Lu Liruan pouted: "Of course I can't hide it. I was so young when I was little, and I already had to start acting with my mom... I had to pretend to believe it so that my mom would think I was happy, but actually I wasn't happy at all. Do you know how sad I was behind her back?"

“I don’t actually need such kindness, even though I’m very young, you understand?” Lu Liruan said sincerely.

Compared to that vague, superficial sense of security, Lu Liruan felt that a real sense of crisis and genuine vulnerability was more reassuring, at least everyone could show their true selves.

"Teacher Liao, when would you like me to know?" Lu Liruan asked, puzzled.

"I don't know." Liao Tingyuan no longer had the intention to lie. He had never thought of deliberately deceiving anyone, nor was he good at it.

Liao Tingyuan was not unaware of the girl's curiosity about him after all that had happened, but he simply remained silent when he didn't want to talk about it; it was just that the girl trusted him a lot.

Liao Tingyuan felt that their cover-up had many loopholes, but it was only because Lu Liruan was unaware of the work she was about to face.

Whenever he thought about how long he should keep it a secret, he subconsciously avoided the question.

Just like every time An Tang asked him.

"When you were hiding it from me, were you also feeling uncomfortable?" Lu Liruan raised an eyebrow.

Now, when put together, Liao Tingyuan's behavior becomes somewhat explainable.

Lu Liruan is a very smart and sensitive person. Sometimes it's not that she doesn't think about it, but that she trusts others not to lie to her.

Or rather, it's not about complete trust, but what's the point of thinking about it? In so many years of not-so-happy life, the more you think, the more painful and empty you feel. Instead of analyzing others and life, you should sleep a little longer so you can live a better life when you wake up.

But Liao Tingyuan is clearly not the same kind of person as me.

Lu Liruan pondered... and felt that Teacher Liao was the kind of person whose mind was full of complex thoughts, but who never revealed them on the surface.

Lu Liruan wanted to know something and was too lazy to beat around the bush, so she just asked directly. But if it were Teacher Liao... he might play the detective game himself until the very end.

Lu Liruan's mind was filled with wild imagination.

She wasn't someone who would stay angry for long. Rather than saying she had a good temper, it would be more accurate to say she was a bit unreliable and carefree. Most of the time, she didn't even need anyone to persuade her; after a few hours, Lu Liruan would have already forgotten about her anger.

But not this time!

Lu Liruan secretly pulled her thoughts back, reminding herself that she should continue to be angry... She couldn't start to calm down just because she saw Liao Tingyuan's handsome face.

Maintain your anger.

Lu Liruan said to herself.

This is absolutely not something to be taken lightly! It must be taken seriously!

Lu Liruan felt that no matter the reason... even if it was for the mission, she had to understand Liao Tingyuan's thoughts to prevent this from happening again. If she was kept in the dark again, and something was beyond her control, or she didn't even know about it, then she would have no way to do her best to ensure Liao Tingyuan's safety!

Lu Liruan thought to herself: At first, I thought I had to become Ultraman and defeat the monsters to protect Teacher Liao's life from the horror reality show in a physical way...

It now seems that the battle has shifted from physical warfare to psychological warfare, because Professor Liao is also a flesh-and-blood human being with a mind of his own...

He's not just thoughtful, he's incredibly thoughtful! At first, Lu Liruan thought of him as a handsome but taciturn passerby, but now she realizes she was completely wrong! After getting to know Teacher Liao, she discovered he was nothing like she had imagined.

Especially now... Looking at his face, Lu Liruan felt that Liao Tingyuan was someone she had never seen before.

His gaze and the emotions he subtly conveyed... made Lu Liruan feel inexplicably as if she were in a superior position, looking down at him, while he was in a lower position, looking up at her.

This was absolutely not Lu Liruan's intention.

Lu Liruan never considered who was superior or inferior in matters of the heart or in relationships, whether as friends or...

This feeling originated entirely passively from Liao Tingyuan, which left Lu Liruan quite at a loss, with the illusion that she had been suddenly elevated and was not in control of her own destiny.

Lu Liruan didn't want to look down on him, nor did she want to scrutinize or judge him; she just wanted to have a calm and proper conversation.

But Liao Tingyuan doesn't seem willing to do that now. Although he still looks calm, Lu Liruan feels that he is emotionally escaping and placing himself on a different level, imposing this feeling on himself.

Although the two of them are quietly looking at each other... Lu Liruan just finds it difficult to communicate.

There's a kind of difficulty in not knowing how to bring up the other person and get them to communicate with you calmly and openly.

Lu Liruan sighed and stood up from the sofa. As soon as she moved, Liao Tingyuan stiffened and immediately stared at her, as if following her or locking onto her, as if afraid that Lu Liruan would leave right now.

Lu Liruan just wanted to stretch her legs a bit...

After being locked in a stalemate with Liao Tingyuan for a while, Lu Liruan felt extremely uncomfortable, as if she were shackled. Now she got up and moved around, stretching her limbs, hoping to get rid of the sense of disharmony and inequality that Liao Tingyuan had given her.

Lu Liruan swayed around the coffee table twice, like she was doing calisthenics. Liao Tingyuan was quite puzzled by her actions, wondering what emotion the girl was expressing.

He wanted to get up too...

As a result, Lu Liruan pressed her hand down on his shoulder.

"Don't move!" Lu Liruan stopped her.

Liao Tingyuan was confused, but in any case, Lu Liruan had indeed pulled him out of his own emotions. Liao Tingyuan could feel that his mind was not as chaotic as before.

He didn't lie to Lu Liruan. He was indeed affected by what happened that afternoon. However, he could usually control himself, but today he felt powerless.

Lu Liruan stopped Liao Tingyuan's actions, but she herself didn't know what to do... After pacing around a few times, she went to the kitchen and poured herself a glass of ice water.

He gulped it down.

A chill instantly rushed to Lu Liruan's head, making her shiver and clear her mind.

Liao Tingyuan should be the one being affected, so why am I feeling affected too? No… I can’t let my thoughts get out of control. Lu Liruan patted her cheeks, trying to find her rhythm.

"Do you want some water?" Lu Liruan asked without turning around.

"No need," Liao Tingyuan replied.

Then Lu Liruan came back and handed him a cup of warm water... which was still a little hot.

"Have something to drink." Lu Liruan meant that seeing his pale face, he should drink some hot water first.

Liao Tingyuan held the water glass, trying to feel the temperature with his cold palm, but could only feel a little warmth.

Just like what he also wanted from Lu Liruan.

As long as they don't leave me...

This thought suddenly popped into Liao Tingyuan's mind.

His gaze seemed to find its focus as he looked up at Lu Liruan, as if he had found part of the answer in an instant.

Why are you looking at me like that?

Lu Liruan seemed indifferent, but her attention was focused on Liao Tingyuan. Naturally, she immediately felt his gaze and subconsciously asked a question.

After asking the question, Lu Liruan realized she couldn't let him change the subject.

You haven't answered my question yet.

"Hmm?" Liao Tingyuan frowned, looking like he didn't know what Lu Liruan had said.

"I'm asking you, when you were keeping it from me, did you feel uncomfortable?" Lu Liruan narrowed her eyes.

"Ah."

Liao Tingyuan nodded, indicating that he had not lied to Lu Liruan.

"Then why do it?"

Lu Liruan sat down again, and this time the feeling of being forced to look up to Liao Tingyuan dissipated considerably.

“Teacher Liao…you’ve attended school and read far more books than I have…” Lu Liruan crossed her legs, trying to appear as if she was in complete control of the conversation.

"This has nothing to do with reading," Liao Tingyuan said softly.

Lu Liruan: ...

"Am I implying that you have more knowledge and life experience than me?" Lu Liruan clicked her tongue.

"Look at you, you're more mature than me in every way, right? More rational than me, right? Better than me... right?" Lu Liruan didn't know what adjectives to use.

"Then why can't you understand... If we talk things out properly, neither of us will be upset. Or, if you keep something from me, it'll be better for you to be upset and for me to be angry, right?" Lu Liruan shrugged.

"Don't you think so? Why complicate things? Once you tell one lie, you have to tell more lies to cover it up. Isn't that a common sense?" Lu Liruan felt more and more confused as she spoke.

She truly couldn't understand Liao Tingyuan's actions. Why would he choose a method that might create a rift between them? Just because he thought it was for her own good?

Lu Liruan felt that this reason was not convincing enough...

Moreover, Liao Tingyuan doesn't seem like the kind of person who would be so autocratic, make decisions for others, and feel justified in lying and concealing things under the guise of doing what's best for others.

If it's this kind of person...

They won't feel bad; they'll only think they're right. They're clearly showing concern for others, and if others don't appreciate it or get angry, it means they don't understand their good intentions... They have their own set of self-righteous reasons, and they won't feel any torment or discomfort.

But Liao Tingyuan is not.

Lu Liruan didn't need to ask the question again to be able to sense Liao Tingyuan's unease and anxiety.

It's more like he was forced to make this decision.

It seemed that there was no other choice but to do it, and he knew that doing so was not the right thing to do, nor was it a matter of course.

Therefore, during this process and the time it was kept secret, he would feel even more uneasy and anxious...

It's like entering a vicious cycle.

Lu Liruan didn't understand why he would still do this even though he had anticipated it.

With Teacher Liao's intelligence and emotional intelligence, it's impossible that she didn't anticipate that she would get angry.

As he himself just said, he knew he shouldn't have done that, and he didn't want this to create a rift between them.

Lu Liruan just felt that there must be something else involved...

There must be something else that made Liao Tingyuan do this, even though he knew what would happen and what the consequences might be. He had already thought about it and rehearsed it in his mind.

Lu Liruan felt that he still had something to say.

"Teacher Liao, why do you want to make both of us feel uncomfortable?" Lu Liruan asked sincerely.

“Ruan Ruan… what you said, I have indeed thought about.” Liao Tingyuan suddenly said in a low voice.

Lu Liruan thought he would remain silent forever.

"I've wanted to be honest with you several times." Liao Tingyuan looked at Lu Liruan. Because his pupils were very light, his irises were exceptionally clear. Even in the dim lighting of the room, Lu Liruan could still see his gaze flickering slightly...

“Actually, in the very beginning, I shouldn’t have…” He paused for a moment, “I shouldn’t have let you see all this.”

ha?

Lu Liruan's thoughts jumped around abruptly from his words... Where did this conversation take me? Why are we suddenly talking about our first encounter?

"When?" Lu Liruan blurted out without thinking, then noticed a hint of doubt on Liao Tingyuan's face... as if asking in return: When else? The year isn't even over yet, don't you remember?

Lu Liruan: ...

I'm not a complete idiot.

"How did I offend you back then?" Lu Liruan pouted and leaned back, ready to hear what Liao Tingyuan had to say.

Is this just another excuse?

“If I had told you to stay in your room quietly from the beginning, not to be curious or look at what was happening outside, and then I would have waited for someone from my workplace to come and pick you up, you wouldn’t have had to go through all this,” Liao Tingyuan said earnestly.

Lu Liruan: ...Then you really are wrong.

When I saw you, I thought it would take a lot of effort to get you... I still remember what I was thinking back then.

"If I hadn't come out to help, wouldn't you have been bullied to death by those two by yourself?" Lu Liruan wasn't bragging; she had indeed played a significant role in the battle.

After the space event ended, Lu Liruan carefully examined the pot she used and noticed that the bottom of it had been tapped and dented...

Thinking about it carefully, hitting a monster's head like a baseball every day, while powerful enough, deforming the metal is still a bit of an exaggeration.

That pot is still in Liao Tingyuan's house, but it's not in the kitchen; it's in a cabinet in the living room.

Lu Liruan felt that her meeting with Liao Tingyuan was destined, but her feelings for Liao Tingyuan belonged to them alone.

It was because of Liao Tingyuan that such feelings arose... This was not destined, but accidental, and it also brought joy to Lu Liruan's heart.

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