expectations from the future

"Youzhen? Youzhen! Today is the first day of transferring to another school. You have to study hard and don't be late for me! Do you hear that?! I'll call the teacher!" The woman's voice was a bit shrill, mixed with the sound of running water in the bathroom The sound is not very real.

"I know, mom, wait for me, shall we go out together?" The girl simply wiped her face, and tied her long black hair into a neat ponytail.

"...Then hurry up." There was an inconspicuous pause before the woman continued.It seems that they are not quite used to such sudden intimacy.

She knew that the relationship between their mother and daughter could be described as 'incompatibility', but so what?

Her daughter must excel in her studies,

You must be obedient and well-behaved,

Must be generous,

It must be better than her life.

But unexpectedly, the daughter who had pinned all her hopes and became the focus of her life instead of her dead husband was suddenly diagnosed with depression and had serious suicidal tendencies!

What is she going to do?She is a woman who has no one to rely on in this strange city, and she has already severed ties with her family in order to get married... What can she do?She doesn't even have any savings, and she barely supports her family with a little money from part-time jobs every day.Even the medicine prescribed by the hospital could not be given to her daughter. The result of continuous discontinuation of medicine was that when she came home in the middle of the night one day, she found the bathtub full of blood...

That kind of red, tragic and desperate, is enough to drive her to hell and wipe out the only remaining hope in this miserable life.But... what can she do...

"Mom, I'm fine. Let's go quickly." Youzhen was smiling, and the sun was shining, as beautiful as a dewdropped epiphyllum.At the age of fifteen or sixteen, it is the season of blooming flowers. Even the old and fat school uniform can't hide the vigorous vitality like the rising sun.

"Well, hurry up, it's okay to be late on the first day. I told the teacher and the principal for a long time before I gave you a chance to transfer. You must work hard! Do you know? Mom doesn't ask you to be promising, but at least , you want to be able to earn a living for yourself? I still have a few more years to live..." Quickly putting away her fragility, the woman still couldn't help nagging.She knew that her daughter hated her strictness, but what would a family like theirs do if they didn't rely on their own efforts?There is so much social pressure now!Her daughter must live happily ever after...

"Well, mom, don't worry, I will work hard." Youzhen waited for the woman to lock the door, and then took the rough and dry hands affectionately.

"Hmph, you have to remember, I'm doing it for your own good! Okay, okay, I'll buy you some food for school, buy whatever you like, and if you don't have enough money, remember to ask me...don't buy those messy things again. magazine novels!" The woman always thought that the reason her daughter got that strange disease was because of those dark and unrealistic books.So at this moment, he emphasized again with raised eyebrows.

"Well, don't worry, don't worry, I won't buy it again. You see, the price of boxed lunches has risen now, so I don't have the money to waste it. Mom, you have to take care of your health... We will all get better, and I will be admitted to college , it will become excellent, and it will make you no longer work so hard. So, mom, look, things are going in a good direction." Gently, she hugged her in the street cleaner's uniform, no A woman who is willing to go one step further towards the school, You Zhen said.

"...You're the only one who can speak glibly! Well, go to school quickly, I will call the teacher." The girl's arms were slender and her body was soft, and her hair still had a fresh fragrance.But the woman seemed to be scalded, and hurriedly used preaching to cover up her bewilderment.

"Youzhen...you are her treasure." The woman's hunched back disappeared from sight, and the girl with the schoolbag pursed her lips very lightly.

You Chunhua, 36 years old, but looks as old as 46 years old.In order to break up with her boyfriend's love and family, but when the successful couple finally got married, her boyfriend's life was taken away by death.After all, this relationship is separated by yin and yang.The burden of life bent her back, and the vicissitudes of the years obliterated the dreams of the past.She finally bowed her head to life, she finally compromised with fate.

Probably because the dream of going to school back then was stifled in poverty, so You Chunhua had terribly strict requirements on You Zhen's studies.You are not allowed to eat if you don’t get the first place, you are not allowed to play if you don’t get a full score in the test, and if there are any slight flaws on the report card, you will be severely repaired and taught a lesson...

This overly heavy love finally crushed Youzhen's fragile soul.

Chu Xia, who came ten years later, looked down at her white and slender wrist, where a deep cut was hidden under the sports wristband.The flesh-colored scars were ugly and hideous, as if malicious from all over the world.

However, Youzhen, the 15-year-old Youzhen who was supposed to exist in this world and prove herself to the world with a vivid mark.Do you know how much pain your mother has?You must not know the pain of losing a loved one, the collapse of a lifelong belief...that is a blow that can destroy a soul.You must not know that your mother must have rummaged through the Cihai, searched the brilliant allusions of the entire Chinese civilization, and then picked and weighed countless times and compared countless times, and then tremblingly chose "Zhen" as your name, I'm afraid that a bad name will bring a little bit of twists and turns to your life.

You must not know her happiness and surprise when you are babbling, and you must not know her comfort and peace of mind when you have excellent grades.A single mother who is struggling at the bottom of society is too hard. She will feel guilty even if she eats an extra piece of meat, and she will worry about whether you are full even if she eats an extra bite.

She has nothing, she only has you.Although she did something wrong, she loved too much, and as a mother, her arms were not hotbeds but thorns.

If 15-year-old Youzhen knew this, she would definitely not do that.She will learn to act like a baby, she will quietly hug her mother's waist when she is in pain, she will come out of the room at night when her mother returns home late, and hand her a glass of warm water instead of pretending to be asleep and avoiding it from afar.

I know, like myself.

Love is full of responsibility.

You Chunhua must not know how terrible her actions are, she must not know how biased her thoughts are, and she must not know how sad her child is.The newborn soul is too fragile to bear such a heavy pressure, and love that is too heavy or too loose will make her feel uneasy.

That woman must not know that Youzhen, who is only 15 years old, still yearns for the tenderness after berating her, that young child longs for a soft embrace as a destination, and that young soul longs for loving care as a comfort.

If a woman knew, she would never do it.She will definitely curl the corners of her mouth into a loving arc, just right to warm her daughter's heart, and pat her daughter on the top of the head after every failure and say it's okay.She must not be so anxious, she will express more.

I know, just like my mother back then.

First parents, first children.

After all, this is not the age when they grew up, and this is not the world we will know in the future.Too much strangeness and tension lead to ups and downs, and too much cherishment and expectation lead to constant misunderstandings.They all look forward to each other, but they both forget to pass on their ideas.

The sun is rising, and a little hope is cast from the gaps in the branches.The light spots hit the girl's delicate face, rendering her expression extra warm.

On the creaking dilapidated bicycle, the girl with a schoolbag was in a hurry to catch up with the time.

You Zhen looked at the back of that fast rider, with deep tenderness flowing from her black eyes.

In early summer, you must not be like this.

My early summer, you will not regret the rebellion at the beginning ten years later.

The author has something to say: In fact, sometimes this is the case. It's not that you don't pay attention to it, but that if you pay too much attention, you will be alienated.But life is getting better little by little~ I hope all my friends can communicate smoothly with the people around me, and one day I will become a more ideal self↖(^ω^)↗

I found someone who has a favorite!And it was posted so late last night that someone can see it, I am very grateful (づ￣3￣)づ～

Thank you very much for the friends who can watch, and the friends who are willing to collect~

Please rest assured, this article must not be cheating! yes, does anyone think the cover is cute?That’s it, I’ve been tinkering with the cover for a long time, and this article is also a stalk that I came up with after a long time of tinkering, just like a child...(*^__^*)