as if poisoned

Like a bird in the sky, like a fish in the deep sea

Nothing more, all free

We can't do anything when we're tied up

can't even do it

Fly like a bird in the sky

I want to be as comfortable as a fish in the deep sea

but we can't

We're trapped in fishbowls, birdcages

waiting to watch

waiting to die

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April, flower season

I got busier, gotta get another job, make money

Mom's birthday is coming, although she said she doesn't want to raise me anymore, but I know that's an excuse

Because she was overheard by Qin Nuo when she secretly called the school leader

Qin Nuo also told me

Everyone has their own difficulties, my mother must have, and there are many more

After my father was away, I often heard crying from my mother's room because of poor sound insulation

sobbing, bit by bit

I don't know how to comfort, I don't know how to comfort, I can only look at my mother's red and swollen eyes the next day, but I can only smile and say it's okay

Maybe I, like my mother, have stubborn factors in my bones and stubborn cells in my blood

Occasionally when I go to send flowers, I will see Huang Shengjia, and he will walk with me occasionally

This formed a strange scene where I was holding a bouquet of flowers, and then walked alone with me. I felt very embarrassed, because even the old uncle at the street stall was looking at me, which made me feel very uncomfortable. comfortable

"Sheng Jia, you don't need to come to me specially."

"Who said I came here to find you? I'm passing by"

"..." Then don't take the same road as me when you pass by!

I let him, anyway, this road is not mine alone

When I returned to the flower shop after delivering the flowers, he still followed me, which made me a little speechless

"Sheng Jia, what do you want to do?"

"I buy flowers"

"..."

My temper is starting to become irritable.If you think about it, if you are stared at by a stalker, you can dodge, but if you are followed by a friend, how should you dodge?

It was only later that I found out that it was Qin Nuo who gave the ultimatum, asking him to come and follow me

It makes me speechless, sometimes they care about me, but they care too much, which makes me not know whether I should cry or laugh

He actually bought a rose, and I found out later that it was for a business trip

After the work of the flower shop ended at seven o'clock, I went to work at the food stall again

"Dude! Here's a dish of fried noodles with spicy sauce, fried vegetables without oil!"

"okay!"

The salary of such a job is not high, but it is enough for me to buy a gift for my mother.I only go back to see him once a month. My current school is too far away from my home, and the dormitory rent is too expensive. I can only find a cheap house to share with others.

As for why I went to this school, it was also because of my mother's request. My mother is a very good woman, but I didn't meet the right person, so I want to protect her

The day after the boss paid my salary, I went to buy a mobile phone for my mother. I hope she likes it, and I hope he doesn’t think I’m wasting money, because as a son, I want to see his smiling face and pamper my own. Mother

The rebellion in my bones did not keep me away from my mother. Although I left home, I still miss my mother very much. As long as he has a mobile phone, she can make calls to the house I share, and I will charge him on time.

As long as I can talk to my mother occasionally, it doesn't matter if I am lucky.

Oh, by the way, I’m actually a Cancer, and I’m quite home-loving.

On a certain weekend in April, I didn’t arrange a part-time job just to go back and get together with my mother

I got up early and in the dark, just to see my mother sooner.

It's been eight hours until I get home

I went in and spread it out on the sofa, I guess Mom should have gone out and not come home yet

I close my eyes and rest

Because it is really tiring, but no matter how hard I am, I feel it is worth it.

A pair of cold hands touched my face, I frowned, opened my eyes slowly, and saw that it was my mother

"Mom, I'm back"

"Tired? Go up and rest for a while"

My mother's voice is still the same, but there is more vicissitudes of life. My mother is really old. The smile before is even more indifferent now.

"Mom, I have something for you"

I said while flipping through my bag, I really hope mom likes it

This phone is not a smartphone, nor is it a touch screen, but I think it is suitable for my mother, so I bought it

My mother was upset, and she asked me: "Why do you waste money on this kind of thing? If you have time to buy this kind of thing, why don't you buy a reference book!"

Although I was a little unhappy being scolded by my mother, I know he loves me and loves me for spending money on him, but I am happy

"Mom, I can't bear to see you only once a month. Let this be a gift from me, so that you can call me often."

My mother hugged me gently: "Silly boy, my mother is afraid of your misfortune! Look at you, your peers are still playing outside happily, and you are already able to think about my mother... Mom is so distressed"

"I know"

I responded to him, I know that my mother loves me, but I will give my mother what I can give

"Mom really feels sorry for you. She didn't give you the best, but instead asked you to accommodate me..."

I feel wet on my shoulders but I don't know what to say

"It's okay, I'm not miserable"

Mom didn't speak, he just hugged me like this for a long time