Mountain Stream Autumn

When he was helped into the house by He Qiuming, Chen Nanshan was already drunk and dazed.

He leaned on He Qiuming, grabbed He Qiuming's hand, and with He Qiuming's help, he staggered back to the sleeping room.Chen Nanshan sat on the bed, looked at He Qiuming who opened the door and went out, and wondered what He Qiuming was doing with his not very bright head.

Alcohol makes people sink into the mire of the past, and they can't get out no matter how hard they try, and it also makes people impulsive, and the thoughts that are usually hidden can't help but come out crazily.

Chao Nian's entrustment, Zhang Qiuyan's confrontation, and Li Changqing's words were like a frame-by-frame movie, repeated in Chen Nanshan's head over and over again, and his brain ached from the alcohol.

There was a girl in his junior high school class, her hair was not long, and she was quiet, but the words she wrote were memorable for a long time, and now Chen Nanshan still remembers the sentence written by the girl: I sang so loudly, just for your appreciation, a few drinks I will only drink up the spirits for you.

What pure emotion.

Chen Nanshan got up from the bed and ran to the suitcase to search, as if there was an important treasure inside.

When He Qiuming came back with warm water, what he saw was Chen Nanshan kneeling on the ground, opening the suitcase and looking through things, and next to him were neatly packed items.

Chen Nanshan looked at the water He Qiuming handed to him, thanked him, and then took a small sip.It's just that the stamina brought by spirits cannot be relieved by a glass of warm water, not to mention that he has more urgent things to do at this moment.

At the end of a party, it was Chen Nanshan who drank the group. The person who was going to drink the wine waved his hand and said no, and then lamented that Chen Nanshan could drink.Li Changqing, who had been sitting on the side, also came over, stood beside He Qiuming and chatted with him with a smile, while Chen Nanshan stood on the side, staring at Li Changqing.

He was the one who said he wanted to know He Qiuming in middle school, and he was the one who wanted to escape in the end.

Even though it was a room with many people, Chen Nanshan felt chills all over his body, which made him feel more uncomfortable than every time he drank alone before.There was a period of time that he had never been in contact with. A group of people were talking about topics that only they knew, and he was standing beside him. Although he was wearing He Qiuming's coat, he could still see the gap between him and them.

If He Qiuming didn't take the initiative, then even if he stood by He Qiuming's side, he would only be like a passerby, unable to get involved in He Qiuming's life, just like now.

Leaving aside the years before we were together, what about the years after we were together?When you taste the warmth of two people together, will it be very different when you return to your own life?

Chen Nanshan doesn't know, he only knows about He Qiuming's days abroad, he doesn't understand anything, he only knows that longing makes people crazy, if he can, he wants to become a pendant on He Qiuming's body, so he can stay with him for the rest of his life without worrying about being caught People are forced to separate.

Don't worry about someone threatening him with He Qiuming.

He Qiuming would separate from Chen Nanshan, and those who knew a little bit about the situation thought that Jiang Manchun was the one who induced him, but no, the person who forced Chen Nanshan to make that choice was actually He Qiuming.

When Jiang Manchun was seriously ill, Chen Nanshan rushed back to see her, and Chen Yong ordered him to separate from He Qiuming. It was inevitable that he and Chen Yong had a big fight, and then ran to make money to treat Jiang Manchun's illness.

It was very good at the beginning, and Chen Nanshan persevered. He originally wanted to discuss this matter with He Qiuming after the exam, but he didn't expect Chen Yong to be so despicable.

Chen Yong sent him a stack of photos, all of which were when he and He Qiuming were together, some intimate and some not.The moment Chen Nanshan saw the photo, he felt chills all over his body. Chen Yong wanted to destroy He Qiuming!

He naturally didn't expect Chen Yong to do such a thing, because in his heart he was his son no matter how incompetent he was, and even if Chen Yong was incompetent, there should always be a trace of family affection in his heart, but Chen Yong didn't have it at all.

And Chen Nanshan had no doubt that Chen Yong could do such a thing.

Although the society does not reject homosexuality as it did more than ten years ago, there is still too little space for homosexuality, and He Qiuming's school pays great attention to the personal cultivation and morality of students, so Chen Nanshan knows that if these photos spread to He Qiuming's school, then wait He Qiuming's ending will be unimaginable.

Even though this seems to be just a matter of the students' personal feelings, for a school, they have to take care of a lot of things, and it will definitely not make a student who likes men too dazzling.

Chen Nanshan couldn't imagine what would happen to He Qiuming when the time came.

He called Chen Yong and asked him what he really wanted. Chen Yong still said the same thing, telling him to break up with He Qiuming, return to the normal path, and take over his company in the future.

Chen Nanshan didn't speak, but Chen Yong was not in a hurry, he smiled and made him think clearly, saying that he was not afraid, but He Qiuming couldn't afford to wait.

He Qiuming will have an exam soon.

Chen Nanshan was silent for a while, but couldn't hold back after all, cursed a curse word, and hung up the phone.

He didn't dare to gamble with He Qiuming's future, and he didn't want Liang Wanmu and the others to be disappointed. For the first time in more than 20 years, he disgusted himself so much, disgusted that Chen Yong's blood was flowing on his body, but he had no choice but to choose this way.

The rest will come naturally.Jiang Manchun's illness was treated, and He Qiuming broke up with him after the exam. Afterwards, He Qiuming found out what Chen Yong asked him to find out, and completely disconnected from Chen Nanshan.

After he said to break up, He Qiuming often came to him for a period of time. He didn't believe that Chen Nanshan would talk about breaking up, and even said that he would reconcile.God knows how tormented Chen Nanshan was at that time, and how much self-control he had to hold back from saying yes.

He originally thought that He Qiuming would stop seeing him at most and would still study at school, so that he could visit him secretly.So after He Qiuming said that he had fulfilled his wish, he was relieved. It was only when he finally escaped from Chen Yong's surveillance and went to He Qiuming's school to look for him, did he know that He Qiuming was gone, and no one knew where he had gone. .

He did not continue to study in school.

What happened in the future is not good, it was a period of time when his vitality was extremely dark, and Chen Nanshan didn't want to mention more memories.

Sitting on the ground, Chen Nanshan looked at the things he had turned upside down, and then looked at He Qiuming standing next to him, and expressed the sadness that had been hidden in his heart for a long time.He originally thought that he would never be able to confess those past events to He Qiuming in this life, but when such a day came, Chen Nanshan didn't want to hide anything, he just wanted to tell all his grievances.

He withdrew his gaze, hugged his legs, and said in a hoarse voice, "I can't find you. I have been waiting at your school for a long time, and I haven't seen you again."

He Qiuming only felt that someone was gouging out his heart with a knife, otherwise why would his heart hurt so much looking at Chen Nanshan like this.He put the cup filled with water aside, and sat down next to Chen Nanshan. Before he could make another move, Chen Nanshan threw himself into his arms.

Alcohol made Chen Nanshan very uncomfortable, and it also made him emotionally vulnerable.The pressure in his heart made him rarely happy for a long time, but He Qiuming brought him long-lost happiness, so Chen Nanshan was like a bullied child, expressing all the pain in his heart, wanting to seek forgiveness from He Qiuming candy to eat.

He hugged He Qiuming's waist, his face was covered with tears long ago because of his emotional breakdown, his voice became hoarse, but he still insisted on expressing what he didn't finish.

Although he was drunk, Chen Nanshan could still feel He Qiuming by his side, and he could also feel the warmth that He Qiuming brought him.He rubbed against He Qiuming's arms, and finally stopped complaining of loneliness and grievance in those years, but said in a soft voice, "He Qiuming, don't leave me alone anymore, okay?"

He Qiuming didn't know how to describe his mood at the moment.He really had a bad time when he first arrived abroad, and he still wanted to come back to see Chen Nanshan, but when he thought of Chen Nanshan breaking up with him, and thinking of Chen Nanshan crying and telling him to let him go, he felt powerless .

He thought, if that was the life Chen Nanshan wanted, then he would let him do it.

He Qiuming expected that Chen Nanshan might also be sad for a while, after all, he was the one who loved like that.But since he came back, the series of things he heard were completely different from what he imagined. Chen Nanshan didn't live well, on the contrary, he lived pitifully.

Because of the mood swings, Chen Nanshan felt a little uncomfortable, but at the same time, he was a little more sober because of this.Seeing that He Qiuming didn't reach out to hug him, and didn't answer his question, he couldn't help feeling flustered, so he raised his head to look at He Qiuming, but saw that he was thinking with downcast eyes.

Chen Nanshan's heart clicked, something crossed his mind but he couldn't catch it.He let go of his hand suddenly, turned around and rummaged through the box, then took out something and handed it to He Qiuming to follow.

Obviously, there were still tears on his face, his eyes were red from alcohol, and he looked embarrassed.But after finding this thing, Chen Nanshan looked at him with a twinkle in his eyes.

He pursed his lips slightly, showing a shallow smile.

Seeing Chen Nanshan like this, He Qiuming's hands trembled uncontrollably, and after seeing the smile on the corner of his mouth, He Qiuming once again realized what it means to have a heartache.