yellow spring blossoms

On the way home, I leaned on my mother's shoulder and fell asleep. From time to time, my mother would reach out and touch the top of my head. Her palm was generous and warm, allowing me to close my eyes with peace of mind.

In a daze, I heard my mother say to my father: "Xiaoyan, this child... has been timid and weak since he was a child... I don't know if he will get better this time..."

She spoke in a very low voice, with a choked voice, and I felt pain in my heart, so I could only close my eyes and pretend to be asleep.I felt that my father stretched out his hand and patted my mother's shoulder to comfort him: "Our Xiaoqing is so strong...Xiaoyan is her older sister, and nothing will happen."

These words did not comfort my mother, and I did not hear her cry again.After the endless silence, there was the sound of breathing while suppressing tears.

"The child's father...you said... Xiaoqing is such a good child...how did he die...how did he kill so many people...what's going on..." After a long, long time, my mother said Choked up.

I closed my eyes, and finally couldn't hold back, tears streaming down my face in an instant.

I asked myself this question countless times in my heart, but I never found the answer.

It was the next morning when I got home. I followed my parents into the house, and saw the gentle morning light overflowing from the window. Nothing in the house had changed, exactly the same as when I left.I went to the kitchen to have a look, then went to the study, and finally stopped outside Ziqing's house.I stood outside for a long time, and finally made up my mind to open the door and go in. There was no one in the room, and all the items in the cool tones were just arranged in order, just like Ziqing's temperament.

I walked into the room, closed the door, and sat at the desk looking at the yellow leaves outside the window in a daze, only to find that my photo was pasted on the corner of the glass, which had been plastic-preserved, and it happened to be within sight.

In the photo, I am facing the sun and smiling brightly.

I struggled to take the photo out of the gap, put it in the palm of my hand and looked at it carefully, until there were tears dripping on the photo, and then I hurriedly wiped it with my hands.

"It's just a photo...what's so good..." I muttered, thinking of putting it back in the gap, but found that there seemed to be a piece of paper stuck in the gap of the plastic.

I picked it up, faced the sun, and vaguely saw Ziqing Qingjun's handwriting.

I found that several characters overlapped, and the strokes intertwined with each other, making it difficult to read.

I understood it right away.

she wrote.

Ziyan, I love you.

"I..." I... I also...

I thought, I'm still too useless.

He clearly told himself that he can't cry all the time, and he can't always cause trouble to those around him.

But...but still can't control the tearful eyes.

I feel that Ziqing has not left me, as if she will come back after sleeping.I slept on her bed, and the first thing in the morning was to look at the door.

I don't know when I'll stop this habit, I don't want to know.

This kind of life has passed for several years, and she still hasn't come back.I didn't go to school anymore, I just wrote at home to make money, and when I had some money on hand, I moved out to live outside.I still sleep very late, and my mother still likes to call me after two o'clock in the middle of the night, telling me to go to bed quickly and take care of myself.I nodded in response, hung up the phone but was still staring at the computer in a daze.

At this time, Zhanmeng will jump out and talk to me.

【Dream Slayer】: I caught him again, and he still doesn't sleep.

I replied: If I don't go online, you won't be able to catch me.

Dream Slayer immediately replied: Huang Quan, don't take someone like you.Friends for so many years, can't be so ruthless.

I laughed, and then said: It's so ruthless.

[Dream Slayer]: Let's talk about it tomorrow if you have anything to do. Go to bed quickly, sleep now.

[Huangquanhua]: Yes.

【Dream Slayer】: Tell me in bed.

[Huangquanhua]: Yes.

[Dream Slayer]: Besides um, can you say something else?

[Huangquanhua]: Oh.

【Dream Slayer】: ...

【Dream Slayer】: You won.

At the end of the year, the publishing house began to get busy. I stayed there day and night to proofread the manuscript with the editor, and it was already late at night when I came out of the publishing house.Tiny snowflakes fell from the sky, and I looked up to see the endless night.The phone in my pocket was vibrating non-stop. I took it out and saw that it was a colleague from the publishing house named Sun Bo.I don't know why, but he always likes to call me these days, asking me about my health, and being very attentive.I was not in the mood to answer the phone, the phone vibrated for a long time and finally stopped.I continued to walk home, and the phone started to vibrate again, and it never stopped. I couldn't bear it anymore, I picked up the phone and said, "What's the matter with you?"

There was silence on the other end of the phone, and it took a long time for my mother's voice to come: "It's nothing... The family is making dumplings today... I asked you to come back for dinner."

I looked at my phone in a daze, and it showed my mother.

"Ah... ok..." I smiled awkwardly, and changed direction to go home.

When I got home, my parents were busy, so I hurriedly put down the things in my hand and went to help.Half an hour later, the whole family sat down neatly at the table.While preparing Ziqing's bowls and chopsticks, I asked, "Is Ziqing leaving get off work soon? When will you be back?"

"She called back and said that she won't be coming back tonight and she's going to work overtime." My mother answered quickly, took a dumpling for me and said, "Xiaoyan, eat more."

"What class is so busy... I can't come back for dinner." I puffed up and took a bite of the dumpling: "I'll call her later."

"Xiaoyan..." Dad looked at me worriedly, and when he was about to say something, his mother gave me an elbow, and he stopped talking.

"Xiaoyan, my parents have something to tell you." Seeing that I had almost eaten, my mother said to me with a serious face: "Look, you are not young anymore... Everyone is in love. Why are you silent? ?”

I stopped biting the dumplings, and looked at my parents in a daze.My mother looked at me expectantly and asked, "Tell me honestly, do you have a partner?"

"No..." I swallowed the dumpling, and sat upright to answer.

"That's just right. Mom has one. Mom will introduce you to one." When my mother heard what I said, her smiling eyes curled up. "He's tall and handsome, and his family is rich, see?"

I sat there for a while and replied, "See you."

In the evening, I routinely said good night to Dream Slayer. She was a little surprised to see me sleeping so early, and asked, "Why did I go to bed so early today?"

I replied: "Tomorrow we will go on a blind date. If you go to bed too late, you will lose energy."

The other end of the computer was silent for a long time, and finally asked: "What kind of person is the man?"

I tapped on the keyboard quickly, and quickly sent a line: "My mother said, the other party is tall, handsome, and rich."

Dream Slayer asked, "Do you like it?"

I replied: "I haven't seen it yet, I don't know."

Dream Slayer continued to ask: "What kind do you like?"

I smiled and replied, "Tall, handsome and rich."

Dream Slayer immediately said, "I am."

I stopped typing on the keyboard, and then answered him: "Don't be kidding, didn't you tell me you were a woman?"

Dream Slayer asked back: "Women can't be tall, handsome and rich?"

My hands on the keyboard stopped, and I couldn't refute for a while.

Dream Slayer then asked, "Do you want to see me?"

It felt as if my heart was being grasped by someone, and I couldn't breathe. When I realized it, my hands were actually cold: "No see."

Dream Slayer asked, "Why?"

I replied, "I don't have the habit of meeting strangers."

Dream Slayer continued to ask: "I am a stranger to you?"

I felt my hands were trembling, and I replied for a long time: "Yes."

Dream Slayer didn't speak any more, I watched the dialog box for a while, then turned off the computer and went to sleep.

At night, I had a rare dream of Gu Youning, dreaming of her shoulder-length wavy hair, dreaming of her holding me in her arms, gently kissing my forehead and lips, dreaming of her calling me Ziyan .That dream was very short, and before I had time to savor it carefully, I was woken up by the alarm clock.I sat up from the bed in a daze, turned on the computer and logged on to the account, only to find that Dream Slayer's head was black and he didn't say a word.

I turned off the computer, washed and changed my clothes, and just after packing, my mother called and told me the agreed time and place.I looked at my watch and thought it was almost there, so I picked up my bag and went out.

I arrived at the western restaurant 10 minutes earlier than the agreed time. I was looking for a seat to sit down when I heard someone call my name.When I turned around, I saw Sun Bo sitting by the window.

"What a coincidence, what are you doing here?" I greeted politely, thinking that this is not the retribution for not answering the phone.Meet real people directly.

"I'm on a blind date." Sun Bo smiled embarrassedly: "The object is you."

I smiled awkwardly and sat down across from him.I was speechless for a while, I felt my heart was pounding, but I still forced myself to look at him calmly.He also seemed to feel that the atmosphere was not right, so he said, "Please Auntie, it's still useful, you really came out."

"Oh, yes." I replied.

"By the way, about the publication of your novel..." He handed me the menu, and then began to talk about work.

I gradually felt no pressure, as if I was discussing work.Soon, the whole afternoon passed, and the meal was already finished.I was about to go home when Sun Bo said, "Would you like to go to the movies together?"

"Okay." I nodded, not knowing why.Maybe... I also want to escape the endless loneliness.

"What do you usually do at home?" Sun Bo asked me on the way to the movies.

"Writing a novel." I replied.

"What about the rest?" he continued.

"Sleep." I thought for a while and replied.

Sun Bo was amused by this answer. He smiled and asked me: "Do you usually go out with friends? Where do you like to go?"

I thought about it after hearing this, and then replied: "I don't go out, I don't have any friends."

Sun Bo was taken aback for a moment, and then said to me, "It's okay, I'll be your first friend."

"I don't need friends."

"..."

After walking a long way, I realized that Sun Bo was silent all the way, and asked him with some embarrassment: "Am I not good at chatting?"

"Very."

I looked at his sour expression and said with a smile, "Someone said that to me before."

Sun Bo looked at me in a daze, and said after a while, "Ziyan, you look so pretty when you smile. Smile more in the future."

Who are you laughing at?

I ask from the bottom of my heart.

But found that there was no such person again.

The author has something to say: I am busy at the end of the year... Now I basically just take some time to write in the group... Write enough [-] words to post...

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