Jiang Hao

I feel that those eyes are shining brightly.

"How was your year?" he asked me first.

"It's just a normal sophomore," I subconsciously didn't want Jiang Hao to know about Xiao Cai, "it's nothing special, how about you?"

"Australia played around," he replied with a smile, "I didn't learn much."

I was not ashamed to say it, and I laughed in my heart, "One-year exchange is a lie."

After a few drinks, he suddenly asked me, "What's next?"

"After what?" I was a little confused.

"Graduation, study or work after graduation?"

I was very surprised, I never thought about this question, "I don't know, who knows so early, how about you?"

"Let's go abroad. I met a professor when I was communicating, and I want to go to him to study for a doctorate after graduation." Jiang Hao stretched out his arm and took out a cigarette from the cigarette case on the table. "He may not be in Australia when I graduate. It’s hard to say whether it’s Europe or America, but if I can apply, I should go.”

In my impression, Jiang Hao doesn't smoke, or he smokes, I don't remember.Holding the cigarette between his fingers, his fingers were slightly bent, making him look extremely tall and sexy.I don't have much interest in the future that Jiang Hao said, "Good students worry about where to go, and I can go wherever I have any choice at that time, don't worry." But I couldn't take my eyes off him.

Jiang Hao smiled, "You can obviously do better."

The good atmosphere of talking with Jiang Hao ended the moment his phone rang.

In many ways, I'm sick of calling caller ID.The mobile phone he placed on the table was facing me, and the realistic word 'Yuan Rui' on the screen made all my blood rush to my head.

Jiang Hao frowned and looked at the phone screen, then picked up the phone and looked up to me and said, "I'm going to answer a call."

You look and feel a lot like Yuan Rui from before...

What Lu Zhengyang said to me last year began to play drums in my head. I conceived Yuan Rui's face with all kinds of shady imaginations, and then Jiang Hao appeared in the picture, they hugged and kissed each other.

It turns out that I still hope that the person hugging Jiang Hao is me, and I hope that the person hugging him can only be me.

This awakening is not that deep, and I have always known it subconsciously.

It is not in line with my character for a relationship to end without a problem. I have never killed this relationship with Jiang Hao, and the tone of being pushed away by him at the beginning is always stuck in my throat.

I'm not sure how much of the current anger is from feelings for him, how much is from jealousy, and how much is from frustration.

But these are not important to me, because all ideas make Jiang Hao the target of public criticism.

16

When Jiang Hao came back after answering the phone, there was nothing unusual on his face.

"Whose phone number?" I asked with a half-smile.

He replied, "A friend..."

I nodded, pretending I didn't know anything, "You're really busy, so many people came looking for you just after you came back."

Jiang Hao was stunned for a moment, "I just answered one phone call, and you just answered several calls, which are not many compared with yours." He didn't hear my anger, although he felt that I was wrong, he responded It's still very casual.

This made me even more annoyed, the only one was my old friend, "Do you have a girlfriend?" I asked critically, since he told me at the time 'don't mess around with men', why talk about 'girlfriend' The topic is most 'appropriate'.

Jiang Hao frowned, then shook his head, trying to keep the topic going, "I didn't see the right one, how are you and Gao Siyan?"

"separated."

"Sorry, I don't know."

You and your old friend are very hot, how come you have time to know about me.The subtext in my heart is like this, being with Xiao Cai, it seems that I can also catch those feminine rhetoric, and I can learn it without a teacher.

Before he could speak, Xiao Cai called.

"What's the matter?" My tone was irritated and I couldn't hold it back.

"..." Cai Xia was stunned for a moment and then said, "Is the receipt and invoice for yesterday's purchases with you? We can reimburse you." Xiao Cai's family background is not good, and I can afford the expenses for shopping and going out. took out.Although I also spend my parents' money, but in order not to go to the roadside stalls with him, I don't mind paying more.

"I don't know, I'll look for it for you later. It's fine if you can't find it, and there's no such thing as too much money."

Cai Xia was silent for a moment, "Brother Kun, are you unhappy?...Why are you so impatient."

I wanted to hang up the phone, but then I chose a more bastard way to deal with the current situation, "Where are you, I'll go find you." I purposely said this in a very ambiguous tone, and glanced at Jiang Hao from the corner of my eye.

Xiao Cai was stunned again, "I'm training and I'm about to go home. You don't have something to do today..."

"I want to see you."

After hanging up the phone, I took a slight look at Jiang Hao, and started to pack the things on the table, "I have something to do, let's talk about it later."

"Okay, let's pay the bill." Jiang Hao was a little disappointed, and asked politely, "Is there something wrong with your new girlfriend?"

I shook my head, "It's not my girlfriend." As I spoke, I stood up.Before Jiang Hao opened the wallet, I handed the money to the waiter, then looked into Jiang Hao's eyes and said, "It's a man."

There is a sense of victory spreading in my heart, but in fact, this illusion is unreasonable and even naive, so naive...cruel.

I didn't look at Jiang Hao again after I finished speaking, I didn't dare to look into his eyes.

He hinted at me at that time, didn't he already clearly feel my feelings?I didn't intend these words to hurt him, and I didn't expect him to feel the slightest bit about me.The mere contempt of attitude, I at least threw back the 'friendship' branch he threw back.

That's the only sense of victory I can get.

I was very unkind to Cai Xia that day.

After going to bed with Cai Xia, I thought about what would happen to me if Jiang Hao was sleeping next to me?I don't think I will treat Jiang Hao as tenderly as I did with Cai Xia.

That's not why I wasn't gentle that day.

Xiao Cai took me back to his house that day and said, Brother Kun, you don’t have to be so gentle, I know you don’t like that.

Frankly speaking, I don't dislike it, I just don't know what I like more.

I didn't deliberately think about Jiang Hao when I was with Xiao Cai. I was already an asshole that day, and there was no need to challenge the bottom line myself.Besides, I am very familiar with Cai Xia's body, and he can indeed bring me a good experience.

After school started, I hung out with Jason again every day. On the one hand, it was convenient for the same major. On the other hand, I didn't want Lu Zhengyang to ask me about Jiang Hao's return. I was afraid to hear the news that he was with Yuan Rui again.

A few weeks after the start of my junior year, something happened that made me extremely unhappy.

On a Wednesday night, I stood in the corridor and called Xiao Cai, and it was almost 12 o'clock when I hung up the phone.The dormitory building had already turned off the lights. I went back to the dormitory and opened the door, only to find that the door was locked from the inside.I kept knocking on the door for the next few minutes, but couldn't open it.

I had no choice but to run downstairs, wake up the housekeeper who had already gone to bed, and get a spare key to go upstairs to open the door.I didn't know until I entered the dormitory that the roommate who had been at odds with me had locked the door on purpose and prevented the other two from opening the door for me.

You don't deserve to fuck, be careful when you're a bitch, I'll fuck you to death.

I cursed like this, and he immediately responded.In the end, we were so close to fighting that two roommates pulled us apart before the situation got out of hand.

I don't care about that idiot anymore, but I decided to take the school bus every night from tomorrow to sleep at home in the old school district.

"Our dormitory was laughing when you scolded me last night." Jason started buzzing in my ears during class the next day.

I knew he was referring to the sentence I scolded my roommate the night before, "He locked me out."

"He's usually cheap, not only in your dormitory, but there are too many professional people who don't like him." Jason took sides with me, "Our dormitory still discussed after last night, you and him must be the one who crushed him." It is not difficult to imagine that there is Jason in the dormitory, and the rest of the dormitory must be very clear about this kind of thing.

"I find it disgusting."

"That's..." Jason misunderstood me, "Physical devices are not connected."

"Even if I fuck a man, I don't like his ass."

I didn't mean to come out to Jason, I just didn't feel the need to hide it.

Although he is my best friend in college, he doesn't care about me.My logic is that, apart from being connected by blood, as long as I don't want to fuck, I can't get involved in this matter.

Jason looked at me, he was so smart that he would understand this.He raised his eyebrows and didn't continue the topic.

It's me. I didn't realize until I said this. When I first met Cai Xia in my freshman year, I felt a little conflicted in my heart. Jason knew that I liked men.In less than a year, Jiang Hao came back, and the relationship between me and him has completely changed, even my mentality has changed so much.

Two weeks later, Jason met Xiao Cai.That day, Lu Zhengyang and Jason were playing with a few good friends in school. After coming and going, I seemed to have completely mixed into the special admissions circle.

"He didn't think the same as I did." Jason said to me afterwards, I think he really regarded me as a friend, otherwise, according to his personality, how could he comment.

"What do you think it's like?"

He frowned, "It's hard to say what kind it is," Jason smiled meaningfully, "I just didn't think there would be someone like this around you."

Jason and I can keep in touch even after graduating from college, even after I go abroad, a large reason is that we got to know each other during college and this understanding only comes from each other.

17

November is cold