Am I being simulated by their love affair?

"I'm not going to school anymore. Pack up your things tonight and we'll go traveling tomorrow."

Mochizuki Haruka opened her eyes and said, "I don't want to go. It's troublesome."

"That's not up to you." Matsueda Jun smiled at her.

The next day, Jun Matsueda dragged Mochizuki Haruka out of the room.

The first part of their trip was within Japan, where they saw the snow in Hokkaido, soaked in the hot springs of Mount Fuji, and watched the crater about to erupt from a helicopter.

"How does it feel?" Matsueda Jun opened the helicopter's hatch and held the entire crater in front of Mochizuki Haruka. "I wonder what it's like to jump in." Mochizuki Haruka's eyes rolled around, staring at the flowing dark red magma.

"That won't do." Matsueda Jun held her hand. "Even if you really want to jump, you must hold my hand tightly."

Six months later, they left Japan and went to the South African grasslands to watch the migration of wild horses, to Antarctica to see the broken glaciers and swaying penguins, and to the English town of Bedeley to see the sea of ​​poppies.

Wang Yueyao looked at the endless and enchanting red sea and felt his blood flowing with it.

The red was so thick that it could not be dissolved, and a tear slid down the corner of her eye.

"Fuck your sea of ​​flowers." Mochizuki Haruka said viciously.

Jun Matsueda smiled obsessively, looking at the girl standing in the blood.

"That's so cool of you to say that."

Chapter 29 The Price of Independence

After a year of traveling, Mochizuki Haruka's soul returned to the human world.

The two people who both failed a grade became the odd ones out at Yuqiu High School, but they didn't care.

The nourishment of love and the unrestrained life make the most energetic time in life burst out in a compressed manner in Mochizuki Haruka.

During the campus festival, she performed on stage with Jun Matsueda and sang a love song together.

The girl was wearing an extremely gorgeous black lace dress and a crown. She had no eyes for the audience in the audience, only for Jun Matsueda in front of her.

Under the spotlight, Jun Matsueda smiled, so she smiled too.

Mochizuki Haruka sang while crying and laughing, threw away the microphone in her hand, threw herself into Matsueda Jun's arms, and gave him a long kiss.

At this moment, the night sky is clear, silver stars are hanging, fireworks are rising in the distance, and the audience is screaming and shouting in the audience.

The girl undoubtedly became the most dazzling girl since the founding of Yugaoka High School.

However, nothing can remain unchanged.

Mochizuki Haruka buried her love for her aunt deep in her memory, and her dependence on Matsueda Jun began to grow and become more severe.

Jun Matsueda pulled her out of the dark abyss, and from then on, the only thing left in her world was the boy's hands.

Once Matsueda Jun left her sight, Mochizuki Haruka would immediately panic and feel uneasy. So Matsueda Jun had to go in and out with her, even taking her with him to the toilet.

"Wouldn't it be smelly if you followed me into the toilet?" Jun Matsueda was sitting on the toilet. He had just woken up, and the sleepy girl was sitting on his lap, nodding her head.

The girl mumbled in her sleep, "As long as you are here, I will go wherever you are."

"Don't leave me and love only me..." After saying this, Mochizuki Haruka fell into a deep sleep and her body slid forward. Matsueda Jun quickly reached out and pulled her into his arms.

Everyone wants to be alone sometimes, but Mochizuki Haruka's constant presence makes Matsueda Jun even feel heavy breathing.

The girl's dependence made him feel sweet but also terrified. Matsueda Jun had no doubt that if something happened to him one day, Mochizuki Haruka would die with him.

The final straw that broke the camel's back for Jun Matsueda was when he was talking to the director of the welfare home.

"Xiaochun, have you noticed that everyone has started to stay away from you recently?"

Matsueda Jun smiled and said, "I think so. I guess those brats are just hitting puberty."

The director's wife smiled but said nothing. The smile on Matsueda Jun's face faded. He was silent for a while and then said the answer that he knew in his heart.

"Is it because of Haruka?"

The old man nodded. "Although she didn't do anything extreme, she just stayed by your side. But when we approached you, she always looked very uneasy and uncomfortable."

Like a fish without water.

"We are all good kids. We don't want to see her like that. Over time, we start to stay away from you."

After the conversation, the old man waved to Mochizuki Haruka, who was looking at them with her face pressed against the window glass, to reassure her.

On the way out of the welfare home, Matsueda Jun held Mochizuki Haruka's hand and remained silent.

The translucent panel in front of him flashed red words.

Let Haruka Mochizuki learn to be independent.

It started with gentle persuasion.

"Why should we give each other space?" Mochizuki Yao looked at him with tears in her eyes. "Isn't it good to stick close to each other all the time?"

"There are times when I don't want to stick to you, too." Matsueda Jun's tone was gentle.

"Don't you love me anymore?" The girl looked at him aggrievedly.

Jun Matsueda has seen this question on the screen countless times, but when he faces it himself, he still feels helpless.

This time, when Jun Matsueda went to the bathroom, he locked the door. Soon, Haruka Mochizuki started knocking on the door.

"Why did Jun lock the door? Can you please let me in?"

"I'm going to the bathroom. It will be over soon. If you're worried, I'll keep talking to you." Jun Matsueda was just peeing.

The knocks on the bathroom door got louder and louder. "No! I want to see you! Let me in, it's okay even if you pee on me!!"

"Okay." The door was already groaning. Jun Matsueda pressed the flush button and went to open the door without even having time to wash his hands.

Mochizuki Haruka threw herself into Matsueda Jun's arms and greedily inhaled his breath.

"We can't go on like this..." There was a hint of coldness and hardness in Matsueda Jun's tone.

In his arms, the girl vaguely recalled that she had heard similar words in the dark bedroom.

It's just a yes question and a no.

Jun Matsueda woke up in the middle of the night and found that the girl was not sleeping, but was staring at him with her eyes open without blinking, as if she wanted to carve his sleeping face into her soul.

He asked gently, "Why aren't you sleeping?" Although the scene was a little creepy, he was used to it.

"Are you leaving?" Mochizuki Haruka didn't call him Junjun. Her tone reminded Matsueda Jun of the girl they first met.

He didn't intend to hide his thoughts. "I'm not leaving, I just want you to give me some space. When I'm not in front of you, you can always video chat with me, and I will definitely answer."

"Didn't you say that I was your whole life?"

"Haruka, I have Aya-chan, Yuji, and the director's grandmother in my life. I can't always be by your side. Can you try to accept this reality for my sake?"

Mochizuki Haruka did not answer Matsueda Jun's question, but turned over and faced away from him.

"If you leave, don't come back."

Matsueda Jun hugged her and said, "This is not up to you."

He left a kiss on Mochizuki Haruka's forehead.

In the early morning, Mochizuki Haruka was the only one left in the room. Her eyes were red and there was only one thought in her mind.

He had said this before.

Mochizuki Haruka remembered everything that Matsueda Jun said.

From gentle persuasion to tentative negotiation, all was of no use. In the end, the system made Matsueda Jun uncover the bloody reality.

"Haruka, you must learn to exist alone. No one can always be with you, not even me."

For Mochizuki Haruka, those were the most painful and difficult days. The number of times they could meet was limited, and video calls were completely unable to alleviate her hunger for Matsueda Jun.

She tried to play the victim to win him back, but Jun Matsueda knew her and had warned her in advance.

"If you want to hurt yourself or even end your life, I will immediately find a new girl to date."

Mochizuki Haruka began to write a diary.

At the beginning, she was still sane, and each page of her diary ended with three repeated lines.

You turned and left

My soul goes into hibernation

The end is the day you come back

When the “withdrawal” was at its worst, the diary was filled with scribbled sentences.

Why don't you come back?

Why don't you come back?

Why don't you come back? ...

Finally, she wrote three words in her diary.

I hate you.

One day, Mochizuki Haruka discovered that she no longer kept a diary.

She knew that Jun Matsueda had succeeded.

She no longer depends on anyone to survive, but at what cost?

The two met in a cafe, and Mochizuki Haruka looked across at the melancholy-looking Jun Matsueda. It seemed that he was not doing well either.

She knew she could have him again.

But Haruka Mochizuki took out the diary and handed it to Jun Matsueda.

"I don't know whether I should love you or hate you now."

The car drove out of the darkness into the light.

Wangyue looked out the window and cut short his own dream.

Her aunt's question was still ringing in her ears.

Why are you pestering him?

"Because I once loved him to the utmost, and hated him to the utmost."

Chapter 30: Oden Night

After seeing the system's simulation, Mochizuki Haruka herself found it difficult to describe what kind of feelings she had towards Matsueda Jun.

Love him? Matsueda Jun saved her, but then let go, letting her fall into despair again.

Hate him? Of course she did, but after everything she had been through, she had to admit that Matsueda Jun had indeed succeeded.

And even when she wrote "I hate you" in her diary, she could not forget the tenderness and affection they once had.

How much love? And how much hatred? Wang Yueyao didn't know that a dream was just a dream. Even if it was a dream given by the system, it was just an experience and a memory for her.

These emotions were as hazy as if separated by a cloth, and Wangyue Yao could not feel them clearly.

Mochizuki Haruka hated Matsueda Jun, a dislike that was a romantic young girl's only trait, tinged with coquettishness and shyness. She was clearly just a blank slate, a person who had never experienced anything, yet she was suddenly stained with the colors of Matsueda Jun.

She could only be sure of one thing, that he must now be firmly in her hands and under her sight, so as to ensure the safety of Jun Matsueda. What would she do if he was abducted by someone who came out of nowhere?

Even if I have prepared myself mentally and decided to save my aunt at all costs, what if everything happens and cannot be changed?

Only Jun Matsueda can pull her out of the abyss.

Because he did it.

We must not let him get away...

Of course, Jun Matsueda didn't know that he had been in a love-hate relationship with Haruka Mochizuki for more than 600 days in the simulation. At this moment, he was thinking about a problem.

He no longer has a part-time job, which is something he had never imagined.

What is the reason?

An omnipresent girl flashed through his mind.

If it was Haruka Mochizuki, there seemed to be nothing he could do. Matsueda Jun walked into the supermarket and bought a cup of oden.

I didn't have enough for dinner, so I'll use this to fill my stomach. He walked to the back door of the supermarket with the oden in his hand, looking at Kichijoji at night.

Kichijoji is not within the 23 wards of Tokyo. Art galleries, parks and bustling commercial streets are harmoniously integrated here. It has always been ranked first in Neon's "most desirable streets to live" and living experience rankings.

But Matsueda Jun stood there, wanting only to complain about the price of oden at the supermarket. Prices were still too high for a place like this that tourists visit.