Embrace each other

Inscription: Love taught people to lie, I lied and said that I don’t remember anything, but every minute with you is very clearly imprinted in my mind, I think it’s because in those years when you were away, I used to Take it over and over again to review.To make me feel that you have never been far away, because of you, I understand what is fresh in memory, so today, please allow me to commemorate the love that never belonged to us in my own way.

"Wei Xiaoduo, you're going crazy if you don't sleep in the middle of the night."

At two o'clock in the morning, I was nestled in my office area in the company building, and the manuscript papers scattered all over the floor were full of my messy design drawings.

On the other end of the phone, even though the second child was already restraining, I still heard the heart-piercing behind the restraint.If it hadn't been a long time since we saw each other, I think at this moment he would definitely throw out that sentence, Fuck, Wei Xiaoduo, you madman.

I'm not crazy, I'm just close to the edge of madness, so I turned around and came to the company to work overtime after planning a sorority party that gave me a headache.

But it doesn't matter, because the second child is not polite, and my lost emotions have regained some balance.Furthermore, it must be explained that the second child has always been "docile" and usually does not swear, but this cannot be guaranteed at two o'clock in the morning when he just broke up with those boring and complicated data and finally fell asleep.

"Second Ren, I'm depressed"

I slumped on the chair, holding the half-life 2B pencil that I tortured, and looked at the multicolored ball rolling back and forth on the computer screen. The unkempt and slightly haggard bird look on the glass.

"Wei Xiaoduo, did you make a wrong call? You should call the doctor." The voice of the second child gradually softened.

"You're stupid, what therapist is at [-]:[-] in the morning" I said

"You know it's two o'clock in the morning, big sister, I still have a meeting tomorrow morning, please make a long story short, or let it go"

Well, it seems that the cold machine didn't completely corrode his heart.

"Second Ren, I just called to make sure if there is another person sleeping next to you"

"Human? Does AI count?" The second child was very sleepy, and I could feel his half-closed eyes through the phone.

"Of course not"

"Well, then no"

"it is good"

"Wei Xiaoduo, to be honest, I don't want to curse, but if you call because of this, I don't guarantee that you will say anything nasty next time."

"Don't be impatient, actually, I want to clarify the chances of you playing cards with me in the nursing home in the future."

"If you follow this schedule, the probability is 98%,"

"That,"

Just as I was about to ask him about the other 2% chance, Ren Er Er interrupted me first, and said in a strong nasal tone,

"About the other 2%, it depends on whether you are still normal and whether you have any serious mental disorders due to the depression tonight. After all, I also want to make sure that my old life does not have additional burdens."

"You are mentally handicapped, hurry up and sleep with your AI, I wish you an early baby."

This seemingly meaningless teasing with my second child effectively eased the sadness deep in my heart.Finally, one by one, I picked up the manuscript papers that I had censored because of venting my anger, recombed my hair like a feather duster in front of the mirror, and re-entered the working state.

My mother often said that I am a person who is determined to go my own way and has no ambitions. It is in vain that I am blinded by my clever mind and the report cards with full marks in previous years.I never deny her slander, but I am still a little angry because she did not see the high-quality and obvious characteristics of my absolute sense of time and affairs.

For example, now, it can be regarded as the most serious disappointment in love in my lifetime, and I can still be at work in such a difficult time, and I am conscientious and diligent.In addition to understanding that the money exchanged for my work is the creator of my personal freedom, in a sense, it also shows that I can rationally assess the situation when facing setbacks.

Of course, it would be a different matter if you didn't receive a series of calls from the boss.

These days when Bai Fei came, I have used up the leave I accumulated from two years of overtime work. If this continues, I may face the risk of being fired at any time.I believe that our boss will choose the former without hesitation in the face of performance and favor. Of course, the favor I got by working overtime for free is too insignificant in front of him.

So tonight, no matter what tribulations I have experienced in life, I have to keep up with all the progress as if I were on the hook.

There is no love, but at least I can guarantee that my photo will not be taken off the outstanding employee list.

When I got home the next day, with thick dark circles under my eyes, and passing in front of a happy crowd, I expected to hear a little bit of human comfort or a sympathetic hug.It turns out that I overestimated my own existence and underestimated how weak my mother was as a mother.

"She didn't come back all night?"

"Where did you go, did you smell and drink in the past?"

"The child learns to stay out at night"

"Wei Xiaoduo, you have the guts..."

With my back to her, I could feel the saliva go through the back of my head and hit my face.If it weren't for being too sleepy, I would have had a good fight with her. My daughter didn't come home all night, and the mother didn't know until the next day. Who gave her the confidence to make her yell at me like this.

"Xiaoduo sent a text message last night, saying that she worked overtime at night to catch up on the draft, but she didn't tell you when you fell asleep," my dad said

"SMS, where is it, why don't I know"

"Sent to Xiaoyu, Xiaoyu told me"

Nani?A shock pulled my erratic soul back into my body in an instant, making me fully awake.

I actually sent the text message to Bai Yu, it shouldn't be, I obviously sent it to my dad.

I actually sent a text message to Bai Yu?I clearly remember that it was sent to my dad.

From the corner of my eye, I quickly glanced at Bai Yu, who was eating with his head down, and there seemed to be nothing unusual.Then if I explain it now, it seems inappropriate.

Forget it, it’s just an ordinary text message, he lives in my house anyway, so it’s the same to anyone.However, having said that, I still feel guilty about the sentence in the message, "Don't miss me too much".

"Then take a good rest, I won't call you for lunch."

lunch?I haven't eaten breakfast yet.Well, the way my mother loves me is always hard for ordinary people to understand.

I made a helpless expression to Bai Fei, and she could only express sympathy in a silent way.

And Bai Yu was still eating the steamed stuffed bun in his hand slowly, the steamed stuffed bun that I've been eating since I walked in and hasn't been finished yet.

I think he is planning to eat flowers.

Staying up late is like a dose of poison for a person whose youth has passed away. When I lay on the bed in a daze, washing my face and mask, they quickly turned into a wisp of green smoke as I closed my eyes.

I don’t know how long I’ve been asleep, and I vaguely remember that someone came to my room to find something, and then asked me a very important question.As for what kind of question was asked and whether this vague memory was a dream or real, I think only God knows.

When I woke up again, it was already four o'clock in the afternoon. The alarm clock on my mobile phone always rang tenaciously. With the principle of not giving up until I reached my goal, I successfully pulled me out of bed.I glanced at the halazi left on the pillow, picked up the pillow cover that ran to the corner at some time and threw it on it, and the target was successfully covered.

Next, I finished grooming as quickly as possible, and of course I didn't forget to make up the mask that I left behind before going to bed.If you think this is the end, then you are very wrong, because this girl still plans to put on a beautiful makeup.What is the reason for a slovenly girl to take the delicate route, and it is not because of the pathetic self-esteem.After all, I chose the place where my first kiss disappeared for dinner tonight.

Although it is not glorious to have a first kiss without it, it is gone if it is gone.Looking at it from another angle, I got a kiss from someone I like, compared to Bai Yu kissing someone I don't like, it seems that it is cheaper to stand on his side.However, my only regret is that I was dressed too casually that day.So no matter what, I must dress up tonight to make up for the regrets of the year.

"Isn't the appointment at night, the street lights are dim, and I feel beautiful with makeup on."

In the bedroom, I was concentrating on applying mascara in front of the mirror, when Bai Fei suddenly barged in and startled me, the mascara brush in his hand hit my face, er, the foundation I just finished applying.

When I turned around, she was leaning against the door as if she had nothing to do with herself.

She and Bai Yu are really sisters and brothers, and the current appearance is light but dark-bellied, it is almost carved out of the same mold.

Genes are something that cannot be changed by the day after tomorrow.

"Yes, I'm beautiful in my heart" I replied, and then continued to paint half of the lashes.

"Your hair is very smooth, why do you always tie it up, it looks better when you loosen it, it not only makes your face smaller but also much softer"

Just when I thought it was over, Bai Fei walked in, walked around me, stroked my hair seriously, and continued.

"The body is thin, but it's healthy, the leg shape, um, not bad, what's the height?"

Bai Fei looked at me seriously, thoughtfully, and then said:

"Golden match, have vision"

This time, I looked at her inexplicably, from head to toe.Why did Bai Fei become nagging when I woke up.

Under the persecution of my eyes, Bai Fei prevaricates me by saying that he is full, but I really believe it.After all, this reason is very sufficient for her.

In the end, I listened to her advice and let my hair down.Of course, it was limited to Matsushita's hair, washed gray jeans, and a simple and clean white T-shirt, instead of the dress she wanted me to wear.

Dresses, those girls Bai Yu liked before, loved to wear them, but this is also the reason why I hate them.

"It will be cold at night, remember to add a coat, the khaki windbreaker in the closet is nice." Bai Fei glanced at the closet, meaning.

"I bought it last year and haven't worn it yet," I prevaricate her.

"Oh, that's it, the style is very new"

In fact, it was an unknown small shop that I passed by by accident on my way to work two days ago.At that time, it was hanging quietly in the window facing the street, but it was just such a casual glance, I didn't even hesitate, I turned around and went back to buy it.

It took only 3 minutes from discovery to purchase.I don't know why, but I really want it.

After buying it back, I found out that she never saw the light of day again.

In the end, I still didn't choose it, but chose the white blazer next to it.

"My friend, although I don't mind, it's rude for you to open my closet casually."

"It's not like everyone's wardrobe is worthy for me to open, okay?"

Well, I'm speechless.

The food stall where we had dinner together before Bai Yu left has a new name, Bistro.As the name suggests, it's really not big, but because it's the store with the longest opening idea in our area and a pretty good reputation, so every night there are the most people gathering here, and it's also the busiest place on the whole street.

Right after Bai Yu left, we seemed to form a tacit understanding subconsciously, and never came again.The only connection with it is limited to the passing by on and off work.

The book says that when you're trying to forget something, getting away from the source of that memory is the best option, although it didn't work for me.

Bai Fei and I arrived first. When we were studying what to order, Cheng Weige’s car slowly stopped beside us. The third child came with him. It was a surprise that the third child did not bring it to tonight’s dinner party. January.I don't know if he dumped or was dumped this time.

"Cheng Wei, sit here"

Bai Fei pointed to the place next to her and waved to Cheng Weige.

"Why do you only greet him? I'll come with you too," said the third child.

"Just because he is the beneficiary who will pay the bill tonight," I said

Bai Fei and I looked at each other and smiled, knowing each other.

"Wei Xiaoduo, you should be powerful."

Brother Cheng Wei looked at me, and sat next to Sister Bai Fei. Bai Fei immediately picked up the menu and handed it to Brother Cheng Wei, asking him enthusiastically what he would like to eat.

I have never dared to question her enthusiasm, she is the guest who came from afar.

"Why did you go back yesterday?" Brother Cheng Wei who was looking at the menu suddenly looked up at me and asked.

"kindness?"

With his sudden question, the Arctic Ocean soda that was just in his mouth before he could swallow it was stuck in his throat, and he couldn't say a word.

I took a quick glance at him, and from what I've known him over the years, it wasn't hard to see that his expression was serious at this moment, which foreshadowed that he was very unhappy.

"Ask why you went back first, you're dumb," the third child repeated

"Oh, I was ordered to go to the company to work overtime yesterday when I was in danger."

I quickly swallowed the soda in my mouth and said seriously.

"Xiaoyu said you are not feeling well"

Brother Cheng Wei wasn't looking at me, but he was flipping through the recipes while talking leisurely, but in my opinion, it's more dangerous at this moment, if he answered a little carelessly, he would face the risk of running out of food all the time in the days to come.

"Yes, I felt uncomfortable first, my stomach hurt, and then I was called to the company to work overtime"

After finishing speaking, I motioned to the third child next to me, asking him to save me from the fire.

"Okay, brother, isn't she in good shape, sitting here with no missing arms or legs."

After the third child finished speaking, Brother Cheng Wei returned his attention to the menu.

At the critical moment, the third child is still very useful, and the money I contributed to him was not wasted.

Bai Yu didn't arrive until all the dishes were served, and Man Yue was belatedly arriving with him, which was both expected and unexpected.

Sometimes, the seemingly perfect mental preparation is actually covered with strong self-deception.When the imaginary scene really appeared in front of my eyes, it was as if I was experiencing a torture, and I was dying in this torture.

Maybe I've watched too many romantic dramas, and the way they walked from a distance created a beautiful slow motion in my mind.

The dim street lights, the quiet alley, the soft light fell on a pair of handsome men and women who were smiling with low eyebrows, and the occasional bicycle bell rang, which also became the background music to set off them.And I just watched quietly, watching them getting closer and closer to me.

"Xiaoduo, Xiaoduo"

When, with a bang, I was interrupted by Bai Fei beside me, who was indulging in the bitter scene.

I came back to my senses and found that they were already standing in front of me, and Man Yue was looking at me very kindly, like an elder looking at a mischievous child, his eyes exuded the love of an elder.

At this moment, I seemed to see the scene where my deceased grandma pulled Bai Yu, who had just quarreled with me, to apologize to me.

But grandma's eyes are full of love and affection, but she makes me very uncomfortable. Maybe it's because of my inner prejudice. I always feel that behind her hypocritical mask, she is actually warning me to stay away from Bai Yu, his family.

"Sister Manyue, don't pay attention to her, she stayed up all night and still hasn't woken up yet," said the third child.

What did I miss? I called my sister in a short while, and she called me so smoothly.

"Yes, I, I worked overtime yesterday and just woke up, no, I'm sorry"

I understand the feeling of rushing ducks to the shelves, but this girl is the most adaptable, the so-called acting is a full set, and I yawned in the end.

"Sit down, don't stand still, you are not an outsider." Brother Cheng Wei said with a smile.

"Okay," Man Yue whispered softly, with a gentle and charming smile, especially when she looked at Bai Yu shyly, shyly, and with a hint of nervousness.

In the eyes of ordinary people, these are normal, but in my eyes, she is like a rabbit who suddenly fell into a pack of wolves, seeking help from the hunter pitifully.

She has always been so decent and generous, although I prefer to call it watertight.

Derogatory?Yes, jealousy?That's right!

This person who has been haunted since childhood, no matter what, it is impossible for me to have the slightest affection for her.

Cut, I despise in a low voice.

Calmly, he took a sip of the Arctic Ocean for himself.

"Sit down, you know everyone except my sister, this is the first time you've met," Bai Yu said while pulling out a stool for her.

"Yes, don't be restrained, I am easy to get along with. I heard Xiaoyu mention that you have been classmates since high school." Bai Fei said

"Yes, high school classmates, and then went to university together in Shanghai, but the majors are different," Man Yue replied

"It's great. There are not many classmates who can study together in high school and college. Now that you work and work in the same city, you can take care of each other," Cheng Weige said.

"Well, Bai Yu and I both think so," Man Yue replied.

Although I don't want to admit it, the questioning attitude of Bai Fei and Cheng Weige is superimposed with the shyness of the full moon, very much like a father-in-law meeting a daughter-in-law for the first time.

I was rubbing half a bottle of Arctic Ocean with both hands, and suddenly wanted to know Bai Yu's mood at the moment, thinking that I hadn't given the answer yet, but my eyes drifted away honestly.

Bai Yu was sitting opposite me, straight away, wearing that khaki windbreaker, with one hand resting on the back of the chair, the other on the table, his index finger tapping the table rhythmically, but without making any sound, just like him Quiet.Only occasionally inadvertently raised the corners of his mouth in response to everyone's speech.

I learned a long time ago that the straight line between two points is the shortest, but two straight lines between three points, I lost the advantage without accident. From my point of view, he looks at the full moon, quiet and focused, showing a hint of shallowness from time to time. Laugh in response.

I think back to the year when I filled out the volunteers for the college entrance examination, my father and my mother came to ask me what my dream was.Come to think of it, that was our first real family meeting, and it was also the most direct expression that they sent their dreams to me, but I failed their dreams.

"I have no dreams, just live healthy and free"

That's what I said back then, and it was also the beginning of my mother's belief that I had no ambitions.

To be honest, I really didn't have any dreams back then. When Bai Yu was around, my dream was him, and I would be there wherever he was.After I left, my heart suddenly became empty, and even the black and white school uniform that I had been thinking about before lost its meaning.

In other words, Bai Yu is my dream, and now, the voice of the broken dream is more direct and crisp than when I answered my mother back then.

Speaking of which, I have to give my mother a good hug when I go back, after all, the feeling of being let down by my dreams is too uncomfortable.

"Okay, the new daughter-in-law has already met her in-laws, so don't bother digging up the graves of your ancestors, come, come, let's have a drink," the third child greeted.

When I came back to my senses, I met Bai Yu's staring eyes. I had no time to dodge, so I could only smile to hide the embarrassment in my heart.Then quickly lead the topic to the third child.

"So much wine, you're going crazy tonight"

I watched helplessly as the waiter walked past me with three boxes of beer in his arms, and then watched the third child open them one by one with a bottle opener and put them on the table.

It seems that I am not the only one who is stimulated today.

"Sister Baifei is leaving tomorrow, how long will it be if you don't pretend to be tonight?" The third child spit out a bottle cap from his mouth and continued:

"No one is allowed to go to work tomorrow, let's not get drunk tonight"

"I can't, I have to be sent to the plane tomorrow" I said

As soon as the words fell, I heard a delicate voice from the opposite side,

"It's okay, Bai Yu has an operation the day after tomorrow, so he can't drink alcohol, if Sister Bai Fei doesn't mind, I can deliver it with Bai Yu tomorrow."

This sense of presence is really not just brushed out, he won't say that he has surgery, is it necessary to show off like this.Under the circumstances, I couldn't find a reason to refuse.

"Yes, yes, yes, ah" I looked at Bai Fei and explored.

"Yes, that's right, my dear sister, you have to drink with me"

"Brother, what about you?" The third child turned to look at Cheng Wei.

Cheng Wei hesitated for a moment, and finally said to Bai Fei,

"Give up your life to accompany a gentleman"

"Arrogance"

Bai Fei patted Brother Cheng Wei on the shoulder, clearly speaking like a brother, but his eyes were shining brightly.

Halfway through the meal, I exchanged cups with everyone under the full moon, melancholy with a low brow and a small smile. She has always been so magical, and she can become everyone's focus no matter where she is.The interaction between her and Bai Yu is also in a superficial state.For example, when chatting with everyone, he would turn around and whisper a few words in his ear.At that time, Bai Yu would nod and smile slightly.

We were very close to the TV screen in the tavern, and the drunk man next to him was singing a song with familiar lyrics to Mike, but because he was out of tune, he couldn't recognize the name of the song.The light from the blue screen flickered and hit Bai Yu's face, from this, the dimples on his smile were more uncomfortable than the singing of a drunk.

Alcohol is like a catalyst for sadness. I can feel a certain emotion spreading rapidly in my heart. I didn't feel relieved until two cold drops dripped on the back of my hand.

I went, it turned out to be tears.

I picked up the wine bottle in front of me and took a sip. The astringent taste mixed with tears filled my nasal cavity, followed by a violent cough.

Cough until tears flow down my face...

"Drink slowly, I'm choking." Brother Cheng Wei got up, walked around Bai Fei, picked up a tissue and wiped the snot and tears on my face.

"Why do you look like a child?"

"Sister, no one will grab it for you, what's the hurry?"

I didn't speak because my voice couldn't be disguised, and I could only cover up the tears that kept pouring out of my eyes with a violent cough.

"Which one of you can sing, go and save everyone's ears, I can't take it anymore"

Suddenly, Bai Fei pointed to the drunk who was still holding Mike and refused to come down, and said that everyone's attention was successfully diverted, but obviously the diversion was not to my liking.

"Sister Man Yue can sing, and she used to take part in school performances," said the third child, and asked me a question to make sure his answer was true and effective.

"I remember correctly"

"Yes, yes" I strongly agree with this.

Naturally, Full Moon will not choose to disappoint everyone when everyone's interest is ignited. Besides, this is her advantage. Of course, smart people will choose to use their advantages to pursue the victory.

Seeing Man Yue walking away contentedly amidst everyone's expectations, I am even more convinced of the image of her that has been deeply rooted in my heart for many years. In fact, the words Bai Yu told me in the hospital are more appropriate to describe her.

"Then I will sing Joey Yung's Little Song for everyone"

small?I micro-signed, if it wasn't because I didn't have much contact with her, I really doubted her intentions at this moment.

Because this song is the only one in my playlist and it has been repeated infinitely by a single.

It not only represents my youth, but also the only relationship I have had in the past and even today.

For so many years, it has occupied all the places in my heart along with Bai Yu.

It seems that God really has ulterior motives for me.

Although it was a small country stage, Man Yue still showed her star-like temperament and strength. When she spoke the first sentence, the noisy crowd became engrossed like a comforted baby.

The third child was even more vocal, and the peanut powder in his mouth spattered on my face.

"It's really good, Brother Bai Yu is so blessed."

"Evil is disgusting, swallowing and talking"

My heart was galloping like ten thousand horses, suppressing the urge to go up and slap him.

"You're a little anxious, girl"

"You are too irritable"

The third child and Bai Fei blurted out.

In the end, Man Yue's singing won thunderous applause from everyone, and of course there were also whistles from some hooligans who had malicious intentions.

"I have lived alone in my heart ever since

We used to look small

That year you moved a small bench

For the fascination of the play, I also follow along

I'm looking for the person in that story

you are the indispensable part

you take a little nap under the tree

I was little and waited foolishly"

"You make a city out of mud

Said to marry me in the future

How many times have you turned around and passed the door to waste your youth"

Five years ago, Bai Yu made me a beautiful wish about him and Full Moon. Five years later, his wish came true and he became an indispensable part of each other, but I wasted all my youth because of this.

Bastard, one day I will find someone who is thousands of times more handsome than you and who will treat me like a treasure.