Three Women in the Cage

Xinxin stayed awake all night. When the darkness outside was lit up by a little light, she quietly got up from the bed, took one last look at the man sleeping soundly on the bed, then hurriedly put on her clothes and fled in a panic.

Yes, she escaped in a panic. After escaping, she walked on the road in a daze. In a trance, she didn't know where to go for a while.

She looked up at the sky, wondering where her destiny lay? Where was her physical destiny? Where was her heart's destiny?

It seems like I have been wandering, always looking for a safe haven, begging for comfort for my dry body and warming my cold heart, but where is the safe haven?

She didn't, never had...

From then on, they tacitly stopped contacting each other, as if nothing had happened between them.

Later on, maybe Xu Fei didn't find a more suitable person. After all, he was divorced and didn't have much capital. Xinxin didn't know whether she was greedy for things she couldn't get, or couldn't get over the unwillingness of being abandoned. In short, the two of them contacted each other tacitly later.

Sometimes it is like this, even though you know there is a cliff ahead, you still have to go and hit your head and get a bloody wound. It seems that living is just to torture yourself.

She experienced all the sufferings of the world in the first half of her life, and in the second half, she was destined to experience the hardships of love and marriage.

She often wondered if this moth-to-flame mentality was due to her soul being trapped in the shadow of her childhood. Her mind told her to escape and stay away, but her feet and body were firmly stuck in the same place.

She is destined to chase after what she can't get, and destined to be bruised and battered for what she can't get.

When Xu Fei contacted Xinxin again, Xinxin left the county, her mother and sister for him.

Huanhuan and Yaya have advised Xinxin to stay more than once, saying that the man is not worth it, especially since he is so old, divorced and has children.

Yang Yu also firmly opposed it. She wanted Xinxin to stay in the county and find a man so that the family could be together again.

When a person falls into false love, even if there are a thousand reasons, they cannot convince you. Even if you know that what they say is right, you choose to deceive yourself, cover your ears and eyes, and jump into the sea of ​​fire.

In the end, they were powerless. They could not stop Xinxin's decision and could only watch her walk towards a thorny life.

Later, Xinxin moved into Xu Fei's public rental housing in the city. After living together, their relationship did not get any closer.

Xu Fei became more and more indifferent to her, but Xinxin fell deeper and deeper into his love, and finally couldn't extricate herself.

The worse Xu Fei treated her, the more she wanted to please him. Slowly, she lost herself. The four words "love grows over time" seemed useless to men, but Xinxin was deeply trapped by these four words.

She could not leave this man.

She thought that if she compromised, they could stay together forever, but you can never guess a man's heart, and you never know how cruel his heart can be in the next moment!

Xinxin was very hungry that day and ate two bowls of rice. This unusual behavior made Xu Fei suspicious. He asked tentatively: "Don't you usually eat one bowl of rice? Why did you eat two bowls today?"

Xinxin was also puzzled: "I don't know. I always feel hungry lately, as if I can't eat enough."

Xu Fei frowned and said, "Are you pregnant?"

With a loud "bang", Xinxin was startled and stood still. She looked at Xu Fei blankly. It was obviously the first time she encountered such a situation. She had always been blank about matters between men and women and had never delved into this issue.

She was caught off guard by this question and seemed a little overwhelmed. Was she pregnant? She didn't know!

The man was experienced in this area. He said with a stern face: "She must be pregnant. Let's go to the hospital to have an abortion tomorrow..."

There was a loud "boom" in her mind, and before she could recover from the shock of her pregnancy, she was struck to pieces.

Before she could even feel the pain, this child was cruelly taken away by someone. This person was her father and the person she wanted to live with.

She was shocked and angry. She raised her head blankly and looked at Xu Fei in despair, with disbelief in her eyes.

How could this man be so cruel? She didn't understand. After all, she had been with him for so long, how could he have no feelings at all and no pity for her.

The baby in the belly was his after all. How could he take it away without even thinking about it with just one sentence?

Is his heart made of stone? No emotion at all?

Xinxin rejected him for the first time. No matter what, this was her first child, and since he was here, she had to keep him.

Xinxin gave up and said, "I won't abort the baby. This is my first child..."

The man said sternly: "If you don't abort the child, we will separate and never contact each other again..."

The man's words were always more cruel than the last, leaving her wounded. She was unwilling to accept it and said, "If that's the case, then why did you come to me before? Why did you want to be with me?"

She didn't understand. If he didn't want to be with her, why did he bother her? Since he had provoked her, why didn't they just stay together peacefully?

The man said nonchalantly, "We're not even married, so why would we have a child? Aren't you afraid of being laughed at by others for having a child out of wedlock?"

Xinxin cried and begged, "Then let's get married, right away."

The man suddenly said impatiently: "This is not a question of marriage. How can marriage be that simple? This is the combination of two families, not the matter of two people. In short, it is not appropriate to have a child now. You should just listen and get an abortion!"

He always has so many excuses, and Xinxin still doesn't understand. The man just hasn't found a more suitable person, so he has to keep her while finding a more suitable person.

A man suddenly doesn't want to find someone with a big age difference, always feeling that the woman is too young and won't be a good stepmother in the future. Men always want a lot of things.

Once Xinxin starts a relationship, it is difficult for her to give up. She is afraid of being abandoned and afraid that the little warmth she has left will be gone.

At this moment, she finally understood why her mother never divorced her father in her life, but stayed in that broken marriage without saying goodbye first.

Maybe it was influenced by her thoughts, or maybe it was genetics, but in any case, she started a relationship, and even though she was hurt all over, she was unwilling to give up. She would rather exhaust herself in the broken relationship than get out of it.

I don’t know if it was because she lacked courage or her thoughts constrained her, but in any case, she imprisoned herself in her first relationship.

After two months of confrontation with the man, Xinxin finally compromised. In order to reconcile with the man, she agreed to go to the hospital to have the baby removed.

In the two months since she broke up with Xu Fei, she felt like each day was a year long and was extremely sad. She couldn't stand Xu Fei abandoning her again. The thought of this made her feel heartbroken. She urgently needed Xu Fei to give her some warmth to keep her alive.

So for that little bit of tenderness, she gave up the fight and returned to Xu Fei in embarrassment.