The cannon fodder just wants to survive until the end

After I heard this, I started to think, why do I like Aya? If I meet a girl who looks like Aya, will I like her? Do I really like Aya as much as I thought? I was a little confused, and I didn't know what kind of love I had for Aya.

I didn’t know how to answer the questions Aya’s parents asked me. I fell in love with Aya the first time I met her. I guess they would be even more worried after hearing that.

I said goodbye to them and returned to my house. I began to think about how much I liked Aya.

I stayed in the room alone thinking. I was not in the right state for two days. Then Aya came to see me. I felt my heart start beating again. I was moved by Aya's arrival. The moment I saw Aya, I figured it out. I just liked Aya, not because of her appearance, but just because I liked her as a person.

But when Aya came to see me this time, she seemed very unhappy. She asked me with a sullen face if I had given up. I hurriedly explained that I had not given up and I would not give up.

Aya also said that her parents were preparing to choose a husband for her who lived far away, and if I gave up on her, she would have to marry someone else. She started crying as she spoke. I didn't want her to cry, so I tried to comfort her, but she cried even harder.

Then she ran back to her home crying, and I hurriedly chased after her, fearing that something might have happened to her. Before she entered the house, I told her that I would come again tomorrow to continue persuading her parents and try to get their consent as soon as possible. Then Aya entered the house.

After I returned, I asked someone to prepare gifts. I went to Aya's parents again and told them that my feelings for Aya would not change because of anyone. I also promised that Aya would be the only prince's consort. They were a little bit unconvinced, so they asked me to go back first and gave me five days to think about it carefully.

On my way back to the mansion, I met a woman. At first sight, I felt that she looked very similar to Aya. Their faces were different but the same face shape, and their temperaments were very similar.

The person approached me and asked me my name and whether I was ready to marry. I knew in an instant that she had fallen in love with me. I didn't answer her and just left. I didn't have any feelings for her. I thought to myself that she was different from Aya, and Aya would always be unique.

Although I didn't go to Aya's parents' house during these five days, I asked people to prepare some things and send them to the house every day. The strange thing is that I could meet that woman every time I went out. I felt a little weird. Isn't this the trick I have used before?

Every time I met that woman, my liking for Aya deepened, and my disgust for that woman gradually grew. I was unhappy because she was planning to see me all day long. At the same time, I realized that Aya also liked me, otherwise how could she tolerate my planning to see her every time.

The fifth day soon arrived, and I went to Aya's parents' home again. I firmly expressed my wishes, and they relented. I knew that as long as I persisted, I would definitely get their consent.

I hurriedly asked the city lord's wife to be my matchmaker again. I knew that even though it didn't work out last time, it was still a concession to her, so I prepared a generous gift for her afterwards.

This time it went smoothly. We got engaged, and I started to visit Aya openly instead of secretly meeting her. We had a legitimate status.

Our wedding day was approaching soon, and I gave Aya some of the good things from my own collection the day before.

I want to make Aya the envy of everyone in the city.

After we got married, I took Aya back to the capital. My father was still alive at that time. He was very satisfied to see me marry a commoner. He didn't want me to marry the daughter of a powerful official to increase my bargaining chips for my brother, the crown prince.

Aya's name was added to the royal jade disc smoothly. Aya is my legitimate prince's consort. I was afraid that Aya would not feel comfortable staying in the capital, and that the capital would soon become unsafe, so I took her back to the south.

We lived there for three years, then my father passed away suddenly, and my brother, the crown prince, became the new emperor. I took Aya back to the capital.

At this time, Aya was already pregnant, so she was exempted from the wake. I heard from the prince that it was thanks to the power I left him when I left, otherwise he would probably have been defeated. I felt a little sad for a moment.

After my father was buried, Aya was about to give birth. She gave birth to a son for me. He looks very much like Aya and I like him very much.

The Queen might have received instructions from her brother and would summon Aya into the palace from time to time.

But then one day Aya was sent back to the mansion. She looked pale and started crying when she saw me. I didn't know what had happened and I was at a loss.

Afterwards, Aya said she was fine, but I was worried about her, so I asked people to investigate what happened to Aya in the palace. However, no one in the palace could find out. I knew there was only one possibility, that was that my brother deliberately didn't want people to investigate.

But I never expected that Aya would die. Aya committed suicide. We were still in love the day before. She even wanted me to spoil our baby forever. Did she plan to commit suicide at that time?

I wanted to rush into the palace to ask my brother what my Aya had experienced, but Aya left me a suicide note, saying that she would announce to the public that she had died of illness, and that I must not have an affair with the emperor because of her dead son, as that would not be good for me. She said that we should be together again in the next life.

She also asked me to teach our children well. I was heartbroken. I vaguely guessed what had happened. My heart ached violently, but my royal brother had now consolidated his power. There was nothing I could do. I could only do as Aya said.

After Aya's death, my royal brother tried to probe me about the cause of Aya's death. I pretended to know nothing. Since then, my royal brother has favored me even more and even named me the King of Mingnan.

I always wake up in the middle of the night, and Aya never appears in my dreams. I really hate my own incompetence.

Later, my elder brother became more and more incompetent. I tried to dissuade him at the request of all the ministers, but I failed. My elder brother ordered me to reflect on my mistakes in the palace and also dismissed my son from his official position.

I watched the dynasty where I had lived since I was a child decline little by little. In fact, sometimes I thought in my heart that it would be better if this dynasty perished. But the emperor was my brother after all, and I shouldn't have thought like that.

Later, General Mingyuan led a large army to the gates of the capital. I didn't expect that my royal brother would abandon this place and run away with his men.

The day before my brother escaped, the Queen summoned me to the palace secretly to see me. She said that my brother was going to escape and would not take most of the people in the palace, including her, with him. She asked me to come because she wanted to cooperate with me.

I rejected her at that time, but she told me what happened to Aya in the palace. I actually knew that Aya’s death was related to the emperor’s brother, but I didn’t expect the truth to be so unbearable.

The queen said that every time Aya came to the palace, it was at the request of her royal brother. Every time Aya was in the queen's palace, her royal brother would pretend to visit the queen and go to the queen's palace.

The queen said that she knew the emperor had fallen in love with his sister-in-law, but at that time the queen had no children and was not the most beautiful, so she had long lost the emperor's favor. She knew that it was wrong for the emperor to fall in love with his sister-in-law, but she still helped the emperor summon Aya again and again.

Later, the emperor took advantage of his drunkenness and forced Aya in the queen's palace. The queen did not dare to stop him, nor did she dare to let anyone spread the news.

She said she didn’t expect Aya to die.

Hahahahahahaha, no wonder my brother doted on me so much after Aya died, it turns out he was feeling guilty. I used to think that my brother looked down on Aya's family background, or threatened Aya, but it turns out to be like this.

I agreed to cooperate with the Queen, and when my brother-in-law took his men away, I personally led people to kill my brother-in-law.

I also personally opened the city gates and destroyed the Jin Dynasty where I had lived since childhood. I used the merit of opening the city gates to save most of the people in the palace.

In fact, I had guessed some things before the Queen told me the truth, but I was a coward. I still have a son with Aya, and I promised Aya that I would take good care of our son.

I can be said to have avenged Aya. Aya's life was ruined by me. Aya said that she would be with me in the next life, but I am not worthy of her. How could a person like me delay her for not only one life, but also a second life?

I hope that in the next life my Aya will be a happy person without worries, and I will just be her protector.