Because of her mission, Lu Liruan had come here from the very beginning to find Liao Tingyuan, so she never thought she would have any other way of life.

She wanted to integrate into this world and also wanted to integrate into Liao Tingyuan's life.

It wasn't just about the mission, but about Liao Tingyuan as a person. After developing feelings and getting to know Liao Tingyuan as a real person, Lu Liruan couldn't treat him as a simple, two-dimensional symbol.

When Lu Liruan first learned that her mission was to protect Liao Tingyuan, she only thought that she should try her best to protect him from harm.

But now, just thinking about it, Liao Tingyuan might be in danger beside him, and might encounter some misfortune.

If I don't keep a close eye on him, he might run into an accident.

Lu Liruan was very nervous, and this nervousness caused her to be in a tense state.

Lu Liruan felt that her anger at being deceived and kept in the dark was also related to this...

After all, he suddenly realized he had been kept in the dark. He was unaware of things that everyone else knew, and Liao Tingyuan was at the center of the incident.

Besides feeling angry, Lu Liruan also felt powerless and afraid.

Is there anything else they're hiding from me?

Will something unexpected happen somewhere I don't know about? Or am I destined to be unable to properly protect Liao Tingyuan?

The more Lu Liruan thought about it, the more worried and angry she became. How could he not even give her a chance to take care of him and protect him? Lu Liruan felt this was too selfish. Liao Tingyuan treated her so gently and kindly, yet he wouldn't let her reciprocate with the same feelings.

When there is a deep bond between people, if you don't expect the other person to reciprocate, they will feel angry and sad.

Only those who are greedy, despicable, and full of petty schemes and calculations would only expect the other party to do things for them while they enjoy everything, yet be stingy with gratitude and reciprocation.

But after hearing Liao Tingyuan's reasons, Lu Liruan realized that from Liao Tingyuan's perspective, based on his complete ignorance of his mission, he felt that he could give up at any time.

Because I don't want to face these things, I don't want to be trapped by mysteries and an unknown future. I want to pretend to be ignorant and peaceful to face life, and choose to live another kind of life that can also be quiet and happy.

Liao Tingyuan was worried about leaving him.

Lu Liruan noticed Liao Tingyuan's words. He wasn't worried about her, or that he would no longer accept the job or work with her.

Or to put it more grandly, no longer contributing to solving space-related problems...

Liao Tingyuan was only talking about himself.

He said he was worried that she would ignore him... and disappear from his life.

He talks as if he's very important to him.

Am I important to you?

Thinking this, Lu Liruan took a breath, looked directly into Liao Tingyuan's eyes, and asked earnestly and directly.

At this moment, Lu Liruan especially wanted to know the answer.

"Yes." Liao Tingyuan nodded. "You are very important to me." He gave his answer almost without hesitation.

Lu Liruan felt the blood rushing to her cheeks, and she could hear her heart pounding in her ears.

She didn't understand why she was so excited and happy about Liao Tingyuan's answer, but the corners of her mouth had already involuntarily turned up.

It turns out that I really am very important to him.

Liao Tingyuan seemed to have never expressed his feelings so directly and urgently before. He was always calm, indifferent, and even ordinary love and hate seemed to have nothing to do with him.

To put it metaphorically, Lu Liruan's initial impression of him was that he was just a very handsome passerby.

Upon closer reflection, it's not that he has some extraordinary ability that makes him go unnoticed, but rather that he has never had a significant emotional connection with people and things. This makes him detached from human affairs, as if nothing concerns him, and naturally, he is subconsciously ignored.

But he didn't care. Perhaps this situation made him feel comfortable and relaxed.

After realizing this, Lu Liruan unconsciously observed him and always felt that Liao Tingyuan was the kind of person who wouldn't develop any deep feelings for others. So Lu Liruan also struggled with the question, "What am I to him?"

At that moment, Lu Liruan suddenly wondered why she was bothered by this question.

After all, as long as I protect him, I can complete the mission. Why do I need to know what my position is in Liao Tingyuan's heart?

But Lu Liruan just wanted to know, yet she didn't know how to bring it up. It was as if once she asked, something would change, and she would be seen through...

Lu Liruan was in a state of turmoil because of this.

Finally, as the weather turned cooler, this idea, which had been so hard-won, gradually cooled down as well.

But today, without me even having to ask, Liao Tingyuan unexpectedly took the initiative to say those words.

Everything that Lu Liruan had been struggling with was answered in Liao Tingyuan's words.

Lu Liruan never imagined that her position in Liao Tingyuan's heart would be expressed in the way he did.

This upward, reverse contrast brought Lu Liruan a strange, inexplicable dizziness.

It was as if some emotion quickly filled her brain, and through nerve conduction, it made her thoughts run wild, subconsciously connecting many bits and pieces of their past interactions, providing corroboration for Liao Tingyuan's words.

In that instant, Lu Liruan believed that what Liao Tingyuan said was true, and that he really felt that she was important!

This conclusion immediately made Lu Liruan excited and happy.

This happiness came too fast, too suddenly...

Lu Liruan didn't know how to express herself, or rather, how to face Liao Tingyuan.

"sorry."

Before Lu Liruan could speak, she heard Liao Tingyuan's soft voice.

"Why apologize?" Lu Liruan tilted her head, not understanding what the apology was meant to express after she had said that she was very important.

Liao Tingyuan's palm, which was holding Lu Liruan's wrist, warmed from the heat of Lu Liruan's skin, and gently pressed against hers.

"I'm afraid what I'm saying, these feelings of mine, will cause you trouble," Liao Tingyuan said earnestly. "I didn't want to say this before, but I don't want to lie to you anymore. I'm so sorry for keeping things from you before, and for letting you hear these words..."

"Why would you think it's bothering me?" Lu Liruan interrupted him before he could finish speaking.

"I'm not talking about the time you lied to me. That time you lied to me did cause me trouble!" Lu Liruan gestured with her other hand, trying to make a cut in the middle with her hand gesture.

"Why do you presume to think that your telling me I'm important to you is a burden to me?" Lu Liruan blinked. "If it weren't for what happened today, would you have never told me?"

Judging from Liao Tingyuan's expression, that was indeed his plan.

Lu Liruan pursed her lips: "You think I'm very important to you, but have you ever thought about how you are to me?"

Liao Tingyuan looked at Lu Liruan's face, opened his lips but didn't say anything.

Of course he thought about it.

If I hadn't thought about this issue, there wouldn't be any concealment today...

"Do you think you're not important to me?" Lu Liruan pressed, "Why do you think that?"

Lu Liruan believed that in daily life, her emotions were always more outward than Liao Tingyuan's.

When did I express that I didn't value him?

no?

Everything I expressed to him came from my heart...

I feel very happy and comfortable being with him.

Even so, couldn't Liao Tingyuan feel it?

Because they don't feel it, and don't question themselves, they do these kinds of things.

Liao Tingyuan was surprised by Lu Liruan's question. He blinked and looked puzzled, as if asking: Do I need to ask you again?

Lu Liruan raised an eyebrow: "What, aren't you going to ask me? Are we communicating by talking in our sleep?"

Liao Tingyuan: ...

Lu Liruan's initial excitement gradually subsided. She couldn't ignore other issues just because she heard Liao Tingyuan's reasons. Lu Liruan felt that she was a woman who was not easily blinded by emotions.

"I don't know how to ask you this, and it would be quite impolite for me to suddenly ask you this question if you're not prepared to answer it."

Lu Liruan: ?

Impolite?

"So what are you planning to do?" Lu Liruan was confused by what he said. The road to the left was blocked, and the road to the right was blocked. Which way should she go?

"I don't know... I actually... haven't figured out what to do at all." Since things had already come to this point, Liao Tingyuan simply said it out loud.

He really hadn't planned to tell Lu Liruan about it. When An Tang asked him what his plans were, Liao Tingyuan's silence wasn't because he was conflicted, but because he genuinely didn't know what to do.

Based on her years of understanding of Liao Tingyuan, An Tang felt that Liao Tingyuan was an extremely reliable person, so she had an inexplicable and habitual trust in him.

After Liao Tingyuan remained silent, An Tang assumed he had something on his mind and didn't press him further...

If An Tang knew Liao Tingyuan, she would be amused and annoyed by this statement.

Lu Liruan was also amused by him, but not in a way that she found humorous.

"So you're just going to keep dragging this on?" Lu Liruan's eyes widened. "You never thought I'd find out, never thought about how to resolve it, never thought about telling me the truth. You just thought you could get by and lie to me for as long as you could, right?"

Lu Liruan clicked her tongue: "No wonder I've noticed you've been talking less and less lately. You must have something on your mind."

Liao Tingyuan had no way to refute what Lu Liruan said, so he could only silently lower his head and let Lu Liruan scold him.

Lu Liruan didn't intend to scold him; she just thought it was a bit absurd.

“Teacher Liao, you’re already thirty years old. What’s the difference between your behavior and not doing your holiday homework when you were in school, not telling the teacher, not planning to make it up, and just not daring to do anything until the teacher finds out?” Lu Liruan said, and then thought of an impolite description.

"Aren't dead pigs afraid of being scalded by boiling water?"

Liao Tingyuan: ...

“I didn’t mean you were a dead pig.” Lu Liruan waved her hand: “I’m not very educated, but that’s the gist of it.”

After being rebuked by Lu Liruan, Liao Tingyuan seemed a little embarrassed. He remained silent and did not answer Lu Liruan's question.

"It's also possible that you gradually discover that all of this is not a simple matter, but a mystery that you don't know when it will be explained, and then you make your own choice."

Liao Tingyuan showed a hint of shame. This was the first time he had revealed himself, and the first time he had faced his inner thoughts so clearly.

“I thought that after you see all this clearly, you might make your own choice, choose to stay or choose to leave. I can’t interfere with your thoughts and choices. But in the end, what I did was actually trying to interfere with your choices in a hypocritical way. Ruan Ruan, I don’t know how to tell you this, because I feel that I shouldn’t do it.”

"When I was keeping it from you, I thought to myself that as long as I didn't say it out loud, and didn't interfere with or stop you with my words or actions, or deliberately guide you, then I wouldn't be deceiving you." Liao Tingyuan shook his head.

“I just hoped you could stay in my life a little longer, that’s how I comforted myself, but it’s not right. Ruan Ruan, like you said, I should have been honest with you. But I didn’t. Now you ask me why? I can’t explain it either. If I’ve made you angry or disappointed, I’m sorry…” Liao Tingyuan repeated.

“I don’t need your apology.” Lu Liruan shook her head. “Because an apology isn’t that important to either of us. I don’t necessarily need to argue with you about right and wrong.” Lu Liruan’s words came from the bottom of her heart.

Her original intention, even when she first discovered that Liao Tingyuan had been hiding things from her, was not to want Liao Tingyuan to admit his mistake and apologize to her.

It's not about standing on the completely righteous side and criticizing him...

Lu Liruan didn't want him to admit his mistakes like a teacher would to a student, or like in a debate. Lu Liruan just wanted to know why, to know his reasons for doing so, and the reasons behind them.

Rather than discussing right and wrong, Lu Liruan wanted to delve deeper and get closer to understanding Liao Tingyuan as a person. Perhaps she could learn what he was thinking from his actions, which is why Lu Liruan pressed him for answers.

Hearing Liao Tingyuan's apology did not make Lu Liruan feel good or victorious.

Instead, as Lu Liruan listened to him apologize repeatedly, she felt a strange pang of sadness in her heart...

What could possibly make someone like Liao Tingyuan, in this situation, place himself in such a lowly position, unwilling to even ask, and self-righteously put himself in a position where he is unimportant, unwanted, and would be disliked if he showed even a little vulnerability?

This is inconsistent with his education, life experience, demonstrated abilities, age, and maturity.

Lu Liruan even detected a hint of timidity and naivety in it...

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