The cannon fodder just wants to survive until the end

My name is Su Zhe, with the courtesy name Ziheng. I was born in the royal family of the Jin Dynasty. I am the youngest prince of this generation of the Jin Dynasty, the eleventh prince. My mother is the queen, and I am the most honorable youngest son.

My brother is the crown prince and the eldest son. He is thirteen years older than me. Whether it is my father, the emperor, the queen mother or anyone else, they all position me to be a famous minister who will assist my brother in the future.

I also grew up to be a wise minister as they wished, but my brother has changed. He is no longer the same as he was when he was a child. He began to be afraid of me. I really don’t know what he is thinking. Doesn’t he feel whether I want to seize his throne or not?

It was because his previous brothers all wanted to snatch the throne from him, so he was afraid of everyone. But I am a good brother, so I understand him and forgive his attitude towards me.

My father is getting older, my mother has passed away, and the fights among my brothers are becoming more and more intense. I don't want to face the fights among my brothers, so I asked to be transferred out of the capital.

I went south, I escaped from the capital, far away from that place of constant conflict, but the Crown Prince is my brother from the same mother after all, so I handed over all my power in the capital to him.

I didn't expect that I would meet someone who made my heart beat faster when I went south. I still remember the scene when I first met Aya.

"Why do you look at me like that, sir? But what's wrong with me?"

"No...nothing."

"Oh...I see. Hahaha, sir, aren't you coming down?"

That day I got bored of staying in a house in the south, so I went out for a walk, but there were always guards following me. Suddenly I didn’t want them to follow me, so I deliberately shook them off on the street.

After I shook off the guards, I walked to a remote corner where there was a wall. For some reason, I didn't want to take a detour. I just wanted to see the scenery on the other side of the wall. I grabbed the wall with both hands and climbed up with difficulty.

Although I learned martial arts when I was young, it was mostly for the purpose of strengthening my body. I usually prefer literature. Today, when I was climbing the wall, I realized that it would be better if I had better martial arts.

I didn't expect there was someone on the other side of the wall. After I climbed up the wall, I looked up and saw a gentle woman in blue clothes. I was stunned.

When she saw me staring at her, she asked me if there was anything wrong with her. My face turned red immediately. She was not wrong, it was me. When I heard her laughter, I felt like crawling into the ground.

I jumped down from the wall and twisted my muscles while coming down. She was standing next to me and I couldn't rub it. Although my image was already like that, I still subconsciously wanted to maintain some image in front of her.

I looked around and saw that this was an alley. My first thought was that this alley was so remote, why was this girl here? What if there were bad guys here?

I was thinking about all sorts of things and started to worry about the girl. Then I heard her say that her maid had returned and she was leaving. I was wondering why I was so dazed as soon as I got down. I should have said something to her.

In a state of desperation and annoyance, I asked her name, and she said her name was Ning Ya. It turned out her name was A Ya. No wonder she looked so gentle and elegant.

I stared at the direction she left, and I think I must have fallen in love at first sight.

My guards came to find me. I didn't want to stay outside anymore, so I took them back to the mansion. After returning home, I kept thinking about Aya for many days. I knew that I really fell in love with her.

I want to meet her, but I don’t know where her home is, so I can only ask the guards to help me find Ning Ya.

I almost knew the news about her. Aya was the daughter of a wealthy businessman. She appeared in the alley that day because her mother's wet nurse lived in the alley, and she went to visit her mother on behalf of her mother.

I immediately had a clear idea in my mind. I wanted to marry her. Matters of the heart are inexplicable. At this moment, I no longer thought about the annoying disputes in the capital, nor did I think about our family background. I just wanted to be with her.

So I started to meet her intentionally. When she went to the street, I went to the street. When she went to the lake, I went to the lake. I was secretly happy that our relationship was getting better and better. At the same time, I was also planning to propose marriage to her.

I sorted out all my savings over the years, but I was not very satisfied. I always felt that it was too little and not worthy of her. I could only save up some money while meeting her occasionally.

I suddenly heard that her parents were going to choose a husband for her. I got excited and ran to her and asked her if I could be her husband. Her face turned red when I asked this question.

She said that marriage is decided by parents and matchmaker, and I understood. She likes me and I should ask her parents for marriage.

I was afraid of wronging her, so I asked the wife of the Southern City Lord to go to her house to propose marriage for me. Her parents both favored her, and they did not immediately decide on me, a person related to the City Lord's family, but wanted to meet me.

I was so nervous when I met them. I was afraid they would not agree. Unexpectedly, their first question was whether I was sincere. I nodded, and then they asked me who my real identity was. I had always appeared here as a wealthy businessman.

I thought about it and figured they would find out sooner or later, so there was no point in me hiding it now. So I told them that my real identity was the eleventh prince of the current dynasty.

As soon as they heard my true identity, they immediately rejected my marriage proposal. They said that Aya was not worthy of me and asked me not to look for their girls.

I felt so wronged. I also wanted to have a status comparable to Aya, but I couldn't do it. I could only say goodbye to them first.

I was very depressed for the next few days. Aya came to see me, and I forced myself to muster up the energy to see her. The first thing she asked me was why I didn't insist. She asked me if I really liked her. She knew that I was the prince, and she said she didn't know whether I just wanted to have fun or really liked her.

Of course I really like her. Yes, I can persist. As long as I show my face in front of Aya's parents more often and try to please them more, they will definitely feel my sincerity.

I decided to please them. I asked someone to find out their preferences, prepared things myself and visited them. They knew why I was there, but they just treated me as a distinguished guest and did not feel my sincerity for what I did.

It seems that I have to keep up the good work. I insist on reporting every day. I still know that good things take time.

Aya's parents were helpless with my tireless reporting, and they decided to have a good talk with me that day. They said it was not a good thing for me to visit them all day long.

They asked me why I wanted to marry Aya. They said that as a prince I had seen many beauties, and although Aya was pretty, she was not the most beautiful woman. Why did I fall in love with her? If I saw a woman who looked like Aya in the future, I might be attracted to her.