Jiang Hao

Come on, the humidity under the mountain in the new campus is becoming more and more uncomfortable.

After a few weeks of exhausting days of going home every day, I finally changed dormitories with the help of my counselors, and lived in a teaching and staff dormitory shared by two people.I'm the only one in my room. Jason is free and will come and stay with me.

I can see that Xiao Cai also has problems with Jason occasionally living in my room, but with the example of meeting Jiang Hao last time, he didn't show it in front of me.

From this, I don't think Xiao Cai is targeting Jiang Hao, he is just petty and cares about anyone around me.

Meeting Jiang Hao in the cafeteria surprised me from the bottom of my heart.

At that moment, Lu Zhengyang was standing beside me. It was obvious that Jiang Hao still had a smile in his eyes when he saw me, but when he caught a glimpse of Lu Zhengyang, his expression changed instantly.

I regret that I didn't go to the village outside the new campus to have farmhouse fun with Jason.

I turned my head and said a few words to Lu Zhengyang, then walked towards Jiang Hao, "Why are you here?"

"I have a project cooperation with the School of Computer Science, come here to discuss work arrangements and so on." Jiang Hao seemed a little cramped, Bao Buqi was concerned that Lu Zhengyang and I were so close.

"Already finished?" I was inexplicably embarrassed, and then I remembered the somewhat vexatious conversation I had when we met last time.

He shook his head, "Not yet, we will continue in the afternoon. If the discussion is not clear, we may have to come tomorrow."

"Then let's have dinner together." I broke the deadlock first, no matter what I did last time, I made Jiang Hao bow his head for no reason.

"Okay, just the two of us?" He asked uncertainly.

"Who else do you want?" I knew he was concerned about Lu Zhengyang just now, "You only play with three people. Me, me, or me." I said this sentence a long time ago, and I was deeply impressed , I was deeply impressed by every word I said with Jiang Hao.

Jiang Hao smiled, and swept away the previous restraint, "Do you have class in the afternoon, I will call you after the discussion."

The place where Jiang Hao discussed was in the office area of ​​the teaching east building, while my afternoon classes were in the teaching west building. There was a huge artificial lake between the two buildings.

In the middle of the afternoon class, I couldn't bear it anymore.

"If the teacher wants to roll the roll or sign in, please help me." I explained to Jason, and I was going to slip away directly during the break.

"Your wife is here?" Jason laughed.

"Jiang Hao is back."

He raised his eyebrows even more strangely, "It turns out that the little lover is here, let's go." I remember that Jason used the word "little lover" the first time he met Jiang Hao.

When I walked out of the teaching building, the cold wind blew into my collar, and I seemed to wake up a lot, and I was relieved from the previous dizzy state.

Only then did I realize that the last time I met Jiang Hao, it broke up again.

It always seems to be like this, seeing Jiang Hao in anticipation, the good mood also reaches its peak, the rest is only the length of time for the conflict to erupt.

[Where?I'm done here. ]

Before walking past the lake between the two teaching buildings, Jiang Hao's text message came.I hesitated and called him.

I first asked him if he would come over tomorrow. If he did, I might as well not go back tonight. I can take him in for a night if I live alone.

He paused for a few seconds and said, okay, save yourself trouble.Then, seeing that it was still early, I asked him where he wanted to go for a stroll.He heard that I live alone now, so he said to buy something to cook hot pot with me.

After hanging up the phone, I told myself that I had to control my emotions this time no matter what.

Compared with Jiang Hao, I am the more naive person.In fact, I always knew in my heart that Jiang Hao's direct rejection of me was probably for my own good.Although I can't thank you, but in a sense, I should at least give understanding.

Jiang Hao and I bought two cases of beer, and he seemed very happy.

Just after returning to the dormitory, Jason called. He took credit for me with a little cleverness, saying that he helped me sign in when the get out of class was over, and said self-righteously that he definitely didn't need to have dinner with me.

After hanging up the phone, I didn't look up, and secretly glanced at Jiang Hao who was handling the food.His hair is a little shorter than when we met last time, although it still looks unusually long, it can be regarded as carefully tidied up.

Last year I saw two boys in the next class chasing the same girl, and the one who didn't catch up later broke up with the couple.

The boy said that he no longer liked that girl, but every time he saw that girl, he felt that his self-esteem had been severely hit, and that couple made him feel like a failure.

I used to subconsciously feel that the aggressiveness towards Jiang Hao was also the result of a man's natural self-esteem, but now looking at Jiang Hao's profile, I felt very clearly that the aggressiveness was not aimed at Jiang Hao.

Jiang Hao is just a reflection of his behavior. The real target of my aggressiveness is the feelings for Jiang Hao in my heart, the feelings that I want to get rid of rationally but are still powerless.

The white smoke rising from the hot pot formed a barrier between me and Jiang Hao. Jiang Hao took out a pure black rubber band from his jacket pocket, and then reached out to tie his hair behind his head.

It was a kind of uncontrollable movement in my body that I had never had before.My lower abdomen was violently agitated by his slightly lowered head, and in my mind, I had already begun to picture something similar to my hand reaching into his hair and scratching his black and soft braids.

"What's wrong?" He asked me when he saw me looking at him.

I shook my head, "It's nothing." I quickly opened a bottle of beer for myself, and drank most of the bottle in one go.

"It's so big at once," he looked at the wine bottle on my phone, "You're showing me off."

I'm glad he didn't notice my strangeness just now.

After about a case of beer, our topic started to borderline, starting with talking about Lu Zhengyang.

"I'm hanging out with Lu Zhengyang, I'm paying you for it." I used my drunkenness to speak my mind, which really made me feel a little guilty towards Jiang Hao.After speaking, I picked up the wine bottle and touched him.

"You don't need to apologize, who you make friends with is your freedom." Jiang Hao said this without sourness, and he also drank the beer in his hand.

But I got stuck in my throat, sounding eager to get rid of me, "You can't say that, I'm a shit friend with him," my tongue was a little knotted, "Jiang Hao, I'm real I want to give you my heart and soul."

Jiang Hao froze for a moment, he looked at me, thinking.My fucking brain can't turn anymore, Jiang Hao can still think about things, I know I can't beat him, I can't beat him on every level.

"Sun Yikun..."

"Don't fucking talk nonsense." I interrupted Jiang Hao, I knew what he was going to say intuitively, it was nothing more than evasive words to pull us back on a parallel track, I am not as fucking cheap, I don't need him to do it a second time Regarding this matter, "it's useless to talk so much, drink the wine first."

Jiang Hao smiled, picked up the wine bottle and took a sip.

The wine should end here, at least I still have the sanity to exercise self-control.

But I don't want to stop, and I even have a glimmer of hope in my heart that by the time the next bottle of wine is finished, my sanity can be thrown away, and I can find an exit from this hopeless situation.

18

The second case of wine drank until there were few bottles left, and Jiang Hao was about the same as me.

"Why on earth did you break up with Gao Siyan..." Jiang Hao's eyes were slightly red, and he stared straight at me, making my blood boil.

I put down the wine bottle in my hand, then raised my head and met Jiang Hao who was sitting on the opposite bed, "I was confused during that time."

"How long are you going to be messed up?" Jiang Hao was probably really drunk, and I was terrified when I said this.

I understood, what he was implying is that I am also 'dirty' if I get entangled with men now.

I stood up, reached out and turned off the hot pot between us, and brought it to the table next to him.I turned my head to look at Jiang Hao who was sitting not far away and said, "Why the hell am I messing up now?"

Jiang Hao stood up and turned to me, we were both a little wobbly.His eyes became very complicated, and I was so dizzy that I couldn't judge what kind of emotion was in it, "Sun Yikun, you don't even know what you are facing."

What Jiang Hao said made me angry. I admit that I have never been the mature one in front of Jiang Hao.

But when these words came out of Jiang Hao's mouth, he reprimanded me like educating an ignorant child, which greatly disgusted me.

I hate it instinctively, when will another 'Lao Tzu' come out? !

"Forget it, Jiang Hao," I put down the things in my hand and walked towards him, "Why do we have to play charades back and forth like this, I'm tired of you if you don't bother me fucking." , out of control, "I broke up with Gao Siyan because I like men," the more I said, the more I felt that I should have said all these words long ago, "Don't pretend that you don't know, it's not necessary to be here with me." I walked up to him and got close enough to him, "We all understand some things very well. If I don't say anything, if you don't say anything, just don't care who the hell is."

"Who is that man?" Jiang Haoping looked me in the eyes.

"It has nothing to do with your dick."

Jiang Hao was stunned, he looked at me drowsily, and the involuntary frown made his eyes look sad.Jiang Hao opened his mouth slightly, as if he wanted to say something, but then he seemed unable to say anything.

In the end, he suppressed himself and regained his composure, "You're right, it has nothing to do with me."

I subconsciously felt that Jiang Hao might also have some meaning for me.The thought made my body uncontrollable in an instant.

I quickly stretched out my hand to hug him, and put the other hand into his hair.