How can my simulation be a real love?

Nagasaki Motoyo naturally recognized this special place as well.

The familiar surroundings and the familiar blue-haired girl sitting in front of her did not melt away the fragments of her broken heart in the slightest; the shattered emotional fragments, like broken glass, were constantly piercing her heart, making even the most basic breathing feel like a cold wind rushing into her lungs.

"..."

Nagasaki Motoyo remained weary, her head bowed as she stared at the steaming cup of black tea before her.

When Nagasaki Motoyo and Kazami Naru first met at a coffee shop, she ordered this fragrant Darjeeling tea for her.

“Explain yourself to me, Su Shi.”

"What happened?"

Toyokawa Shoko could not possibly be unaware of the loneliness and sadness emanating from the girl before her. She was as wretched as a broken and discarded doll. Even though the two had previously clashed over Kazami Mei's love, she was now trying to maintain a gentle tone.

"...Thank you, Xiao Xiang."

"But you really don't need to worry about me anymore."

She forced a smile at Nagasaki Motoyo, whose eyes were devoid of luster, and responded in a lifeless tone.

Being able to sit in the familiar coffee shop with Shoko Toyokawa again, and have a calm and peaceful conversation with her, was an unattainable dream for Motoyo Nagasaki, who was once obsessed with 'CRYCHIC'.

But this scene, which was once a dream, has unexpectedly come true at this moment.

Overwhelmed by a mix of emotions and deep sorrow, Nagasaki Motoyo simply looked down wearily at her fingertips. Her once smooth and delicate long brown curly hair had lost its luster and become dull, like withered grass.

What do you mean by "I don't need to worry about you"?

Seeing her stubborn and unresponsive, lost in her emptiness and sorrow, Toyokawa Shoko resisted the urge to scold her. She picked up her warm Darjeeling tea, took a sip, and silently tried to calm herself down.

Only after setting the teacup down did she raise her beautiful amber eyes again.

"Is it because of Ming?"

The girl's sudden words were like a sharp thorn, piercing Nagasaki Motoyo's chest with pinpoint accuracy.

Seeing her reaction, which made it clear to anyone with eyes to see the problem, Toyokawa Shoko immediately understood where the problem originated.

"What happened between you and Ming? Did you make him angry?"

"no--"

Just moments ago, Nagasaki Motoyo had been listless and weak. Suddenly, she raised her head and tried to speak up and refute Toyokawa Shoko. But after trying for a long time, she could only open her mouth and mechanically repeat those unconvincing words.

Seeing her like this, Toyokawa Shoko's eyes flashed with a 'I knew it' attitude, and then he casually said in a nonchalant tone—

"So something really happened between you and him, didn't it? If you don't tell me, I'll go ask him myself."

"……sorry."

“I don’t need your apology, I’m asking ‘what exactly happened?’”

The girl spoke calmly and indifferently, her sharp and cold eyes fixed on the distance ahead.

Nagasaki Motoyo felt a lump in her throat when faced with such a question. As she left, the worry and unease in her heart still bound her whole body like invisible shackles. She could only feel her hands trembling on her thighs.

Even though she tried her best to control it, she couldn't stop her trembling fingertips.

Only then did she suddenly realize that her whole body was trembling.

"..."

Nagasaki Motoyo seemed to bury her head in her chest. Her pale, bloodless face looked weak and tired. Facing Toyokawa Shoko's cold and sharp gaze, she remained silent with a lost and sad expression.

Seeing that she was unwilling to speak at all, Miss Toyokawa, who was sitting opposite her with a flustered mind, just took a deep breath.

Just as she was about to continue questioning, Nagasaki Motoyo, who had been silent for a long time, finally let out a sob of unease and self-reproach from her hoarse throat—

"It's all...my fault, Ming already hates me."

A painful and self-reproachful sob came from the girl's mouth, and Toyokawa Shoko, who was holding the teacup handle, frowned deeply.

"What do you mean? What exactly did you do to Ming?"

But Nagasaki Motoyo just sobbed and shook her head vigorously; she had no intention of bringing up the matter again.

Seeing her pained expression, Toyokawa Shoko felt somewhat helpless, but she didn't force her to tell anyone. It was precisely because Toyokawa Shoko knew how painful it was to have one's inner wounds torn open that she understood Nagasaki Motoyo's feelings about not wanting others to know about this.

Before her stood Nagasaki Motoyo, her 'love rival,' but her pitiful state made Toyokawa Shoko feel a pang of pity.

After a moment of inner turmoil, Toyokawa Shoko, her feelings indescribable, spoke in a strange tone—

"...No matter what you did, Su Shi, crying is a cowardly and useless way to solve any problems!"

As if a certain scene was flashing through her mind, Toyokawa Shoko couldn't help but clench her teeth.

Yes, crying is the dumbest thing to do.

No one will sympathize with you just because you cry; in the end, you can only rely on yourself!

Thinking of this, Toyokawa Shoko couldn't help but press her hand to her chest. Lately, she had become more and more soft-hearted and cowardly. Even though Nagasaki Motoyo didn't care about her affairs, it would be better for her if her rival in love had a problem.

But Toyokawa Shoko simply couldn't stand idly by.

"As long as you apologize to him properly, I think given Ming's personality... he should forgive you."

"...No, Ming will never forgive me."

Nagasaki Motoyo kept her head down, her eyes swollen and fragile, and spoke in a self-deprecating manner.

Seeing her make such a fool of herself, Toyokawa Shoko, sitting opposite her, stared wide-eyed in disbelief.

She simply couldn't imagine that her rival, who had once been so smug in front of her, would now annoy her so much because of this. Thinking of this, Toyokawa Shoko stood up somewhat uncontrollably.

"What kind of state are you in!"

"You kept saying you liked him, and mocked me for not considering Ming's feelings! But now you've given up on him so easily because of a small setback. It makes me wonder if you really like him! Or are you just saying all this?"

"I……"

Nagasaki Motoyo was also somewhat taken aback when she heard this, seemingly never expecting that the person who would reprimand her in the end would be Toyokawa Shoko.

Unable to resist reprimanding the other party, Toyokawa Shoko's face darkened. She merely furrowed her brows and pursed her cherry lips tightly, a hint of 'I really misjudged you' flashing in her eyes.

"Fine, if you want to give up, then give up."

"My relationship with a half-baked person like you is different. No matter who the opponent is, I will never admit defeat."

"I genuinely love Ming, and this feeling hidden deep within my heart will never be inferior to anyone else's! There is no way I can give up being with him, and in the end, I will be the one who grows old with him and lives a lifetime with him!"

Toyokawa Shoko's cheeks flushed a delicate, rosy red, making her already stunningly beautiful face even more captivating.

It was precisely because of her anger and annoyance at that moment that she declared her sovereignty to Nagasaki Motoyo in person; such bold behavior and words would not have been something she would have dared to say casually under normal circumstances.

Without paying any attention to the astonished Nagasaki Motoyo, Toyokawa Shoko, her pretty face slightly flushed, casually picked up the payment receipt.

"Since you've chosen to give up, then just quit honestly."

I'll show you how I win!

As Toyokawa Shoko's declaration of love, filled with conviction, Nagasaki Motoyo immediately noticed something 'abnormal' about her.

Xiangzi, how could she not know that Ming had been dating someone else for a long time?

Not only had Kazami Mei already been in a relationship with other girls, but he was also dating more than just a few at the same time. However, Toyokawa Shoko's declaration just now clearly indicated that she was 'unaware' of the situation, which actually eased Nagasaki Motoyo's anxiety somewhat.

"..."

Nagasaki Motoyo opened her mouth, as if preparing to say something.

Noticing this, Toyokawa Shoko frowned slightly and turned back to ask in a questioning tone, "Su-se, is there anything else?"

"...No, it's nothing."

She still couldn't bring herself to say it.

Watching Toyokawa Shoko's figure recede into the distance, Nagasaki Motoyo couldn't help but clench her fists.

If it were the old her who discovered Toyokawa Shoko's 'state', she might have told her the whole truth without hesitation, even embellishing it. Shoko, with her stubborn and rigid personality, would have found it hard to believe. After confirming that her thoughts were correct, she would probably have sadly chosen to give up her relationship.

But this time, Nagasaki Motoyo chose to say nothing about the 'engagement' and 'girlfriend'.

She felt extremely regretful and no longer wanted to be disliked by Ming.

"..."

Nagasaki Motoyo gazed sadly at the glass door of the café, while Toyokawa Shoko, having paid, strode confidently away.

It's as if I'm seeing the shadow of my former 'self'—

Recalling Toyokawa Shoko's stern and exasperated reprimand, as well as her doubts about her 'feelings', Nagasaki Motoyo felt extremely distressed. She quickly wiped away the tears welling up in her eyes and composed herself.

"...I don't want to give up."

Xiangzi is right; she doesn't want to give up no matter what.

Nagasaki Motoyo has fallen completely in love with the gentle black-haired boy. She cannot give up the happiness that should belong to her. Just as Toyokawa Shoko said, "Feelings will not lose to others," and she is the same in this respect.

Her love for Ming is second to none.

"..."

Nagasaki Motoyo wiped away her tears and suppressed a sob. Her once clean and tidy Tsukimori school uniform was now covered in mud and dust, just like her current mood, which had become wrinkled and disheveled, but she didn't care at all.

She must apologize again.

Even if she has angered Ming today, she will try her best to get his forgiveness tomorrow; even if her apology is rejected tomorrow, she will try her best the day after tomorrow.

She doesn't want to give up!

90

Chapter 90: They're completely being manipulated!

The light from the phone screen gradually dimmed, and the blonde girl, leaning against the sofa in the lounge, closed her eyes.

"Hatsuka-chan, Hatsuka-chan! Luckily, I don't have any work this afternoon~ Want to go shopping with me~"

The girl's lively and playful words gradually reached her ears, causing Misaka Hatsuka, who had been resting with her eyes closed, to slowly reopen her crystal-purple eyes, which shone like a galaxy. A graceful smile unconsciously curved her lips as she spoke softly and elegantly—

"Mana, didn't your manager already give you a lecture when you went to the amusement park last time?"

"If the two of us go out for a stroll together again, the chances of being recognized will increase significantly!"

Misaki Hatsuka's gentle yet 'cruel' words made Junda Mana sigh helplessly.

As a popular idol group with a huge following, they are glamorous and admired on stage, but their freedom as 'ordinary people' is also greatly restricted. Even the most ordinary thing for girls, 'shopping,' is a luxury.

Not to mention the 'love' that girls of their age yearn for and long for.

Thinking of this, Junda Mana blinked, and couldn't help but put her two small hands on top of each other on the sofa where Misaka Hatsuka was lying, asking in an expectant and curious tone, "Hey~ what has Hatsuka-chan been doing on her holidays lately?"

"As far as I know, Chu Hua-chan probably hasn't been to 'Evening Primrose Garden' that many times, right? Let me guess... could it be that you went to see your little boyfriend?"

"...I've told Mana-chan so many times that he's not my boyfriend yet."

A few shy blushes appeared on Misaka Hatsuka's delicate and fair cheeks. Having already been caught by Junda Mana several times, she was too lazy to 'explain' anymore. In any case, the things she said to herself were basically true, and there was no need for the two of them to hide anything from each other.

Previously, Wakaba Mutsu had told her that her feelings for Kazami Mei were far too obvious.

Anyone who gets even a little bit familiar with her can easily tell.

"...Really? Haven't you been to his house so many times?"

"That's what I said, but..."

At this point, Sanjiao Chuhua was at a loss for words, unsure how to explain her current situation.

Seeing the girl's appearance of being in love yet struggling, Junda Mana standing next to her showed an extremely strange and incredulous expression. Before this, she had never thought that the word "loser" would appear on Mitsumi Hatsuka.

In her eyes, no matter what type of man he was, he could never resist Miss Chuhua's charm.

"...Chu Hua, please don't be angry when I say this."

"Does the boy you like like girls?"

Triangle Chuhua:?

The other party's strange question made Mikasa Hatsuka pause slightly, but she immediately blushed and explained, "It's not what Mana thinks at all. It's only natural that he would like girls! I can guarantee that."

"Is he made of iron?!"

Junda Mana shook her head in disbelief, then couldn't help but look the other person up and down.

"Although I'm very unwilling... Hatsuka-chan's face is really beautiful, and even her figure is slightly more sexy than Mana's! She has a good personality and is also an idol who is adored by thousands on stage. If I were that boy, I probably wouldn't be able to resist!"