Jiang Hao

Come on, I threw the phone down the bunk bed and onto the bookshelf below, ignoring him.

Jiang Hao's influence on me is far greater than I imagined.

From the time I had breakfast with Gao Siyan in the morning to sitting on the school bus together at noon, Jiang Hao's birthday could always come to my mind.

【Happy birthday. 】I sent a text message to Jiang Hao before I got home in the afternoon.As I edited my text messages, I developed a loathing disdain for my own self-control.

【Thanks. 】He returned quickly, but he had no intention of communicating any more.

In the afternoon, Gao Siyan and I went to the movies, and we had dinner before dark.

"Why do you always look at your phone?" Gao Siyan asked me on the road.

"No," my phone happened to be on the screen of a text message with Jiang Hao, "A friend's birthday is today." She leaned over to look at my phone, and I could only tell the truth.

Gao Siyan saw that Jiang Hao's name was male, so she didn't think much, "Do you want to celebrate his birthday?"

I didn't know how to answer for a while, so I left Gao Siyan, who was brought home by me, to go to Jiang Hao, it was too hurtful, but I really wanted to do this in my heart.

"Would you like to go to him at night?" Gao Siyan asked me tentatively again.

I didn't say anything, I wasn't sure what she was thinking, and I was even less sure what I was thinking.

【Where are you, how many people are you dating, what are you going to eat? ] I sent a text message to Jiang Hao when I got home.

Putting down the phone, Gao Siyan leaned over to kiss me, I could feel that she didn't want me to go, she just asked out of 'sensibility'.In this case, I should also accompany her, so as to repay her 'sensibility'.

[At home, there are quite a lot of people.Don't you have something to do, why worry about it. 】

When I received the text message, Gao Siyan was sitting on top of me, and the phone vibrated on the sheet next to my head.

I turned over and put her down, but my eyes couldn't help looking at the phone.

She and I are used to not using condoms, or I come out before ejaculation, or just rely on hands in the later stage.

After I saw the text message, my mind was full of Jiang Hao lying.I remember he said that he never took anyone to his house, and my suppressed feelings exploded at once.The blood all over his body rushed wildly, and his sanity was thrown out of the sky in an instant.

"Slow down..." Gao Siyan was a little dissatisfied, but I didn't stop.

The speed was so fast that I came in a hurry at the end, and I wasn't even sure if it was in time or if it would be unsafe.

12

When I left home, I didn't dare to look into Gao Siyan's eyes, looking very embarrassed.

When I arrived at Jiang Hao's house, I called him.When he heard me say that he was downstairs in his house, he froze for a few seconds, and then told me to go upstairs.

He went out to pick me up, and when he saw me, he asked, "Why are you here?"

"Isn't it your birthday?" I handed him the cake I bought downstairs just now, "It's your birthday."

Jiang Hao took the cake and smiled.

He is always so good-looking when he smiles, and my mood is also happy because of his smile.

The good mood only lasted for half a minute. When I saw that there were other people in his house, I began to feel self-indulgent. I thought he was alone, so I hurried over, but...

"What's wrong?" He asked looking at me in a daze.

I shook my head and entered the room without saying anything.A fire ignited inexplicably in my heart. Looking at the people in his family that I didn't know, I tried my best to suppress the urge to turn around and slam the door, and leave directly.

Jiang Hao sensed my displeasure, brought me a glass of wine, then turned around and exchanged greetings with his friend, saying that he was here tonight.

I arrived at his house in the early 9 o'clock, and before 10 o'clock, there were only the two of us left in the house.

"You are not busy, where did you come from?" He sat beside me and opened the cake I brought.

"At home..." I said the truth, full of childishness.

Jiang Hao frowned, Bao Buqi felt that I was lying to him.I'm not sure if he's thinking 'I'm fine tonight' or 'I'm not from home' but I'm too lazy to explain, I'm too lazy to think about Jiang Hao's thoughts... Tired.

"Did you eat?" he asked me again, trying to keep the conversation going.

"ate…"

"Delicious." He took the props for cutting the cake and directly dug a piece into his mouth.

The moment I handed him the cake, I remembered that he doesn't like sweets.When I ate with him before, he didn't even eat something sweet like eight-treasure rice, let alone greasy cake.

The anger in my heart was even worse. Jiang Hao used this kind of forbearance to please everyone. I was conditioned to feel disgusted, and I attributed the previous "abnormal" and current emotions to this point. Jiang Hao caused it.

"Do you know what I was doing just now?"

Jiang Hao was still eating that piece of cake, not to mention hungry, he ate very seriously, "What?"

"My parents are on a business trip, and my girlfriend and I are at my house." After saying that, I began to regret it, it was too impulsive.What's even more embarrassing is that what I said was clueless, and I put myself in Jiang Hao's place and thought about it, I'm afraid I will immediately call out 'crazy'.

Jiang Hao was stunned for a moment, put down the knife in his hand, looked up at me, and said nothing.

My cell phone rang, to be precise, it rang a few minutes ago, and now it is the notification tone of unread text messages.

Gao Siyan sent me a text message: [I took the school bus back to the new campus. I went to buy medicine just now, and I have already taken it. Don’t worry. ] I can imagine her coming out of my house alone and going to buy medicine.Even through the phone screen, I could feel her disappointment in me, the disappointment that meant she didn't want to talk to me anymore.The moment I saw the text message, I knew it was over between me and her.

【Wait for me to go back. ] I texted back with a feeling of guilt.

【No, I've already gone back. 】

"Do you want it?" Jiang Hao raised his glass again and asked me.

I put down the phone, and all the negative emotions were directed at Jiang Hao, "What does your birthday matter to me?" I looked into his eyes and asked, "We only contact each other a few times a year, you deserve a birthday treat." Shall I eat? What do you mean?" After I opened my mouth, I seemed to be completely ignorant, and almost yelled at him, 'Is it interesting for you to hang me like this? '

"..." Jiang Hao didn't say anything.

"I fucking thought you didn't know how to make friends, but who knows that you don't need people to accompany you at all."

"What nonsense are you talking about?" He was a little annoyed.

I'm always a little confused.

I probably would never say that in my life if I was facing someone who had never experienced anything of the same sex.

But facing Jiang Hao, I have nothing to fear.Subconsciously, I felt that he should tolerate me after experiencing it, and I even blamed Jiang Hao for my abnormality, "Nonsense? Aren't those people looking at you just now so happy to die."

"You are sick..." Jiang Hao took two steps back, not intending to quarrel with me.

"I'm really fucking sick. I left my girlfriend on the pill alone at night, and came here to watch you make out with someone else." I completely dismissed the words.The sticking point was always there, including Lu Zhengyang's cheating at the beginning of this semester. I was just jealous, and I just looked at Jiang Hao with a clueless possessive desire.

Jiang Hao was stunned, he frowned first, then quickly suppressed his emotions and calmed down, "I..." He opened his mouth to say something.

"I'm going back..." But I don't want to hear anything from him right now.

"Sorry, I didn't know you had plans for tonight in the morning."

I never thought that Jiang Hao would apologize, what is wrong with him?He was also angry, swallowed his anger and apologized to me, why.Years later, whenever I think of all the malicious bullying I have done to him, I feel sour in my heart.

I got cheap and acted like a good boy, and said nonsense, "I'm the one who is cheap..."

After the voice fell, I stood up and prepared to go to the door.

"Sun Yikun," he said behind me, "I'm leaving next week."

This time I was stunned, "Where are you going?" I turned around and asked.

"The school has an exchange program. I signed up last month. I will go to Australia for at least one year and leave at the end of July. I will go to my dad's place next week. After all, I haven't seen him for a long time. The visa and so on are over there. It's done." Jiang Hao said looking into my eyes.

My heart hurts as if it was tightly pinched, "Why did you decide in such a hurry?"

Jiang Hao shrugged, "I think it's an opportunity, it's not bad to go out and have a look."

"Then why haven't I heard you mention it before..."

He approached me with a smile, stood up straight and met my eyes, "It's not a big deal, I thought it would be embarrassing to tell you if I can't apply." I used to think he was shorter than me, so looking at him like this I'm average height, maybe even a little stronger than me.

"You are not afraid of embarrassment in making up the exam, but now you are afraid of embarrassment?" I attacked him unceremoniously.

Jiang Hao raised the corner of his mouth again, "You are really difficult to get along with." He said this before, and I was sitting on the same bed with him at that time, and after he finished speaking, I even pushed him down without thinking. under the body.

"You don't need to get along with me when you're gone." When I said this, I always felt an indescribable sense of sadness.

"It's true." His eyes also showed sadness.

13

Not long after Jiang Hao left, I broke up with Gao Siyan as expected.

There was no dramatic dialogue during the breakup, and her eyes had already made me understand everything. When she opened her mouth to say goodbye, I was very sensible and didn't hold back.

More or less, she may want me to say something, do something, at least something similar to 'I will definitely change, give me another chance'.But I know that I can't 'change', or my subconscious mind thinks I can't go back.

I silently watched Gao Siyan leave without doing anything.

I'm sad to break up with Go Si Yeon, this feeling