The shining Shoko Toyokawa

It was neither secluded nor dangerous. There were several small shops just a few dozen meters away. She seemed to be asleep.

I even thought she just had a heat stroke...

It wasn't until she got closer that I realized her body was covered in blood. The newly bought comic book she'd promised to lend me the next day was already soaked in blood...

The criminal was quickly apprehended. He was a repeat offender who had previously stabbed two people through the heart with a dagger.

At that time, I thought he would be punished because he killed someone.

But this matter soon fell into oblivion.

Only in the beginning, there were a few local newspapers.

Reports said the killer was an American serving at a nearby base.

After killing Sakurako, he killed another child and was arrested on the spot by the police.

But even though the evidence was irrefutable, the murderer was still extradited back to the United States after a long delay.

It wasn't until I entered high school that I learned from the adults that

The murderer was found to be mentally ill by the American court and was sent to a mental hospital.

But the adults all felt that the so-called sending to a mental hospital was just a perfunctory excuse.

And Yingzi and other victims' families are unable to even raise the money needed for the international lawsuit...

Sakurako was just an ordinary person, walking home from school. She had done nothing wrong...why was she killed?

It's because I'm too weak.

This kind of thing has been happening all the time, the strong oppressing the weak, the strong country invading the weak country,

The strong ones don’t even need to use force. They only need a tiny seed to defeat a country!

In the education we receive, it seems that so-called love, fairness and justice are taken for granted.

But these things are never taken for granted, they need to be earned!

After all, humans are just ordinary creatures on this planet. The eternal law of the jungle only exists in a different form in human society.

Everyone knows all of this, yet they can live their lives with peace of mind...

Because there is no other way.

Many things cannot be changed just by knowing them. I held my breath and studied with all my might, spending all the money I earned from working and the living expenses I saved on cram school!

What should I change?

Change this unreasonable world!

But in the end, my mother was still hundreds of students away from the first step of "changing the world" and getting into the University of Tokyo.

Is it because I didn’t work hard enough?

No, because I am... a 'weakling'. Reality is not a hot-blooded comic. If you think you can do it, you can do it.

My parents have given me their full support, and I have tried my best, but I just can't afford to go to a good cram school.

Three years, just three years.

If you want to remember something, you have to recite it 10 times!

Compared to the person in front of me, I am a weakling!

——At the end of my efforts, I saw this truth...

I accepted the fact that I was weak.

Even if I can get into the University of Tokyo by retaking the exam, what good will it do?

I probably still can't do anything...

And so, several years passed.

I thought I had accepted the fact that I was weak, and like other people my age, I fell in love and got married without thinking.

Until you came into this world,

In a hospital not far from here, I held your wrinkled body in my arms, and suddenly I felt as if I were suspended in mid-air.

What if you suddenly get sick?

Your father and I have little left to cover the family expenses and mortgage payments.

What should I do if you are bullied by rich kids?

Even if you're hurt, can I only advise you to accept the other party's apology and compensation?!

So I must work hard to climb up and become a strong person who can protect the world!

But...

Mom is really a fool.

Su Shi, thank you, thank you for being alive!"

Ms. Nagasaki hugged her daughter tightly, hugging her own flesh and blood, tears gradually wet the girl's shoulders.

"It was obviously for Su Shi, but I ignored Su Shi's feelings.

sorry!

I'm sorry, Sushi! I've left you alone all these years!"

With such a mother, if Su Shi still has any dissatisfaction, there will definitely be thunder in the sky,

But Nagasaki Suyo found sadly that

I love my mother, but she doesn't understand me.

She actually hoped that her mother would scold her severely, or even give her a slap in the face to discipline her for being an unfilial daughter.

Looking back, she and her mother had never had even one argument.

Because Nagasaki Suyo——

He is an obedient director and a good kid who is a little precocious.

"Hey, mom," Su Shi smiled gently, as if coaxing a child, "Has mom become a 'strong person' now?

Do you feel relieved?"

Ms. Nagasaki's body suddenly froze.

"Haha, Su Shi, Mom has saved a lot of money now. Even if Su Shi does nothing, Mom can support you for the rest of your life."

Ms. Nagasaki did not answer Su Shi's question, but sometimes, not answering is also an answer -

Ms. Nagasaki, even now... I still don't think of myself as a strong person.

The so-called "president" sounds impressive, and indeed he is.

But in the final analysis, he is just a senior worker.

34 years ago, when the economic bubble burst, even the "CEO" who wanted to perform free aerial acrobatics on the rooftop had to queue up.

"No, Mom,"

Nagasaki Suyo did not comfort her mother as she did in the past, but instead issued a vicious curse to her mother who loved her deeply.

Chapter 88: I was here first!

Nagasaki Suyo did not comfort her mother as she did in the past, but instead issued a vicious curse to her mother who loved her deeply.

"Mom, the world is falling apart,

In my eyes, it has become something unstable, something that seems to be destroyed at any time.

All the beautiful people and things that I love deeply may disappear at any time.

As for Xiangzi, she had done nothing wrong, yet her family, her "world" was suddenly shattered...

I was very scared, afraid that something like that would happen to me."

Nagasaki Suyo left her mother's arms, tears rolling down her cheeks.

"Hey, Mom, can you save me from being such a fool?"

Those are the tears of lies, the key ingredient of 'black magic',

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry Sushi!"

Mother's tears are like daggers and poison, making Su Shi's heart ache and bleed.

"I'm sorry I couldn't make you feel at ease..."

'I'm sorry, Mom. I couldn't be your strength in the end.'

"I'm sorry...for bringing you into such an unreasonable world!"

'Thank you for bringing me into this world so I could meet her,'

“Mom…Mom,” Ms. Nagasaki said, already choking up, “will work harder to make Sushi feel at ease!

and so……

Please, don't leave Mommy!"

"I got it." Nagasaki Suyo raised the corners of her mouth and smiled sweetly, like a witch, "Well, I won't leave my mother!"

Su Shi, you are lying again,

It's just the same as before, 'I'm fine on my own, mom, keep working hard!'

It's not like I promised not to die, but I made up my mind to die. This level of lies,

She... was cursing her mother.

Of course, human power has its limits. Even the ancient emperors were only mortals.

Eventually you will face a high wall called death.

Sometimes what makes people feel at ease is not great power or status,

But there is such a person who silently supports himself.

Tell yourself: You have worked hard enough, you are already very strong!

Su Shiben should have played the role of an affirmative mother,

Just like a mother who affirms her child,

But she told her mother: I am very scared...

If suicide is a disqualification as a person, as a daughter (mother),

As her only daughter, she said to her mother who was already very uneasy and afraid of the world, "I am afraid".

It was like the flames of hell, burning her fragile heart.

Someone who can do this kind of thing...

"He must be a madman who sold his soul to the devil without blood or tears..."

But that's fine.'

If Ms. Nagasaki was a rocket that wanted to fly into the sky before this,

That Sushi is the one who pressed the launch button,

Once the 'rocket' takes off, no external force can stop it.

Even if Su Shi died after this, she would not stop.

Before leaving for Armenia, during a brief period of information censorship, Su Shi spoke to her mother on the phone.

Ms. Nagasaki excitedly shared with her daughter her journey from being an employee to becoming a boss.

But after finally achieving a social class leap, she became even busier, busy integrating into new circles and worrying about how to handle complex interpersonal relationships.

Moreover, she told Su Shi that there are different levels of 'capitalists'.

A small 'boss' in Tokyo is nothing.

Even the Toyokawa family, who ruled a certain area, and the Genmaki family, who were "rich enough to rival a country",

In front of real giants, we are just children.