How can my simulation be a real love?

She lied to him; she deceived him.

If one could only prove their love by taking out their own heart, Nagasaki Motoyo wouldn't hesitate for a second at this moment.

The excruciating pain in her heart nearly made her cry until she suffocated. Her hoarse, coughing apologies echoed in Kazami's ears. Suze's 'pleading' on her knees was so humble that he had to take a deep breath to calm himself.

Although he was a little confused by what had just happened, Kazami Mei now realized what was going on.

Miss Su Shi has probably realized that her 'lie' has been discovered, which is why she has become so emotionally out of control. In her eyes, if she finds out that she has been deceived by her all this time, she will be angry no matter what.

Kazami Mei took a deep breath and began to ponder how to solve this problem.

"..."

But his momentary silence caused Nagasaki Motoyo's pupils to contract sharply.

Last time, Naruto had forgiven her so gently, yet she still hadn't told him the whole truth.

This time, Ming probably... won't forgive himself anymore.

89

Chapter 89 She didn't want to give up.

"don't want……"

With tears streaming down her face, Nagasaki Motoyo slowly released Kazami Naruto's left hand. As if sensing that the boy in front of her would say 'that sentence,' she slowly stood up. The intense fear and the throbbing in her heart caused an indescribable pain in her temples.

Before Kazami Mei could speak, she ran out of the living room as if fleeing.

She can't hear it, she can't hear 'that sentence'!

"Sushi!"

The girl's sudden action caught Kazami Naru off guard. He gritted his teeth and instinctively prepared to chase after her.

Suddenly, a resistance came from his sleeve. Ruoye Mutsu, who had been sitting on the sofa, had appeared beside him. She gently frowned her delicate eyebrows and shook her head at Kazami Mei. At that moment, a crisp loud 'boom' sounded in his ears.

That's the sound of the iron gate in the entryway being closed.

Realizing that Nagasaki Motoyo had escaped from the house, Mr. Kazami, with a complex mix of emotions, raised his deep black eyes to look at the 'fiancée' beside him.

After a two-second pause, he spoke in a slightly helpless tone, "Xiao Mu, let me go first."

"……sorry."

With a disappointed look in her eyes, Ruoye Mu lowered her head and readily apologized to Fengjian Ming.

When he noticed that Nagasaki Motoyo was following him home, Wakaba Mutsu prepared to take this opportunity to expose Motoyo's 'scheme' and use his fiancée status to make her behave herself. However, he did not expect that Kazami Mei would return home at this critical moment.

It was precisely for this reason that Su Shi, seeing Ming, mistakenly believed that he had overheard the entire 'conversation' just now, and her suppressed and uneasy emotions instantly collapsed like a hemorrhage.

"I'm sorry, but Ming can't go to Su Shi right now."

Ruoye Mu pursed her cherry lips, still clutching Kazami Mei's sleeve tightly.

Although things have turned out differently than she expected, Ye Mu knew that she couldn't let Ming catch up at this time no matter what.

Kazami Mei is far too soft-hearted and gentle towards his girlfriend. No matter how many mistakes Suze makes, he is prepared to take responsibility for them all. If Kazami Mei were to chase after her and stop her now, Suze would easily succumb to Mei's comfort and warmth once again.

We absolutely cannot let her harbor any illusions, otherwise she will not easily repent.

"..."

Seeing the serious expression on Wakaba Mutsu's face, which she had mustered up the courage to put on, Kazami-sensei, who had sensed her inner thoughts, finally let out a helpless sigh.

Kazami Mei couldn't bear to see the girl who liked him crying her heart out, but he could also understand Wakaba Mutsu's feelings at this moment.

After all, no matter how many mistakes he was willing to take for Nagasaki Motoyo, no matter how many times he was willing to forgive Motoyo, if he was too gentle, Motoyo would not repent.

"sorry."

If Ye Mu apologized again, a hint of determination flashed in her eyes.

She was like this when she was with CRYCHIC, she was like this when she was with Toyokawa Shoko, and she was like this after she started dating Naru, secretly wanting to monopolize the 'number one' position. Even when Shiina Tatsuki caught her in the act, she still didn't tell the truth. No matter what her reason was, she deceived Naru.

Ye Mu has repeatedly tried to persuade and compromise behind the scenes, and even warned Nagasaki Motoyo several times in person, but to this day the other party still insists on going her own way.

This also gave Wakaba Mutsu the courage to be firm in her resolve that she could no longer easily forgive her, no matter what.

"I understand, I understand... Anyway, Xiao Mu, please let me go first."

"Don't worry, of course I wouldn't be angry with Xiao Mu. Of course I know that you're doing this for me, for everyone, and even for Su Shi! Do you really think I'm such a stubborn person who won't listen to advice?"

Kazami Mei's gentle words made Wakaba Mutsu nod her head slightly, and only after hearing this did she slowly release her small hand that was holding his sleeve.

Noticing that Wakaba Mutsu's tense nerves had not yet fully relaxed, Kazami Mei, who was standing still, gently reached out and embraced her. The way he combed her waist-length hair was so gentle that in the blink of an eye, the stiff and tense doll girl completely relaxed in the warmth.

Feeling the soft touch against my earlobe, a soothing and refreshing floral scent filled my nostrils.

The girl simply closed her golden eyes, which emitted an unusual glow, and spoke with a hesitant yet conflicted expression—

“…Ming, you can’t ‘take the initiative’ to go to Su Shi.”

Wakaba Mutsumi didn't want to drive away Nagasaki Motoyo, this 'bad woman'; on the contrary, she supported her relationship from the very beginning.

However, Nagasaki Motoyo's performance disappointed her time and time again.

No matter what, we can't let Naruto comfort the other person now. There are some things that Nagasaki Motoyo needs to figure out for herself first. If she truly likes Naruto from the bottom of her heart, she will figure it out herself even in this state, and then come back to apologize and ask for everyone's forgiveness.

It's not about making Kazami Mei compromise for her.

"……okay, I get it."

After a moment of silence, Kazami Mei finally agreed to Wakaba Mutsu's request, but that didn't mean he would stop worrying about her.

Perhaps sensing the faint sorrow in Kazami's eyes, Wakaba Mutsu, held in his arms, gently rubbed her soft cheek against his neck, and spoke gentle, tender words—

"Ming, don't worry too much about Su Shi. I will talk to her properly later."

Now that things have turned out this way, Wakaba Mutsu believes that she is also at fault.

Therefore, she will take full responsibility.

……

The high-rise buildings in Ikebukuro gleamed faintly in the afterglow of the sunset, while the twilight obscured the colorless sky, and the constant flow of people and vehicles moved back and forth in a regular pattern.

The brown-haired girl strolling along the edge of the street looked tired, her swollen eyelids radiating a deep sense of desolation.

The city shone with a beautiful glow under the setting sun, but her world seemed to have lost all its color.

A fleeting moment of clarity seemed to pass before her eyes, and before she knew it, she had arrived at the steep Fujimi Slope.

The long, steep slope made it difficult for her to maintain her balance. Her already weak legs felt numb and limp. She staggered forward, lost and disoriented, stubborn and confused, completely immersed in the lingering sadness.

"...It feels so bad."

Her voice gradually became hoarse from crying and screaming, and despite being bathed in the glow of the setting sun, she felt her whole body trembling uncontrollably.

A chilling, lonely coldness seeped into his spine from his bloodless fingertips, forcing him to drag his heavy steps forward with difficulty.

She almost heard 'that sentence'?

She kept deceiving the person she loved most, just to satisfy her selfish and twisted desires; the situation she caused without considering others was ultimately the bitter fruit of her own actions.

But just a second before Kazami Mei was about to say 'break up,' Nagasaki Motoyo, unable to accept the fact, still uncontrollably chose to run away.

Because she would rather die than hear the person she loved most say that she hated her, she wanted to give up all contact with her and sever the relationship between them.

"...I am so ugly, what am I thinking?"

“Ming must hate me now. He has no reason to forgive me again and again... not to mention that I lied to him from beginning to end, and everything that happened was my fault…”

Feeling extremely insecure, she kept talking to herself, taking stiff, mechanical steps as she walked out of the streets of Fujimi-zaka, her completely dim blue eyes seemingly unable to see where she was standing.

At the corner, she lost control and collided with a passerby who happened to be passing by.

"Well……"

Nagasaki Motoyo, who had fallen to the ground, instinctively cried out in pain, but she no longer had the strength to apologize to the other person.

She sat on the ground in a disheveled and absent-minded state. The pain from the scraped palms was like an alarm clock waking her from a beautiful dream, making it impossible for her already cold fingertips to feel the warmth that should have been hers. Her heart felt empty, as if nothing existed there.

"Su Shi?"

Suddenly, a soft yet slightly surprised voice called out in her ear. Nagasaki Motoyo, whose name was called, instinctively looked up and stared ahead.

The first thing that catches the eye is a young girl wearing a gray and white lace-trimmed dress. Her beautiful, smooth light blue hair is tied into two pigtails with a dark ribbon, and the neat braids at her temples reveal her innate nobility and elegance.

She simply looked down at them, a hint of doubt gleaming in her bright, jewel-like amber eyes.

"...Xiao Xiang."

With red and swollen eyes and tear-streaked face, Nagasaki Motoyo responded with difficulty, completely at a loss for words at this unexpected encounter.

"What's going on with you?"

When Toyokawa Shoko, carrying a shoulder bag, saw Nagasaki Motoyo in such a disheveled state, her delicate eyebrows furrowed visibly, and a trace of worry appeared on her charming and beautiful face.

But those fleeting emotions quickly dissipated, leaving only the initial calm and indifference.

Su Shi, it looks like she's crying?

Even Toyokawa Shoko had never seen the other girl so vulnerable. There were obvious tear stains on the girl's gentle and fragile cheeks. Even when she had scolded Nagasaki Motoyo severely because of CRYCHIC, she had not become like this.

Nagasaki Motoyo pursed her cherry lips tightly, responding slowly in a hoarse voice—

"...It's alright, don't worry about me."

It's all my own fault that things have come to this.

"is it?"

Toyokawa Shoko gritted her teeth, then slowly closed her eyes, preparing to turn and leave.

Perhaps because of her sincere apology during that live performance, Toyokawa Shoko's relationship with the former CRYCHIC members has improved considerably. However, she still maintains a certain distance from them because she cannot even tell Kazami Naruto about her current situation.

What happens to Nagasaki Motoyo now is none of her business; getting involved will only make it harder for her to extricate herself.

"..."

She had only taken two steps forward when Toyokawa Shoko, wearing small leather shoes, stopped.

Although things had gotten a bit tense before because of CRYCHIC, Nagasaki Motoyo was still a friend of hers, and besides, she was a member of Kazami Mei's band. So, no matter what, Toyokawa Shoko shouldn't have gotten too worked up with her.

Otherwise, Kazami Mei, standing between the two of them, would be in an even more difficult position, as her actions might unintentionally cause him trouble. Toyokawa Shoko had no intention of causing Kazami Mei any trouble.

"Here, take this and wipe it off."

Shoko Toyokawa expressionlessly took out a pure white handkerchief worth 200 yen from the supermarket from her pocket and stuffed it into Nagasaki Motoyo's hand without waiting for her reply.

"I don't know what happened, but if you want to cry, go home and cry slowly."

"..."

Nagasaki Motoyo seemed not to have heard what Toyokawa Shoko said at all, and simply slumped to the ground.

Seeing her embarrassing behavior, Toyokawa Shoko's breath hitched. Seeing that the other party had no reaction, she was inexplicably annoyed and didn't bother to care. She walked past Nagasaki Motoyo.

After taking more than a dozen steps, she stopped again, her mood complicated, and she couldn't help but look back.

Nagasaki Motoyo remained seated, showing no intention of moving at all.

"...Ugh! I can't take it anymore."

A strong sense of irritability made Toyokawa Shoko's blood boil. She gritted her teeth and turned to walk back.

Why should she bother with this mess?

Thinking about it carefully, Nagasaki Motoyo's mental fortitude isn't too bad. It must have been something serious for her to end up in such a humiliating state. From Toyokawa Shoko's perspective, it's highly likely that it's related to Kazami Mei. Otherwise, given Nagasaki Motoyo's personality, she wouldn't have ended up like this.

"Get up first, and explain everything that's happened to you!"

She just wanted to find out what had happened to Ming!

Toyokawa Shoko reached out and grabbed Nagasaki Motoyo's wrist, forcefully pulling the distraught girl to her feet. Ignoring her attitude, she simply dragged her away.

Nagasaki Motoyo seemed somewhat lost and confused, her eyes red-rimmed as she was simply being led along by the other person.

……

MAMECOCORO Coffee Shop.

This café is located on a commercial street near Haneoka Academy, across from the 'Yamabuki Bakery' that Kazami Mei frequents. This not-so-large café holds a special significance for both Toyokawa Shoko and Nagasaki Motoyo that others may not know.

This is because it was the place where the members of CRYCHIC first met; their first meeting was in this ordinary coffee shop.