expectations from the future

"Ji Wei, I will stand next to you during the fuck." Chu Xia tried to make her smile brighter.The eyes behind the glasses are full of anticipation.Well, this girl is the best, she is willing to accompany me to the bathroom on the first day of school!And...it looks really friendly.

"Well, okay." The slightly fat girl who also wore glasses nodded.Her curly hair and fair skin add a lot to her.

"Oh! Ji Wei! I'm going to stand with you!" The girl with her hair tied into a cute bun excitedly squeezed Chu Xia who was standing there, and grabbed Ji Wei's arm with a smile.

"Haha, Ji Wei, Zhang Shuang has been saying that she wants to stand with you since the end of get out of class." Lu Xue followed behind Zhang Shuang with her hands in her pockets, and then smiled and took Ji Wei's other arm, "I want to stand with Ji Wei too!"

"Hey, it's obviously me first! Ji Wei is the most beautiful, my goddess!" Zhang Shuang, who had a ball head, covered his cheeks with his hands and made a happy gesture.It feels like a sage who has little red flowers all over his body because he can stay with Sakura.

"Oh my god, nympho girl. Look at Ji Wei, Zhang Shuang has started to be nympho again! It's been like this since class, and it's been a pity to be her at the same table." Lu Xue said Showing an exaggerated disgusted expression.

"Ahaha..." Ji Wei, who was regarded as the focus of competition, looked at Chu Xia who was aside, with a helpless expression on her face.

"Hi, I'm Youzhen." The slender girl with ponytail came over with a friendly smile.I took a picture of Chu Xia who stood aside and felt like a passerby who was at a loss again.

"My name is Chu Xia." The girl breathed a sigh of relief.She really didn't know what kind of onlooker expression she should make when others were playing around, and she was naturally dull, and she didn't know how to participate happily.Fortunately, someone came to talk to me.

"Is our class standing in a row here? We are about the same height, shall we stand together?" You Zhen looked at Chu Xia's expression a little funny.The child's eyes behind the glasses were full of gratitude that even she didn't know.

Early summer, my early summer.You don't have to.This time, I am with you.

"Okay, okay... But it looks like you are the tallest, you should stand in front..." After carefully measuring the heights of several people, Chu Xia suggested.

"Ah, your name is Chu Xia? You're so cute." You Zhen smiled as she stretched out her hand and rubbed herself ten years ago.It was an amazing experience, seeing myself in Girls' Generation.In fact, at this time, I can still look decent, after all, it is the most slender time in my 25 years of life.

In early summer, would you be happy to be valued and loved like this?

You will be happy.But how can I let you understand that being accepted and recognized by others is not the whole of life.

"Chu Xia, does that You Zhen want to have dinner with us?" At noon, when she saw the two talking together before, Lu Xue asked.

"Huh? She didn't say anything. Well, maybe not..." Chu Xia followed Lu Xue's eyes a little uneasy and looked at the girl by the window.Ahhh, I always feel that it is impossible to measure, what should I do?Will you be unhappy if you bring Youzhen Lu Xue to dinner?And Youzhen didn't say whether she wanted to eat together, would it be embarrassing to just ask?

"Ah, Chu Xia, Lu Xue, you go and eat. I'm not going with you." Looking up, You Zhen smiled and waved her hands.

Do you feel uneasy even if someone suddenly joins you?At that time, I was really fragile.

Youzhen rested her chin and looked out of the window at the playground.It was lunch break time, and children in school uniforms flocked to the school gate like a blue ocean.Carrying the laughter and tears of youth, floating immature hope and loss.The figures of Chu Xia and Lu Xue were quickly submerged in the crowd.Youzhen couldn't help evoking a faint smile.

At this time ten years ago, it turned out that I had gotten along well with them.

Time will always bury something.

She can't remember much of these things in the distant future.She only remembers the inexplicable isolation and embarrassment of being at a loss.Then after a long period of growth, she no longer wants to pursue right and wrong, and all the secret feelings of her girlhood have been diluted to the point of indifference.

It doesn't matter to bring it up or let it go, it doesn't matter to be sad or angry.If it wasn't for the sudden death and rebirth, she would have forgotten the immature early summer during this period of time.

Around this time, Lu Xue would also feel hesitant, in this high school class where there is no one familiar with her classmates.

But that's fine too.The newly established friendship between girls is just like this little bit of accumulation, and then one day, it will grow into a bond that will not disappear.If it's really possible to stay together like this for a long time, that's really great.She understood how much she was grateful to the girl named Lu Xue for her initial company when she joined a group at that time.

She shouldn't intervene and interrupt her life at will.During this period, I am very dependent on myself, and I still cannot learn to be strong and assertive.Ten years ago, Chu Xia should learn to grow by himself. Making friends, bumping into walls, failing, and learning are all essential ways on the road to growth.No one can avoid it, no one can hide from it.

Although she looks clumsy and even stupid, sometimes she is so inferior that she can't even look down on herself, but these are herself.It is the necessary process for her to transform into the present soul.

However, my dear Chu Xia, you don't have to panic too much.This time, I already have me as your solid backing.After ten years in the future, you will grow even better.You don't have to have so much pain that can be forgotten for a long time, and you don't have so much confusion and hesitation during the rebellious period.

My dear Chu Xia, you will become a better me.

*************Home in early summer************

"Mom, a new classmate has been transferred to the class today. Her name is You Zhen. She has long hair, which is very beautiful and elegant." Chu Xia put down her schoolbag, stood in front of the mirror at home, and fiddled with herself, who had grown a little but couldn't tie it into hair. up hair.

"Having such long hair in high school is so nutritious. If you want me to say that you should cut your hair, it's convenient for me to cut it for you. Why can't you keep it when you go to college? I don't care how much you toss about it. And the long hair How troublesome it is to wash your hair..." The middle-aged woman who brought the food to the table couldn't help nagging.The pointed oval face looks a bit too old after being scratched by the years, but it still maintains its youthful beauty.

"No! You told me that when I was in elementary school. If I didn't cut it back then, I would have long hair now! Hmph, many people in the class are growing long hair now. I want to keep it too." After a long time Still unable to tie up her hair, Chu Xia combed it casually, "Mom, you just don't like long hair. There is no girl who doesn't like long hair, and you like short hair..."

"Long hair is so troublesome. Hurry up and eat, the food is cold. Your dad is coming back late tonight. Really, he knows how to drink outside every day... How expensive it is, even if someone else treats you Is it favors? Really, I don’t know how to live at all... You say that he is a coolie, and he can only work for others if he owes favors! He is not taken seriously, why is he so ignorant of people? I'm almost forty, and I don't take it seriously because I'm too weak to do work..." Chu Xia's mother thought about it and took out some food, and carried it into the bedroom.There lay her old mother, Chu Xia's grandmother, who was unable to move due to cerebral thrombosis sequelae.

Unhappily poking the rice in the bowl, Chu Xia didn't make a sound.It's like this every day, can't you have a meal with me? !Anyway, grandma eats very slowly, so when is it hot in the pot?You eat so fast, and there is not such a short time...

"Eat quickly, go back and do your homework after eating! Take it easy, if you go to the cafeteria to eat from now on, you won't be able to grab food." Chu Xia's mother came out of the back room and said.Then pick up the remote control and tune the TV program to the News Life channel.

"Ah, I got it." The girl frowned unhappily, took some cabbage soup and vermicelli with a spoon, mixed it into the rice, and swallowed it quickly.Stewed cabbage with potatoes Cabbage stewed with potatoes!This dish is every day!Also put onions in it!It's obvious that you don't want me to eat it!I know I hate the smell of chopped scallions!

"I eat this little every day! I don't need to eat anymore! It's really hard to cook for you! There are leftovers every day, and I don't eat the leftovers! I don't know what you eat outside all day!" Chu Xia's mother reprimanded her unhappily for the dish bowl she touched.When she was a child, she didn't even have to eat cabbage and stewed potatoes. What happened to the children now?Pick and choose!It's really hard to serve.

"If you don't eat, don't eat! I won't eat anymore!" After sending the rice bowl to the sink, Chu Xia ran back to her room and slammed the door shut.

"Meow..." The cat sleeping on the bed was awakened by the loud closing sound, jumped off the ground and approached the girl affectionately.

"It's so noisy! What are you calling next to me all day long!" Throwing textbooks and exercise books on the desk, Chu Xia yelled angrily.

'Meow' kitten obviously didn't understand the girl's irritability, but just expressed his affection in his own way.

"It's so annoying! Get out of here!" Opening the door, the girl violently carried the cat out and shut it outside.

"What do you call a cat? What does a cat know?! Be good, baby, and mom will give you something to eat later." Chu Xia's mother patted the kitten that ran to her side.

"Hum!" Eat, eat, eat!You treat it so well and ask it to be your child!I don't want to be your child!Closing the door angrily again, the girl graffitied on the straw pad in displeasure.I'm bored, I'm bored, I'm bored!How could I be born in such a family!

It's all because I'm not pretty, and people don't like me if my family doesn't buy me good things!Youzhen is so beautiful, with thin and long hair, she must not have these troubles in her family.She must have made friends easily... I envy her...

How nice it would be if I were her...

Oh, why are the math problems so difficult!I can’t do it... Forget it, I’ll copy their homework tomorrow morning. Ji Wei is so nice and will definitely lend it to me. Lu Xue seems to be good at studying too... Woo, why do I feel like I’m being hated again?Lu Xue didn't play with me after lunch today. Fortunately, Ji Wei came back early... Ji Wei still sings, her voice is so nice!But Zhang Shuang is always pestering Ji Wei, how could I have a place... If I were Ji Wei, I would be so popular...

"You just came back! What time is it? Huh?" Chu Xia's mother's voice sounded, although it was deliberately lowered, it still seemed a bit abrupt in the silent night.

"Ah...Didn't I say, hiccup, let's go eat...they are dragging me, it's not good for me to leave directly..." The man is not very good at expressing his thoughts, so he said something in a low voice, and there was something in between. Mixed with a few wine hiccups.

"Okay, okay, wash up and go to bed quickly. Keep your voice down, the child is studying!" Although the woman wanted to lower her voice, she obviously couldn't control it.

The parents' voices gradually lowered.But Chu Xia, who was hiding in the house, seemed to be able to smell the coldness and alcohol brought back from his father.

The desk lamp in the small room glows lonely, and the black water-based pen tip blurs out an ink dot on the paper of the exercise book.

In the end, the girl took the book and tried to do more math problems little by little, but even if she drew XYZ full of XYZ on the straw paper, she couldn't get one of the four options in the multiple-choice question.

Well, domain... range...

Staring at the concept in the math book, it seems that two flowers can grow on it, Chu Xia pouted and seriously doubted her IQ--the first semester of high school is about to end, but she still can't do the first thing she talked about!

Huh... Obviously Lu Xue also said that she didn't make up lessons in advance, why can everyone do so well in the exam... How can I be so stupid...

The black sky had few stars, and in this old neighborhood, the lights on the sixth floor were turned on very late.

The author has something to say: What our parents gave us is all they have.There may be deviations in some cognitions, but please communicate with a gentle heart. Children and parents are connected by blood, which should be the most intimate existence.I think 'home' is always the most beautiful word in the world.

Then, when you see the "" double quotation marks and all the unmarked No.1 titles before and after the character's name, they are all talking about the character's inner activities at that time. _(:зゝ∠)_Please forgive the author for thinking that adding too many quotation marks or brackets is troublesome and will appear messy...

That, I just thought of it today, the cover of the article is a picture directly found by Baidu! OTZ If the big baby that looks like Manchiken belongs to someone or who took the photo, if you think my way of doing this is very unpleasant... please don't be careless and tell me!The author said that he will definitely change the cover _(:зゝ∠)_ because after searching for a long time, he still doesn’t know how to authorize, so hereby explain.Then, I express my deep admiration to the original author, it’s so cute~(≧▽≦)/~

Finally, thank you friends who can see here. O(∩_∩)O