The cannon fodder just wants to survive until the end

I have been a beggar as far as I can remember. I was raised by an old beggar, and I have heard other beggars talk about my life story.

They said that my mother was a prostitute who abandoned me after giving birth to me, and then I was picked up by an old beggar. I once asked the old beggar what a prostitute was, but the old beggar didn't answer me. Then I knew it was not a good word.

The old beggar would smear my face with dirt every day. I didn’t understand why, until one day I saw some people wearing bright and colorful clothes entering and leaving a house full of good-looking children.

I left there like crazy and never dared to get close there again. I understood that the old beggar was protecting me, so I actively smeared something on my face every day.

Later I heard that the place was sealed off by His Royal Highness the Crown Prince and some people were exiled. I felt a little grateful to His Royal Highness the Crown Prince.

I can remember that the old beggar died in the third year. When he died, he told me not to show my face, otherwise it would bring disaster. I remembered it, and I kept doing it every day afterwards.

Without the old beggar, I couldn’t get much to eat. Without the old beggar to protect me, I was ostracized by other beggars. They wouldn’t let me live there anymore, so I had to find another place. I discovered that every piece of land in the capital was owned by someone else.

Every time I begged in one place, other beggars would chase me away in less than half a day. Later I learned my lesson and only stayed in one place for a while each time.

But the consequence for me was that I didn’t get much food every day, I wasn’t full to begin with, and it also consumed a lot of energy. Sometimes I really wanted to be like the old beggar and just sleep and never get up, but I was unwilling to do that, although I didn’t know what was worth staying in this terrible world.

It’s the sixth year since I can remember. The old beggar has been dead for three years, and I have survived alone for three years. Sometimes I really feel amazing. It’s a miracle that I can live so long.

In the past two years, I have been able to get more things, but I still can't eat enough. I have grown up and eat more. What should I do?

I decided to change something. How? I used my smart head to come up with a great idea. I was going to follow a rich man.

So after that, in addition to begging every day, I also observed the situations of the rich people. I found that sometimes women are more soft-hearted than men, but sometimes women are more cruel than men. I was confused and didn't know who to choose who I could trust.

That day I continued observing on the street, and I saw a lady who was dressed gorgeously, surrounded by several guards and maids. The first time I saw her I felt that she was a good person.

So I stole her purse even though I knew she had a guard. I was slow on purpose to let the guard catch me. I wanted to take a gamble, because if this failed I would just die.

The lady was very gentle. When she took back the wallet, she wanted the guards to let me go. I wanted to talk to her, but I had no experience and didn't know how to ask her. I was desperate and failed.

At this time, the lady asked me a question. She asked me what my name was. I didn’t know. I didn’t have a name. Everyone called me a beggar.

She asked me how old I was, and I didn’t know either. I just remembered that I had been able to remember things for six years.

I couldn't answer any of her questions. I thought I was in trouble again. Suddenly, I heard her ask if I was willing to follow him. Of course I was willing, but I had to ask first. She said that I would have enough food to eat in the future. I had to follow her!

I went back to the mansion with her, and when I heard people calling her, I realized that she was the eldest princess. I was really in big trouble this time.

I wash myself very clean, but I can't let people think I'm dirty.

The eldest princess is so nice. She asked me to learn Chinese characters, which I never dared to think about before. She gave me a name, Zhaoying, which sounds nice and has a good meaning.

Although the eldest princess said that I am too young to do any work, I believe that as long as I learn what the eldest princess asks me to learn, I will be able to help the eldest princess do a lot of things in the future.

Just as the eldest princess promised, I have enough to eat every day in the princess mansion, and I have books to read every day. My life is so good. It would be even better if I could see the eldest princess every day.

I wanted to see the princess every day, so I studied very hard every day. Soon the maid had nothing more to teach me. I thought I had learned well and I should be able to help the princess.

Seeing that I was learning quickly, the eldest princess personally picked some books for me to read and taught me mathematics, which I preferred.

Now I still can't see the eldest princess every day, but she will test me every few days. That's the day I look forward to the most, and I always study very hard.

Later, the princess said that I had great talent and could not bear to delay me, so she hired a teacher to teach me. To my surprise, the princess taught me mathematics personally. This was really a huge surprise.

Every day I worked hard to complete the tasks assigned to me by the princess and the teacher. When I was fourteen years old, the princess wanted to accept me as her apprentice. I was so happy that I couldn't sleep that night. This meant that my relationship with the princess became closer.

The eldest princess accepted me as her apprentice and asked me to follow her to look after the shop the next day, and then she handed over several shops to me.

Naturally, I couldn't let my master down, so I managed the shop in an orderly manner. Then I clearly felt that my master recognized me more. I felt it all at once.

However, what I didn’t expect was that after my master handed over all the things to me, he actually went out to travel. I was so sad that he didn’t take me with him. But before leaving, my master asked me to take good care of the house, and I must protect this home.

Although I had already mastered those things after the master left, I was still a little immature. Fortunately, the master found two good helpers for me. They were both his nephews and nieces. Especially the niece, she looks like the master. I like her so much.

The master’s nephew was also good, but not as good as the master. Later, the master’s nephew and I fell in love with each other, and we got married. The master came to congratulate me after his trip.

Then the master gave me half of the property. He said that she was my only support, but his nephew was not, so he gave me enough dowry so that I could divorce her if I had any problems in the future. These are the basis for my future.

Master really cares about me. I think Master and I are not just master and apprentice, but mother and daughter without any blood relationship.

My life hasn't changed much since I got married. My parents-in-law are very reasonable and my husband is very caring. It would be great if my master was in Beijing.

Actually, there is another reason why I married this husband. He has a sister who looks very much like Master. By marrying him, I can protect his sister and see her often.

I was just thinking that a master should do whatever she wants and not stop for anyone, even if that person is me. People like her should be like the wind, free and unfettered. No one can restrain her, not even me.

Later, the master's health deteriorated and she could no longer support her long journey. I felt happy in my heart because you finally came back to me, but I was also unhappy because you were about to leave.

Then one day you suddenly disposed of the things you owned, and I cried. I knew you couldn’t hold on any longer, and sure enough, you left this world.

My Master, I will be your follower forever. No one can block your light in my eyes. You bring light to me, and I will always be bright.