expectations from the future

"Hahahaha... Lu Xue, you are so stupid..." A boy on a bicycle quickly kicked a few times to catch up with two girls who were slowly riding side by side, and patted one of them with a smile.

"Ah! Kou Fan, you are so annoying! Just wait for me!" The girl who was patted on the shoulder pouted, and immediately accelerated the speed of her bicycle, trying to catch up with the boy in front to avenge her revenge '.

"La la la..." The boy intentionally slowed down a bit, waiting for the girl to catch up, and then started to speed up again.Then he turned his head and stuck out his tongue at the girl who was chasing after him with a normal bicycle with difficulty.

"Hmph! Kou Fan! You're doomed to go to school tomorrow!" Also giving up fighting with her classmates, Lu Xue waved her fist at Kou Fan, only to belatedly realize that her little friend who went home with her had fallen behind She was separated by a large group of students riding bicycles.She frowned indistinctly, then the girl parked the car by the side of the road and began to wait unhappily.

"Ah... Lu Xue... I'm sorry, you, you rode a little fast..." The girl behind caught up panting after a while, apologizing in embarrassment.His slightly long black hair was blown tousled by the wind, and a pair of glasses was placed on his unremarkable face. He looked like a nerd described in a graphic novel.The old bicycles make a constant 'squeak' noise, and from time to time, passers-by will misunderstand that they are ringing the bell.

"Oh, Chu Xia! You're riding too slowly. Okay, let's go home quickly, huh, you saw that too, Kou Fan, I want him to look good when I go to school tomorrow! Chu Xia, you have to testify to me Oh." Lu Xue complained, and then changed the topic back to what happened to her just now.

"Hmm...haha, but he rides really fast..." The girl called Chu Xia raised her glasses on the bridge of her nose with a blunt answer.

"Hmph, that means his car saved his life..." Lu Xue snorted twice, but there was still joy in her voice.

Fifteen or sixteen-year-old boys and girls, who have just entered high school, naturally have expectations for new classmates in new classes.Boys are particularly active, and girls are also looking for similar partners to play together.

The two girls chatted while cycling, and gradually disappeared into the night.

"Chu Xia..." At the corner of the street, a girl leaned against the wall, silently engraving that figure in her heart.

I know, I know.

I know what a rough time you just had.

I know what lonely years you have just gone through.

Then you learn a little bit of poor camouflage.

Disguise yourself, pretend to be every ordinary happy girl.

Going along with others, going along with others seems to lower yourself into the dust.

But, child, you don't understand, how can a person's personality be modified at will?It's like everyone's past cannot be arbitrarily deleted.

My young child, you don't know that you are restraining your nature, and you don't know how painful it will be for you if this goes on.

My young child, this year, you are only a little over 15 years old, how young you are.She has a shy smile on her face, and her soul is vulnerable to a single blow.

The days when you were squeezed out made you have to carefully consider every move you make, and the years when you had little communication made you fearfully imitate and copy every frown and smile.

My favorite time is to go to class instead of get out of class. I have to go fast on the way home as if I am very busy.

My favorite is the class where the teacher strictly arranges the seats and no private discussion is allowed. The most headache is the type of free grouping such as physical education class and experimental class.

In the physical education class that everyone likes, you always have to pretend that you are tired and don't want to move, so as to cover up your embarrassment that you are so bored that you walk around like a fool.According to the inter-class exercises arranged by the students themselves, I always wish I could not be able to do strenuous activities after a serious illness. I am extremely looking forward to staying in the classroom on duty, but they are always preempted by more active and outgoing children.

Even though he tried his best to integrate into the group and pretended not to know the ridicule and exclusion, he still wandered awkwardly on the edge.

Every sports meeting is the most annoying time. Everyone doesn’t need to be organized to stay together, play and laugh happily, but I can only look at other people’s scenery with an embarrassed smile and pretend to be very happy.Even the classmates who would come to talk to him in good faith on weekdays would abandon themselves with peace of mind at this time.I wish I could go on a long run and spend the whole day saying I'm tired and need to rest, but there's no way.Because my sports are really bad...

Whenever the class changes rows every week and it is their turn to sit next to the wall or the window, I always have to argue with my deskmate about who should sit there, because giving up my seat to my deskmate and standing in the aisle when everyone is going out after class will block the the way of other students.Familiar people will smile at each other and go out together, but when they come to me, others will always politely walk away from other seats, as if they suddenly grew ten years old...

painful.

very lonely.

Very sad.

I know,

I understand it all.

Your pain, your sadness, your sadness, your expectation, I understand everything.

Because, I am you.early summer.

In September of this year, I, 25-year-old Chu Xia, died and became 15-year-old You Zhen.

I am Chu Xia, and I am also You Zhen.

But in early summer, I come with all your expectations for the future, and I come with all my expectations for you.

Chu Xia, you can't do this.

You can't lose yourself for the sake of her whim of kindness, that's terrible, and my heart aches.

You can't sacrifice all your edges and corners just because you want to be with you, that's too painful, and I will feel bad.

Early summer, my young child,

You're just shy and easily shy, and it's not your fault that you don't know how to respond quickly at the right time.

You just have different hobbies. It's not your fault that you don't like what the mainstream people of your age like and can't participate in the topic.

It's not your fault that you are just clumsy and unable to express yourself, and you don't know how to defend the bottom line that has been inadvertently violated.

Really, it's not your fault.

Because even after ten years of modification and smearing, Chu Xia from the future still can't learn these things.

Even if you try your best to express yourself, learn to smile gently to be accepted by everyone, and use the energy of endorsement to remember those celebrity variety shows and luxury brands.

I still can't learn this.

I never know how to distinguish whether others’ behavior is accidentally crossing the line or deliberately testing my bottom line. I am so sensitive that other people can notice the casual frown and leave silently. I will never be able to distinguish the faces of those stars and all kinds of gossip. , I don’t understand why the things that ordinary people can do will be infinitely magnified and then praised or criticized when they are put on them.I can never see the difference between high-end goods and street stalls, except of course the quality is too poor.

Chu Xia, ten years later, I still can't learn these things.I can't be who you think you are.

Ten years later, my life is single, and I have gone through all the learning stages in my life, but I still can't make the kind of girlfriends and confidants in your mind.The mobile phone is only used to check the time, all social software only subscribes for updates, and only Tencent QQ will send congratulations on birthdays. The call time of the phone bill will be endless if you don’t call your parents. Traffic charges generated by browsing the web.

But early summer, don't be disappointed, you really tried hard, but I really don't like those.

I don't like the quarrel of so-called friends who gather together, I don't like being hurt and used wantonly under the banner of friends, I don't like being prying into private affairs, and I don't like the hypocritical politeness on social pages.

I don’t like to be coaxed and treated by irrelevant people when I have gained something. I don’t like girls who sometimes have malicious gossip. , I don’t like ordering a meal and then pushing and shoving and refusing to go downstairs to pick it up. I don’t like the overwhelming entertainment and gossip pages.

I like to go to bed when I’m tired, to order food when I’m hungry, to buy water when I’m thirsty, to watch something as I like when I’m bored, to go out for a stroll when I’m happy, and to choose the movie I want to watch.

I like sincere thoughts and greetings, I like help and communication out of kindness, I like watching boring documentaries and historical films and those movies that the director is serious about making.

Ten years later, I have bought a lot of things, such as the thick edition of Shan Hai Jing, the pirated but very cheap Compendium of Materia Medica, the very cute and cute cat photo comics, and I specially registered the online disk for my collection. I like it very much. The novel comics, the furry hair clips that are said to be tender, and the shiny crystal jewelry that many people love.

I've bought a lot, I've made a lot, I've seen a lot.I admit my shortcomings and don't deny my advantages. I will improve my shortcomings but I have learned to ignore and hide them when I can't do anything.

Instead of enjoying loneliness and deliberately staying alone, I will also make friends with like-minded people with good intentions and spend time together happily.

I just learned how to make myself more happy.

So, lo and behold.My dear Chu Xia, there is really no need to wrong yourself like that.

Because you can obviously live better.

Because you can obviously grow better.

My early summer.

The girl's slender fingers covered her eyes, and a warm, salty liquid slid down her cheeks in this strange yet familiar late summer night.

I don't like too noisy occasions, I'm not good at getting along with many people, and I can't stand being ignored too much.

Not good looking, not good figure, not good family background.

But early summer, none of this should stand in the way of your joy.These are not things you should suffer, you can always get better, you can always learn more.The world will give you what you deserve.What you should change, the world will teach you.Chuxia, you are only 15 years old, you can be a little bit willful, you can be a little bit more free.

My early summer, what should I do to make you happy?

In my early summer, you must hold your head high and smile brightly. The most worthless thing in this world is to ignore yourself for the sake of someone who doesn't value you.

Time will let you learn these cruelly through pain, but, my dear Chu Xia, how can I bear it?How can I bear to see you go through those sadness and depression again?How can I bear to see you spiraling into self-loathing once again?

Chu Xia, you have to know that the first thing you should please in this world is yourself.

If you are in full bloom, the breeze will come.

You must be free and proud like the cool breeze in early summer.

The author has something to say: Let me reiterate, this article is Chu Xia [ten years later] who was reborn as Youzhen, and found that Chu Xia herself ten years ago existed miraculously in this time and space.So our adult Chu Xia (You Zhen) from the future started to help the juvenile Chu Xia to get out of the kind of situation where he used a magnifying glass to find his shortcomings and go along with others in order to have friends because he is not on the same channel as everyone’s cuteness. strange circle.

Above, the detailed explanation version copy.It's an inspirational article that the author feels very fresh, the thunder point is that the protagonist of the full text is only Chu Xia!Adult and toddler versions!Ah ha ha... If it is not a CP...if OTZ can accept it, it will be such a CP.If you can’t accept it, then ignore it, well, anyway, this article is Qingshuiwen (⊙v⊙), the only thing written is that girls with low self-esteem become strong! yes~