When Lu Liruan met Liao Tingyuan, she didn't know who he was. After learning Liao Tingyuan's identity, Lu Liruan didn't do anything extra because at that time, she was completely dependent on Liao Tingyuan.

If Lu Liruan hadn't met Liao Tingyuan in that situation, she wouldn't have known what to do. She might have failed the mission from the very beginning, since there was absolutely no particularly useful information about this world for her.

Everything that happened afterward seemed to fall into place naturally. Looking back, Lu Liruan felt that her relationship with Liao Tingyuan was less about what she did for the mission and more about fate.

But now Lu Liruan has discovered that Liao Tingyuan actually thinks they shouldn't have met in the first place.

"If you really don't want to know me or have anything to do with me, then it's not too late. We can just break off our friendship now, and I'll find a way to move out tomorrow," Lu Liruan said calmly, lowering her eyes.

Liao Tingyuan looked up in a panic, completely unexpected to hear Lu Liruan say such a thing.

He subconsciously reached out to pull Lu Liruan, but Lu Liruan nimbly dodged him with a raised hand.

"What, am I not generous enough? Logically speaking, if you want to break off our friendship, you should figure it out yourself. But since your house is bought and mine is rented, I'm making a move to take care of you." Lu Liruan's voice became calm at this moment, with a hint of sarcasm.

"No." Liao Tingyuan stared at Lu Liruan, his gaze fixed on her. He wanted to say something, but he didn't know how to express it, so he could only convey it through his eyes.

Lu Liruan felt that Liao Tingyuan today was someone she had never seen before.

From the moment she discovered his deception until now, Lu Liruan felt for the first time Liao Tingyuan's genuine unease, even fear, an extreme unease that was a stark contrast to his usual demeanor.

Although Lu Liruan felt that she shouldn't... and it wasn't appropriate in this situation, deep down she felt a strange sense of satisfaction. She was quite happy to see Liao Tingyuan deceive her and now in such a predicament, because even the most good-tempered person would harbor resentment.

If Liao Tingyuan had remained calm, Lu Liruan felt she should have been even angrier, not like this. In fact, before Liao Tingyuan had even said anything, the initial anger in her heart had already dissipated.

And then there's... Liao Tingyuan at this moment has a kind of vivid beauty. Humans are visual creatures, although Lu Liruan felt that it wasn't good to have such distracting thoughts at this moment.

But this is what I think in my heart... and only I know it secretly.

So what?

She could also keep things from Liao Tingyuan!

As for saying that she wanted to move out, it was a spur-of-the-moment decision. When Lu Liruan said it, she just wanted to see what Liao Tingyuan would be like.

“But I’ve already paid the rent. Because of my personal reasons, the landlord probably won’t refund it to me. If Teacher Liao feels bad about it, just compensate me for the remaining rent.” Lu Liruan deliberately spoke in a convincing manner.

Because Lu Liruan noticed that as she spoke, a faint blush appeared on Liao Tingyuan's pale skin due to his urgency, spreading from his cheeks to the corners of his eyes, making his light-colored eyes appear even clearer and more focused.

"Ruan Ruan, I didn't mean that..."

"So what do you mean? In the end, you just think I shouldn't have asked you for help in the first place. You don't need to say it, I can already guess your reasons: Ah, it was too dangerous back then, I shouldn't have put her in such a dangerous situation. Thinking about the dangers she will encounter later, it's all because I met her in the first place and we solved the space problem together. It's all my fault. If only I hadn't met her and hadn't let her act with me!"

Lu Liruan didn't give Liao Tingyuan a chance to speak. She talked for a long time without pausing for breath, and the more she talked, the more sarcastic and the more her tone became.

It turns out that being sarcastic and unsettling isn't something you learn from anyone; it's something you naturally develop when you encounter certain situations.

Lu Liruan came to this conclusion in her mind while her attention was distracted.

"Afterwards, I kept thinking, ah... I made her life dangerous because of me, if only I hadn't..." Lu Liruan rolled her eyes.

"No." Liao Tingyuan didn't react to Lu Liruan's sarcastic tone; instead, he seemed to have calmed down.

"What is that?" Lu Liruan felt that she had guessed quite accurately.

For Lu Liruan, the idea of ​​belatedly realizing that things might have been better if she had done something differently was completely useless. If she were to fall into such thoughts, she would have too many memories to recall in her short life of just over twenty years, and she could lie in bed every day, reminiscing and crying.

Lu Liruan always believed that no matter what, people should always look forward.

"I don't mean I don't want to get to know you." Liao Tingyuan suddenly reached out his hand. This time he moved very quickly, and Lu Liruan didn't have time to dodge. Her wrist was gently grasped by Liao Tingyuan.

The icy touch sent a shiver down Lu Liruan's spine.

"I'm saying this because I feel that after meeting you, I don't want you to leave my life. But this selfish and heavy thought of mine might be troublesome or a burden for you. I don't want to cause you any trouble, so... if this makes you unhappy and you don't know how to treat me..."

He raised the corners of his mouth slightly: "If the me of today, or the me of the future, makes you angry or sad... then you should have never met me back then." His voice was unhurried, even gentle.

Yet, it couldn't hide the loneliness and self-loathing within.

Lu Liruan was stunned.

What Liao Tingyuan said was completely different from what she thought, and even completely unrelated.

Lu Liruan subconsciously felt that this argument of "it's for your own good if we don't know each other" must be a common charade, an attempt to impose one's own self-pity on the other person and hoping that the other person would appreciate it.

But Liao Tingyuan didn't show that intention at all...

Suddenly, Lu Liruan felt a pang of guilt. Liao Tingyuan wasn't that kind of person, she knew it. In all this time, she had never felt that self-pitying attitude from him, let alone that self-centered behavior of not considering others' feelings and judging others by her own standards...

But because of today's deception, Lu Liruan felt that she had suddenly ignored all of Liao Tingyuan's previous behavior and was only using malice to speculate about him, especially when he was in a weak state, and was aggressively questioning him.

Lu Liruan had to admit that she did come with the intention of questioning. Because she was in the right in this matter, she was not prepared to let it go, and Lu Liruan had now completely calmed down.

But I never thought that, given Liao Tingyuan's character, he would really do that.

Lu Liruan just wanted an answer.

Seeing that Lu Liruan didn't speak, Liao Tingyuan gently tightened his grip and encircled Lu Liruan's wrist. He didn't pull Lu Liruan closer to him, but instead used the wrist to move closer to her.

Lu Liruan felt uncomfortable under his gaze.

“I didn’t mean to hide it from you at first… I didn’t intentionally not tell you, but… I thought that once we left the space, you would know, and someone would tell me.” As soon as he said this, Lu Liruan raised an eyebrow.

Based on the personality Liao Tingyuan displayed when we first met, it's entirely possible that someone told him this during the new employee training when he was waiting to start the job.

He hadn't even flipped through his own new employee training manual much. At the time, he thought it was highly likely that professionals should do professional things. Lu Liruan assessed in her mind that someone who had just met someone and was already trying to deceive them was either up to no good or mentally ill. Liao Tingyuan seemed to be neither.

Seeing Lu Liruan nod slightly, Liao Tingyuan felt a little more at ease.

Now that you've already started, it won't be so hard to be frank about what's to come.

"Later, I really didn't want you to know so soon," Liao Tingyuan sighed. "I felt you would worry about me."

"Of course I'll worry about you!" Lu Liruan said without hesitation. "Not only will I worry about you, I'll also feel sad. Seeing you uncomfortable will make me uncomfortable too!"

Looking at the little girl with such earnest eyes, Liao Tingyuan felt his nerves pounding.

"You can't deny me the right to worry about you, can you?"

“But when you worry about me, Ruan Ruan, that’s when I’m hurting you…” Liao Tingyuan’s tone became more serious: “Worrying about the unknown outcome for a long time is hard to accept.”

"Do you remember telling me about you and your mother?"

"..." Of course Lu Liruan remembered.

Those words that had been bottled up inside her for so long, she never knew who to tell, but after talking to Liao Tingyuan, Lu Liruan felt as if something that had been weighing on her had been suddenly removed. With an outlet to pour out, the surging tide in her body finally stopped rising and falling so erratically.

Everything settled down immediately.

"I don't want you to fall into the same predicament again." Liao Tingyuan looked at her earnestly: "Perhaps I am not that important to you, but I also don't want to cause you any more of your past sadness."

“Teacher Liao, you are very important.” When Lu Liruan heard him say that about himself, she felt as if she had been stung, and immediately retorted, “Really, you are a very important person to me, so…”

So stop saying things that make you feel insignificant. Lu Liruan felt a sting in her heart when she heard those words.

Liao Tingyuan's smile widened slightly, but then his brow furrowed again.

"Of course, there's also my personal motive."

There's no point in hiding it now. Rather than angering Lu Liruan and continuing in this ambiguous situation, it's better to tell the truth. Liao Tingyuan doesn't know if telling the truth will make both of them feel better.

When Lu Liruan first heard the word "selfishness" from Liao Tingyuan, her curiosity was immediately piqued. She wondered what she would hear from Liao Tingyuan.

Liao Tingyuan's words just now were enough to surprise Lu Liruan.

"I wonder... if you knew everything, would you leave my life because of this?" Liao Tingyuan unconsciously straightened his back, his gaze falling on the hand he was holding Lu Liruan's.

"Would you choose to leave because of the unpredictable outcome? Because if you just leave, stop paying attention, and stop having any contact with people who know about these things, you might be able to return to a normal life."

Lu Liruan was stunned. She looked at Liao Tingyuan's hair, which was hanging down and covering his eyes. His straight figure was still very thin. Lu Liruan once thought that he seemed to have nothing to fear, and even that he was omnipotent.

But at this moment, Lu Liruan seemed to see through the thin mist that had been obscuring her eyes and finally see Liao Tingyuan's true appearance.

Ah... so this person can also feel fear, worry, and has normal emotions and desires...

It's still because of myself.

Lu Liruan never imagined that she would have such a big impact on Liao Tingyuan.

She asked, somewhat bewildered, "Is it possible for anyone to return to a normal life?"

Lu Liruan always thought that people who could sense the space would come to work once they were discovered. After all, as An Tang said, it was only here that they could find people who could truly understand them. Moreover, an organized structure was more authoritative than being alone, especially something that seemed impossible in ordinary life.

It is a job, a source of information, and a form of "security".

"Well, actually quite a few people have chosen to ignore it, not to see or hear it, and to completely cut off contact with us, living their lives as ordinary, normal people," Liao Tingyuan replied.

This is the first time I've heard this.

So there are people who choose to live like this.

“I’m worried that you… will do the same, because I’ve caused you pain, and you’ll stop, stop paying attention to me.” Liao Tingyuan’s voice was light and airy, like a feather brushing against Lu Liruan’s eardrums, making her almost doubt whether he was even saying it.

Lu Liruan felt it was all very unreal.

Would Liao Tingyuan do such a thing for such a reason? Is his inner turmoil and anxiety all because of himself?

Let alone Liao Tingyuan, Lu Liruan never thought that anyone would care about her so much.

"Why would you think that?" Lu Liruan asked slowly.

This was the first time I had felt such profound emotion from Liao Tingyuan, and it was all for my sake.

Lu Liruan didn't think Liao Tingyuan was making excuses to lie to her, because he had no reason to. Moreover, Lu Liruan believed that Liao Tingyuan was being completely honest with her at this moment.

This made Lu Liruan's heart pound.

Liao Tingyuan said he couldn't bear to part with himself, and he hoped that he could always stay in his life... Isn't that what I've thought about too?

Perhaps from some point in time, they have always been thinking the same thing as each other.

Liao Tingyuan was worried about whether he would suffer repeated harm, something Lu Liruan herself hadn't expected. He was so meticulous about her.

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