Embrace each other

Inscription, while you feel sad for letting down other people's youth, have you ever cared about the whole life I wasted for you?

It was unexpected to receive a call from Qin Hai for the first time. Before that, I always thought he had returned to the United States.As for the intentional blind date and the chain reaction afterwards, in my opinion, it is just a certain emotion of adults reminiscing about their youth.Therefore, I was very surprised when the string of unfamiliar but closely related phone numbers jumped on the screen of the mobile phone.

"1205" You said it was a coincidence that the four people after the phone call were on the same day as my birthday.

I am amazed at the means of scammers nowadays, even the phone numbers used in scams can give people the illusion that they are destined to meet thousands of miles away.

"clichéd"

Bai Yu, who was sitting next to him, had a very contemptuous expression.That's right, a calm and rational person like him would definitely not be interested in these little tricks.

Unable to restrain my curiosity, I still answered the phone.Of course, I regretted this curious decision after I heard the voice on the other side of the phone.The so-called curiosity killed the cat is the truest portrayal of this moment.Although it wasn't that serious, it cleverly placed itself in an invisible embarrassment.

The caller was Qin Hai.Before this I was sure I had saved his number, but definitely not this one.

Because of Bai Yu next to me, I could only pretend to be calm.After answering the phone, pretend nothing happened and continue driving.

In fact, I wanted to use this to show off, but the moment I swept towards Bai Yu, this sense of superiority disappeared in an instant.He didn't show the slightest bit of curiosity about what happened just now, but just looked ahead intently, with a slightly serious expression.

But it was always like that when he wasn't smiling, and I was used to it.

"Come and pick me up at night"

Bai Yu, who was about to get off the car, didn't lift his head, his face was still sullen, and he even omitted his usual thank you.

"You're welcome." I deliberately raised my voice and said word by word.

I didn't expect him to talk to me about it, and of course he didn't mean to talk to me at all.

For the next whole day, I wandered between the company and the client, viewing houses, discussing design proposals, etc., which was extremely tedious.Especially today I met a super best, whose speech is not clear, and the decoration style in his mind is not oriented, and he wants to reflect all the decoration styles in his home. What's more serious I'm afraid that you can't fully understand his ideas and tarnish her high standards and high requirements for the quality of life, so she will chatter in front of you.I can only continue to uphold my low professionalism under the effect of countless deep breaths, trying to manage and figure out his real dream home in the dark chaos.

God, a miserable life is nothing more than this.Therefore, after a whole day, there is a feeling that my head is not my own, and my mental state is extremely sluggish.

But all of this is because I didn't want to see Qin Hai, that's why I was caught by the manager in my free time and got the inhuman treatment today.

As for why I don't want to see Qin Hai, it's because I can't face his sincerity leisurely.Because that wouldn't do anything other than deepen my guilt.

That insignificant relationship was like a soft thorn stuck in my throat, which was innocuous, but it really existed and constantly reminded me that I once failed a "good" person who took me as a treasure with ulterior motives.

In the afternoon, Qin Hai sent a text message to accuse me of breaking the appointment. He said that I was "good at evading".I didn't reply, but I didn't deny it.When people are not mentally prepared for what is about to happen, it is often easier to choose to escape than to face it.It's normal, so I'm not ashamed of it.

I know, I can't go back and promise, so I have to go simply.

After I sent the last set of plans that I worked so hard to design to this extraordinary Miss Zhang, I shut down my work account.Can love work, anyway, I did my best, and for this reason, this girl has exhausted her ideas and is about to doubt her life.

After turning off the computer, I habitually tilted my neck back and started counting silently in my heart. This is the most effective way I found to relieve cervical pain quickly.

Before the silent counting time came, the mobile phone on the table rang. I fumbled to pick up the mobile phone, held it up to my eyes, and picked it up.

"Why?" Because the head was raised, the voice inevitably sounded a little dull.

"You, where are you, what are you doing?" Bai Yu asked after a slight pause

"Office, look up." I raised my head and answered truthfully.

Maybe it's because he has been working for too long and his brain cells haven't fully recovered. After listening to me say this, I actually heard him let out a heavy sigh of relief.Like I was a dying man who finally got him back from the operating table.

"You, come to the hospital." After a little silence, Bai Yu said

"what"

"something"

"No, I'm tired, I'm going home"

"Wei Xiaoduo, I'm not kidding you, you come to pick me up from get off work, I'm really busy"

I really don't know how Bai Yu has the cheek to take this sentence for granted, even I can't help but wonder if I'm the driver he paid for.

You didn't make fun of me, so I made a joke of you.

Finally, 180 times, the time is up.

I endured the anger at someone and his shameless behavior, slowly retracted my neck and tried to move before I snarled at Bai Yu on the phone.

"Bai Yu, are you sick? You can't take a taxi by yourself. I also have a serious job, okay? I just returned from a battle. Although the scale is small, the situation is also extremely tragic. I need to rest now , Doctor Bai. Bye"

Before the other "bye" was uttered, Bai Yu's arrogance was strongly reduced by Bai Yu's next words.

"house renovations"

house?furnish?Is it necessary to be so anxious at night? Wait, is it possible?Then, the scene of the full moon with a big belly flashed through my mind quickly.It's far-fetched, but it's the most plausible explanation I can think of so far.

Maybe he noticed my silence, he paused and said,

"Why, I bypassed the designer and talked to your boss directly? It just so happens that his wife just transferred to our hospital today. Unfortunately, I am her attending physician. If you find it inconvenient, then"

Threats, outright threats.

But it really works for me.

As the saying goes, those who know current affairs are heroes!

Of course, there is another reason why I decided to go to the past. I always feel that he is weird today.It's just a house, is it necessary for me to make a trip in the middle of the night?We can meet every day and we can solve it on the way to work.Even if you are pregnant and anxious to have a baby, then you have to conceive in October, and this night is not bad.

According to the experience of fighting wits and courage with him in the past, if you want to find out what medicine is sold in Bai Yu's gourd, it is useless to rely on side effects, and you can even risk yourself at critical times.

Although I have seen him at work many times, I was still "amazed" by him when I pushed away the people in Bai Yu's office.In the room, the light is not very bright, compared to the bright lights in the corridor, it looks much softer here, and Bai Yu is carefully and attentively looking at the patient's case under this soft light.The buttons of the white coat were undone at will, and the black shirt appeared and disappeared as he flipped through the case back and forth.With his head down, Bai Yu's black hair naturally hangs down on his forehead, covering his thick eyelashes intentionally or unintentionally.

I never denied that I coveted his beauty, and I always thought it was the only reason I liked him.But at this moment, seeing him like this, I still couldn't hold back and swallowed a mouthful of saliva.

I'm a superficial person with a natural affinity for flashy things like this.Obviously, Bai Yu is already the pinnacle of existence for the flashy Hua.

Sensing my existence, Bai Yu first looked up at me, his eyes stayed on me for a few seconds, and then continued to focus on the case in his hand.

"Wei Xiaoduo, tell the truth, do you really owe some huge gambling debt?"

Just when I was still indulging in his beauty, Bai Yu brought me back to reality from the dream with one sentence, just say, handsome guy better not talk, how nice it is to be a beautiful man in such a quiet way .

I understood what he meant, and naturally I was brooding over the matter that I took his wallet yesterday.

"Don't talk nonsense, what did you call me?"

I put the bag on the table and sat on the stool opposite him.

I was surprised by his quietness in response to my unceremonious attitude.Still looking at the case with a calm expression, he didn't turn his attention to me until he signed the last page.

And this process took a full 3 minutes.

In other words, from the time I came in to the present, he only said one sentence to me.

The rest of the time is just looking at, uh, looking at me.That's right, looking at me very seriously and intently...

Since I was a child, I have played the game of big eyes and small eyes more than once with him, but at that time, he probably did everything he could to make me laugh in order to win the lollipop in my hand, and it would not be like this at all .

I sat across from him, at a straight line distance from him, and I felt a little uncomfortable suddenly being looked at by him like that.I cleared my throat, picked up the water glass on his table at a loss, and took a few sips without asking who it belonged to.

This series of actions is more or less self-explanatory, I don't believe he can't see my embarrassment.But he didn't seem to want to end, he still looked at me seriously and intently.

As far as my defensive ability against him is concerned, if I continue to let him look at him like this, there is a high risk of heart disease caused by high heart rate.I don't want to be sick friends with the proprietress.So, next, I forcefully diverted my attention, my mind was running fast, and I searched for the purpose that would make him do this.

Wait, is it possible that he asked me to come here at night, just to get revenge for the fact that I peeked at his wallet that day?

It's his style to take revenge.It dawned on me, but it was too late.

He was no match for him since he was a child, and it's still the same when he grows up. IQ really can't be measured by fairness.

Although I was unwilling to do so, I still put on the posture of losing people and not losing. With sharp eyes, I slapped my hand on the table, picked up my bag and was about to leave.

Well, he won!

"Today, what are you talking about?"

The moment I picked up my bag and turned around, Bai Yu's voice came from behind me.

"We?" I stopped and turned to look at him, searching for the specific meaning of "us".

"Well, you guys."

The cup in his hand was the one I used just now, but he didn't mind turning it around in his hand before putting it to his mouth to sip.Then he watched with a half-smile, like a strict boss interviewing a new employee.

I instantly understood that he wanted to ask about Qin Hai and me.

"I do not"

I wanted to tell the truth, but I stopped the words as soon as they came out.I looked at him, and a very immoral thought suddenly came to my mind.As for why I say it is immoral, it is because I always feel that no matter whether the relationship is true or not, as long as it has existed, it should be respected and should not be used for entertainment in any form, because serious people should not be reduced to maintaining another relationship.

From this point of view, I have never kept the moral bottom line in front of the people I am thinking about. In other words, I am not a moral person.

"You didn't go?" Bai Yu leaned back in the chair, his tone as calm as he was.

"Didn't go? How could it be possible that a fool with a handsome guy and good wine would refuse. I'm just, a little, a little confused"

I pretended to be troubled and sat back down again.While talking, pay attention to the changes in the expression of the person opposite.

"When you are still confused"

Bai Yu glanced at me curiously, then picked up the thick pathology book on the table.

Doctor Bai successfully entered the game because it was his habitual action to start listening to the story.

So, I cleared my throat and pretended to write a romantic romance drama.

"I never thought that I would play such an important role in his life. When he said that I was his entire youth, without me his youth would lose all color and meaning. I was lost. Really, I don’t want to let a person recall the dim gray of youth because of me. Because that is the most wonderful memory in a person’s life.”

"And then?" Bai Yu looked down at the book, with a plain expression, agreeing.

"Then, then I was thinking, why not, why not go abroad with him. After all, I still have a relationship with him. If we cultivate it, we may really be a good couple. Besides, when I meet someone who likes me so much It's not easy either. Don't you think?"

I looked at him inquiringly, carefully observing his every movement and expression change.Hope to find a little different emotion from it.However, Bai Yu was still immersed in the book without changing his expression. If it weren't for the "en" he squeezed out of his throat, I would have doubted whether he would have listened to me.

So calm, already stated the answer.

I sighed resentfully, shut my mouth, and calmed down.Today's brain cells have been used to the limit and I have to completely abandon this meaningless conversation.

"Continue!" After a moment of silence, Bai Yu finally shifted his gaze from the complicated neural map of the human body to me.

"Continue what to continue, how can there be so many continuations?" I lay down on the table in despair, propping my head with one hand while staring at the slightly miserable shadow on the wall in a daze.

Having said so much, in the end it is not as important as the skinny human frame in the book.Hey, I bet on the bottom line of morality and didn't get what I wanted. I don't think people who haven't encountered it will understand the strong sense of frustration.

"Continue your wonderful life as a married couple after you left your home and business." Bai Yu closed the book and looked at me with great interest.

"You just abandoned your family and business. You are sick. It's okay to plagiarize other people's happy life here. If you have the ability to create your own. Okay, don't waste time. Didn't you say to decorate the house? How to pretend, quickly put your ideas and Tell me your opinion, go home and go to sleep as soon as you’re done.”

As I said that, I took out the notebook from my bag and looked at him seriously after getting ready.

Bai Yu was not in a hurry, as if he was doing something very prudent, first he showed me a mysterious smile, then opened the drawer, finally, he took out a blueprint and put it on the table, and slowly pushed it away. come to me.

In fact, the moment he took out the drawing, the pores all over my body opened, and an inexplicable coldness burst out from the depths of my body.If I say it was designed by someone else, but the words written on the back are like the symptoms of a Pinocchio patient after telling a lie.

I sacrificed most of the night, directed and acted in a play with painstaking efforts, but in the end it turned out to be just a supporting role.

It doesn't seem to matter how this blueprint came into his hands, because I suddenly remembered what Bai Fei took out of the drawer when I came back from overtime work that day when I was half asleep and half awake.And the question she asked me is also clearly in my ears at this moment,

She asked why she didn't tell him if she liked it so much.

I say because he doesn't need it.

I have no way of knowing what Bai Fei's intentions are. Maybe she can see that I like Bai Yu and wants to help me, but she never thought that she might push me to a situation where there is no redemption.

Looking at the design drawing that was slowly pushed to my eyes, I felt like a criminal waiting for the verdict to be read out in court. The tension and uneasiness in my heart was ready to swallow me up at any time.

"According to this outfit, I mean all the details, including every corner and corner." Although Bai Yu's tone was slow, there was firmness that could not be refuted.

After speaking, he suddenly stood up and stopped just a palm away from me.He leaned over the table with his upper body, his eyes fixed on me, and the corners of his mouth raised slightly, revealing a smug and frivolous smile.

"I'm very demanding, it may delay the progress of your spouse Tiancheng"

Without this blueprint, I would have interpreted his behavior as a meaningless prank.But at this moment, anyone with a little brain can see that it's not as simple as a prank.

More specifically, I was seduced by him!

Such a dim light, a quiet room, lonely men and widows looking at each other, and the overlapping figures on the wall all make those who are interested in dreaming.What's more, his breath lingered in my nostrils with the smell of disinfectant, which strongly teased my senses.I felt that he was getting closer and closer to me, and I could even feel the clamor in my heart gradually eroding the remaining reason.Finally, when he was about to touch my lips, the remaining rationality finally pulled me back from the ambiguity.

I lowered my head and looked away from my face.

I understand that the reason why he can do this is nothing more than that the blueprint I left unintentionally has pierced the purest relationship between me and him.I like him just because he doesn't hate me that much, that's all.

I wanted to be one of those flowers, but when this moment really came, I realized that what I wanted was far more than I expected.

I want him, but I want to be the only one in his heart.

I looked at the blueprint, thinking about his actions just now, I felt a strong sense of shame in my heart.I grabbed it before he could react, but Bai Yu snatched it before me as if he had been prepared.

"Why, want to destroy the corpse?"

Now that the matter has come to this point, there is no reason to deny it.I looked up at him with the last stubbornness.

"What do you mean"

In contrast, Bai Yu was much calmer. He smiled and stood up slowly. He held the blueprint in his hand firmly until he was sure he had returned to a safe distance. Then he spread the blueprint on the table slowly and picked it up The thick and unreasonable human pathology book was pressed on it.During this period, he kept looking at me, arrogant, complacent, domineering and powerful.

"It's not what you understand, although people have said that he is a treasure since he was a child." Bai Yu paused, looked at me with a half-smile and continued.

"But I really didn't fail in it."

"Then tell me what you mean just now, isn't Doctor Bai who is among the losers thinking, thinking, wanting to step on two boats?"

In fact, I thought something worse in my heart. After a brief evaluation, I still felt that "one-night stand" was too insignificant, not to mention that he didn't really do anything.

As soon as the words were finished, Bai Yu smiled suddenly and returned to the chair, leaning casually on the back of the chair.Then he looked at me with a half-smile, and his tone was much brighter than before.

"Then tell me, which two boats have I stepped on?"

He even played amnesia in front of me.I, Wei Xiaoduo, don't say anything else, just keep his account, I think no one in the world can compare to me.

"Manyue is your girlfriend. Everyone knows. Since you have a girlfriend, why did you do it to me, do what you did just now. And you said those inexplicable things that day. Yes, you were drunk before, and I don't blame you. But that day you hadn’t even touched a drop of alcohol, and you were smiling with the full moon one second, and the next second, just.” I still can’t say the words to kiss me, and I can only rely on him to comprehend at this moment.I adjusted my mood and continued:

"Isn't it because of this blueprint that you did all this? Didn't Bai Fei tell you a long time ago, so you think you can do anything to me. Yes, I like you, but so what. I like it You don't mean that you can use this as an excuse to do whatever you want with me. And let me tell you, I, Wei Xiaoduo, are superficial, and I just like those flashy things, but there are many flashy things like you in the world. In other words By the way, I like a lot of people. Tomorrow, tomorrow I will find one for you to see. Finally, in view of your attitude towards me today and before, I solemnly inform you that we are over! It means breaking up our friendship, understand? .You return the drawings to me now. As for how to install the house, I advise you to seek the opinion of your moon. Don’t look back and your marriage is not harmonious. Besides, it’s because the house is not installed properly, I can’t bear the blame.”

I can assure you that from the time I was in school until now I am at work, I have always been inarticulate in the eyes of outsiders.If they saw this scene, they would probably be able to think that I was greatly stimulated to be aroused to such an excited state.

But Bai Yu understood that this was the real Wei Xiaoduo.Wei Xiaoduo, who finally came back tonight after humiliating in love.

For a long time, Bai Yu just looked at me with a slight smile in the corner of his eyes, without saying a word.

Of course, no matter whether he speaks flatteringly or agrees with his body, I will firmly defend my position.

Absolutely not a third party, especially his.

"I have to correct you on one thing. You said that everyone knows that Man Yue is my girlfriend. Since everyone knows, why don't I know."

Bai Yu showed a look of embarrassment, put his hands on the table and pushed it along the way, and the seat made a slight friction sound against the ground.Then he got up and walked slowly towards me.

I have never doubted Bai Yu's methods of picking up girls. The expressions and tone written in the book are all natural to him. The so-called concentration is only used on people who are not attractive enough.He was getting closer and closer to me, with his hands naturally in the pockets of the white coat, and the button on the black shirt was just undone to the second, revealing his white neck faintly.His steps are slow, but every step is a kind of torture to me.I didn't dare to look into his eyes, so I could only lower my head and feel my heartbeat gradually speeding up as he got closer and closer.

The aura just now followed me back slowly, until I felt a chill coming from my back.

"You, stop there, just stop there" I couldn't retreat, and subconsciously raised my hand to stop his pace.

Bai Yu really stopped, didn't speak, just smiled evilly.

Seeing that he really had no intention of going any further, I cleared my throat and continued:

"Since you were young, you have only brought her as an outsider among us. You have never admitted what everyone said, but you have never denied it. Not denying it is a kind of tacit consent. And you seem very close, There is no need to admit it or not.”

"My relationship with Full Moon is not simple, but it's definitely not as complicated as you imagine. It's a long story, but," Bai Yu paused, smiled helplessly, and continued:

"However, Cheng Wei knew she wasn't. He knew from the very beginning what kind of relationship I had with Full Moon."

"Impossible, brother Cheng Wei said you," he was interrupted by Bai Yu in the middle of the sentence.

"You see, it's because Cheng Wei's words are always more credible than mine in your heart. Therefore, some explanations become unnecessary, do you understand, Ms. Wei Xiaoduo?"

Bai Yu pressed my hand and at the same time took another step towards me.This step entangles our breath thoroughly.Caught off guard, his eyes meet, his eyes are focused and affectionate, which I have always longed for but never really felt.

I suddenly remembered why Bai Yu had such an inexplicable expression after hearing Cheng Weige's words when we were cleaning up the house together at grandma's house after Bai Yu came back.There is also the photo that was deliberately reduced in the middle of Bai Yu's notebook when he was a child.

And only Cheng Weige has the key to his house!

Next, although Bai Yu didn't explain too much about it, I understand that the reason why he didn't explain it is because we all understand that nothing is more important than the relationship between us, even my love with him.The five of us grew up together, occupying too much time with each other, and the memory cannot be divided, and we will not be complete without anyone between us.We have already blended into each other's lives.Therefore, there is no real victory in this emotional entanglement, and it will be a catastrophe for everyone without it.

"Full Moon likes you" I said,

Years of tacit understanding has allowed us to avoid the topic that has long been tacit.

"I know, but at the same time she knows I don't like her"

"Okay, I believe you"

After finishing speaking, we both looked at each other and smiled, and the grievances that had been accumulated in our hearts for many years were finally no match for the tenderness in the corner of Bai Yu's eyes.

Thinking about it afterwards, in fact, I shouldn't let him get it so easily, after all, I'm too sorry for the Mala Tang I ate for him.

"Is this the end?" Bai Yu said

"Well, I believe you." I expressed my position again honestly.

"Wei Xiaoduo, you have been spying on me for so many years and now you finally got your wish. Should you shed a few tears or hug me happily? If I remember correctly, just now you were sentimental about letting down other people's youth. That's for me This person who almost wasted his entire life for you, your reaction makes me very insecure."

Bai Yu's face slowly moved closer, his intentions were obvious.I have no reason to refuse just because of that sentence that almost wasted my entire life for me.

Almost wasting my whole life for me, it sounds really moving.But haven't I also lost my good life for this over the years.

It turned out that we have always owed nothing to each other.