The gender of my goddess is unscientific

Shangshang spent his childhood in a dark and cramped room, and the windows with grilles occasionally let sunlight in, which was the best gift for him.

He is often immersed in the fear of not knowing when it will come. The sharp female voice and the angry male voice curse each other in the most vicious language, and there are occasional sounds of things breaking.He could only helplessly hide in the small dark room, wrapping himself tightly with a heavy quilt in order to gain that false sense of security.

When the quarrel slowly stopped, he would poke his head out.His cheeks were flushed due to lack of oxygen, he got out of bed nimbly, and walked cautiously towards the door, for fear of making a sound to attract the attention of people outside the house.

Through the crack of the door, he saw his mother, the long-haired woman sitting on the sofa and crying softly.And his father had already slammed the door out.Shangshang rubbed his stomach, he was very hungry, but he dared not go out, because his mother was more terrible than hunger in his little head.

As long as Shang Shang can remember, such things have happened from time to time.The down-and-out eldest lady and the simple and honest poor boy polished off their love in daily necessities.The former lovers are now more like enemies, and any little thing can become an introduction and arouse the anger of both parties.The poor little merchant is caught in the middle like an orphan without parents.

A sad woman, nervously muttering and resenting, hating her family's downfall, hating herself for being ignorant and marrying a poor boy, hating herself for being born noble but enduring poverty.After hating and resenting, I continued to cry, as if I was the most pitiful person in the world.

In Shangshang's memory, he didn't seem to have experienced such a thing as family affection. Whether it was his father or his mother, he always treated him like a stranger.At first he didn't know the reason, but later he heard a clue from the quarrel between the two.

The angry man pushed away the flailing woman, and cursed, "Don't think I don't know who you are, flirting with other men while I'm not around, huh! Maybe the one in your stomach wasn't mine before." kind."

How can the always pungent woman bear it, and retaliated angrily, "Well, you are heartless, do you have someone outside? Now that you don't want me, just slander me out of thin air! Tell you there is no door."

Shangshang hid behind the door and listened to the quarrel between the two, with his arms tightly hugging his legs and shrinking together, trying to minimize his sense of existence. He felt that he was like dust in the sun, small and disgusting.

Perhaps because it is often forgotten, Shangshang eats every meal when he is hungry and full. Because of lack of nutrition, his small body is already nine years old but still looks like six years old.His thin body can even see the turquoise blood vessels clearly, but he still has a pair of big eyes, which is inexplicably weird when staring straight at people, so he is even less likable.

When Shang Shang was ten years old, his fate changed drastically.The couple who saw each other hated each other finally divorced. Shangshang was asked to leave by his mother on the condition that she would leave the house to her. The man took a look at Shangshang and agreed after a little thought.

The divorced woman seems to be alive again. She uses her little savings to dress herself up. Shangshang often sees her sitting in the vanity mirror combing her hair, using bottles of unknown Things were applied to his face layer by layer, and then he painted himself a bright lipstick.After dressing up, the other party will happily go out with the bag.

At this time, Shangshang could move freely in this dark and small place. He shuttled back and forth between different rooms, leaving his own marks on various things.Cups, mirrors, beds, chopping boards...

Like a king, he touched all these things, then went to the small cabinet in the kitchen, took out a piece of bread, and began to chew carefully. This was the meal that the woman left him for the day.

But this time, the woman didn't leave for a long time, and even came back that night. When she came back, she held a palm-sized bear in her hand. She seemed to be in a good mood and even hummed a little song.

Shangshang curled up on the sofa expressionlessly, and didn't move when he heard the movement, just staring at the ceiling seriously.

"You child, you are really not likable." The woman gave Shang Shang an impatient look, and then threw the bear in her hand to him.

Shangshang was hit by the little bear and still didn't move, until the woman walked into the room, and then there was the sound of closing the door, Shangshang moved slightly, got up and took a look at the bear, then threw it aside in disgust, mouth Li muttered in a low voice, "It's so ugly, it's not flattering at all." After finishing speaking, he collapsed on the sofa again.

As the night darkened, Shangshang decided to go to sleep.Before leaving, he glanced at the little bear lying on the ground, and brought it into the room anyway.

The next day, Shangshang opened the door, and was surprised to find that the woman didn't go out today.

The woman frowned dissatisfiedly when she saw Shangshang, and then said irritably, "Clean up quickly, I'll take you to a place." After finishing speaking, she left in a hurry.

Shangshang stood still, he didn't understand what the woman meant by tidying up, because he had always been like this.He slowly took the bear's arm and walked towards the kitchen, looking for his food for today.

After about 10 minutes, the woman came out, saw that Shangshang looked the same as before, and patted him angrily.

"You debt collector, time is running out, come with me." The woman knocked down the bread in Shangshang's hand and led him out.

Merchants seldom go out, and it can even be said that they have never been out.He looked at the world where the sun shines everywhere, feeling inexplicably extravagant.

The woman took him to the mall to buy him a brand new set of clothes, and then took him to KFC. During this period, the merchant was very quiet, but he could still feel that something might happen.

After eating, the other party took him to the amusement park, played with him on the merry-go-round and the haunted house, and then squatted in front of him and said to him, "Shangshang, mom told you, mom will be able to live a happy life soon .My long-term hard work has finally paid off. But, I can't let him know of your existence. Shangshang, I'm sorry."

The woman gave him a hug after she finished speaking, then turned and left.Shangshang stood still and stared at her background, and the woman walked further and further away until she disappeared completely.Then Shangshang suddenly panicked, he chased like crazy, his thin legs accidentally kicked the drink bottle dropped by the tourists, and then fell to the ground all at once.The pale and thin arm was bruised, and bright red blood flowed out. Shangshang touched the thing flowing out of his body, and suddenly felt that the color was the same as that woman's lipstick.

Shang Shang, who was abandoned by his mother, became an orphan unexpectedly and lived in an orphanage.Orphanages are not a good place. Sometimes innocent and ignorant children can easily hurt you directly.

The gloomy and indifferent Shangshang does not fit in with the group, and almost no children in the orphanage are willing to play with Shangshang.And from time to time, they will discover the fun that belongs to children only from the merchants.For example, a group of naughty boys bet that whoever can make Shangshang talk to them is the most powerful.

Then they took turns to tease the merchants, such as deliberately snatching the merchants' things, or throwing stones from the ground at the merchants.Merchants are unwilling to talk to them, but they are even more enthusiastic.All this continued for a while, and ended when the dean accidentally saw the scars on Shangshang's body.

Almost every child in an orphanage hopes to have the opportunity to be adopted, because in their beautiful imagination, being adopted means sweet and delicious food, beautiful and neat clothes, gentle and kind parents.Shangshang was different. He even resisted being adopted.

Even if his biological parents were like this, how dare he pin his hopes on strangers.So when Shangshang had the opportunity to learn, he absorbed all kinds of knowledge almost like a sponge.

As time went by, Shangshang grew up little by little. Although his height was still not as high as his peers, his thin cheeks slowly turned rosy after all.He learned a lot, he knew he had to be a normal kid to get more of what he wanted.He also knew that his previous self was weird in the eyes of others.

The author has something to say: I hope everyone will like Shangshang!