Reluctant

Cold equipment.

And Bai Huan's red eyes.

Red as if crying.

Su She tried to open her eyes to look at him.

Then he whispered, "Ah Huan, don't cry."

There was chaos in his mind, and Su She gradually fell into darkness.

The screen stopped abruptly.

……

Bai Huan stood outside the glass and looked at Su She.

The surroundings are quiet as if the whole world is dead.

Su She's voice seemed to be coming from beside her ears, so soft, so faint.

Bai Huan looked at the skinny Su She lying on the ICU bed, looked at Su She's pale face, and told him not to cry when he was about to lose consciousness.

Bai Huan suddenly squatted down.

Thinking of the night before her birthday, she took him outside and told her elder brother to take good care of her uncle.

She said uncle was stupid.

She said that leukemia is very painful, very painful, very painful.

She said I don't want to die.

don't want to die.

Uncle must not want to die either.

"Cough." Bai Huan suddenly felt a pain in his chest, and he curled up into a ball in pain, clenched the clothes on his chest, and had difficulty breathing.

What if Su She would die?

dead words.

dead?

Bai Huan's eyes were a little hazy, and he couldn't figure out the meaning of dying.

dead?Su She won't die.

How could Su She be willing?

When Mingming vomited blood and fainted at the seaside, he still grabbed his hand and said he wanted to go home.

Go back to the house with Bai Huan.

(forty)

Xiaohuan, don't be afraid, mother is here, don't cry.

Bai Huan, save me, please save me.

Huan, you believe me.

You deserve to be loved all your life.

The person who deserves to fall in love with you will live a lonely life.

Deserve it.

You deserve no one to love you.

……

Bai Huan opened his eyes, and his eyes touched a piece of white.

The place where the heart was beating was painful, and he clenched the quilt tightly for a while.

After a long time, I heard someone say, "How does it feel when your heart hurts?"

Bai Huan clenched his palms, and said with some difficulty, "It doesn't hurt like Su She."

Lin An sniffed, her voice was low and choked with sobs, "Xiao She has survived the danger and is fine for now, don't worry."

Bai Huan lowered his eyes, staring at the white sheets with a dazed expression, "Su She won't die, right?"

Lin An hummed, "He won't die."

Hearing this, Bai Huan suddenly laughed.

That kind of smile that flickers in the sun, that kind of smile that Su She likes most about Bai Huan.

"That's good, that's good." Bai Huan said softly.

Lin An was originally standing at the end of the bed, but he was taken aback when he heard this, and turned to the side.

Before Bai Huan suddenly fainted outside the ICU, the doctor said it was due to long-term mental stress, too much pressure, and psychological reasons.

The hand tightly clutching the clothes, the obvious blue blood vessels under the skin.

It hurts, it must hurt.

Otherwise, how could a person like Bai Huan collapse in pain.

Before talking about Su She's love for Bai Huan, she loved Bai Huan so much that she couldn't ask for it all her life.

Bai Huan still refused to look at him.

Today, however, the spring tide comes late with rain.

Come late and hurry.

Know why today is the beginning.

Why bother.

The expression on Lin An's face was somewhat pitiful.

"Brother Bai." He whispered.

Bai Huan looked up at him, "Huh?"

"If Xiao She is gone, what will you do?" Lin An asked.

The smile on Bai Huan's face froze for a few seconds, then he chuckled, "Cry."

Lin An was surprised, "Brother Bai?"

Bai Huan smiled, "If Su She leaves, what can I do?"

"I can't help it." A deep laugh.

A deep sense of powerlessness swept over me.

He couldn't help it, not at all.

……

Su She actually woke up earlier than Bai Huan.

Just after waking up, he saw Xie Yang standing by his side.

Asking the doctor to remove the instrument that was in the way, Su She grinned at Xie Yang, "Ah Yang, you have worked hard."

His voice was weak and his face was pale.

Xie Yang seemed to have something stuck in his throat, and it took him a while to speak, "Does Xiaoshe hurt?"

Su She froze for a few seconds, then shook her head, "It doesn't hurt."

"Ah Huan has something to do, I have to come back later." Xie Yang tucked the quilt for him and said in a low voice.

Su She nodded, "Yes."

Xie Yang saw his indifferent look a little funny, "Xiao She is getting colder and colder."

Su She blinked and said softly, "Some things are just right, some things..."

"Just stop it before it happens." Su She smiled, "Unfortunately, I'm not a good person, I always think he likes me."

Xie Yang looked at him and hummed.

Su She laughed again, "I used to think that being cared about by others was the most beautiful thing in the world. I thought about it before..."

"Have a small house, raise a puppy, don't need to be too rich, have enough food and clothing, and then have a lover. I don't need him to spoil me, I just need to know that he loves me."

"Now..." Su She turned her head and looked out of the window, and she could see a small piece of light blue sky, "I just want to be alone, no lover, no friends, just be alone."

Xie Yang frowned, ready to speak.

Su She made a 'shh' gesture, her face was pale and tired, "Maybe it's because I don't know the blessings in the midst of blessings... But, if I die..."

"The living people will be somewhat unhappy."

Lin An would cry.

Bai Huan...

What should Bai Huan do?

What about the person who said he liked Su She?

"I regret pestering him."

Su She sighed and said in a low voice.

If I knew I would get sick, I would definitely not pester him.

Regardless of whether he likes it true or not.

Whether it's sympathy or sincerity, it's fine if I didn't touch it from the beginning.

"If I die..." Su She looked at Xie Yang's stunned expression, looked at him, and said solemnly, "A Yang must take good care of him."

"He's like a kid."

"He's not happy and I'm so uneasy about my death." Su She chuckled at the end.

Laugh and laugh and cry.

Su She cried and said, "I can't bear it."

"I can't bear to..."

"I like him."

"I don't want to die..."

"It's hard for him to like me, it's hard."

He just likes me.

I'm going to die.

I'm going to die.

I'm really...unwilling.

……

Su She didn't cry very loudly.

Xie Yang raised his hand to wipe his face, then turned his face away.

He used to think that a large part of Su She's life was so sad because he was too soft-tempered, but now that he thinks about it...

He is the strongest person.

He actually wanted to get rid of everyone who cared about him.

Not reconciled.

How can you be willing?

"Live well if you are not reconciled." When Su She slowed down, Xie Yang's suppressed voice suddenly sounded.

"I won't take care of Bai Huan for you, he will be served by you." Xie Yang continued.

"Every year is different, but I hope our years will always be the four of us."

"Xiao She." Xie Yang stretched out his hand to rub Su She's bald head, and said softly, "Don't make us sad."

……

"Last time, a nurse came to me and told me that the relationship between Mr. Bai and Mr. Su is really good." Lin An handed Bai Huan a glass of water.

Bai Huan leaned against the head of the bed, took the water glass, stared at the water in the glass in a daze.

"I said, no, Mr. Bai didn't like Mr. Su before." Lin An said in a deep voice.

The water in the glass swirled slightly.

"Su She once said that he loves Baihuan so much that he can't even find a glimmer of hope in his bones." Lin An smiled mockingly, "There is no glimmer of hope, I still want to love, do you think he is stupid? Hahaha. How silly."

The upper eyelashes of Bai Huan's lowered eyes trembled slightly, and he smiled wryly.

"I said that when I went to college with Su She, when I went out to play, I often heard people telling him to die behind his back, saying that he was disgusting. I felt angry. I was going to find those people. I would scold them if I didn't fight. Go back. But that fool smiled and told me that they were right, even Bai Huan thought I was dirty."

Lin An blinked heavily, Su She's idiot's expression at that time always appeared in his mind.

The smile on the face melted, and the feeling of being exposed to the sun made me want to cry.

Bai Huan held the cup tightly, the veins in his hands were turning blue.

The water in the cup shook violently, and some water droplets fell into the cup.

"I once mentioned my sister to Su She. I said that Brother Bai liked my sister because she looked like his mother. Guess what Su She told me?" Lin An simply kept it simple, and he didn't understand why he said it These, he is just very uncomfortable.

Bai Huan doesn't know anything, he doesn't know anything.

He didn't even know how much Su She liked him.

Bai Huan looked up at him, his eyes were red.

Seeing this, Lin An was even more sad, and quickly stretched out his hand and rubbed his eyes, "He said, Xiao Lin, please lend me some money to have the whole face removed. I glanced at him, and he said again, you said that if I become the person he likes, Look, will he like me?"

"Even a little liking."

"Just a little bit of liking."

"I really want to kill you." Lin An felt that he was about to cry, wiped his face, and looked at Bai Huan, "Can't you fucking like him earlier! Can't you be sooner?"

"If you cared about him every time he was sick, he wouldn't be so disrespectful to himself."

"I don't understand. How can someone who can't even love himself love you so deeply?"

"Someone told me later that because he gave all his love to the person he loved, there is no more, no more." Lin An said with a strong cry.

"Sometimes I really want to strangle that idiot Su She to death." Lin An wanted to laugh, but he couldn't. When Tianheng was a lawyer, it was true that you helped him, but if you had a conscience, he wouldn’t go to the construction site, and he only ate one meal a day, and dogs eat better than him.”

Bai Huan face