Inferior star

Xu Mingzhao went to the supermarket to buy some food after exercising in the gym.

Occasionally, he worried about how embarrassing it would be to meet Wei Yu who came to look for Li Xin in the elevator, but he never had the opportunity to practice this embarrassment. After they separated, he never saw Wei Yu again.

And it has been almost a month since the day they parted.

He walked to the elevator with the vegetables he just bought, and an elevator door was about to close.

He didn't rush, so he walked by slowly, preparing to wait for the next elevator.

However, the elevator door opened, and the person inside raised his hand and pressed the door open button.

He thanked him and walked into the elevator. When he saw the other person's face, he suddenly stopped in guilt.

There is only one person in the elevator.

Li Xin.

"Aren't you coming up?" Li Xin asked.

The tone was strangely alienated, and even inexplicably hostile.

"Sorry." Xu Mingzhao stepped into the elevator in embarrassment, and pressed the floor he was going to.

He quietly looked at Li Xin.It was already summer, but the other party was still wearing a suit, with a black coat draped over his arms, and the sleeves of his shirt casually rolled up above his elbows.

Carrying a briefcase, he looks like a successful person.

And he.

Inferiority is accompanied by the oppression of the confined space and the coldness from the surroundings. For the first time, the time from the first floor to the seventeenth floor has become extremely long.

When the mechanical female voice announced "The seventeenth floor is here", he breathed a sigh of relief and quickly walked out of the elevator.

"You, let's get to know Wei Yu."

A low voice came from behind.

His heart sank suddenly.

Not inexplicable hostility.The hostility couldn't be more explicit.

"How do you know we know each other?" Xu Mingzhao turned around, the elevator door was still open.

"I saw that you came back with Wei Yu." Li Xin didn't change his face, "How is Wei Yu?"

The time you watched a movie?Or the time you came back from the next city?Shouldn't hold hands.

Why did you ask me about Wei Yu's recent situation?He should know more about Wei Yu than me.

is a test.

"I don't know. I haven't contacted him for more than a month, and I probably won't contact him in the future."

"What?! He hasn't contacted you this month?!"

"Ah."

Li Xin's reaction exceeded his expectations.

Li Xin's tone was full of disbelief, and there was even a trace of panic, but Li Xin quickly calmed down, looked at him, and said lightly: "You go home first and put down your things, I want to invite you to come Let's talk about Wei Yu at home."

Although it was an invitation, Li Xin's aura didn't seem to give him any choice. This day, we must chat, and the place to chat is on the 23rd floor.

He went home and put away his things, and took a look at himself in the mirror.

After Wei Yu left, he started cooking and exercising by himself. He also adjusted the live broadcast time earlier, rarely stayed up late, and now his mental state seems to be pretty good.

He walked back to the elevator, and Li Xin let go of his white fingertips from pressing the door open button so hard.

The elevator doors closed slowly.

After entering the room, Xu Mingzhao looked around, but fortunately, there was no trace related to Wei Yu.

But when he followed Li Xin to the study in the back, he took a quick glance and found that there was only one bedroom in Li Xin's house.

The heart seemed to be violently stirred by the blades of the blender, and it was smashed to pieces in just a few seconds.

He never dared to think about what Wei Yu was like with others and what he did together, but when the reality was in front of him, he had no time to escape.

He sat on a soft leather chair, waiting for Li Xin, who was staring at him across the table, to speak.

"My name is Li Xin."

"Xu Mingzhao."

"I heard from Wei Yu that you are his 'senior'." The accent on the word "senior" is very meaningful.

"I am, what is your relationship with him?"

"He didn't mention me to you?"

"I mentioned it."

"Then how did he introduce me?"

"friend."

"It seems that when he introduced each other to us, he concealed a more important identity."

"He doesn't seem to want me to know you."

"He doesn't want me to have any contact with you either."

"I overheard a conversation between him and you. He regards you as his home."

A sad smile appeared on Li Xin's face, and he said in a low voice, "I guess it's been a long time since this 'chance'?"

"months ago."

"He won't regard me as his home long ago."

"You... broke up?"

Li Xin shook his head, and laughed even louder, but he couldn't hear the smile in it at all.

"Senior Xu, you misunderstood, Wei Yu and I have never dated at all."

"But you to Wei Yu..."

"You should understand the difference between wishful thinking and mutual affection. Alright," Li Xin avoided the topic, regained the initiative in the chat, and said slowly, "Maybe you want to know what I'm going to say next." Yes, maybe you don't want to hear it. If you want to listen, it's best not to interrupt me once, I'm not sure I'll always have the time and mood to tell a story. If you don't want to listen, you can always go."

Xu Mingzhao nodded.

"I have known Wei Yu since I was a child. He is an orphan and was adopted by Grandpa Wei. My parents used to receive a lot of care from his grandfather. Seeing that he is about the same age as me, they have always taken care of him as a son. He often came to us when he was young. The family learned how to cook and regarded me as his elder brother. Later, he and I went out to study one after another, so we lost contact. I only met him again a few years ago."

Li Xin's explanation sounds like it solved the "family" identity that Xu Mingzhao cared about, but it also brought him into a deeper mystery - if that's the case, why Wei Yu refused to tell him the truth, let him and Li Xin know?

"Wei Yu's grandfather passed away unexpectedly when he was about to graduate. He went back to his hometown, and I happened to be at home at the time. My parents asked me to invite him to eat at home. The grocery store opened by his grandfather was closed, so I went in through the back door. , watching him sitting on a chair staring at a penknife. He finally put the knife down, but I think he really thought about... hurting himself."

Wei Yu's grandfather passed away, and Wei Yu thought about committing suicide?Xu Mingzhao clenched his hands into fists, his nails embedded in the flesh of his palms.He recalled the pain in his heart when his grandfather passed away, and recalled the night when Wei Yu was with him.And him?

"For a period of time after we met, Wei Yu was very dependent on me. He wanted to talk to me all day and night, and would lie on the sofa to sleep when he was tired. During those days, he seemed to tell me everything, but I always felt that His description seems to blur the second half of college life. He never mentioned you to me until a few months ago, when it suddenly snowed here, he came back from the outside and said to me very excitedly, In the elevator, he met a person who was very similar to his senior. What a coincidence, the day he met his senior was a day very similar to a snowy day. I will never forget the look in Wei Yu's eyes when he mentioned you light."

It turned out that Wei Yu recognized me that day.

Xu Mingzhao laughed and wept.

The difference between Liu Xu and Xue is that he didn't step forward to hug Wei Yu.

"I thought Wei Yu didn't mention you because the memories with you were too painful and he didn't want to touch them again. It turned out not. It turns out that he just wanted to keep those memories for himself, or you were too important and beautiful to him, he Don't want you to get any negative comments, such as his crux. He cherishes you."

"I forgot to introduce myself. I'm Wei Yu's friend and his former psychiatrist."

Xu Mingzhao looked up at the bookcase behind Li Xin, which were full of books about psychology and mental illness.My mind went blank, like an old-fashioned phone with a bad connection, with a high-pitched busy tone.

"The reason why he doesn't want you to know me, I guess, is probably because he noticed that I like him, and he is afraid that once I find out that you are special to him, I will mention his illness to you, and I am afraid that you will dislike him and leave He may be afraid that you attribute his illness to himself, or he may not want you to think that the time when he needs the company most is, I, to be by his side.

"His illness was cured a year ago. You don't have to worry about that. And he clearly rejected me. He came to stay overnight and never only slept on the sofa. He and I gradually became estranged. If I hadn't booked the upper floors of the Twin Towers in advance I don't think he would even have a meal with me. That meal, because you didn't end up having a meal.

"Being abandoned by his parents since he was a child, hurting his friends in elementary school, the death of his only relative, and his unspeakable sexual orientation, these reasons lead to Wei Yu's extreme self-denial tendency. He is not the kind of person who treats him well. A person who is worthy of himself, his judgment of others' goodness to him has always been based on his role. When he came to my house when he was a child, I gave him the game console, but he never wanted it. He thinks that I treat him well because he is a guest of my house , Neighbor, I'm being polite and compassionate. But he can't find any role in you that needs to be nice to him. He really cherishes you.

"I don't know how you treat him, and I don't know why he doesn't contact you anymore. He has been under a lot of pressure at work recently. If you are free, I hope you can contact him to make sure he is... safe. I think it's just to hear Your voice, he..."

"Where does he live, I want to see him, I want to find him!!!"

Xu Mingzhao roared hysterically in the long silence.

"As a psychiatrist, I shouldn't have told you the patient's privacy, but my current identity is Wei Yu's friend."

Li Xin handed over the blue folder in his hand.

Xu Mingzhao opened it, and inside was the personal information form that Wei Yu had filled out before, with his latest address written on it.He took a photo and glanced at it. The column of "Emergency Contact" was blank.

The heart is tugging, as if it can't be flattened again.

"Thank you."

"You don't have to thank me."

"Thank you for being by Wei Yu's side and giving him to me in good health."

Li Xin smiled wryly, but said firmly and relieved: "Well, I'll leave it to you."

Xu Mingzhao packed his luggage and drove to Wei Yu's house by car.

He knocked on the door so hard that he almost smashed it, but Wei Yu was not there.

There is a combination lock on the door.

He randomly pressed a few numbers to confirm that the password was six digits.

He tried an uninspired, cheesy combination of numbers starting with the year and ending with the day, and the door opened.

Xu Mingzhao put the shoes in the shoe cabinet and walked around Wei Yu's house.

Memories of the past run through his body.

Narrow entrance, beige curtains, decorative paintings of waves, dark green fabric couch, maroon ball-shaped bean bag seats, light gray velvet carpet, round log table.

Left living room, right kitchen.

Two bedrooms on the back.

The one on the left, a low wooden frame bed with solid indigo sheets.The one on the right, connected to the balcony.

The design has become more refined and modern, but the layout is the same as the previous rented house.

——"You used to like architecture so much, why did you switch to interior design?"

——"There is just an opportunity for me to decorate my home into the way I want....It is much easier to decorate a home of my own than to own a building of my own."

Wei Yu said this is his home.

Xu Mingzhao stared at his watch, not knowing when Wei Yu left work and when he would come back.

He suddenly realized the feeling that Wei Yu bought cakes five years ago and waited for him to come back.

Five years ago and five years later, he actually doubted Wei Yu's feelings for him.

Xu Mingzhao, you are a fucking bastard.

He sat on the sofa and cried with his head in his arms. He wanted to see Wei Yu immediately, a healthy and safe Wei Yu, and explain all his guilt.

Then, there is only love left.

The author has something to say

There is no update on Qixi Festival, I feel so sorry for everyone.Today I dragged it off until early in the morning to finish writing, ah! (Shancai called) The truth on the 23rd floor was finally revealed, and I don't know if the result is satisfactory... From Li Xin's point of view, this is a completely tragic story...Suddenly it turns out that Wei Yu and Xu Mingzhao have reunited twice? !Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!Maybe the next chapter will covertly driveacar?Good night!