Why wasn't I the one who got the male lead's script?

"Listen up, you idiot! This experience is not something you can use to morally blackmail others!"

Hoshimi once again roughly grabbed the collar of the powerless Aki and started cursing, completely losing her usual gentle demeanor.

"Since you made the choice back then, whatever results you get later is what you deserve. Stop trying to take advantage of me!!!"

He never regretted hitting that friend.

Even though he was subjected to cold violence for several years afterwards, he was still able to have a clear conscience and live a proper life alone.

Because he felt it was worth it.

For him, it was worth it to resist the desire of most people to hurt the girl he had never met, even if it meant ending up like this.

Even if the girl didn't know there was someone like me trying to help her, that was fine - her life would be much better if she didn't know.

However, Tomoya Aki, who had a similar experience with him, is currently doing things that go against what he has always believed.

It was as if it denied Xingjian's belief that everything he did was right.

It's like arrogantly proclaiming that revenge is the right thing to do.

Can't admit it.

This is absolutely impossible to admit.

"........."

Xingjian gradually realized that he had lost his composure and tried to calm himself down, but in the end he just gasped for breath and calmed down.

He bent down slightly and lowered his head, still maintaining the posture of riding on Aki Tomoya, but his hands could not stop shaking.

"...I didn't become like this just to get other people's sympathy and charity."

His tone had never been so bitter.

Xingjian never worries about other people's bad words or misunderstandings towards him - it's all commonplace anyway.

But the only thing that is unacceptable is the denial of his actions.

Who is it that cannot understand the pain of others?

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I recommend a book by Huan Gege, "Miss Yukino is going to start a harem for me?"

Introduction: Yukinoshita Yukino, who has obtained the memories of many parallel worlds in the future, discovered that

I want myself, him, and them to live healthily and worry-free.

I can only open a safe and worry-free harem for him, and find and maintain the fragile balance between them.

Miss Yukino's great battle begins!

Those who love it can take it~

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So why did Eriri become childhood sweethearts with this guy? I've always been curious (pondering). It shouldn't be the case in every way.

Sawamura Eriri's Body Can't Shrink: The Final Chapter: A Fist That Never Swung for Herself (V)

If Tomoya Aki and Eriri had a falling out and he kept his distance from each other, no longer paying attention to Eriri but also not taking advantage of her, Hoshimi might have felt more identification with this person.

However, what he just said was basically using this experience to threaten Eriri, and she had to be bound by his side.

What kind of bullshit logic is this?

This person, who had the same experience as me, did something that I felt most ashamed of.

What Xingjian couldn't stand was that everything he did was completely denied.

Especially the man in front of her who was once so close to her.

"...That's enough, Haru."

When the little blonde girl behind him gently put her hand on his shoulder, the black-haired boy came back to his senses from his intense emotional whirlpool, and the strength of his hands holding An Yi's collar unconsciously loosened a little.

When he raised his head, the corners of his eyes were slightly red.

Eriri seemed to be unable to recover from the accusations just now made by Tomoya Aki. Her red eyes were filled with a few crystal clear tears, but her gaze was firm and clear.

She walked slowly to Aki, who was lying on the ground in a miserable state under the control of Hoshimi, and looked at her childhood sweetheart, who had once been her closest friend.

"...Laugh if you want to. I know my embarrassing appearance is definitely what you like, Eriri."

Even though the current situation did not allow Aki Tomoya to show off, and even though the words that came out of his mouth were not exactly what he thought, Aki still maintained his final condescending attitude and looked at Eriri.

"It seems like you and Hoshimi have a really good personal relationship. You're really good at getting this guy, who was once so unpopular, to side with you, Eriri."

Only in front of her, I must not be at a disadvantage at all and make her feel guilty.

Perhaps this is the only way to keep her by his side.

"Why, just because this guy tried to win you over for a few weeks, are you planning to forget about our childhood sweetheart relationship?"

So, even if he could not control himself and utter sarcastic words, as long as the result was that Eriri would look at him again - it didn't matter at all.

"Don't forget what you did, Eriri."

So, Aki Tomoya smiled with a relaxed look - even though his face was now extremely pale.

Can't let her leave.

Even though he knew that what he said was despicable and shameless, if it could make Eriri stay—

"You know, you should always have had that for me—"

"Yes, I understand perfectly well."

However, before he could finish his words, he was cut off by Eriri's sudden words.

The little blonde girl stood beside him and bowed to him at a ninety-degree angle with great solemnity.

"—I'm sorry, Renye."

"—"

Aki Tomoya was stunned for a long while, and the smile on his face, which had not yet fully appeared, froze completely.

"I'm sorry for everything that has happened so far, for everything that has caused you sadness and pain..."

His eyes narrowed slightly behind the lenses.

"In the past, I was too willful and selfish, causing you irreparable harm... Perhaps this apology is many years late, and I never expected you to accept it... But..."

Eriri glanced to the side with tearful eyes.

In her misty eyes, there flashed the slightly lonely figure of the black-haired boy.

After she came over, Hoshimi stopped hitting and kicking Aki Tomoya, but continued to press him to the ground, her eyes staring blankly at the floor.

He had never shown his emotions so obviously in the entire time they had known each other.

Thinking of this, Eriri gritted her teeth and continued to add to the words she had not finished saying.

"Really - even if you never forgive me, I still hope that my feelings can be conveyed to you, Renye."

There was a hint of tears in her voice, which was a complete sign of weakness.

But in Tomoya Aki's opinion, the "feelings" in Eriri's words should refer to another kind of emotion.

"That was a mistake I made, and I can't deny it..."

I should have been content with that.

That arrogant, unruly, and domineering Eriri - finally took off her disguise after many years and revealed her extremely vulnerable yet extremely real side to herself.

Aki Tomoya should be satisfied with this.

but.

"........."

However, An Yi looked at the little girl who was about to cry in front of her with a panicked look as if she was looking at a stranger. She opened her mouth to say something, but in the end, no sound came out.

"But, please..."

The sight of Eriri sobbing and choking made him completely panic.

The little blonde girl stubbornly wiped away the tears that kept seeping from her eyes, but when she turned her gaze to the black-haired boy beside her, her tears burst out again.

"Don't... open Qing's scars again."

"—"

The black-haired boy's originally dull pupils shrank slightly.

"I understand that you still refuse to forgive me because I did something unforgivable to you - but at least he... at least he shouldn't be blamed by you."

"Ying, Yingli..."

"I know you hate me too, I will find a way to make it up to you, so at least - at least don't hurt others anymore!!"

"I……"

I wanted to explain something to reverse the current situation, but I couldn't speak fluently.

Tomoya Aki could only lie on the ground helplessly, watching Eriri's worried gaze directed at the other person riding on him.

As Eriri's childhood sweetheart, he certainly couldn't fail to see

She feels sorry for this person.

Right in front of you, someone openly contradicts you and speaks caring words to another person without any reservation.

Yes, maybe I should have realized it earlier.

The cold feeling spreading from the chest and the warm liquid sliding down from the corners of the eyes.

The huge temperature difference between the two made Aki Tomoya feel numb and desperate.

"what……"

It seems that Eriri has long stopped putting herself first.

He lay quietly on the ground with his lips slightly open and his eyes dull, like a broken doll, no longer struggling in vain. He just stared stiffly at the ceiling, with traces of tears in the corners of his eyes.

I could faintly hear a crackling sound coming from my heart.

That should be the sound of something completely collapsing.

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2/3 of the desertion is achieved

The next plot should be a little easier (drinking tea) Bosses, you can consider voting so that I can add more chapters~

Sawamura Eriri's Body Can't Shrink: The Final Chapter: A Fist That Never Swung for Herself (Part 6)

After just a few minutes, the atmosphere was no longer as tense as before.

Seeing how distraught Tomoya Aki looked, Eriri urged him to leave quickly to prevent things from getting any worse.

Xingjian did not continue to force this guy to stay here, but just stopped riding on him and let him slowly leave from the escape exit with a dusty face and difficult steps.

After Tomoya Aki left, Eriri lowered her head without saying a word, turned around and walked into the utility room, locking herself inside.

She may also need some time to sort out her emotions.

"........."

Xingjian sat against the wall outside the utility room door, raised his head and stared at the white ceiling for a while, and finally covered his eyes with his hands and remained silent for a moment.

He curled up like a child, buried his head between his knees and arms, and remained like this quietly for ten minutes.

The deserted environment allowed him to show his most vulnerable posture in this brief period of time.

"………call."

Then, before anyone noticed, he returned to his original appearance.

Xingjian patted his cheeks, letting the many complex and intense emotions that had surged in his heart gradually fade away, and returning himself to the rational state he should be in in his daily life.

When no one is there to comfort you, you can learn to guide yourself without any guidance. It's something he's already used to.

Just when he let down all his guard, regrouped and raised his head——

A red figure appeared in front of him.