[British and American] Jason Wayne's Struggle

After going out, Jason seemed to have calmed down a little, but in fact, his mood not only did not improve, but even became more depressed.

During afternoon tea time, he lay on the table, biting the rim of the cup from time to time, looking as dejected as a black cat with its ears about to collapse. Even Ah Fu's recitation of Shakespeare's sonnets in a British accent failed to cheer him up.

Little Robin asked his grandfather distressedly: "Afu, if you really like someone, but that person doesn't know the real you, what should you do?"

"Real me?"

Ah Fu put down his book and squinted his eyes in the warm sunlight.

"Master Jason, there are very few people in this world who can fully understand another person, because mutual understanding is the most delicious fruit that takes time to grow, and it is usually difficult for us to get it easily."

Jason nodded as if he understood, took a sip of black tea, and slowly laughed.

"There's definitely going to be some friction in this process, right?"

Ah Fu nodded approvingly: "Not only that, sometimes people will quarrel over it, but as long as there is love and togetherness, the problem will always be solved."

This conversation finally made Jason feel relieved, even though he was still disappointed in himself and uneasy about the subtle differences and rifts between himself and Batman. But as Alfred said, as long as they were together, the problem would be solved. He and Bruce were family, so of course they would always be together.

Jason's new figure skating season has begun. The teenager who has been promoted to the adult group has shown his potential. He has the world's best jumping technique and extraordinary artistic expression. His newly-edited programs "Greensleeves" and "The Hunchback of Notre Dame" have been well received by the judges and the audience as soon as they were released.

Since he started participating in figure skating competitions, he has never won a place other than first place. This has not changed after he entered the adult group. All opponents are no match for Jason.

Jason knew that he had great advantages as a figure skater. His physique was between the two sexes, flexible yet strong, agile, with long limbs and extraordinary proportions. His pelvis was wider than that of a normal man, making his waist-to-hip ratio close to 0.7, which is only found in women. He was only a little over meters tall, which meant that his center of gravity and axis were more stable.

Although Jason's muscle gain is slow due to the low level of male hormones caused by his physique, it also allows him to maintain a very slender body shape. Jason does not grow a beard, so his appearance looks androgynous.

Figure skating is a sport that values ​​appearance. A handsome boy like Jason would make the judges more willing to give him high scores just by standing on the ice.

Since entering puberty, Jason has always had to endure physical and psychological pressure at the same time, which made him at a loss for a while. Fortunately, the fact that he could have the surgery after the age of 18 kept him sane, and the honor and sense of accomplishment that figure skating brought him made Jason occasionally feel that this body did not simply make him a "monster", but had some benefits.

After two rounds of competition, Jason won two gold medals in the United States and Flower Planting, accumulated 30 points, and entered the Figure Skating Grand Prix Final. He also won the adult gold medal in the Grand Prix Final at the age of 15, which was unprecedented.

He is coming on strong and unstoppable, and "Requiem for Heaven and Earth" also has two other exhibition skating programs, making Jason quite popular in commercial performances.

The boy began to consciously participate in commercial performances to make money and prepared to strive for scholarships when applying for college.

Jason never thought about leaving Bruce, but his subconscious had already made him understand that he would eventually take a different path from his father and brother. Before that day came, he needed to gain the confidence to be independent.

However, a case interrupted all Jason's preparations.

That was actually not the first time Jason had encountered a similar case where criminals killed innocent people and then got away with it by exploiting loopholes in the law.

Jason was as angry as ever, and he decided to teach the so-called diplomat's son a lesson to let him know that diplomatic immunity is not always effective.

Then the man fell off the balcony.

Batman was furious about this and directly banned Jason from continuing his night patrols. He said that Jason had been too reckless and irritable recently and should take off his Robin uniform and calm down.

Jason stood in front of Batman and repeated again: "I said, he fell down by himself, I didn't kill him!"

Batman was silent for a while, then he asked, "When you approach the opponent step by step and make him retreat step by step, don't you really know that the person will fall down?"

Jason stood there in a daze.

He didn't know how to answer this question, because he couldn't say for sure that he wanted the criminal to live. The fact was that he hoped that the man would be dead, but he did not kill the man because he didn't want to leave Batman yet, so he would not do anything that would touch the other party's bottom line.

But Batman doesn't trust him.

That suspicion deeply hurt Little Robin. He stood still and said slowly, "B, you know if you want to know the truth, you can go to Wonder Woman to borrow the Lasso of Truth, right?"

He questioned his father: "Why didn't you do this, but instead directly doubted me? I have been working hard to gain your trust, but have you ever trusted me?"

Jason has been waiting for the day when Batman would place his trust in him, and he has been waiting and waiting, until now, he really can't wait any longer.

Batman stiffened.

"I sometimes wonder if it's because I come from Crime Alley that it's harder for me to gain other people's trust, you know? When I was in elementary school, if someone's things were stolen, everyone would suspect me..."

Jason sniffed as he removed his belt and cape.

"You're right. I should calm down. We all should calm down. Also, I really didn't kill that scumbag. You can use a lie detector on me, or go find Wonder Woman. I'll take it."

After saying this, he turned and left the Batcave.

Bruce stood there, and after a while, Alfu came over with some hot tea.

The old housekeeper sighed: "Master, he is crying."

Bruce replied woodenly: "I know."

When Jason talked about the issue of trust, tears began to accumulate in his turquoise eyes, threatening to fall, but Jason had a strong personality and he was not willing to cry in front of Bruce. When Bruce saw Jason's expression, he knew he had made things worse.

Bruce sat down dejectedly, covering his face. He shook his head and sighed, "I let him rest for a while, not only to calm him down, but also because this matter involves diplomacy. There will be a period of public opinion storm next. I don't want to involve Jason in this, but I didn't think about the trust issue..."

And he didn't question Jason's character, but Jason was on his period these two days. It was possible that he had impulsive problems due to emotional problems caused by hormonal changes in his body.

Alfu poured a cup of black tea and placed it in front of Bruce.

"Master Jason has a very sensitive character, but you should trust his reason. He became Robin after passing your test. I think he always knows what he is doing and what he should do."

"I know, maybe Jason is right, I didn't really trust him, he was prejudiced before, and I did the same thing as those people, he must be disappointed in me."

Bruce lowered his eyes and looked at the tea leaves floating in the water, and sighed deeply again.

This is really contradictory, isn't it? Jason is his precious child, the light that guides him when he fights in the gray area and keeps him from getting lost. He is his partner, comrade, student, and soldier. He wants to protect Jason, but he can't stop doubting.

Ah Fu looked at the child he had watched grow up gently, and said with a smile: "Regarding this, I would like to give you the words I once gave to Master Jason. As long as there is love and togetherness, problems will always be solved."

No one can doubt the love that Jason and Bruce have for each other. After all, during these three years, Alfu witnessed how they got closer to each other and healed each other.

Although there are always a lot of bad emotions before the problem is solved, Alfu believes that they can persevere. After all, they are Batman and Robin, and the dynamic duo can always overcome everything.

When people are sad, they always want to find someone close to them. Even if they can't pour out all their feelings, as long as they are together, it can be considered a psychological comfort.

And for Jason, the first person that came to his mind was Dick.

Dick was the golden boy he admired, as well as his brother, senior, and lover. There were many things Jason could not tell Bruce and Alfu, but he could tell Dick. Moreover, they were of the same generation, so Jason naturally wanted to seek understanding from Dick.

After participating in the All-American Championship, he did not return to Gotham directly, but went to Blüdhaven instead. He then learned from Dick's colleagues that Dick had already taken leave and went to Gotham.

"A man named Gordon called and asked Dick to visit his daughter. The lady seemed to have encountered some bad things recently. Mr. Gordon hoped Dick could go and comfort her."

Jason was stunned for a moment: "I see, Dick didn't even tell me about this."

Dick hadn't seen his live games this season, so he had invited Dick to watch the U.S. Championships before, but Dick had refused him, so Jason thought Nightwing was very busy.

Maybe it was because Dick wanted to give his lover a surprise, so he didn't tell Jason that he was going to Gotham. Just like Jason this time, he didn't even tell him the news and went straight to Blüdhaven.

Little Robin immediately took the bus back and rushed all the way back to Gotham. After getting off the bus, he hailed a taxi and went to the hospital.

He had visited Barbara many times before and could see her occasionally, but more often she would refuse Jason's request to meet him. Jason walked through the corridor with familiarity and soon arrived at the door of Barbara's ward.

Then he happened to see Barbara with her arms around Dick's neck and about to kiss him.

Dick subconsciously turned his head to avoid it, and saw Jason standing at the door.

He was shocked.

"Little Wing, why are you here?"

Jason curled his lips and said, "I came to visit Barbara, too."

Almost subconsciously, he put on a disguise and waved to Barbara in a friendly manner: "Hi, Barbara, good afternoon."

Barbara tucked her hair behind her ears uncomfortably, and her ears turned red. She didn't think she was a particularly conservative girl, but she was still a little shy to let a minor see her about to kiss her ex-boyfriend.

"Well, good afternoon, Jason, thanks for stopping by."

Dick opened his mouth: "Little Wing, I..."

Jason interrupted him, "I know, Commissioner Gordon asked you to come see Barbara."

He smiled and didn't look unusual.

"I brought some fruit, do you want some?"

Jason was very good at peeling apples. He could peel one in less than a minute without breaking the skin. Dick stood aside silently, but he and Jason tacitly maintained the atmosphere within a normal range, because Barbara had symptoms of depression and no one wanted to stimulate or hurt her.

"Little Wing, I'm not going to get back together with Barbara. I won't cheat on you, and I won't leave you."

Jason lowered his head and looked at the bricks of the street without saying a word. Dick walked up to him, pressed his shoulders, and forced Jason to pay attention to him.

He begged, "Jay, you're the only one in my heart, but Barbara needs help, so I came here..."

"I don't mean to blame you. In fact, it's a good thing that you can comfort Barbara. After all, I'm not the one who can help her."

Jason expressed his understanding, but there was still a part of his heart that felt uncomfortable until they returned home and ate the dinner prepared by Alfu.

Bruce looked at the two overly silent children, and out of guilt, he took the initiative to bring up the topic, hoping to ease the atmosphere and make everyone feel more comfortable.

"Dick, did you go to see Barbara today?"

Dick paused and nodded, "Well, Commissioner Gordon wants me to visit her."

Alfu and Bruce showed a look of understanding.

Everyone knows that Dick and Barbara had a relationship, and Barbara obviously still has feelings for Dick. Dick's ability to help Barbara at this time also makes everyone think that these two young people may start over after going through this ordeal.

Dick smiled awkwardly, which was interpreted as the boy's awkwardness in dealing with his relationship problems with his ex-girlfriend, while Jason buried his head in his food.

No one knew that they had been in love for a year, although they never dared to go on a date to the amusement park hand in hand openly, and even when going to the movies, they didn't dare to choose Jason's favorite "Brokeback Mountain".

As for Jason, he is a child of two genders, in an immature period, and who starts throwing tantrums without even gaining his father's trust. No one would think that he and Dick are a good match.

Dick wanted to explain, but for the first time he didn't know how to put it.

Jason was also waiting for Dick's explanation. He thought, say something, or say nothing, just stand up and kiss me, and tell them that I am the one you love.

Humans are very contradictory creatures. It was Jason who first proposed to hide this relationship, because if Dick was found out to be in love with his underage adoptive father's second adopted son, it might have a very bad impact. He also didn't want to see Nightwing's legs broken by Batman, but now Jason desperately hopes that their relationship can be recognized.

At least, don't let him see his relatives looking at his lover being with someone other than himself.

However, the dinner ended in silence.

Jason stood up and said calmly, "I'm done."