Inferior star

Xu Mingzhao was still up when Wei Yu went back.

Because the light in Xu Mingzhao's room went out the moment he opened the door.Well, it happened that he hadn't figured out how to face Xu Mingzhao yet.

He carried the slippers and went to the bathroom barefoot, rinsed the soles of the slippers with water, and went back to the room barefoot with the dripping slippers, reached out and took a few pieces of paper to dry them.

The trash cans were full of used white paper.

In the afternoon, he slept soundly, and after walking outside for a few laps, he became more awake.

He scanned the room carefully.There are only two paper models on the bookshelf, one is his favorite building, and the other is a panda headgear made by Xu Mingzhao.The headgear is very big, and occasionally when he gets up in the middle of the night, he will be startled by the panda head in the night.He remembered the day Xu Mingzhao finished it, smiling happily.

He was wondering what to do with these two models.

On the day he was called by Xu Mingzhao to clean things up, Xu Mingzhao said that he wanted to leave.

He picked out a set of clothes for tomorrow from the hanger, folded the other pieces and put them in the luggage bag.

The next morning he opened the door of the room, and Xu Mingzhao was sitting on the sofa playing with his mobile phone.

The awkward atmosphere between the two was first broken by Xu Mingzhao.

"You're awake. Yesterday, I couldn't react to what I said yesterday. It's too serious." Xu Mingzhao laughed dryly.

"Well. My attitude is not good either."

"We, let's pretend nothing happened."

"Ah."

"Then I'm going to the library, are you together?" Xu Mingzhao said as he got up from the sofa and walked towards the entrance.

Wei Yu did not follow.

"I'm coming back for dinner tonight."

"it is good."

The light outside the door rendered Xu Mingzhao's side face, Xu Mingzhao's smiling eyebrows reminded Wei Yu of the day they first met, Xu Mingzhao ate a candy he gave him.

Wei Yu held the handle of the refrigerator, wanting to see if there were any other ingredients in the refrigerator for cooking at night.

He glanced at his hands.

After applying bitter nail water for a month, he really got rid of the habit of biting his nails. He hasn't applied it for a long time.When the nails grow, the hands look much thinner.

These are the hands that were covered last night...

In what mood did Xu Mingzhao say that he came back for dinner at night?Just to give each other a step up.

Xu Mingzhao really wants to eat, is this something made with his hands?

Wei Yu smiled, since when did he waste time thinking about this kind of problem.

He returned to the room, packed his luggage, took a look around the whole house, and applied bitter nail polish to himself seriously for the last time. When Xu Mingzhao applied it for him, he painted the edges and corners very meticulously. Friends, you must be very happy.

On the day of leaving, the sun was shining brightly, which made Weiyu cry.The bitter nail water was still very powerful, he just wiped his cheek with his fingers once, and the tears fell into his mouth, it was all bitter.

Xu Mingzhao passed by the recycling place downstairs and was attracted by the two models placed there.

The mother-in-law who recycles the garbage is sorting out the garbage of other residents, and the church building and the panda headgear are casually thrown aside.

A strong premonition welled up in him.

He stepped forward, pointed to the two models on the ground and asked, "Grandma, where did these things come from?"

The mother-in-law looked down and recalled: "A young man gave it to me."

"Give it to you?"

"He saw that I was collecting garbage, so he gave it to me and told my grandson to play with it. But my grandson doesn't know how to play with these paper things anymore. It's useless for me to hold them. When the boy goes upstairs, he throws them away. But it’s also embarrassing, just after throwing away the young man, he came down with a few bags and saw it.”

"How did he react?"

"The young man was very nice, so he just smiled and left without saying anything."

"He smiled?"

"That's right, the young man is really Zhou Zheng when he laughs."

"Grandma, let me take this thing back."

"It's good that you don't think it's dirty. Anyway, these waste papers can't be sold for a lot of money."

When Xu Mingzhao returned home, the house was very quiet.He put the two models on the dining table and checked Wei Yu's room, it was empty and clean.

There was an envelope on the dining table, written "For Xu Mingzhao", and a familiar black box.

He didn't want to tear it down, so he acquiesced in Wei Yu's departure.He frantically dialed Wei Yu's phone number, but was hung up. He changed to texting and got a response.

"Wei Yu, I've said everything, just pretend nothing happened to us. Why are you leaving?!"

"'Just act like nothing happened to us'."

"I mean what happened last night!!!"

"I mean all."

"you come back."

"sorry."

"Where are you?! I'll find you!"

"sorry."

"Where do you live these days?!!!"

Xu Mingzhao knew that Wei Yu didn't block his number, because every time he sent a text message, he would receive a "sorry".

This move was so clever that he didn't dare to continue sending text messages to Wei Yu.

He ran back to school and went to the public classroom of the Department of Architecture to inquire about Wei Yu's news, but no one knew where Wei Yu had gone.

At that moment, Xu Mingzhao realized that Wei Yu had no friends.

Xu Mingzhao went to open the refrigerator door with a little luck in his heart.In the morning he said that he would come back for dinner, maybe Wei Yu made something for him.

His expectations were in vain, but he saw a pure white cake box by accident.He slowly took the box out of the compartment, put it on the dining table, pulled out the product sample booklet stuck between the ribbons, and untied the bow made of pink ribbons.

Inside is a six-inch white cream cake, the cream is spread evenly, and a few blueberries are simply dotted on it.The product brochure says the name of this cake is "Surprise".

He cut open the cake with a plastic knife, saw the inside, and understood the meaning of the name.

Red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, and purple, the seven-color uniform cake embryos are stacked together.Beneath the white cream is a rainbow.

Wei Yu left the keys and the key chain of the astronaut in the small black box on the table. The astronaut smiled brightly, just like Wei Yu who just moved in.

Xu Mingzhao read the letter Wei Yu wrote to him while eating the cake.

"Xu Mingzhao, I'm sorry. I was too impulsive yesterday. I shouldn't make an analogy with how boys think of girls. I know you have always respected girls. I really don't have any special hobbies. As for you, I just thought about it once. Not anymore. My volunteering is about to end, and I think yours is too. My things are well taken away, and if you miss anything, just throw them away. Thank you for teaching me to be honest, it feels good. Thank you for that gentle smile that seemed innocent this morning. Thank you for letting me get rid of my bad habit of biting my nails. There are some things I will change slowly in the future, for sure. Sorry to make you feel sick, I think we should not We meet again, but if I see you again, treat me as a stranger. I'm really sorry."

He put down the cake plate, picked up the panda headgear and put it on, the edge of the nose was a bit deglued, the paper was torn, he searched, but there was no white glue.

An idea suddenly flashed in his mind, and he wanted to try it.

He recalled the small ticket that Wei Yu bought for him with the set of paper craft tools, on which was written the address of the paper craft shop that Wei Yu frequented, Jinxiu Road... What's the number on Jinxiu Road?

After searching the address on the phone, Xu Mingzhao rushed out the door.

The paper craft shop on Jinxiu Road is very conspicuous, with a large storefront.

Xu Mingzhao pretended to walk around the store for a while in order to better ask the boss for information.The tool area is grid-like, and each grid is filled with various tools, such as pen knives of various models and colors, glue of various specifications, scissors of different sizes... everything that one expects to find.The drawing area is very large, including models designed by famous artists from China, the United States and Japan.There are some finished models scattered on the cabinets in the drawing area, all of which are covered with dust covers, and there is a miniature sign in front of it, with the name of the maker written on it.

Xu Mingzhao's eyes were quickly attracted by one of the finished models, a landmark castle in a well-known movie, he and Wei Yu had done the same.He took a closer look at the sign in front, and there were a few letters written on it.

"XMZ&WY"

The boss just walked up to him and started to promote the new products in the store with him.

Xu Mingzhao ignored the chattering boss, pointed at the castle and asked, "Who brought this model over, can you get in touch?"

The boss who was interrupted seemed a little displeased, but he still answered Xu Mingzhao's question.

"He is a tall and thin guy. He often comes to buy drawings. The finished models made by customers can help us promote them. Our store will help customers store the finished models, and he will bring the models occasionally. He comes more often. I didn't ask for his contact information. Why did you inquire about him?" The boss started to doubt Xu Mingzhao after talking a lot.

"His paper model is very good, I want to know him." Xu Mingzhao walked towards another finished model. The letters on the front sign were the same as the previous one. In this store, that letter combination appeared a lot Second-rate.

"Yes, he often buys very complicated models, and they can be made quickly, and someone can make them with him. He said that for complicated models, his friends can stay with him for a longer time."

"Really, then his friend should be very important to him."

"Maybe, maybe it's his girlfriend." After speaking, the boss laughed.

"Can't it be, 'boy' friend?"

Xu Mingzhao pursed his lips, bought a bottle of white glue, and left the store.

Xu Mingzhao recalled the quarrel with Wei Yu that day, and vaguely felt that it was strange to have a blind spot.

The point of his questioning is not that Wei Yu likes men, but whether Wei Yu is fantasizing about him with the desire to conquer.

Why did he skip the topic of Wei Yu being gay?

Is it because he found out that his feelings for Wei Yu have long been above that of "friends" in the twilight of getting along with Wei Yu?

He was angry and annoyed, but because that feeling hadn't been confirmed, he was quickly pushed to a further step that he hadn't thought of, and he couldn't accept it for a while.

That's right.

Xu Mingzhao returned to his residence with the white glue, and sent Wei Yu a new message.

The last conversation was a week ago.

"Wei Yu, I want to eat your cooking."

"sorry."

"Wei Yu, I have something to tell you in person." The text message failed to be sent.

Xu Mingzhao was a little anxious, and dialed Wei Yu's mobile phone, but only heard a cold female voice telling him that the number he dialed was an empty number.

His phrase "I like you" seems to have no chance to say it again.

He put down the phone, picked up the panda headgear and applied some white glue he just bought to the cracked part of the cardboard, then turned it over and pressed it tightly from the inside.

Inside the panda headgear, there is a piece of white and a piece of paper tape.

Xu Mingzhao carefully tore off the tape, and below it was the words written by Wei Yu - "Xu Mingzhao accompanied me to do it", followed by an ugly smiling face.

It was so ugly that Xu Mingzhao wanted to laugh.

Sitting across from Xu Mingzhao, Wei Yu watched him use glue to randomly connect two pieces of cardboard, and said helplessly, "Paste it well, these papers are quite fragile, and there is no backup for the blueprints. If they are broken, they will be gone."

Xu Mingzhao replied with conceit: "It's okay, if it breaks, it's a big deal and I'll buy a new one."

Wei Yu replied "Yes".

Wei Yu always hides his emotions with "um".

Wei Yu, I want to answer again, this time I want to answer "I will be serious", "I will not break it".

Can't you give me another chance?

Before Xu Mingzhao graduated and quit the rent, he went to Wei Yu's room and removed the sheets on the bed. He didn't want to throw away the things Wei Yu had used.

He found a diary left by Wei Yu under his pillow.

Wei Yu's inner guilt was densely recorded at the front, and the name "Chen Li" finally allowed Xu Mingzhao to answer all his curiosity about Wei Yu's past.The name "Xu Mingzhao" only appeared in the last quarter of the diary, and it has never disappeared since then.

"Today I picked up balls for two children who were playing on the road, and was almost hit by a car. The driver poked his head out of the car window angrily, raised his fisted right hand and cursed: 'You fucking court death?! ', how does he know, I really want to die?

"Recently, I heard my roommates discuss in private about my special scholarship. Although they were silent when I walked into the dormitory, I heard someone say that my relationship with Mr. Li was not normal. I got a scholarship, and it was five points Strength meets five points of luck, maybe luck accounts for more. Besides, I am gay, I don’t feel anything about how beautiful Teacher Li is, and it is impossible to have any relationship with her other than teachers and students. But I did not deny it, and I also want to Try it, what does it feel like when the rumors fall on you... I found that trying to be denied is such an uncomfortable thing, and Chen Li was the same back then.

"...I can't bear the pressure, I want to move out of the dormitory. Let's find out if there is a suitable house recently.

"I fainted from hypoglycemia when I was moving things today, and the wine was spilled all over the floor. Fortunately, it was not in glass bottles but in cans, so the loss is not big. I need to get used to it after working an extra job. The new colleague is very kind and gave I don't want to eat sugar, so I put it in my bag.

"The catkins are beautiful... Xu Mingzhao turned out to be him... Fortunately, the candy was not willing to eat last time, so it happened to be given to him who is hypoglycemic.

"In short, I lived in Xu Mingzhao for no reason, and the rent is very cheap.

"After meeting Xu Mingzhao (recently), I have more and more nightmares. I think it reminds me not to dream about what I can't get.

On this page of the diary, the words "after meeting Xu Mingzhao" were crossed out and changed to "recently".

"I received the last letter I wrote to the children in the mountains. It started with 'Sister Weiyu, is the girl on the postcard you?'. It was so funny. In the last letter, I sent a school postcard with Wu Pingyi, the school belle. Hahahaha. He also said that he wants to 'marry' me when he grows up. Primary school students are so innocent. When I was in elementary school...

The words "when I was in elementary school" were heavily crossed out.

"...Xu Mingzhao will marry a wife and have children in the future. If I'm really Wu Pingyi...

"Xu Mingzhao was very sad today and cried. Seeing him lying beside me, I really wanted to hug him, but I couldn't. I really miss my grandpa, so I will call him the day after tomorrow.

"Xu Mingzhao's birthday! I cooked Changshou noodles. He ate out with his friends. I ate two bowls by myself. I was full. I bought a gift, the new game cassette he kept talking about, but his friend gave him the same one, mine I took it and returned it. Fortunately, I didn’t give it away. Fortunately, I can return it. Recently, my grandfather’s feet hurt again. I bought him a foot tub. The living expenses are a bit tight. Xu Mingzhao asked me about my birthday. More on that later, though.

"I went to the hospital with chickenpox and forgot to bring my diary. The days in the hospital were very boring, and I only wrote down a few key points. The data cable was broken, so I asked Xu Mingzhao to buy it. Xu Mingzhao came to see me and wiped my back. I...he helped me After applying bitter nail polish, it was so bitter. I grabbed his wrist and ate an apple. It was a wonderful experience. Can the problem of biting nails really be cured?

"Chen Li is not dead!!! He is still alive!!! He is still alive!!!

"He's alive" on both sides.

"...Finally met Chen Li, he said that I can start a new life! A new life! I wanted to make today my birthday, and I bought a cake on the way home. The salesman in the cake shop said it was a rainbow that was very popular recently. Cake, I don’t know what it looks like inside. Let’s eat together when Xu Mingzhao comes back.”

In those days, rainbows were just rainbows with no special meaning, and homosexuality was still considered a pathology.Subsequently, the LGBT movement rose, and more and more people began to speak up for their "alternative" love, and the rainbow flag became a symbol.Whenever Xu Mingzhao saw that flag, he would think of the rainbow that Wei Yu had never seen before.

It took Xu Mingzhao some time to realize whether his feelings towards Wei Yu were more guilt than liking, or liking more than guilt.

Until one day when colleagues had a dinner at noon, everyone started chatting after drinking and eating. One of them began to complain about his wife's high financial control. He could only fold his pocket money and sandwich it between the mobile phone and the mobile phone case.

The whole room burst into laughter, and some people agreed that it was a good idea. Since electronic payment became popular, he did not carry a wallet and put the change in the phone case, but he often put it away and then forgot.

I don't know how it developed into a mobile phone case inspection conference.

Xu Mingzhao thought he had never put anything in the phone case, and when it was his turn, he quickly and calmly removed the phone case.

A pink sugar paper folded into a square fell out.

On the day when Xu Mingzhao and Wei Yu first met, a lot of catkins drifted away. When they ate bento at noon, catkins kept flying into the dish, causing everyone to curse. There was only one unfamiliar face, eating silently with a smile.

"Oh, why is there a candy wrapper in Xu Mingzhao's phone case?" A colleague who was too drunk snatched the candy wrapper from Xu Mingzhao's hand.

"Where did this candy come from?"

"You don't even need to ask, it must have been given by someone Xiao Xu likes~"

Colleagues chattered.

Xu Mingzhao broke his colleague's shoulder, took the candy wrapper back, held it in the palm of his hand, and smiled softly.

"Yeah, it's a gift from someone you like."

On the way home, Xu Mingzhao passed by the square. A tall and thin boy was wearing a blindfold, with a rainbow on his chest and a sentence of "I am gay" in both Chinese and English versions.

Xu Mingzhao stared at the pair of shoes, a pair of classic black and white sneakers.

Without hesitation, he stepped forward and hugged the man.

"Wei Yu, I miss you very much."

The other party patted him on the back vigorously, and said, "Thank you, brother, and I wish you and your him happiness."

He is not.

The author has something to say

When I was writing this chapter, I was in a very low mood. I felt sorry for both Wei Yu and Xu Mingzhao, but I think my writing style is still relatively cold and restrained, neither sweet nor sweet, nor cruel, so it seems to be okay.The next chapter is Wei Yu's perspective.The next chapter is reunion.It’s just such a plain story, thank you everyone who saw this, I love you all.