The playwright school grass is also pestering me today

Shen Yu was blown to pieces by the phrase "I like you".

Small golden flowers bloomed like mushrooms after rain, with the sound of crackling fireworks, the joy that almost engulfed him rose from his chest, and tiny electric currents crawled across his limbs like ants, making people's heart palpitations fascinated.

But at the same time, a thunderbolt hit the golden flower field, and the flames burned the entire golden field. The wind and rain were raging, and the whole world was on the verge of collapse.

It is a happy thing to be confessed, but at the same time Shen Yu is also overwhelmed, he can't find the balance.

He buried his face on He Du's shoulder, and the sandalwood scent rushed into his nose, which made his heart move and he felt indescribably at ease.He Du's embrace was as warm as he had imagined, even...it felt better than he had imagined.

This is Shen Yu's first intimate contact with others, but it doesn't matter.

He was sure that the cause of his palpitations was not the so-called "first time", but this person.

But now Shen Yu is like a domestic cat used to a cage, it can't survive a day if thrown into the wild.

At this moment, all the past events were circling in his mind, Shen Jingguo frowned and said to him, why are you so ignorant and mess around every day.The classmates surrounded him and laughed at him, saying that he was an orphan and different from others.

Drifting with the tide, abiding by the world, is the cage he lives in.He once hated himself for having to work hard to live like others, but now he is afraid of other people's eyes and comments.Like an addict, it's too late to get out when you realize something is wrong.

After He Du confessed, he did not speak for a long time. He hugged Shen Yu quietly for more than a minute, and then asked, "What's your answer?"

These words were like carrying a basin of ice water around his head, pouring Shen Yu a chill.He woke up completely with a jerk, and pushed He Du lightly again. This time He Du didn't insist anymore, he let go of Shen Yu, and Shen Yu took a step back.

He turned away, not daring to look into He Du's eyes, and whispered, "I'm sorry."

"What do you mean by sorry?" He Du asked.

"It means I can't accept it." Shen Yu said cruelly.

He Du didn't make a clear statement about this answer, but instead asked, "Don't you like me?"

Shen Yu's heart skipped a beat.

He finally discovered that this playwright, who is always trying to get close to him or flatter him, is actually a straight ball player in essence.Whether it's "Try to be direct" or "Shen Yu, I like you" or "Don't you like me", he has no intention of going roundabout, and every question is aggressive.

For Shen Yu, who is used to pretending, such an undisguised style hits the heart of every blow, but he can only refuse and struggle in it.

Shen Yu gritted her teeth: "I don't like men."

He Du smiled: "What you say...does it mean that homosexuality is disgusting?"

Shen Yu was afraid that He Du would misunderstand, so she quickly explained: "No, my best friend in high school is Tong. I have no opinion on this, but I...I can't be myself. I can't accept it, and my family...won't accept it. of."

He said this, and his heart was shocked.

Of course the family wouldn't accept it, the family wouldn't even accept him having his hair dyed, but why should he care about the family.

He thought that he was really hopeless, he was used to being strangled into his flesh and blood by iron chains, and even gave up breaking free from the shackles, willingly letting it become a part of himself, it was too selfish and pathetic.

"Okay." He Du said softly, "I understand."

This sentence made Shen Yu panic, he raised his head subconsciously to see He Du's condition, when he raised his eyes, he bumped into He Du's eyes again, and He Du smiled when his eyes met.

"Actually, I was already prepared to be rejected by you." He Du said, "I guessed your attitude when I was on the long-distance bus."

Shen Yu was taken aback.

"But I still want you to know." He Du said again, "I can't hide it anymore."

"But I...wouldn't fall in love with a man. You're going to be fruitless." Shen Yu didn't dare to look He Du in the eye.

He didn't know what else to say, his heart was sweet and uncomfortable.

"There's nothing you can do if there's no result." He Du sighed, "You can't control people's hearts, right?"

Yes.

If people's hearts can be controlled, Shen Yu will definitely accept He Du's confession.

He couldn't tell how much he hated this self who looked forward and backward. He would rather let the world suffer than the world betray me.

However, in fact, he has no ability to fail the world at all. The only person he can disappoint is the person in front of him who treats him wholeheartedly.

Shen Yu had no face to face He Du, he couldn't even express these emotions, because these thoughts were so ugly that even he could not accept them, so he kept silent.

"Then we...are still friends now?" He Du asked carefully in silence.

He, who had been calm and composed from just now, finally revealed a little nervousness in this question.

"Of course." Shen Yu smiled, "I will always regard you as a good friend."

This may be the only thing I can make up for you.

"Yeah." He Du curled the corner of his mouth, "Then I'll be content."

That night they stared at the sky silently until midnight, then returned to Baishui Temple and lived in He Du's room.

Shen Yu slept on the floor, and He Du slept on the bed. He Du said at first, "We are a guest from afar", and wanted to make the floor by himself, but Shen Yu ruthlessly pushed him back.

He Du didn't say anything more, and took Shen Yu to wash up. After turning off the lights and going to bed, the two remained silent.

This is what He Du is good at. He understands people's hearts to a certain level. When Shen Yu is weak, he is just the backing. When Shen Yu is relaxed, he takes advantage of the vacancy. As if I don't exist.

But that's the only bad thing, he didn't say a word, he was so considerate that he seemed to have no feelings of his own, but people couldn't help but worry about him and worry about him.

Shen Yu didn't dare to move on the mat, but his heart was tossing and turning. He wanted to know what He Du was thinking at this moment?Are you feeling down?Are you sad?

The only thing he knew was that the room was very quiet, which meant that He Du was not asleep either.

The next day, He Du drove Shen Yu home to pick up his luggage. Shen Yu originally thought the scene would be awkward, but He Du's attitude was very natural. The two of them listened to the cross talk on the morning radio, and they came to Shen Yu without knowing it. doorstep.

Shen Yu opened the door and got out of the car, and He Du followed suit: "I'll wait for you here."

"Okay." Shen Yu said, "I'll get down right away after I get my things."

As soon as the words fell, the big iron gate at the entrance of the small villa creaked open.

It was the third time in two days that Shen Yu met Shen Jingguo unpreparedly. He subconsciously turned his head to look at He Du, and then turned back quickly.

After a night of no news, he appeared at the door of the house in a stranger's car, and talked to the stranger with a smile.Although Shen Yu knew that he was just an insignificant son to this family, at that moment he still saw a look of surprise in Shen Jingguo's eyes.

"Dad." Shen Yu smiled bravely, "This is my classmate, I came back to get things."

Shen Jingguo glanced at He Du, his eyes were still surprised and confused, He Du nodded at Shen Jingguo, without speaking.

"Ah...Okay, let's go." Shen Jingguo said as if he had recovered, "Today's train, right? Don't miss the train."

"I know." Shen Yu smiled and agreed.

I don’t need a time card when I go back to school, so I bought a high-speed rail ticket directly, and I can return to the city where the Normal University is located in just over an hour.When the train started, the scene of the small town gradually faded away in the window, and soon fell into a wilderness.

The small town is surrounded by mountains, so the weather is cooler. The Normal University is in a big city, and the temperature is a few degrees higher. It is August again. As soon as Shen Yu stepped out of the station, Shen Yu was almost turned over by the heat wave.

"My god, it's too hot here." Shen Yu couldn't help complaining, "Will I be cooked if I fall down?"

"I'm convinced." He Du put one hand on his forehead and sighed, "No one will let me come out of the mountains until September."

Shen Yu glanced at him, a little speechless: "You wear long sleeves in August, if you don't get hot, who will you get hot on?"

"Hey." He Du laughed, "It's cold in the mountains, I accidentally got used to it."

There was a lot of luggage, so the two of them simply took a taxi to the university town. The summer vacation had just passed halfway, and there was basically no one around the school, which seemed extremely lonely. The empty campus seemed to have been abandoned for many years.

"By the way." Shen Yu suddenly remembered, "Did you apply for a holiday stay before?"

"No." He Du said, "What is a holiday stay?"

Shen Yu was speechless for a moment. Students are not allowed to live in the university dormitory during the holidays, because the safety and management of the holidays are more troublesome.If you want to stay in the dormitory during the holidays, you need to have a valid reason, and you have to apply to the school in advance, which should be similar in every school.

"If you didn't apply, you don't have a place to go now." Shen Yu sighed, although it is not appropriate to continue to drag He Du to live with him in the current situation, but He Du hurriedly ran back with him, it is impossible to drive others to eat and sleep in the open.

Besides, there is Master Han in the dormitory.

"Do you mean you can take me in?" He Du blinked and looked at Shen Yu.

"You..." Shen Yu suddenly realized something, and pointed at him for a while, "You didn't plan it out, did you? On purpose?"

"No, really not." He Du smiled wryly and explained, "At that time, all I could think of was... just chasing pictures, and I didn't even read the notices about the messy classes. If you don't trust me, I'll find a hostel to make do with it. OK."

"Forget it." Shen Yu turned away without daring to look into He Du's eyes, "I have nothing to trust you, let's go."

When they walked into the Normal University campus, they were speechless all the way. Shen Yu felt that there was a high-voltage wire hanging above his and He Du's heads. It was usually calm, but once the wire was touched by a slight movement, the world would be turned upside down immediately.

The sudden stumbling when He Du was speaking just now hit this high-tension line hard.

Except for the picture, it is...you.