most young and lonely

Yi Can was depressed and depressed for not too long. After more than two months, she finally decided again that she couldn't go on like this. More importantly, her body couldn't take it anymore.

She knew that the only one who could really save herself was herself.She gradually returned to her circle of friends and returned to her former active and cheerful state.

That day, she and An Ran went to a small gathering of friends.

In the KTV, Yi Can only clicked "Suddenly Miss You" by Mayday, and then shouted until his voice was hoarse and tears overflowed.

We are like a most beautiful song

turned into two sad movies

why you took me on the most memorable trip

And leave the most painful souvenir

We are so sweet, so beautiful, so believe

So crazy and so passionate once

Why do we still have to grow old in our respective happiness and regrets

Suddenly miss you so much, where will you be happy or wronged

Suddenly miss you, suddenly sharp memories, suddenly blurred eyes...

Friends were applauding, praising Yi Can for singing so well.

Only An Ran knew the helplessness and reluctance, sorrow and pain in her heart when she sang this song.

Most of the emotional matters are like this, the ups and downs in it are not enough for outsiders to understand.Only I know how sweet we were, and only I know how deep the scars in my heart are.

They had a great time that night.During the time of truth or dare, Yi Can was unlucky for some reason, and was always shaken. When he got together with his good friends, he didn't care about anything, and Yi Can drank one cup after another without hesitation.Maybe, subconsciously, she wanted to get drunk so that she could completely forget about that relationship.

An Ran watched from the side, feeling distressed silently, but she couldn't stop Yi Can.

When An Ran helped her back to the dormitory at night, Yi Can was almost unconscious—this was a pain for An Ran.

Yi Can drank too much, felt uncomfortable but didn't want to sleep, An Ran was worried that she was alone, so she could only accompany her.Yi Can leaned crookedly on his chair, as if the wine he drank turned into tears at this moment, flowing wantonly, and in a trance, he saw An Ran as Ruoqing.Yi Can thought it was Ruoqing who came to see her, and excitedly hugged An Ran to express his affection: "Ruoqing, why are you here? I haven't seen you for a long time! I miss you so much! Why don't you like me? You Are you still with Xu Yang? Why don't you talk?"

An Ran looked at her nonsense speechlessly, and couldn't bear it: "Yi Can, wake up, I am An Ran, not Ruoqing."

But Yi Can didn't listen at all, and just continued to talk drunkly: "I almost forgot, you don't like to talk, it's okay, I like to talk. Whatever you like about me, I will become like you , okay? Will you fall in love with me like this? What's so good about Xu Yang? He must not be as caring as I am, and he still makes you angry; I won't, I never will..."

An Ran hugged her quietly, and couldn't help crying.Her dear Lin Yican, when we first met, was so sunny, cheerful, happy and positive, but now he is tortured by emotions into this appearance.

Yi Can made a fuss until midnight before finally falling asleep.An Ran wiped away her tears, arranged for her to lie down peacefully, and then returned to her own bed.

The next day, Yi Chan had a severe headache, a typical aftereffect of a hangover.Seeing the mess in the dormitory, she realized how presumptuous she was last night.Fortunately, An Ran knew that she was suffering, and never cared about anything with her.

Afterwards, Yi Can began to avoid bringing up Ruoqing, and her life gradually returned to normal, which made An Ran feel a little relieved.The two went to and from get out of class regularly, went to the library to read and study, as before.

Yi Can understands that she has tortured herself for a while, she should not indulge in it anymore, she should learn to make herself forget all these things slowly.

When the wound starts to heal, as long as you don't touch it, it won't hurt too much.

Since Yi Can is not in the same class, if Yi Can doesn't take the initiative to find Ruoqing, he usually won't see her, and there is no need to deliberately avoid her.

That day, as usual, Yi Can and An Ran walked on campus talking and laughing.The sun was dazzling, she squinted her eyes slightly and looked forward, but accidentally caught a glimpse of Ruoqing who was walking with her friends not far away, she was still so beautiful, even more noble and bright.

The feeling at that time was like a punch being hit on a scar that was about to heal, and the scar that Yi Chan carefully protected opened again, and bright red blood flowed out again.

It turned out that a scar without a wound would be so painful.

The pain at that moment was so real, it completely paralyzed her limbs and made her unable to move a single step.

Ruoqing walked with her roommate, A Juan, and didn't even notice that there was a person fixed there on the parallel path, his eyes followed her figure, and he let the students around him go back and forth.

I don't know how long it took before Yi Can came back to his senses, everything in front of him became blurred.She knew that she was going to cry again.However, she couldn't cry, she could only blink hard.Then, just keep going like nothing happened.

Seeing her biting her lips tightly, An Ran sighed softly, didn't say anything, just quietly accompanied her.

The healing of the wound is still slow and silent.

After more than half a year, Yi Can is mostly fine.She gradually fell in love with walking on campus alone. Although she still fell into the good memories of the time with Ruoqing in the past, she was not as afraid of memories as before, afraid of thinking of her.

Feeling the warm breeze blowing on her cheeks, watching the endless life and cycle of all things around her, Yi Chan's mood will be much clearer.

Yi Can admonishes himself: life is always his own, and the power of life and death is entirely in his own hands.We are just ordinary people, why bother ourselves?

It's just that once in a while, I will suddenly worry about gains and losses, think about things, and then get into the nitty-gritty of that relationship: Have I never understood Ruoqing?Is it because if I don't confess my love, we will always go on like that?

Once on the road, Yi Can asked An Ran anxiously: "An Ran, tell me, will she forget me?"

An Ran knows that the "she" Yi Can refers to is only Ruoqing.

She stopped, looked into Yi Chan's eyes seriously, and replied: "She will never forget you. When she is lonely and sad, she will definitely think of how kind you are to her."

This answer made Yi Chan feel very happy.She doesn't expect Ruoqing to always think of her, she just asks her not to forget her.

In fact, calm down and think about it, how can each of us walk in other people's world for nothing?The traces we leave may be like the ruts of a carriage on a muddy road, or it may be just the warmth left by fingertips touching flower petals.But these deep or shallow imprints will definitely remain in the hearts of others, and at some point in the future, they will remember that there was such an existence in their lives.

Wound healing always takes time.Don't worry, grow up slowly, time will heal all wounds, and we will eventually accept everything and be calm and calm.