you speak slowly

University life is just as boring.Participating in endless group activities, his own time is squeezed into small pieces. Jiang Chao cat plays games in the dormitory in his free time, and doesn't even bother to go to the Internet cafe.

He was studying finance, which he wasn't interested in at all before. After the military training, he was tanned even darker than in high school. With his perfect complexion, Jiang Chao hid himself in the back row of the classroom to sleep.

Nothing changed, except that Lin Mang, who had been in charge of him since childhood, was gone.

"Chaozi, let's go have a rubbing meal tonight." Seeing that Jiang Chao woke up, the classmates in the same dormitory invited him to dinner at night.

"No time, I won't go." Jiang Chao put the notes in the book, rolled the book into a tube and left.

Jiang Chao leaned back on the chair, and a large plate of dishes was brought out. He picked it up a few times, but he didn't put anything on the plate in front of him.Four men and four women, two dormitories came out for dinner, Jiang Chao was forced to come here.

The girl next to him picked up a shrimp and put it on his plate. Jiang Chao turned to look at her, and the girl smiled at him embarrassedly, "I don't think you have eaten anything. Is there any dish you like?"

Everyone else was booing, Jiang Chao felt that it was very boring, he poured a glass of wine and said to the girl, "I have a boyfriend."

Finally quiet, Jiang Chao raised his glass, raised his head and poured the wine into his mouth.

The call records with Lin Mang on the mobile phone are from last month, and there are fewer and fewer WeChat messages. Usually, he is talking at length, and Lin Mang replies, "Got it." '

There were countless replies from Lin Mang's circle of friends. Jiang Chao silently watched as Lin Mang chatted enthusiastically with people he didn't know. After exchanging pleasantries, he couldn't find the next topic, so he could only tell Lin Mang to pay attention to his body and rest early, and then mocked in his heart that he was already more annoying than his mother.

The life trajectories of the two are completely different, and he is getting further and further away from himself.

Jiang Chao lit a cigarette under the street lamp. The feeling of powerlessness that he reached out but couldn't grasp anything was really tormenting. He was unwilling but could only watch quietly from the sidelines.

"Oh shit."

Kun Dun didn't expect his parents' resistance to homosexuality to be so strong. His mother took a long vacation to stay by his side, picking up Qi Qi personally every week, and keeping Ting Zang from getting closer. Even when he went to the bathroom, his mother had to stand at the door of the bathroom and wait for him to come out.like a prisoner.

Ting Di couldn't see Kun Dun, so he would come to beg Kun Dun every day, and every time he was scolded back, he was fighting the biggest boss in his life, and when he got through the level, he could predict the long-term happiness.

Ting Di is now living entirely by longing. He quit his job and became neurotic. He always imagined that Kundun was knocking on the door. At first he sat on the sofa and waited without doing anything. Finally, he simply guarded the door to guard against theft. He asked him to open and close the door countless times until Tingzang came back from get off work.

He couldn't sleep, and in his dream he recalled the days when he and Kundun were together presumptuously. After waking up, he stared at the ceiling. In the dark night, the surroundings were terrifyingly quiet. He counted his heartbeats until dawn, and the days passed slowly like this. Go down and live alive.

If there was no such person as Kundun, he could face the life of a person calmly and live to death by himself, but it is no longer possible now, without Kundun, even the next second would be a torment.

Tingdi couldn't help but go to the next door to find Kundun, and he didn't refute Kunmum's harsh insults. He is such a shameless person, he just wants to see Kundun now, Kundun, come and see me.

"Kundun, Kundun." Tingdi cried at the door, Kundun was locked in the room by his mother, and when he heard Tingdi calling him, his heart ached.

"Come out and have a look at me, auntie, let me see if he is alright, auntie." Ting Di patted on the heavy anti-theft door and slowly knelt on the ground, he couldn't take it anymore.

"Kun Dun, Kun Dun, I love you, I like you, don't forget, don't forget, I'll come back tomorrow."

Will get over it eventually.

Tingzang goes to Qiqi's school every week.He parked the car far away and stared at the person the size of a grain of rice in the car.When people leave, he will always stay there for a while.

He buried himself in his work and didn't think about other things. He didn't get home until twelve o'clock. Ting Di opened the door for him and went back to his room.

Ting Zang fell into a deep sleep on the bed, when he heard rustling noises outside the room, he thought it was a dream, turned over and fell asleep again.

Kotobuki and Hucan began to live in the classroom dormitory, and they didn’t go home once a month. Kundun ate and drank in his own room, and the only sound of Kundun’s mother’s footsteps was at home.

He had just finished arguing with his mother, and there were broken objects everywhere, and Kunmu was crying again, her face full of vicissitudes was full of despair.Kun Dun found that he was starting to become numb, and he stood there silently waiting for his mother to finish crying, and then said a harsh word to himself, "If you see him again, you won't be my mother!"

He looked at the messy house, his life was like this, his family and lover didn't protect him.

"Mom" Kun Dun said in a hoarse voice, "You are not afraid that I will be ruined, but you are afraid that I will not be destroyed. Look." He pointed to the surroundings, "I used to live well, but now, everything is gone."

"I did it for your own good, and you are applauded! If you continue like this, what will people think of you! What will they think of me! What will they think of our family!" Mother Kun wiped her tears, "I contacted a doctor for you, and Mom will accompany you have a look."

"I'm not sick!" Kundun shouted, "Mom, how do you know it's for my own good? Whether I'm good or not is my business!"

"That's the disease. Mom will find a doctor for you. Just take a look. In the future, finding a little girl to live a good life is better than anything else. That shameless bastard next door, don't let me see you again. Both of you brothers No!"

"Mom!" Kun Dun was completely helpless. He had knelt, been beaten, and tried to communicate. His mother stubbornly guarded his ridiculous concept and reprimanded him, ignoring all his conversations, and brazenly trying to make himself understand. she.

"I raise you two, is it easy for me, I am for your own good"

Kun Dun had heard this sentence since he was a child. Every time he made his mother angry, her mother would always complain to him like this again and again.

I'm here for you!

This is really the most disgusting rhetoric in the world, blatantly scolding his life in the name of caring, he has not lived a good life, he just has not lived as well as his mother expected, he just has not lived as well as his mother imagined.This woman used an identity that he couldn't refuse to criticize his life wantonly. After messing up his stable life, she still didn't forget to flaunt her position. I'm doing it for your own good, go fuck it for my own good.

I don't need you to be nice to me!

"Mom" Kun Dun unscrewed the door lock, "I'm going to see Tingdi." After speaking, he broke his mother's finger on his arm, strode out, and knocked on the door next door.

His mother was crying sharply behind him, Kun Dun didn't look back, the door in front of him opened, Ting Di didn't react when he saw him, and stood there stupidly.

Kun Dun hugged his lover whom he had not seen for several months, and kicked the door shut.

"Thin." Kun Dun carelessly touched Ting Di's back, "Didn't eat well? Di Di, brother misses you so much, brother misses you so much, finally let brother hug me."

The child whimpered hoarsely and throbbed his heart, Kun Dun hugged Tingdi tightly, embed him in his arms.

He took Tingdi back to the room, Tingdi's room was full of sketch paper, thrown everywhere, sleeping pills were buckled on the table, the quilt was kicked to the ground, it seemed that no one had been lying on the bed for a long time.

Kun Dun held him in his arms, kissed Tingdi's lips, and heard Tingdi's thoughts about him from there.

"I love you, Didi, I love you." Kundun swept the sketch paper on the bed to the floor, he covered Tingdi with a quilt and coaxed him to sleep, "I'm not going anywhere, I'm here with you."

The corner of the clothes was tightly grasped, Kun Dun wiped his face, he couldn't cry in front of Ting Di.