you speak slowly

When the sun was shining in the afternoon, Kun Dun returned home. He took a deep breath and took out the key to open the door.

There were voices in the kitchen, which could not be clearly heard. Kun Dun took off his shoes and walked to the living room. His parents were sitting on the sofa, and his mother’s expression was quite normal. When he spoke again, his father was watching TV, the channel was constantly switching, and the broken words were like bones stuck in his throat, up and down, desperate but tormenting people.

"Brother, eat first." Kotobuki served him a bowl of noodles, covered with a slightly burnt fried egg.

The atmosphere was strange but inexplicably harmonious. Everyone performed their own duties, but the protagonist of the accident did not play for a long time, which made Kun Dun's heart hang in the air for a long time.

After eating noodles, he walked over to sit with his parents. His mother's eyes gradually turned red, and her face became more and more ugly. Kun Dun remembered the scene when his parents divorced. Unforgettable.

"You already knew." The mother finally spoke. Her nerves have been overly sensitive to everything around her for too long, and she is already on the verge of collapse if she is touched lightly.

The gesture of nodding turned into □□, "Why don't you take care of him! I'll hand him over to you! It's for you to take good care of him!" The accusation reached its peak all of a sudden, without giving Kundun any buffer.

"This is what a pervert does. It's disgusting! Why don't you care about him? Are you two trying to piss me off? Where do you want me to put my face in the future, ah! Where to put it!" She cried , yelling at Kun Dun, "You tell me how to teach and educate people in the future! There is a pervert in the family! There is a neurosis, a neuropathy, how can I live!"

His mother questioned him hysterically, and fell on the sofa shaking her hands. His father silently held his mother's hand, and put the other hand on her back to help his mother who was speechless.

Kun Dun's head was buzzing, he pretended to be calm to appease his mother, and then went to find Qi Qi in the room.

The child who had just grown up was crying softly in the corner, his voice was like a broken gong, and Kun Dun was afraid that he would die there if he couldn't catch his breath in the next second.

"Brother." Qi Qi saw Kun Dun and crawled over to him. He squatted there crying for too long, and he had no strength at all.

"I beg mom, please beg her, you said, you said you would help me, brother, can you help me, brother, I beg you, please help me." The child grabbed Kundun's hand The bottom of the trousers seemed to be grabbing a life-saving straw, and he didn't dare to cry aloud from the beginning to the end.

"Get up, come on." Kun Dun lifted him up, Qi Qi was paralyzed on him and trembling uncontrollably.

"Don't cry, don't cry, brother will help you." Kundun said to him, "Tell me, how did my parents know and how much they learned, don't cry!" He yelled out the last sentence, Qiqi stopped Sobbing, but still shaking.

"I went home, went home, went out and kissed him, my parents saw it when they got out of the elevator, I didn't know they would come, I didn't mean it, brother, help me, my parents won't let me see him, You help me."

Ziqi's logic was confused, but Kun Dun understood.His parents already knew everything, he sighed, and smashed his heart into the abyss.

Things happened in the way he least wanted to happen, without any buffer, they and their parents were caught off guard and faced the reality of this bloody forest.

"I'm going to discuss with Tingzang, you stay well and make mom happy..." Before he finished speaking, he shut his mouth in a self-deprecating manner, fearing that there will be no happy days in the future.

Ting Zang was smoking one cigarette after another, and Ting Di poured him a cup of warm water and put it on the tea table. The matter was serious, and the two brothers didn't know what to do.Ting Zang pulled a bunch of hair, he wanted to rush to the opposite side now, no matter whether Qi Qi's parents were beating or scolding, he didn't want Qi Qi to be there alone.

But he couldn't go there. He knocked on the door more than once, and Kotobuki told him Qi Qi was fine and told him not to worry about Kun Dun's return. How could he not be in a hurry.When Kun Dun and Ting Di, who had suffered thousands of knives, came home, Ting Zang wished he could slap Ting Di twice.

Someone knocked on the door, Ting Di opened it, Kun Dun stood at the door, he turned sideways to let the person in, Ting Zang in the living room had bounced over from the sofa.

Kun Dun patted Ting Zang on the shoulder, Ting Zang looked like a crazy lion now, and the six relatives would bite anyone they didn't recognize.

"How is he?" Ting Zang went straight to the point.

"I'm scared to death, people are paralyzed." Kun Dun said, "I plan to tell my parents about me and Tingdi."

"You're crazy!" Ting Zang didn't have time to feel sorry for Qi Qi, he looked at Kun Dun and felt that the person in front of him was abnormal.

"It's just making things worse. Now is the best time to speak up. It will be difficult to mention it in the future." Kun Dun pointed to Ting Di and said to Ting Zang, "It's impossible for him to spend his whole life with me without a name or role. Parents know, and now they can share the flames of war with you." Kun Dun twitched the corner of his mouth, but didn't laugh.

"No, I don't need you two. My brother doesn't have much to do, so don't join in the fun." Ting Zang lit another cigarette, and the ashtray was full of cigarette butts.

"I've thought about it, let our two families take care of it more, it's going to be difficult now, it'll be fine when it's over, Ting Di doesn't want it, I want to give it, I want to take him abroad to get married, Di Di, do you want to marry me ?” Kun Dun turned his head and asked Ting Di, and got an affirmative answer.

"Hey," Kun Dun finally laughed, "Be careful, he's not a young man of seventeen or eighteen, he has to walk step by step." He stood up and dragged Ting Di to the bedroom, and Liu Ting hid in the living room and continued to smoke.

"Brother" Kun Dun held Ting Di's face in his hands, and the child's eyes were his own reflection, "Are you afraid?"

"Will you stay with me?" Ting Di asked him.

"of course."

"Then I'm not afraid anymore."

Kun Dun kissed it down, the touch was soft and touched the heartstrings.

When he was a child, he lived in a small town, which was closed and backward. He knew that he would not live in the town for the rest of his life, but his parents had spent most of their lives in their hometown. Two men can love each other, the road ahead is difficult, it is tantamount to moths to a flame.

With him by his side, Kun Dun began to yearn for miracles in the dark.

Kun Dun tightly held Tingdi's hand, and the clasped hands trembled slightly. They knelt in the middle of the living room, their mother was crying on the sofa, and his father, who hadn't touched cigarettes for more than 20 years, smoked desperately. Choking sore throat.

"Let me go! Let me go!" The mother suddenly rushed over and tried to tear away the hands they held together. Kun Dun's half of his body was numb, but the hands were still tightly held.

"Shameless thing, I have raised you for more than 20 years in vain, disgusting scum, let me go!" Slapping Tingdi's head with crackling hands, in Kunmu's eyes, this is not much older than her youngest son The young man is her enemy who wants to eat flesh and drink blood.

"Auntie, I really like him, I really like him." Ting Di was stunned and didn't even know how to hide. Kun Dun turned sideways to protect him, and forced his head into his arms. Started smashing things.

The messy scene appeared countless times in Tingdi's childhood nightmare. In the dream, he woke up, and there was no one at home. The scene of his mother running out of the house and falling under the wheel with his father who was chasing him appeared reflexively. flashed back in my mind.

Kun Dun knew that he stood between Tingdi's past and present like a solid city wall, and the despair outside the city would never come in again.

Qi Qi in the room ran out, and Mother Kun threw an ornament at him, and with a bang, blood dripped down his cheeks on the ground.

"Get out! Get out of here!" Qi's father, who had been silent all this time, pushed the three of them out the door, and Kun's mother fell on the floor crying heartbreakingly.

The crying could not be heard clearly through two doors, Ting Zang took Qi Qi to apply the medicine, and the calm and self-possessed man rubbed the ointment on Qi Qi with red eyes and trembling hands.

"I'm starting to prepare to go abroad, please bear with me, Ang." Ting Zang comforted Qi Qi, wiping away the tears on his face with his thumb.

Kotobuki and Hujin were cleaning up the messy house, and the mother was persuaded to go back to the room, and conversations floated out through the crack of the door from time to time.

"What calm, how calm!"

"I've lost all my face! Who do I count on in the future!"

"Can it be the same, that's your son."

The two people in the living room froze in place at the same time, and the broken porcelain in Hu Jian's hand fell to the ground again with a 'click'.

Kotobukiya turned to get his broom, stumbling over his twisted legs.The voice in the room was still ringing intermittently, and neither of them spoke again.

Kotobukiya was lying on the bed, and the tiger next to him held his arm as he did when he was a child.

When they first lived together, their impressions of their stepmother came from the descriptions in the story and their own fantasies. The sudden addition of a woman and her child in the family made the fear in the hearts of the two brothers increase day by day.At that time, Hu Jin insisted on sleeping with Kotobuki, clutching his arm all night long.

Fears that have been forgotten come back, no, not fear, empty in the heart, it is loss.

Over the years, I have always regarded her as my mother.