The road is long, take it and cherish it

Yue did not have the courage to ask why. At that time, he had extremely low self-esteem. Was it because his grades were too poor, his appearance was not outstanding enough, or he was not rich enough. She had too many reasons to reject herself, but No matter which one it was, he couldn't accept it at that time.

In desperation, in order to maintain his last bit of self-esteem, he replied.

"It's okay. Don't waste the snacks and lipstick. If you don't like the booklet, just find a trash can and throw it away."

After that, Yue never looked for her again, and she completely disappeared from his world.

During his sophomore year, Yue was always in a bad mood. In order to escape the painful reality, he concentrated on playing games, which also laid the groundwork for the girlfriend he would have later.

In fact, Yue already knew that girl when she was in high school, but it's not quite right to say they knew her. After all, they didn't even know each other's names or even their genders at that time.

They only met because of a popular game. Yue played that game more than a year before her. It happened that the game launched a master-apprentice system at that time, and by chance, he became her master the next month.

She usually talked a lot, chatting endlessly with Yue whenever she had free time. This mentoring relationship extended to college. Later Yue learned that she was only one year younger than him. When he was a sophomore, She also just finished the college entrance examination, her grades were very good, and she went to a university in Beijing.

That was Beijing, the capital of the country, more than a thousand kilometers away from where Yue Zai was. He had never been to such a distant place since he was born. The round-trip ticket alone almost cost him a month's living expenses. Wow, it’s simply unimaginable.

After she went to college, she had more time. She chatted with Yue day and night, talking about trivial things in life. It was the companionship during that time that made Yue gradually forget about the things in her heart. of pain.

That time was really peaceful and beautiful, but as time goes by, that beauty will eventually change. From the time she mentioned that she has always wanted to have a brother, Yue didn't even think about returning to the time when she also always wanted to have a brother. After having a younger sister, everything got out of hand.

After that, they called themselves brother and sister. At first, Yue could barely suppress the thoughts that something was wrong in her heart and chatted with her calmly. But not long after, on an ordinary night, she suddenly sent several messages. The news completely confused Yue.

She said, we have known each other for so long, and you have taken great care of me, and my feelings for you have subtly changed without knowing it. She wants to go further, but is afraid of being rejected, so she is already hesitant. After a few days, I couldn't eat well or sleep well. When I closed my eyes, my mind was filled with your shadow.

After Yue received the news, he was silent for a long time. Although he had tried to calm down as much as possible, his little heart was beating against his chest at a very abnormal frequency. This was the first time he had done this. Strange feelings.

He vaguely felt that there was something wrong with this matter, but at that time, his abnormal heartbeat alone determined that he would not be able to refuse. After Yue made up his mind, he took the initiative to express that he felt the same way for her through her words. If you like her, you also like her character, so you can try to see her together.

But what surprised Yue was that after a long time after sending his message, there was no reply from the other party, so he couldn't sleep all night.

The next day, it wasn't until dawn that Yue received her reply. It turned out that this silly girl was afraid of being rejected, so she turned off her phone after sending the message. After that morning, they officially started this sweet love.

In the first week together, they chatted almost all the time, as if they had endless things to say, and the visible smile on Yue's face became much brighter.

One time, Yue and her roommate went out to eat. He sat in the back seat of his roommate and chatted with her on his cell phone. After the roommate learned that they were in a long-distance relationship, he just said lightly, cherish the moment, but don’t be too Be more serious.

At that time, Yue did not understand what this sentence meant.

When the relationship entered its second week, Yue was planning to save money and find time to go to Beijing. He wanted to see her and have a concert two months later. She happened to be in Beijing too, and he wanted to go see it with her.

But for some reason, she suddenly became moody at this time. She used to talk a lot, but she never took the initiative to find Yue. It was Yue who always sent her messages. The instant replies in the past became more and more replying. As time went by, she began to make excuses and excuse Yue at will.

At first, Yue didn't care. He just thought it was because she was under too much pressure recently. He heard her say that she was preparing some materials for the student union and spent most of her time in the library every day. Yue was not only wasting her time. , nothing can help her.

Yue also tried his best not to look for her during that time, but one day, after Yue sent her a message, she didn't get a reply for a whole day. In the dead of night, Yue lay in bed and looked at the screen of her phone. He only felt that his heart was in a mess, and he seemed to be unlike himself. Unknowingly, he began to worry about gains and losses.

The next day, she finally sent a message back to Yue, saying that she went to the gym yesterday and stayed all day without looking at her phone. Such a clumsy lie, Yue's first reaction was to believe it.

But what's the use? Some lies are not meant to deceive when they are told.

Immediately afterwards, Yue received a whole page of densely packed small letters. The general meaning was that she had received the necklace Yue bought for herself, but she could not accept it. After spending this time together, she felt that it was no different from the previous years. The difference is that when she needs a boyfriend, you will never be by her side, so she decided to end this wrong love as soon as possible.

If possible, I hope that we can return to the original way of getting along. I don't want to lose you as a good friend.

After reading the message, Yue stared at the screen for a long time and was speechless. He tried to make a call, but was rejected without any surprise. Why? Did I do something wrong? In the past few days, I have almost given my heart to you, but you say there is no difference?

But Yue did not send out these words. Instead, he cried out countless times in loneliness in his broken heart. He became addicted to drinking. Alcohol could numb his painful nerves to a large extent.

But what he couldn't accept was that after only three or five days, she seemed to be a normal person. She took the initiative to chat with Yue as the good friend she always was, and those messages were like a knife cutting one by one. His already broken heart.