[British and American] Jason Wayne's Struggle

When he returned to Gotham, a piece of news was like ice water, extinguishing Jason's excitement.

Barbara Gordon was attacked by the Joker.

"When we found her, she had no clothes on and the clown took nude photos of her and threw them in front of her father."

"Poor girl, the bullet that shot into her lumbar spine caused her to lose the feeling in her lower limbs. She will never be able to walk again."

When Jason rushed to the hospital, he learned the news. What he couldn't understand was that after doing such an excessive thing, the Joker was just locked up back in Arkham.

Batgirl is a hero who fights crime. She has done so much for this city, but the criminal that turned her into this didn't even get the punishment she deserves.

Anger burned in the boy's heart. He knew that his sanity was slipping away, and his brain would produce extreme thoughts as a result. But he still couldn't help thinking that if this happened in Latveria, the super villain would definitely not let the criminal who disrupted the order of his own country have an easy time, no matter if that person was mentally ill or not.

"The Joker should die, those criminals should die, they don't deserve to live..."

He murmured softly.

Jason wanted to visit and comfort Barbara, but the reply he got from the nurse was "Ms. Gordon doesn't want to see outsiders."

It turns out he is an outsider.

Jason had known for a long time that Barbara was not close to him, or rather, the fact that she could cooperate with Robin during the night patrols and protect Jason's back when criminals surrounded him was enough to make Jason grateful, and their relationship had been improving before.

But the word "outsider" still hurt him.

But Jason couldn't blame Barbara for this. Her lower limbs were paralyzed by the Joker, and she had become depressed. No one could get along well in this state, and Barbara needed time to adjust.

He could only ask the nurse to tell Barbara that if she needed him for anything, she only needed a phone call. He would always be there for her as long as she needed him.

Although Jason also knew that the person Barbara needed would never be him.

Jason also knew that the person most affected by this incident was Bruce. During his trip to Europe to compete in the IMO, Batgirl was Batman's partner. Bruce must have blamed himself for what happened to his partner.

At night, the boy sneaked into Bruce's room. He quietly walked to the window, checked whether the window was closed, then got into the quilt and leaned against Bruce.

Bruce didn't say anything, just lay there in silence. Jason hesitated for a long time, then reached out and hugged Bruce.

This scene was actually a bit funny, because Jason was only about 210 meters tall. Compared with Batman, who was meters tall and weighed pounds, he was incredibly thin and petite. It was a bit difficult for him to hold such a big guy like Bruce in his arms, but he wanted to do it.

He wanted to be able to tell Bruce in this way that he was there.

Bruce did not resist Jason's action. He leaned in the child's thin arms, closed his eyes and sighed deeply.

After a while, Bruce whispered, "When you stare into the abyss, the abyss stares back at you."

Many vigilantes have psychological problems, and those in Gotham have particularly serious problems. Jason has read some books on psychology, and he knows this because he himself has many problems.

Little Robin replied firmly: "But when I am with you, no matter what I go through, I feel good. I don't think it is an abyss."

"I wonder if it's right to involve you in my career. You're all too young, but you've been hurt too much because of these things. Several times, you almost died."

Jason laughed. "Listen, Oldman, if you're going to kick me out for this reason, I won't forgive you."

Bruce chuckled.

In the eyes of the elders, Jason is an out-and-out child. His life has just begun and his future is naturally bright. He probably cannot understand how terrible and tempting the abyss is, nor does he understand how difficult it is to restrain himself in the process.

But Bruce didn't need Jason to understand those things. He knew that Jason loved and trusted him wholeheartedly, and that the boy wanted to do his best to help them. Jason once spent five months repairing Bruce's father's watch. He was always willing to give for the people he loved. As long as Bruce felt this, he would be comforted.

Robin is the rope that prevents Batman from falling into the abyss, and the light that illuminates the darkness.

If things only stopped here, perhaps everything would be fine, but Bruce forgot how annoying Robin's existence was to the Joker who always wanted to drag him into the abyss. As long as he got the chance, the Joker would kill Robin.

The Joker played a deadly joke and caused severe damage to the Bat Family. The only consolation was that Jason tried his best to hold Batman and healed him to a certain extent.

But the autumn and winter of 06 soon bared their fangs at Jason.

While reading the crime cases in the Batcomputer, Jason discovered the truth about the death of his father, Willis Todd - he once worked for Two-Face and was killed by Two-Face after a crime failed.

Willis Todd is a scumbag, but he is still Jason's biological father. Little Robin almost killed Two-Face because of this, but at the last second, he stopped, suppressed his anger, turned around and told Batman that he would hand Two-Face over to the law.

Batman was proud of Robin's decision. He knew how difficult it was to control his anger, and he knew how much effort Jason had put in to grow into the person he expected him to be.

But soon, they discovered that Jason's attacks were getting more and more violent in his vigilante operations. It turned out that the fighting method Jason used was very dangerous. It was just that he was still young at that time, and the damage he could cause was limited. But now Jason has grown up, and if he is more ruthless, he can really beat the criminals to death.

Batgirl's forced retirement and the Two-Face incident made Jason's rage so intense that he couldn't control it, and he and Batman had more and more arguments.

Jason has experienced too many times where he knew who the murderer was, but was unable to bring the murderer to justice due to legal loopholes. His ability to empathize with the pain of others made it increasingly impossible for Jason to ignore the harm suffered by the victims.

The differences between him and Batman grew larger and larger. He believed that some people should pay for their crimes, but Batman would not do that. Realizing this, Jason felt desperate.

Jason has always regarded Batman as his mentor, the person he respects most, and his beloved father. He has always longed to become the person Bruce hopes for.

But the reality is that he cannot ignore the victims' calls for help, nor can he isolate himself from the hatred and anger caused by the criminals.

This fact made Jason anxious, and directly led to the fact that when Nightwing took him to the Teen Titans to do a mission and let him relax at the same time, Robin completely lost the patience to disguise himself. He did not obey the orders enough and almost broke a criminal's spine with a baton, and then clashed with other Teen Titans.

Dick coaxed him outside with great difficulty, then apologized to his friends with a wry smile.

Kid Flash complained to him: "That guy was like he had eaten dynamite. He almost killed someone and mocked every one of us! If I hadn't stopped him, Connor would have beaten him to the sky!"

Superboy frowned and shook his head, "Not only that, he was still smoking after he got out. It smelled terrible."

Nightwing was stunned for a moment: "He is smoking? God..."

He immediately turned to look for Jason.

Fast Hand Roy was the only one who could still laugh. He crossed his legs and joked, "Oh my god, I finally understand what a bad temper is. Even Young Master Hai was almost driven crazy by Robin just now. He's really good."

To be honest, Robin didn't use any swear words when he cursed at people, but he still hit everyone's sore spots accurately and ruthlessly. He said whatever he wanted to say. If it weren't for Dick's sake, Robin would have really succeeded in getting the Teen Titans to beat him up today.

The last person to be beaten up by the Teen Titans was Deathstroke.

Wonder Girl Donna couldn't help but laugh: "I think apart from the tone of his speech, Robin is telling the truth. He is quite interesting and understands us unexpectedly."

Young Master Hai rolled his eyes: "But no one else would be as tactless as him. Some things should not be said."

That kid actually mocked Connor as "the kid of the stinky bald guy, why don't you go home to find your dad", and called Flash Boy a "stupid hamster who only knows how to run and doesn't know how to use his brain", and his tone was so bad, isn't he asking for a beating?

As for Young Master Hai, he no longer wanted to mention the nickname he was given, but he was also very angry with Robin.

"I hope Nightwing can get him to tone it down. If he's still like that tomorrow, I won't be able to stand him anymore."

When Dick saw Little Robin holding a cigarette butt and blowing out smoke, he walked up to him and pinched off his cigarette butt.

He frowned and said, "Little Wing, I know you've been a little irritable these days, but you promised me that you wouldn't smoke anymore."

Jason turned to look at Dick, his expression inexplicably complicated: "So you think I'm like this because of PMS (premenstrual syndrome)?"

Is not it?

Nightwing almost asked back, he was trying hard to mediate between Jason and the team today, trying hard to prevent the situation from getting worse, because he knew that Jason would sometimes be unable to control his emotions, and anything Jason said during this period would not count, and he didn't want Jason to do anything that he would regret later.

But Jason knew that when he killed the criminals, it had nothing to do with PMS. He just wanted those people to die.

A tiny voice whispered in his heart like a devil.

You see, these people don’t understand the real you. You are never the person they imagine you to be. You are fundamentally different from them. You cannot walk on the same path, and you cannot become the person they expect you to be.

The voice was like a heavy iron chain, weighing down Jason's breath.

Dick saw him lowering his head and not speaking, looked around, coughed lightly, walked forward and held little Robin in his arms.

"Come on, Jay, it's not your fault that you can't control your emotions. I know you don't mean to hurt anyone."

He kissed Jason's mouth affectionately and said kindly, "I brought you out here because I hope you can feel better. Don't let hormone changes affect everything, okay?"

Jason looked up into Dick's blue eyes, which were full of sincerity and affection.

He loved these eyes the most. Jason liked Dick and Bruce. Being with them made him happy. As long as he could stay with them forever, Jason would do anything.

Little Robin leaned into Nightwing's arms, but once he closed his eyes, the tears of the victims, their grief, resentment, anger, and screams, resurfaced in his mind again and lingered.

"Dickie Bird, tell me, wouldn't it be great if those criminals could get the punishment they deserve?"

Dick stroked his back, "So these are what bother you? I understand, Little Wing, I understand. You are just too kind and have a strong sense of justice, so you feel sad about everything you see. Believe me, I have also experienced this, but we must learn to be patient."

As Jason listened to Dick's soft voice, his mood began to calm down, but something in his heart was slowly sinking.

Dick couldn't understand his real pain. Jason wanted to tell Dick his true thoughts, but he couldn't say it.