The gender of my goddess is unscientific

The author has something to say: Because I saw a woman who couldn't find a job because she was too beautiful, I suddenly had a big brain hole.

I want to become a normal child. Only normal children can get pampered and resources. I want to grow up quickly so that I can decide my own destiny, instead of wandering like a duckweed.

Shangshang started to go to the bathroom alone in the dead of night to practice smiling in front of the mirror. The corners of the mouth should be raised moderately, the teeth should not be exposed too much, and his dimples should be visible when he smiles.He kept smiling, patted his stiff muscles with his hands, and continued.The eyes should be slightly narrowed, and the smile should be sweeter.

Shangshang laughed for a long time, so long that he felt disgusted when he saw his smiling face in the mirror.He stretched out his pale hand to touch the person in the mirror, only a faint light hit his face in the dim space, and he seemed to touch another world through the mirror.The person in the mirror, is your world as corrupt and dark as mine?Shangshang smiled slowly and clearly, but there was undisguised malice in his eyes.

Gradually, everyone in the orphanage noticed the changes in Shangshang. Shangshang became lively and laughed.He will play with the children, help the principal serve meals for the children, and tell stories to other children with his immature voice.He is like a flower that has regained the sunshine, tender and beautiful.

Shangshang went to school, he was gentle and loves to learn, and he was favored by many people. He seemed to have become another person. No one could imagine that he was such a dark and weird child.

Elementary school, middle school, high school, university.Shangshang has turned into a gentle and beautiful young man since he was a child. He has been out of the orphanage for a long time.But in his midnight sleep, he always repeated his childhood memories over and over again.The dark and damp hut, the cub lying on the ground, the back view of leaving in the amusement park, and the malicious self in the mirror when practicing smiling at night.Every time he woke up from the dream, he would wrap himself tightly in the quilt, and then tremble alone.

On this day, he suddenly wanted to visit the orphanage.So when the bell rang for the end of get out of class, I quickly packed up my things and left.

"Senior, we have a social gathering this afternoon, are you going?" From a distance, a boy in sportswear waved to Shangshang, his wheat-colored skin was sweating a little due to strenuous exercise, and he messed up when he saw Shangshang Wiping his sweat, he ran to him.

"No, I have something to do this afternoon." Shangshang took out a tissue from his bag and handed it to the boy, then said softly.

"Oh, that's right! However, even if someone as good as the senior doesn't join the fellowship, there must be a lot of people chasing after him." The boy was flattered and took the tissue, feeling that the senior was really as gentle and beautiful as the rumors said.

"No, I'm still single now." Shangshang lowered his head, said embarrassedly, then looked at his watch, and said apologetically, "Sorry, I really have something to do, I'm leaving first, bye."

"okay bye."

Shangshang put the bag back in the dormitory, then took the money to the supermarket to buy some snacks and fruits, and then went to the orphanage.

The dean was very happy to see Shangshang coming, took the things in his hand and complained, "When you need to spend money on the business of going to school, what should you buy?"

Shangshang smiled shyly, and said softly, "It's okay, I just want to do something for those children."

"Hey, you have a heart." Hearing Shang Shang's words, the dean sighed and felt comforted.

"Where, are those children still obedient?" Shangshang walked in with the headmaster, and glanced at those children.

"Children are inevitably a little naughty. They play and fight all day long. However, there is a child who is very similar to you when you were young." The dean pointed to Shangshang.

Under the tall sycamore tree, a little boy sat alone, leaning against the thick tree with his arms around his knees, staring blankly at the blue sky.The breeze brushed the leaves, and a leaf fell gently and covered his head. He still seemed to have never heard of it, quiet and indifferent.

"I'll go and see him." The smile on the corner of Shangshang's mouth faded, and he turned to the dean.

"Alright, no one wants to talk to that kid, we have nothing to do with him."

Shangshang approached the boy step by step, just like approaching his young self. The big and thick banyan tree has carried countless time.The sun rose and the sun set, the moon was bright and the moon was dark, the wind lifted the hem of Shang Shang's clothes and messed up his hair, and then he stretched out his hand to the boy.

"Have you ever had a bear?" Shangshang smiled gently, and the dimples on both sides of his cheeks seemed to be filled with honey.

The boy under the tree had never been questioned like this before, so he looked away at Shangshang, and shook his head slowly.

"Will you be lonely? When you see the blue sky without a bird." Shangshang sat beside the boy.

The boy nodded slightly.

"The reason why there are no birds in the sky is because angels like to be quiet." Shangshang pointed to the blue sky and said softly, "Birds will damage angels' elaborate works, and those thin clouds are very delicate."

"Are there really angels?" The boy looked at Shangshang without blinking, his voice full of expectation.

Shangshang turned his head and patted his head, gave him a soft smile, then pointed to himself, "Isn't it me?"

"Are you an angel?" The boy rubbed his hand and asked seriously.

Shangshang took it and didn't answer his question.

"Then can you bring my mother back to life?" the boy followed up.

"Why let her come back to life? She is very happy in heaven now, she has finally got rid of the dark and corrupt world, there is nothing to come back to suffer again?"

"But, I miss her very much." The boy sobbed softly.

"You can't be so selfish." Shangshang said coldly.

The boy was stunned by the accusation, and then couldn't control it anymore, and cried loudly.

Seeing this, Shangshang hugged him helplessly, then leaned into his ear and whispered, "You have to be strong, you have to make some achievements, and you have to make your mother happy."

The experience in the orphanage was not taken seriously by Shangshang. After returning to school, he still lived step by step. He had no plans for the future, he had no ideals, no goals, and sometimes he even felt that he was just an empty orifice.

After graduating from university, Shangshang began to face looking for a job, but after graduating from a prestigious university, he always lost his job for various reasons, but in the final analysis it was just because of his face.

It may be hard to believe, but he did have a hard time finding a job because of his looks.Because of his appearance, it is difficult for others to notice his abilities. He attracts the attention of men and women, and sometimes even attracts Shura field, and some bosses even give him hidden hints.So after several failed job searches, he began to stay at home and take on some translation jobs to maintain basic food and clothing.