a trance recently, and the frequency of his mind wandering was three times higher than before. A group of people were chatting together, and just now he was elated, and his mind drifted away in the next second.
How do you usually float, it depends on how good you are, it’s fine if you are a secondary painting appreciation, you are absolutely not taken with you in LOL together, let alone playing cards together, you would rather be a god enemy than a pig teammate, this is a universal value, you No matter how beautiful you are, you can't change it.
Seven people got together again, mentally handicapped Kai, Brother Lu Fatty, and Zhang Jingcun were fighting the landlord with arrogance, Lin Mo, who usually didn't participate much, suddenly strongly demanded to fight together, pushing mentally handicapped Kai away to replace him, after a few rounds, Zhang Jingcun asked Brother Lu Fat: "The three of us played well, why must he play along?"
Brother Lu Fat made an in-depth analysis: "Revenge, you see, if he is on my team, he will cheat me, and if he is on your team, he will cheat you. Such a blatant and blatant cheating teammate must have spotted him. Even if we can't see it, we can't help him." Holding back the fire but not daring to do anything, look, Chen Tong is still standing behind him as escort, we have no chance to make a move, as holding back can suffocate us to death."
Zhang Jingcun commented: "What a scheming whore with both beauty and intelligence."
Brother Lu Pang gets [-] critical points every day from this group of people with "cancer in appearance". He seems to be used to the conflict between his appearance and the world, as well as the humiliation it brings.
Zhang Jingcun asked Chen Tong what happened to Lin Mo, and Chen Tong said, "Cross the catastrophe!"
Zhang Jingcun just wanted to scold him: "Du bastard..."
Chen Tong said mysteriously: "You never thought that he might have been transformed by a vixen if he looks like this."
Zhang Jingcun took a closer look at Lin Mo's face, yes, this kind of flawless lines, the eyebrows are Yuanshandai, the hair is like floating clouds, the nose is bright and the lips are straight, one point is too much, one point is too little, looking up Falling head with the flowers, bowing the head to see the sinking fish, supporting the willow wind on the road, demure flowers reflecting the water, there are many poems in ancient and modern times, the most beautiful Lin Langmo.
"Why did this vixen come out of the mountain? What calamity did he survive?" She stroked the non-existent beard.
Chen Tong was struck with goosebumps by her beautiful words, admiration in his heart was more than contempt, and he thought: I love this person so much that I dare not say such disgusting words, yet you come right out of your mouth.Chen Tong made nonsense: "500 years ago, he was injured by a hunter when he was a minor. A passing scholar saved him. 500 years later, the scholar was reincarnated, and he came here to report."
Zhang Jingcun asked, "Who is that scholar?"
Chen Tong pointed to himself: "It's right here!"
Zhang Jingcun felt that he was taking advantage of him invisibly: "CA your sister!"
Chen Tong said: "Instead of you, you saw him injured 500 years ago, wouldn't you take him home and put him in a cage for your own sexual pleasure?" You saw him, he still needs to survive today, and the calamity is all on you There it is!
Zhang Jingcun pointed at the truth: "You don't know how?"
After Chen Tong was silent for three seconds, he sighed and acquiesced, how could he not!
Chen Tong knew that Lin Mo was in the process of facing the impact and his thoughts were transforming into a long struggle. Standing beside Lin Mo, he saw that Lin Mo had a good hand of cards. In order not to spoil this card, he invited Lin Mo aside, After taking his card, Brother Lu and Zhang Jingcun yelled and took Lin Mo away.
When Lin Mo fell into thinking, his other five senses would become dull, and he could be dragged anywhere by Chen Tong.
Fat brother is a fat man who understands people and things, and asked Chen Tong: "What's wrong with Lin Mo?"
Chen Tong never circled when talking to Fat Brother: "Guess." Then he also felt bored, so he said to Fat Brother: "He is thinking."
The fat guy said, "Oh, you've been picking seedlings to encourage them to grow recently?"
Chen Tong said: "It's just that I don't think it's enough. I want more, more emotions, and more responses. Don't look at me, I'm more sad than him."
The fat brother said earnestly: "I can see that he has no feelings for you, but you know the situation in his family better than me. Chen Tong, forget it, no matter how you want him to grow up, he can't be with you." Together this will not change. There will always be one person who leaves first."
Chen Tong twitched the corners of his mouth: "He also said that, there must be someone who leaves first. Why must it be me, since he can't leave first, then I still have the initiative, I still want to try, or want to follow him together."
Fat Brother has been in love with them for so long, since he knew the ambiguous relationship between them, he has paid more attention to it. If Lin Mo doesn't like Chen Tong, then Fat Brother dare say it is impossible!But everyone knows that Lin Mo's feelings towards his mother are afraid of being broken, and their place is not a big city. Lin Mo's mother is a traditional woman, and it is impossible for her only son to accept that her only son is gay. With a perverted personality, he would rather torture himself than make his mother sad. How could he be with Chen Tong? Even if they are together now, what will they do in the future?
In these respects, Lin Mo is so resolute.He is so determined not to be together, but he doesn't cut it off. Fat brother sometimes thinks that Lin Mo is a slut, but Lin Mo is not in two boats. His love is so precious, let him make it first The girlfriend broke up with Chen Tong and thought it was impossible. Outsiders couldn't get in the way of this relationship, so I hoped that Chen Tong would wake up. Someone must go first. The fat brother knew that the one who gave in must be Chen Tong, as long as he left Chen Tong, Lin Mo can live in a world that is only good for his mother.
If you want Fat Brother to say that Chen Tong is fine even if he is with Li Hua, at least the future of the two of them is full of uncertainties, so one of the various endings may be good, but it would not be the case if he was with Lin Mo , with Lin Mo, his future has been determined, maybe there is Chen Tong, but they can only be friends!
Lin Mo said that he will get married, have children, and have a stable job. This is his future and life. He never imagined that there will be so many ups and downs.Lin Mo and Chen Tong are people with such different personalities, their future seems to have been decided for a long time.
Taking advantage of the time when Lin Mo was so full of thoughts, Chen Tong felt that it was necessary to give him some space. On Saturday, Li Hua invited him to a special English training. I passed the test with low scores when I was a child, and I have been struggling with the sixth level.
On Saturday afternoon, after Lin Mo took a nap, he remembered that Chen Tong told him that he was going to study in the teaching building, and the dormitory was gone, so he packed up and went to the teaching building.
Lin Mo didn't know which classroom Chen Tong and the others were in. He picked up his mobile phone and opened various communication software. Sure enough, with Chen Tong's meticulousness, let alone WeChat, even text messages and Weibo private messages were left——Wu Building 605 , Lin Mo just walked to the fifth building. There are many classrooms in their school, the sixth floor is high, and they all climb stairs. Few people are willing to come up, except for dates.Now is the time for fighting, and many people have gone to the library, so when Lin Mo went up, except for a few people in 601 and 602, the other classrooms were empty.
Li Hua's voice was heard before reaching the gate of 605.
Li Hua said: "I know you don't like me, why don't you give it a try, Lin Mo won't be with you, why won't you give me a chance!"
Chen Tong said: "If Lin Mo is willing to fight against the world once, even if he only has one percent of your toughness, I am ready to die for him."
Li Hua smiled wryly: "You are reluctant, if he was like me, you would have given up the idea of fighting against the world with him long ago, you would not let him eat even a tenth of this kind of suffering. "
Lin Mo stood outside the classroom. He knew he couldn't go in now, but he couldn't do without spying on his heart.
Li Hua asked Chen Tong: "Chen Tong, are you gay?"
Chen Tong said: "I don't know. I only liked Lin Mo. Lin Mo is a man. I think I am, but I don't think I like men."
Looking at the confused Chen Tong, Li Hua had mixed feelings. Chen Tong gave Lin Mo all the precious and precious emotions. Li Hua said: "Chen Tong, I am not Lin Mo. You don't have to think about what you want to do for him." The emotion of something is pinned on me."
Chen Tong said with a smile: "I know, in this world, besides Lin Mo, who else can be Lin Mo."
Li Hua said: "Chen Tong, don't try to find Lin Mo's shadow in me? Even if Lin Mo likes men, he won't be in the same situation as me. Now in this world that looks at faces, he has already obtained many passes. You now The pitiful me I see is what Lin Mo will never have. Our personalities are also different. I have a heart to compete with the world, but he doesn't. He can live well alone , so he will never be as embarrassing as I am, you don't have that chance to behave, Prince!"
Chen Tong lay on the table, neither angry nor angry, just a little frustrated, what he said was right.
Li Hua asked again: "Chen Tong, do you want to give it a try with me?"
Chen Tong said: "I'm sorry, I have always regarded you as a brother, just like Fat Brother and Ada, and never thought about that. If I do something that crosses the line, I am sorry." The textbook left, and when I went out, I saw the back of Lin Mo who was about to turn in the distance. He had been here.
☆, awkward and confession
Li Hua watched Chen Tong leave and sat alone in the classroom, feeling a little dazed. He didn't know whether he really liked Chen Tong, envied Chen Tong's character, or yearned for Chen Tong's treatment of Lin Mo. What do you like going forward?
Chen Tong said that when no one in this world would be him, Lin Mo felt that he was slapped in the face by Chen Tong's liking. He was taking advantage of a person's feelings and wasting his time. , Chen Tong may have found a more suitable person. Lin Mo knew that he could not promise Chen Tong a future, but he kept dragging his feelings.
If Lin Mo doesn't like Chen Tong, it's fine, but Lin Mo likes it. He likes Chen Tong so much, he can't bear to hang Chen Tong like this anymore, like riding a donkey with a carrot tied in front of the donkey, leading The donkey walked away, but the donkey chased the radish but couldn't eat it, and it had to carry the people on its back to walk away without complaint or regret.
Lin Mo knows that as long as he doesn't let go, he can hold Chen Tong forever. No matter how much Chen Tong wants to change their relationship now, as long as he doesn't let go, Chen Tong will still be the old Chen Tong, but Lin Mo has no way to do it. To the point of ignoring Chen Tong's urgency, ignoring the longing in his eyes.
What Chen Tong said is right, Lin Mo has always been naive, whether it is about the world or emotions, wishful thinking uses the principles of the fairy tale world to plan his life, which is ridiculous and pitiful.
Zhang Jingcun has been very troubled recently. Yes, she loves Lin Mo's face deeply. She is also very happy when Lin Mo is tired of being with her, but she finds that Lin Mo who is with her now is not known to her. That Lin Mo, Lin Mo without Chen Tong felt less angry.
The unlucky Chen Tong didn't even come to persuade them. No one can interfere with this kind of awkwardness between young couples. Besides, she knows both sides, and she doesn't stand on either side.
Jiao Buli Meng, and Meng Buli Jiao's two people, Lin Mo dragged Zhang Jingcun away after class now.
"Mo Mo, why don't we just forget it and forgive him once." She still has to take care of this peace.
Lin Mo didn't look at her either: "Forgive me, we didn't quarrel."
"Then why make it look like you want to cut him off."
Lin Mo said disgustedly: "Don't ask, I'm in a period of confusion right now."
Lin Mo hadn't stayed in the dormitory for a long time. He used the excuse of studying and stayed outside until he went back to take a shower and sleep at night. Everyone except the fat brother thought that he was going to have an affair with Zhang Jingcun.
Lin Mo said that he was going to prepare for the final exam, so he went to the study room alone at night, and wandered back after the door of the study room was closed. He was blocked by Chen Tong at the corner where the lights were dark, Lin Mo was very aggressive, and he abducted Chen Tong Can't get up on the ground for half an hour.
When Lin Mo knew it was Chen Tong, he knew that he had caused trouble, and he was still dead. He stood upright and said, "It's not my fault, who told you to sneak attack." After being stubborn, he went to help him rub his ribs.
Chen Tong was helped by him and sat down on the spot. While rubbing the wound, he said, "Lin Mo, what are you hiding?"
Lin Mo arched him, asked him to move his seat, and sat down beside him: "I'm just thinking, distance yourself or be better for the two of us."
Chen Tong said: "The distance is a fart. We are in the same dormitory and the same class. We don't see each other when we look up. How do you want to increase the distance?"
Lin Mo insisted: "Chen Tong, let's try it, maybe it's not as difficult as we imagined."
Chen Tong felt sore in his heart. He was a little angry at first, but now he was only sad: "Lin Mo, is this the result of your thinking for so many days?"
In the dark, Lin Mo lowered his head and let out a small 'hmm', completely rejecting Chen Tong's fantasies about the future.
In the second semester of junior year, everyone was preparing for the future. When chatting occasionally, it was no longer full of ignorance and fearlessness like when they first entered college, and the conversation seemed to be confused.
Some people are planning to take the postgraduate entrance examination, some are going abroad, some are preparing to take the civil service exam, and some are planning to inherit the family business, but most people are still not sure whether this is the path they want to take, they just know It seems that we should go this way, and everyone is going this way.
Chen Tong asked Lin Mo: "Lin Mo, are you going back to T City?"
Lin Mo said: "Well, my mother is the only one left at home, so I'd better go back early."
Mentally retarded Kai, Huluda, and Xiaoji are all preparing to take the civil service exam. Brother Lu goes home to inherit the family business. Niubihui has passed the TOEFL. He will go to the UK after the end of his junior year. It seems that everyone has their own arrangements. The dormitory During the chat, only Lin Mo and Chen Tong remained silent about whether they would stay or stay and the future. Mentally retarded Kai asked Lin Mo, "What about you? What are you going to do?"
Lin Mo has never wanted to talk about this topic, especially he didn't want to talk about this topic in front of Chen Tong. Recently, when people in their dormitory were talking about it, he didn't express his opinion.
But Chen Tong seemed to be very persistent this time, looking at him with eyes full of seeking solutions, Lin Mo said, "Go home and find a job."
Mentally retarded Kai asked Chen Tong: "How about you, go back with Lin Mo?"
Chen Tong wanted to say of course, but Lin Mo interrupted him before he could say it: "He won't go back, he will stay here, our small place, what's the use of going back."
Chen Tong said: "Why can't you go back, our place is very good." There are uneven paths, there are leaves penetrated by the sun, there are his childhood, youth and his Linmo.
Lin Mo once said, people should not always look back, let alone you are so young, your future is full of bright, don't let the past corrode your motivation to move forward, the more you miss the past, the slower your pace, Chen Tong is going to run People are people who want to go to the top of the mountain, and no one can stop him, not even Lin Mo himself.
Lin Mo snorted and said, "Okay? That's when you didn't come out. You didn't know how big the outside world was, and you didn't know how bright the outside world was. Now that you've been out for so long, you know that this world is more splendid than what you see. It is much more brilliant, and you are willing to go back."
Chen Tong didn't deny it, yes, he wanted to do something, he was shameless in the history of thousands of years, boys should go out for a break, they are too small, people can't turn over and stand upright.With their majors, they can't do any big things unless they start a business, but now they are like fledglings who don't understand anything. Chen Tong is a person who wants to start a business, but he knows what he has to do. You have to learn something first, you have to understand what the eccentric society is like before you can start your own business.
The city where their school is located is one of the most modern cities in the world, full of opportunities and temptations that few people can resist.For a person who wants to do something, it is even more irresistible.
Chen Tong has no reason to go home, except that Lin Mo wants to go home.
Many people say that in this city, it is difficult for a college graduate to gain a foothold, and it is even more difficult to get ahead. No matter how many opportunities he has, the talents and elites here are directly proportional to his opportunities. Why do you think you Can you stand out?Before they stand out, some people have been forced to retreat by reality, and the actual problems are much more than imagined.
Chen Tong is a lucky man by nature. Among these lucks, his father also gave him the right not to worry about finances. His parents are both young and gave him the confidence to go out. His natural aura gave him no fear. His courage, all of this is enough for him to stay and fight, and it would be a waste of money to go back.
But all the premises of his struggle can be negated because of Lin Mo.
Lin Mo hasn't discussed life with Chen Tong for a long time. Later, even if they chat, they try to go in the direction of gossip and nonsense, and try to avoid sensitive topics. The most pitiful thing is that any topic is sensitive to them now.
Lin Mo was making tea on the balcony again, and Chen Tong came out with a chair to chat with him, and Lin Mo would get involved in the righteousness of life.Chen Tong didn't know, Lin Mo had something to say, and he planned to break the deadlock during this period of time, and prepare for the rhythm of the deep chat.
Lin Mo knew why Chen Tong was so secretive about the topic of the future, and Chen Tong was waiting for his answer before making a decision.
Lin Mo said: "Chen Tong, I can't bear your ideals, I can't bear your future!"
Lin Mo said: "Chen Tong, if you choose to give up your ideals just because of me, I will have nothing to do with you in the future! I can't afford to pay for your ideals, nor can I bear the heavy pressure. I dare not face it. For your future recollection of "I should have...", Chen Tong, you have to know how to handle reality and feelings."
Chen Tong said: "Lin Mo, I'm not as naive as you think, I know what I'm doing, and I'm also responsible for the choices I make."
Lin Mo said: "I can't get out, so let me entrust my dream awakening to you."
Chen Tong said, "Have you thought about staying here?"
Lin Mo said: "I can't think about it! But I hope you stay, you have more space here, and it won't do you any good to go back with me."
Chen Tong has become more and more powerless in the face of him, and now he can't react other than a wry smile: "You don't feel reluctant at all, let's see again, maybe I won't like you tomorrow, but it seems that I don't like you." Maybe, maybe tomorrow I won't like you that much."
Lin Mo said: "Chen Tong, stay here, do what you want to do, and be who you want to be."
Their dormitory is a famous zoo, a bunch of single dogs, nearly three years of college life, except for the mentally handicapped Kai, who had a short-term relationship that ended without a problem, and Huluda was cursed by fate. Just look away, look away and look away, without delaying him from immersing himself in self-fantasy.
Fatty Lu is a person who walks with wind because of his strong aura, and most people dare not climb high.Niubihui, the golden turtle, doesn't look like he's usually so rustic, but he's actually been pursuing a high-level spiritual love, feel!The first sight that must be seen made his heart beat faster, his legs became weak, the bell in his head kept ringing, and the rhythm of "I want to be with her" echoed, unfortunately, until Never encountered so far.Chen Tong and Lin Mo are also "the widows have illnesses, so they don't talk about them", so they are still single in the dormitory, and it makes me sad to think about it.
Mentally handicapped Kai often murmurs: "It's fine if we don't have one, but Lin Mo doesn't have one, it's strange."
It caused Niu Bihui to roll his eyes endlessly: "Don't easily classify us with you!"
Mentally handicapped Kaiquan didn't know, and continued to mutter to himself: "I think maybe our Fengshui here is not good, which broke our marriage line, and the red luan star can't shine on us, and the peach blossoms don't bloom here. It's a disaster!"
Fat Brother Lu suddenly remembered Zhang Jingcun, and asked Lin Mo, "Where is Jingcun? What is she going to do?"
Chen Tong said: "She is a married woman, so she will fight wherever her husband is, and she will go wherever her husband is. She will probably immigrate to the United States to accept the poison of the evil capitalism."
☆, parting and sadness
It's already the second semester of my junior year. Those who should be crazy are almost crazy. I didn't take a single class that I should escape. But in the three years of being freed, the wildness can't be taken back, no matter how many grievances and grievances there were before Resentment, recently everyone has started to get along with each other in harmony, even Wang Qiyi has begun to condescend and stand with the people
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