Jiang Hao

Me, "Brother Kun, my grandma may be discharged from the hospital after a while, and you won't be able to come to my house after that. If you have a chance recently, can you come and live here?"

I have spent the night at Xiao Cai's house more than once, and I have never refused this request before.

During normal school days, I would come back without telling my parents, and most of the time it was Cai Xia looking for me.But now it is the summer vacation, there is no dormitory to live in, and I can't find a suitable reason not to go home.

I want to refuse, but looking at Cai Xia's expression, I don't want to hurt him again, "Let's talk about it later, depending on the specific situation."

Cai Xia went upstairs, I took out my mobile phone to check the time, only then did I see the reply to the text message I sent to Jiang Hao in the afternoon: [Got it. ] Short three words, without any emotion.

I was very tired. Standing downstairs at Cai Xia's house and watching Jiang Hao's text messages made me even more tired.

After being with Cai Xia for the first time, the gay circles I came into contact with were in twos and threes, and the relationship was chaotic.

At that time, I thought that I was a bit 'heterosexual' in pursuit of stability. After all, I had no interest in unclear promiscuity.

But in the present moment, I have also become a part of what I was not interested in. Is it because my understanding of myself was biased at that time, or I tend to follow the trend without persistence.

35

Running to find Cai Xia, pampering Cai Xia... These things will not improve the relationship between me and him.

Cai Xia complained in her heart that I was going abroad, but it never changed.

From the beginning I hated that I didn't tell him, but later I felt that I didn't think about him at all in terms of the matter itself.

Cai Xia's temper is getting bigger and bigger, and her clinging to me is getting tighter and tighter.

His ideas were all right, so I patiently told him at first.When August was approaching, as the exam entered the final 8-day countdown, I began to get irritable, and naturally I had nothing to coax him.

Jiang Hao has been accompanying me in self-study, always come to me when I am about to finish eating, go to eat together, and read a book when I come back.

Once or twice in the middle, my mother came to look for me in the study room, and happened to meet Jiang Hao.At that time, I was discussing with Jiang Hao very seriously. My mother saw it and went back to tell my father that the old man told me to go home and have dinner with Jiang Hao if I had nothing to do.

I no longer shy away from being in contact with Jiang Hao at school, but I am very disciplined, even sitting in an empty study room, I will never engage in any untimely behavior.

I always worry in my heart that my parents will show up when the guarantee is not complete.

On the last day of July, the weather was very hot. I was sitting in the study room, and I was already sleepy before it was time to eat.

The phone rang suddenly, it was Cai Xia.I walked outside the study room and picked it up, "What's wrong?"

"Brother Kun, I'm at your school." I looked at the time, and it was only 4 o'clock. I only met him a few days ago, and I only met him in the evening after studying in the previous month.

At this hour, there is no way to go to the village or back to the store. If I leave the study room, I will definitely not be able to read books today.

I didn't get angry, and my tone became bad, "Why did you come to our school?"

"Come to find you." Cai Xia ignored my words, "Where are you, I will find you, or you come to me."

"I'm reviewing for the exam and I can't get out."

"..." Cai Xia sighed, but also endured me, "Then I will accompany you to the self-study."

After hearing this, I had a splitting headache.

If Cai Xia sat with me in the self-study room, I wouldn't want to take any chances, and Jiang Hao would come over from the teaching and research room in a while.Three are missing and one is missing, and if you add one more, you will have a table of mahjong!

"Okay, can I still study by myself when you are at the side?" I lowered my voice and walked back to the study room, holding the phone in one hand and clearing the books and computer on the table in the other, "Where are you now, I will go home and put things down, and then I'll go find you in 20 minutes."

"I'll accompany you," Cai Xia said reluctantly, still refusing to let me go, "I don't know where your family lives yet."

"..." My heart trembled when I said this. I didn't know what he meant. Maybe it was just a simple statement of the facts. I thought too much, but suddenly I didn't know what to say.

"Brother Kun? Why are you silent?"

I walked out of the study room and coaxed me away, "I just packed my things."

Cai Xia repeated after listening, "Then where are you now..."

I was annoyed to hear it, and I asserted in my heart that it was absolutely impossible for Cai Xia to follow me to the door of the house, "Stop messing around, run around, send me a location, and I'll go find you when I'm done." After finishing speaking, I didn't wait. He called back and hung up.

Seeing that I came back early today, my dad nagged at me, "Why don't you learn?"

"I have something to do at night." I prevaricated, dropped my things, turned and walked towards the door.

My dad continued: "Come back early."

It's too late... I complained in my heart, but I didn't say a word.It was my mother who was sitting by the side who spoke for me. She said to my father, "Let him go play, he hasn't gone out to play for a long time, and he can't study all day long."

My father and mother chattered, and I turned around to say goodbye, then turned and left.

I found Cai Xia according to the location, and I didn't intend to get angry with him. During this period of time, I had repeated unhappiness because of going abroad, and I was very tired.

Seeing Cai Xia standing on the side of the road playing with her mobile phone, I remembered that I had sent a text message to Jiang Hao when I was planning to leave the study room, but because of Cai Xia’s phone call, I kept forgetting it.

Walking in front of Cai Xia, he looked at me and smiled, and it was hard for me to take out my phone and send a text message to Jiang Hao.

Calculating the time in my mind, Jiang Hao usually goes to the study room from the teaching and research room to find me at this time.

I took Cai Xia to the school gate, and before I had a chance to send a text message to Jiang Hao, I saw him walking towards me.

He came from the main gate of the school, at this time...

Our eyes met, Jiang Hao and I's eyes were full of surprise, but they had completely different contents.

Jiang Hao saw Cai Xia beside me and stopped in his tracks.And I... I subconsciously looked away, unable to dodge.

"Brother Kun, what do you want to eat tonight?" Cai Xia was walking on the road, looking down at Dianping on her mobile phone, completely unaware of my helplessness.

"You decide." I followed him and walked forward, answering his words, not looking at Jiang Hao.

"Okay, let's do this." He raised his arm and handed the phone to my eyes, asking for my opinion.

I ended up on the phone with a natural expression, "Well, let's make this." After I finished speaking, I paid with my account number.

Walking past Jiang Hao, from the beginning to the end, I never looked at him again.

I knew he was looking at me, but I couldn't meet his gaze.

Jiang Hao came from home every day for me, just like staying an extra night in the new campus.He is always the same as he was back then, no matter what kind of things he encounters or what kind of situation arises, he treats others with all his heart.

I was moved, touched endlessly, and even moved... But I am no longer who I was back then, and this cannot be more clear.

Now, I can't even say the words 'heart and lung'.

Now I can only look at the gate of the school, have meaningless conversations with Cai Xia, and walk away without looking back.

Jiang Hao once asked me, 'Who is that man'... I don't need to say the answer, everything will be known.

I had dinner with Cai Xia and followed him home absent-mindedly.

After entering the door, he pushed me on the sofa, and I knew I wouldn't be able to leave tonight.

The text message to Jiang Hao was not sent after all, and the moment he saw me, he definitely didn't need the text message anymore.

I called my mother after ten o'clock and said that I slept at someone else's house at night and would not go back.

Not returning home at night, although it is not a good thing at my age, but after all, it is a boy, so it is not a big deal.My mother could read it and told me not to sleep too late.The conversation was overheard by my father, who took it over and asked me, "Why didn't you come back."

I was annoyed, and I was even more afraid of his questioning, so I said nonsense, "I'm staying at Jiang Hao's house tonight, don't worry."

My father was stunned on the phone and stopped asking.He is not at ease with Jiang Hao, but he always has more trust in people who are better educated than me.

After hanging up the phone, I pulled Cai Xia up from me, turned over and tore off my pants.

It was almost noon when I got home the next day, my mother opened the door for me, and my father immediately got up and looked at me.

I felt bad, frowning and waiting for my father to 'point out the country'.

"Are you back from playing?" The old man was calm and calm, his tone was not serious, and his majesty did not drop at all, "In the future, if you find someone to cover you, it is best to inform them in advance, or find someone who is like you who tells lies and talks casually. Without blinking an eye."

"..." I was so surprised that I couldn't speak. Wasn't it just because I was away all night, why did my dad call Jiang Hao?

"Jiang Hao lied for you, I felt embarrassed to expose other people's children."

"You..." I was so angry with my dad that I couldn't even organize my sentences well.

36

I took my things and prepared to go to the study room, without saying a word.

Before going out, my mother stopped me and asked me in a low voice, "Have you found a girlfriend?"

"What did my dad say?" I asked back, trying to find out.

"Don't think your father is meddling in other things, we are all for your own good." The mother defended the old man.

I have been with Cai Xia for several years. At the beginning, I was not worried about facing my family, and I always felt that they were far away from me.

I don't know since when my parents mentioned this matter to make me feel uneasy.When I think about it carefully, the clearest time point is the moment when my father asked about Jiang Hao's relationship.As I approached Jiang Hao, this anxiety developed into a slight panic, which spread to Cai Xia.

I know in my heart that if I didn't see something, it would be difficult for my parents to associate me with the word "same sex".