lose

April 2011

Tong Yanxing

At the beginning of March, I went back home, and my parents once again mentioned to me that they hoped that I would find someone else.

I didn't agree or disagree, I just didn't want to talk.

They clearly know, and I will always have Zhanning alone in my heart.Asking me to find someone else is not only irresponsible to others, but also I will not forgive myself!

Say goodbye to your parents, and when you go home, the weather is very nice.I was driving through an intersection, and when the light stopped at red, I saw a couple arguing on the sidewalk next to me.

I couldn't hear what they said, but it seemed that the girl said something, and the boy who was carefully coaxing her slapped the girl angrily.

The girl cried, the boy cried too, and finally they hugged each other.

Such a scene reminded me of the day when Zhan Ning broke up with me.

Even though he knew he didn't want to drag me down, because his condition was getting worse.

But I'm still very angry, how could he do this, didn't we agree to face it together?

So I hit him for the first time and it will be the last!

I don't want him to leave me, I don't want to, can't I rely on him to do this?

In the middle of the month, Zhanning's condition improved.I felt I needed to take this opportunity, so I proposed marriage to him.

I didn't because of sympathy, Zhan Ning knew about it, but I still need to solve the worries of my uncle and aunt.

It's not that they don't believe it, they just don't care.

I know that it is already unacceptable for them to marry a comrade, not to mention, he still won't live long...

Zhanning agreed, I know he will definitely agree!However, I haven't told my parents yet.So I asked him to wait for me and I will ask my parents for permission.

Then, I called Yan An and told him that I was going to marry Zhan Ning.

Yan An seemed to have expected such a day early in the morning, so his tone was very calm, and he said, "You go back first, and I'll go back later."

I went home, and my parents were also at home. They were getting ready to retire, so they had more free time.

Seeing me coming back, my mother was very happy, took my hand and looked left and right.

That's right, I haven't been home for a long time!

Both parents are university professors, and there are many books in the house, and my father is reading at the moment.

Seeing me, my father took off his reading glasses and put them on the table.

I don't know when, the parents' sideburns have been dyed with white hair, and the eyes can't see clearly, right?Obviously only in his 50s.

My nose was sore and I almost shed tears.

As usual, my parents asked me about my current situation, and I answered them one by one. In the end, my frown did not escape their eyes.

The mother asked worriedly: "Ah Xing, is there something on your mind?"

Looking at their caring eyes, I was almost speechless, but for Zhanning's sake, I must say it!

"Dad, Mom, I want to tell you something..."

My parents looked at me, puzzled.

I gritted my teeth, and said it out: "I have a lover, he is a boy, and I want to marry him!"

I didn't say "I want to marry him", but "I want to marry him!" Regardless of whether they agree or not, I have identified Zhan Ning for the rest of my life!

My father's reaction was beyond my expectation, but it was also reasonable.

He patted the table in front of him heavily, and cursed: "Nonsense! Do you think it's a play?"

"I didn't mess around! I really love him!"

"Sincerity, do you know what is sincerity? You must be joking to a degree!" My father was so angry that he didn't seem to believe that I decided to spend my life with a boy.

It won't work if I say it again, anyway, there is no way I will leave Fanning!

So I said, "I'm just telling you guys, I hope I can get your approval, and if you don't agree, I won't leave him either!"

"How dare you!" My father was already staring at me angrily, and my mother was crying anxiously, looking at me and then at my father, not knowing who to help.

"Dad, Mom, I'm back!" At this moment, Yan An opened the door and came in.

"Yan'an, immediately take Tong Yanxing to my room and lock it. If you don't want to know, don't expect to come out!" Seeing Yan'an, his father said to Yan'an furiously.

Yan An quickly understood what was going on, he really took me to the room, and when he closed the door, he said, "Don't worry, I'll help you deal with it."

Then he took my phone away and locked the door.

I know it must be difficult for my parents to accept, but I didn't expect their reaction to be so big...

I'm not sure if Yan'an can convince my parents, I just know that I must go back to Zhanning.

My father locked me up for two days, during which time I had no idea what happened outside.I only remember that on the third day, when Yan An opened the door and let me go out, I could clearly see that my parents seemed to be ten years old after I hadn't seen each other for two days...

I know I'm unfilial, but...

I silently paced in front of them and knelt down in self-blame.My mother hugged me, weeping uncontrollably.

The father became emaciated a lot, he didn't say anything else, he just said: "Ah Xing, we want to go and see that child."

I burst into tears...

What can I say?

All I can say is, thank you?

Yan An looked at me with a calm expression, but I could see that he was very pleased.

I was relieved and smiled gratefully at Yan An.

Yan An pursed his lips and said nothing.

I finally felt relieved, but I didn't go there for two days, Zhanning...

But I'm still very happy!

Zhanning, you have to wait for me!