Knowledge and Practice

In the bookstore, Xiao Xingyi squatted in a corner and looked at the books quietly. He had basically finished reading the books on the first three shelves on the bookshelf, and now he took out a book from the middle of the fourth row.

The information on the phone kept beeping. He flipped through it, and Zhang Chengyu's information filled the entire screen. Before, he would reply one or two occasionally, but now he just glanced at it and swiped it away.

1:6 on January 8th—"Xiao Xingyi, where are you? Today's roll call has gone wrong again. This teacher is a bit difficult to deal with. You are in a bit of trouble now."

1:8 on January 9—"Didn't it be a good week? It's been a month, and the counselor is also asking me where you are?"

January 1, 11:10—"You saw the message, come back quickly, it's almost the end of the term. Don't you come for the exam?"

1:11 on January 16th—"What's the matter with you, Yan Zenan, you were fine before, I said you disappeared, and he called me an idiot, what the hell, if I hadn't been for my good temper, I would have been with him a long time ago There's a fight."

January 1, 12:20—"Where are you? Call me back."

The life here is very comfortable, the bookstore during the day, and an Internet cafe at night, the sounds heard in the ears are not so messy.

Occasionally there will be some, but in general, it will not have much impact.

It's just that I simply don't want to go back, don't want to go back to school, and don't want to go home.

Xiao Xingyi clearly counted the days when he came here, and even soberly recorded a series of changes in himself, auditory hallucinations caused by stress, evasion in life behavior, skipping classes, fleeing from crowded places, etc.

It's not that I didn't want to go back, but when I walked near the school, the voice next to my ears became uncontrollable, and my stomach couldn't help feeling uncomfortable. Now I am like this, even in school, I can't survive a class.

At least, you can still read books when no one knows you in the bookstore.

Let's talk about exams and so on.

"Xingyi, I've been looking for you for a long time? Fortunately, nothing happened to you."

Xiao Xing didn't react when he heard the sound. He could tell it was the voice of "Xie An", but here, Xie An's voice could be heard almost every day, coming from outside the bookstore, upstairs or downstairs. Come on, the contents are all the same.

At the beginning, he would unconsciously trace the source of the sound, however, whether it was outside or several floors up.At first, he would run to the roof of the bookstore, even ask the clerk to borrow the key, and then go up to check it. Fortunately, the bookstore admin is a kind girl and did not stop his behavior.

He would also chase outside, and after several streets, when there was no longer a section of road to go on, he would stare at the green belt in a daze.

Fortunately, after many times, you will know that it is not true.

It can't be said that he was lost, he just wasn't in a hurry to find it.

Psychiatry was not one of the subjects in the sophomore year. Xiao Xingyi had no materials. In most cases, Xiao Xingyi was still very clear-headed and restrained. He looked through the textbooks in the bookstore and read them carefully. There are many causes of auditory hallucinations, such as sensory delusions, emotional disorders, mental disorders or mental illnesses accompanied by physical infections, etc.

Some get better with treatment, and some don't.

As soon as Xiao Xing looked at these diagnoses, he felt that he met all the criteria. He was a little amused. If Xie An was here at this time, he would probably laugh at himself as a "quack doctor".

It's just that there is no Xie An by my side now.

Then, if it really won't get better, let these voices accompany you for the rest of your life.

The bookstore closed at 10 pm. Xiao Xingyi followed the crowd out of the bookstore. He saw a familiar figure standing at the door. After looking up, he began to smile wryly.

In addition to auditory hallucinations, can I still have hallucinations now?Apparently, he was terminally ill.

As soon as Xiao Xing approached the figure, he subconsciously touched it with his hands, not knowing whether the person conjured up in his mind would be warm.

No, the next moment, he was hugged by that figure and hugged him tightly, with such real strength that he couldn't break free.

He saw that the smiling eyes of the person opposite him were still as gentle as before, but his voice was trembling uncontrollably:

"Xingyi, I found you. Let's go back."

Is it reality, or an illusion?

Xiao Xingyi couldn't tell the difference, but the temperature in his arms was so warm, if he continued like this, he would melt.

Xie An is still so gentle, even if it is the person imagined in his mind, he never asks about the past and never blames himself.

"Okay, let's go back."

Xiao Xingyi still couldn't help but respond to this person and this voice.

If it can continue like this, that's fine.

The author has something to say: Thank you for reading. It is a surprise that people still read such ordinary articles. I will never abandon the pit at will. I am practicing the rhythm of writing recently, come on.