breakup march

Today is Sunday, and Yan Weiming didn't come out of the design institute until eleven o'clock in the evening - he worked overtime on weekends, so that he was in a trance, but the structural responsibility was heavy, and he didn't dare to take it lightly. The coffee was down.

Yan Weiming couldn't wait to go to bed, but he was really hungry at this point in his work. He planned his journey - he directly used the software to call a car home. There was a fast food restaurant open until three in the morning in front of the community. Go grab a bowl of something to eat...

Today's driver is a silent man, since Yan Weimin got into the car, he only said one sentence, and after making sure he picked up the right person, he shut up and concentrated on driving.Yan Weimin took a few glances at the driver from the back seat, the front row was covered by a layer of shadow, the driver's face could not be seen clearly, only the street lamps spilling in revealed a bit of hostility on his face.

Inexplicably, Yan Weiming thought of the recent murder cases of Internet-hailing drivers. Yan Weiming didn't pay attention to the details, but just a few simple text descriptions were creepy, and the fear in his heart overflowed... …

Yan Weimin quickly called up the car-hailing software, and sent screenshots of the driver's information to his colleagues.

The city is never short of all kinds of accidents. My colleague instantly understood what Yan Weiming meant, and immediately called him back—keep in touch, and if there is no news for half an hour, I will call the police!

After saying hello to his colleagues, Yan Weimin felt a little more relieved, and looked forward again, the lights were bright now, and looking at the driver, he felt ordinary, and the sinister aura just now had disappeared without a trace.Yan Weimin was stunned for a moment, twitching the corners of his mouth, thinking that he was probably in a trance from working too much overtime, so that the grass and trees were startled.

Relieved from the tension, Yan Weiming lazily leaned back on the chair, closed his eyes and massaged his temples, the recent overtime work is really too much, and the drawing that was designed on Friday requires the structure to be handed in on Monday. Can add two days on weekends.

A few years ago, a structural engineer might have been a brilliant job, but now the glory has faded, leaving only the "four highs" - high prison rate, high suicide rate, high probability of depression, and high probability of cervical spondylosis .

Depression is still a little far away from Yan Weiming, but the cervical spondylosis has shown signs, especially recently, Yan Weiming has no time to go to the hospital, so he has to resort to painting "shit" for self-treatment.

After pressing the temples, Yan Weiming started rubbing the cervical spine again, but his technique was not good, and rubbing back and forth was useless.While doing mechanical repetitive movements in his hands, he started to run the train in his mind, thinking wildly.

He thought of the road he had traveled in these years, his distant hometown, and the flying life on campus.When I was an undergraduate, I often went back and forth to the dark and deserted alleys. I was never afraid and only felt far away from myself, but now I just want to prepare a [-]-word rescue plan and last words just for a ride.

I have to admit that I am indeed old, although he is only 27 years old now.

Arriving home safely, Yan Weiming packed a bowl of noodles and went home, but when he got home, he lost his appetite.I was alone on the sofa for a while, and when I picked up the chopsticks again, the powder was already paste.

·

A senior in the design institute resigned and asked Yan Weiming to have a private meal together, but Yan Weiming has been working overtime recently, so they can only wait until after get off work to have a barbecue.

This senior is called Meng Xingran, who is the senior of Yan Weimin's undergraduate course. When he was a student, he asked Yan Weimin to help him with some things. Yan Weimin never refused. With this kind of relationship, after he became a colleague, he became subconscious towards Yan Weimin. Pay a little more sincerity.

The two ordered a table of barbecue, and complained about the whole industry while eating.

When two old school friends get together, it is inevitable to reminisce about the past years, and then feel raped by reality again.Meng Xingran got a little dizzy after drinking some wine, and said to Yan Weimin, "I used to think how good we are—both undergraduates and masters are 985, tsk tsk, I thought I could reach the pinnacle of life just like this, but I didn't expect that we were still in the mud. I was paralyzed. I passed the postgraduate entrance examination, and when I found out that I was admitted, I was so happy that I couldn't sleep..."

A postgraduate degree from a prestigious school did not bring them much bonus, but once it is less, it is really not enough, especially in their industry, which has been reducing the number of new recruits in recent years, and can recruit people unscrupulously.

"Look at you again, you used to be so beautiful, the great male god of the Civil Engineering Institute, how many innocent younger sisters have a crush on you, and now you can't even find a partner."

"..."

Yan Single Dog Weimin shed tears of not being able to afford a house.

Meng Xingran proceeded step by step, steadily and steadily. After several glasses of wine, he finally came to the point, and said, "Your sister-in-law has a cousin who graduated last year and is now working here..."

Yan Weimin hurriedly interrupted him, "It's hard for me to support myself with this little salary, and I'm still renting a house with others, so I dare not harm others."

Meng Xingran probably knew about Yan Weimin's situation, his salary was not high enough, he had no root or foundation in this city, and his family was a big burden... Seriously, it would not be an exaggeration to say that he is a phoenix man.

But it's hard for him to forget Yan Weimin's appearance at school, the scenery at that time was so prosperous that it's hard to overshadow it now.

"It's impossible for you to rent a house for the rest of your life. Marriage is always bound to happen. It won't hurt to get to know each other first, right?" the senior said.

Yan Weimin sincerely refused.

Meng Xingran was puzzled and said, "What's the matter when we meet and have a meal? You don't even have money for the meal... Or is there some other reason?"

Because I'm gay, Yan Weimin said silently in his heart.

However, apart from the factor of sexual orientation, it is also true that Yan Weiming said that he cannot afford to support a family. Getting married and having children, buying a house and a car are all on the agenda, but which point does not require money?The days of improvising and making up for things are not what he thought of.

He walked tremblingly along the way, not daring to take a wrong step, in order to let himself jump out of the shackles of the past, instead of letting himself walk into another rigid cage.

Yan Weiming resolutely rejected Meng Xingran's blind date arrangement. Meng Xingran had a big brain, and immediately had a stomach full of guesses. After drinking two more glasses, he asked cautiously: "Weiming, do you have a secret love?" object?"

Yan Weiming: "??!"

Meng Xingran: "I heard from the lady at the front desk, she said that you must have someone you can't love."

In fact, the original words of the lady at the front desk were that Yan Weimin was like the infatuated male lead in a traditional idol drama, except that he was not rich enough.

Yan Weiming thinks that these words sound so strange, can't love it?These four words define Yan Weimin as a tragedy in capital letters.

Yan Weimin coughed a few times, and said very seriously, "Really not."

Meng Xingran also thinks it's impossible, Yan Weimin's face is so good at punching, anyone who sees it will agree, and Yan Weimin is not an unsociable guy with a science and engineering grid. The follow-up is not difficult, not to mention love.

·

Yan Weimin brought home a smell of oily smoke, and packed a midnight snack for his roommate by the way.

He shares the apartment with a couple who are a year or two older than him. The woman is a company clerk and the man is a programmer. The combined income of the two is not bad, but they still try their best to reduce expenses and save money for marriage. .

After coming out of the shower, Yan Weimin found that the young couple looked at him a little strangely.

Yan Weiming: "???"

After looking at each other for a while, it was the man who spoke first, telling Yan Weimin that they were going back to their hometown to get married, and that the lease of the house would not be renewed after it expired at the end of the year.

This young couple is amiable people, and they told Yan Weimin of their plans a few months in advance, with embarrassment in their tone.

Yan Weiming hurriedly congratulated them, and then said that he would make arrangements early, so they don't have to worry.

After dealing with them, Yan Weimin threw himself on the bed, feeling extremely headache.Yan Weiming has been working for two years, and his salary can actually be more than [-] a year, but renting a house is still an unavoidable pain point for him.What they rented was only two bedrooms and one living room. The house was not big, but it was impossible for Yan Weiming to bear it alone.

Stretched on the bed, Yan Weiming turned on his phone to find out the grade group of the graduate students, sent photos and information of the house, asked if there was any plan to rent together next year, and also posted a message on Moments by the way.

Now that he started swiping his phone, Yan Weiming simply clicked on all the apps in his phone one by one.Weibo can still only discover new things from the past, and WeChat is divided by two factions, one is overworked and overworked, and the other is Weishang...

He even clicked on the QQ mailbox and looked at it. The QQ mailbox is bound to a lot of software, and most of the received emails are spam. Yan Weimin deleted them one by one. In a word - I wish you a bright future.

The sender was an unknown ID, Yan Weiming stared at these words for a long time, feeling a little flustered inexplicably.He wrote down the QQ number, entered it into the list and searched, and found that they were still in the same group.

This group is a little strange, Yan Weimin realized after studying for a while that it was a temporary class group in physical education class during his undergraduate years, and for some reason it didn't disband after the class ended, and it has survived until now.

This physical education class is very ordinary, nothing special happened, except for formally getting to know Yu Ze.

Yu Ze... These two characters have disappeared from Yan Weimin's life for too long. He has thought of this person countless times, but this is the first time he has encountered this name unexpectedly in five years.

It's been five years, those who should step into the society have stepped into the society, those who should struggle continue to struggle, everything is very different from before, including Yu Ze who has completely disappeared in Yan Weiming's world.

The only person in this group who will send this email to Yan Weimin is Yu Ze...Yan Weiming doesn't know why Yu Ze sent him such an email at this time, but the words "Bright Future" now seem like It's a merciless mockery.