Embrace each other

I wandered between half dream and half awake all night. In the dream, Bai Yu and I were strangers. I chased him stubbornly. He ignored me, but I was happy. It wasn't until I woke up with a smile that I realized it was just a delusion.In the dream, Bai Yu and I knew each other well, I was still chasing him, and he still ignored me, I was crying so hard, he came over and said coldly, thank you for loving me, and treat me like a stranger from then on.I woke up crying and crying, but the tears remaining in the corners of my eyes reminded me that this was not a dream.

The next day, I waited for the living room to be quiet before getting up, but it didn't turn out as I expected. As soon as I went out, I saw Bai Yu leaning against the door of his bedroom calmly holding half an apple.

"The only difference between you and a pig is the language barrier"

It seems that God has treated me kindly. What happened yesterday was really just a dream for him. They say that everyone gets drunk when they are not drunk. It seems that it is not the wine that can make him delirious, but the full moon. .

"I am willing, can you control it?"

"How can a pig still be so angry about getting up?"

Bai Yu continued to nibble on the remaining half of the apple. I looked at him inexplicably, and said that since he came back this time, he has never provoked a dispute like this, but I am not in the mood to quarrel with him. , thinking of leaving this place of right and wrong as soon as possible.

"I drank too much yesterday. When I'm old, it's easy to break if I drink too much. Do you know how I went back to the house?"

I paused the foot I was about to take, looked at him suspiciously, and found that there was nothing unusual about him, so he smiled at him in relief.

"No, I came back late yesterday and fell asleep right away. Have you ever gone out? I don't know"

Bai Yumansi chewed the apple methodically, and nodded silently to me after thinking for a while.

When I went out, I deliberately quickened my pace when I passed my mother.

"Mom, brother Cheng Wei is back. I'm having lunch at aunt's house. Don't wait for me."

"You child, you run to others when you get up. What happened yesterday?"

"Xiaoyu, you said that her posture didn't work?"

"She didn't say"

"You grew up together, besides, you are all young people, go ask your aunt about it"

Listening to their conversation, I can only step up my pace. I thought that I would be quiet for a while when I got to my aunt’s house. I didn’t expect that my mother’s publicity about my blind date yesterday was well known. Also worthy of attention.

"Hey, sister, congratulations, you have become the No.1 blind date in our alley."

The third child took the prepared pen and handed it to me, and said in a serious manner:

"Come on, as the most senior emotional columnist in this alley, let me interview you and talk about my feelings about a blind date."

"roll!"

My stomach is full of anger, and I am venting it worryingly.

"Don't be mad at her."

Brother Cheng Wei said while passing the water in front of me.

"How about it?"

Although Brother Cheng Wei talked about the third child, he couldn't restrain his curiosity about this matter.

"It's my classmate Qin Hai, what can you say?"

Brother Cheng Wei was startled at first, then smiled lightly and said: Then you can definitely rekindle your old relationship.

"You still have the mind to make fun of me, I'm almost dying of pain, come and let me rely on it"

I rubbed my drowsy head because I didn't sleep well last night, put my two free legs on the sofa, and leaned my head on Cheng Weige's shoulder, which made me feel much more comfortable.Just like when I was a child, every time I quarreled with Bai Yu or was reprimanded by my mother, I always liked to stick to Cheng Weige like this, and Cheng Weige seemed to have an innate magic power, even if everything Not to mention, it can easily resolve my worries.

"Brother, do you think I was born in the wrong birth? It would be great if I was a boy. I don't need to be urged to go on a blind date, just like you, and be a diamond king. In the pile, but I always feel that I want to die alone." Leaning on Cheng Weige's shoulder, looking at the branches swaying in the wind outside the window, holding the little secret in my heart, talking insincerely, I think that even if Cheng Weige's magic power No matter how strong I am, I still can't untie the knot that I can hide.

"Sister, as the saying goes, you are not born with loneliness, especially in the face of love. Most of all loneliness is because you have an impossible person in your heart."

The third child leaned over and squatted in front of me, with the attitude of a spiritual mentor, but the mentor was full of gloating

"Who is this person?"

"Who is who"

When I was dazed by the youngest question, Bai Yu walked in leisurely, but when I looked at Cheng Weige and me again, I still sensitively caught the fleeting unnaturalness on Bai Yu's face.I sat up calmly, picked up the water next to me and drank it myself.In the face of love, the body is always more honest than the thoughts, but the body does things that run counter to the thoughts when it says insincere words.

"My sister must be pretending to be an impossible person in her heart. I was wondering who it is. You said that although she is not a shy flower, she is also considered a natural beauty. You say that she is too unlady, too quick-tempered, too cranky, too"

I interrupted the third child's endless bodily injury with a dry cough, if I hadn't been so dizzy I would have kicked him twice.Seeing that the form was wrong, the third child immediately acted accordingly.

"But the heart is kind after all. For such a nearly perfect person, it is impossible not to fall in love."

"Okay, let her calm down for a while"

Cheng Weige said and handed me a white pill

"Eat this. You should feel better. If you still feel uncomfortable, go to the hospital. However, have you been so busy at work recently? You can't rest well at night."

I took the medicine and drank it. Although I really want to know when Cheng Weige will always have painkillers at home, but I really don’t have the strength. After a few days and nights, it seemed like I was going to die.

"Brother, you can't spoil her like this. After all, it has a lot to do with you that she can't find a partner. Just tell me, she wants to eat candied haws and you bring them back from Beijing, and if she wants to eat Malatang, you send them back. After work, I returned the car to pick up the car. Which man dared to chase her after seeing you? He knew that you were her brother, but he didn't know that he thought you were her boyfriend. You are hurting him. "

I couldn't help laughing when I heard what the third child said, he was the only one who could make such a high-sounding complaint that he couldn't compete with me for favor.

"Why can't my brother stay with me for the rest of my life, besides, it's worth it if I don't find a boyfriend for my whole life with my elder brother?"

I deliberately angered the third child.

"If you don't listen to it, forget it when you two get married, and forget about the unmarried man and the unmarried woman, which is my mother's long-cherished wish."

Brother Cheng Wei and I smiled at each other, bullying the third child really made my heart feel a lot happier.

"Who is getting married?" the aunt came in from the outside with a pot of vegetables, and asked with a smile

"My sister and my brother" said the youngest in a muffled voice

"Oh, it's good to be daring, and it happens that the fat and water don't flow into the field of outsiders." What kind of metaphors are these.

"Sister, then your life is too boring. When I was young, I asked my brother Bai Yu to marry you. When I grow up, I want to marry my elder brother. Fortunately, my brother Bai Yu left early. Fresh faces. Otherwise, there are only a few people inside and out, so boring.”

The third child said what he said as if Brother Cheng Wei and I were really going to get married.

Although they were all unintentional jokes, when I thought of the way Bai Yu said he wanted to marry me when he was a child, he still laughed silently. If he can now say to me like he did when he was a child: "Marry whoever is afraid of whoever you marry", I will definitely drag him to the Civil Affairs Bureau, how can I give him a chance to meet other people.But Bai Yu was right in front of him, but he just sat quietly, casually fiddled with the cigarette case on the coffee table, as if our conversation had nothing to do with him.

If what I said when I was a child, the hook I pulled can really not be changed for 300 years, then no matter how childish the promise sounds, no matter how reluctant he is now, he must first promise me 300 years, right?

After taking the medicine, although the headache is gone, the drowsiness is gradually coming.Brother Cheng Wei gave me the sofa, and took out a blanket to cover me. I closed my eyes in a daze while the third child kept asking about Bai Yu and Man Yue.

"Brother Bai Yu, have you rekindled your old relationship with that moon?"

"It's not about the revival of old feelings, it's the same as before"

I rolled over inside and pulled up the blanket to cover my head. If I could really not see you by closing my eyes, and could really not hear your voice by covering my ears, it should be pretty good too.

In a trance, it seems to be back to last night again, Bai Yu's hot breath is close at hand, when I greedily want to get closer, I hear Bai Yu jokingly say: Wei Xiaoduo, don't you like me? Bar.In an instant, I felt as if I had fallen into an ice cellar, and my whole body was filled with biting coldness. The harder I struggled, the deeper I sank.At the critical juncture, finally, a pair of warm big hands grabbed me firmly, as if I was grabbing the last straw, I held it tightly with all my strength.

"Wei Xiaoduo, Wei Xiaoduo" the people on the bank eagerly called my name.

When I opened my eyes with the last bit of strength, I realized that I hadn't fallen into any ice cave, but just had a dream.And what I held tightly in my hand turned out to be Bai Yu's hand.

"Wei Xiaoduo, you have a fever and still cover up so tightly, you are trying to smother yourself to death."

Seeing me wake up, Bai Yu's frowning brows relaxed, but his tone was still impatient, just like a doctor treats a disobedient patient.

"I said why is it so uncomfortable? It turns out that I have a fever." I pulled out the hand that was still held by him, and pretended to stroke my sweat-soaked hair inadvertently. Maybe this action was too deliberate, and there was a momentary gleam on Bai Yu's face. Awkward.

"Where's my brother?" I asked casually.

"Go out to get medicine"

"Where is the third child?"

"Followed out to buy something"

"Oh"

The atmosphere became awkward again with the silence, I sat awkwardly on the sofa, tapping my fingers back and forth lightly.It's the first time we've grown up feeling at a loss when we're relatively speechless.It seems that even if you don't talk about some things, they have already changed quietly when the idea started.

"Wei Xiaoduo, what did you dream about just now?"

I think of the dream just now. Could it be that I said something that shouldn't be said?I looked at Bai Yu tentatively.

"Did I say anything?"

"no"

"Oh, I didn't dream just now. I fell unconscious and dreamed of nothing. I don't have time to dream. I didn't dream of anything."

Bai Yu obviously had a negative opinion on my answer, and he stared at me calmly, his eyes made no secret of his doubts.

"Then why do you keep calling my name?"

I was instantly shocked by his sudden words and coughed violently. IQ is doomed from the womb. If I can't beat him when I was young, it seems that it will be useless when I grow up.

Although I have tried my best to deny it at this moment, no matter how you look at it, it is a bit of an attempt to hide it. I am afraid that I can't hide the secret in my heart.Bai Yu stared at me silently, so I had no choice but to continue coughing to cover up my slightly uneasy mood at the moment.

When Brother Cheng Wei came in, he happened to see me looking terminally ill. He didn't know, so he ran to me quickly, touched my forehead worriedly and said:

"Why are you still coughing?" He looked back at Bai Yu, and continued:

"I bought it according to your request, but I didn't buy cough medicine."

Only then did I notice that Bai Yu, who was sitting next to me just now, was already some distance away from me.He heard the process

Viagra just bought the medicine. After carefully looking at it, I opened a box of VC effervescent tablets, randomly took one and threw it in the water glass in front of me.

"It's okay, just drink this. If you have stomach pain or vomiting, go to the hospital for an internal medicine."

Brother Cheng Wei looked at Bai Yu questioningly, although he looked worried, but Bai Yu was a doctor after all, so he couldn't say anything.Brother Cheng Wei picked up the water glass on the table and handed it to me, telling me to drink it quickly.It wasn't until he watched the glass of water completely go into his stomach that Brother Cheng Wei smiled with satisfaction and sat next to me with a long sigh of relief.

"I'm finally relieved. You have to thank Bai Yu very much. If he wasn't here, with your temperature just now, I would have sent you to the hospital for an infusion. It seems that it is really good to have a doctor at home."

It may be that the profession of a doctor made Bai Yu not used to seeing all kinds of illnesses, so he didn't show so much worry to Cheng Weige at this time.He stood aside and looked at me thoughtfully, frowning slightly, and when I met his eyes, I still moved away guiltily.Although I can't understand the deep meaning in his eyes, I can feel the discomfort it brings me.

It was supposed to be lunch, but because of my sudden discomfort, it turned into dinner completely.I really don't have an appetite. I wanted to go home first, but Bai Yu insisted that I wait for him to leave, so I just sat on the sidelines and watched everyone enjoying the food happily.

When I was bored, I picked up my phone and flipped through it. Suddenly, a WeChat message came in. I opened it, and it turned out that it was Qin Hai who asked me if I could have dinner together tomorrow night.I truthfully replied to him that I was not feeling well, so I had to wait for another day.As soon as the news was sent out, Qin Hai sent a questioning expression.I had no choice but to send it again. I had a cold and felt weak. After thinking about it, I added: I'll make an appointment again when I'm done.

"Go, go."

At some point, Bai Yu stood beside me and looked at the phone in my hand.

"Take this medicine home, and remember to take it on time. By the way, you must take it according to the instructions." Cheng Weige picked up the medicine on the table and instructed.

"I'm not a child," I said, taking the medicine.

Maybe it was because of sitting for too long, my legs were sore and weak, and when I got up, I couldn't stand firmly for a while and fell back to sit on the sofa.Bai Yu stretched out his hand and held my hand on the armrest of the sofa when everyone didn't expect it. With a gentle movement, I stood up.I looked at Bai Yu in surprise, feeling the warmth from his palm, and didn't pay any attention to Cheng Weige's hand that was hanging in the air and had nowhere to put it.

"Let's go back first." Bai Yu said to Cheng Weige while holding my hand

"Oh, okay, come back, go back and rest early"

After a moment of astonishment, Brother Cheng put on his iconic smile again.

When I went back, Bai Yu still didn't let go of my intentions, and I could only let him pull me.The temperature of Bai Yu's arm flickered under the inadvertent touch. Through the dim light of the street lamp, I slightly turned my head to look at Bai Yu's almost perfect side face. It was only a few seconds, and the frequency of my heartbeat was as high as above. The tightly wound alarm clock was beating fast and violently.This scene that I have imagined countless times has actually happened now, but I feel like I am in a dream.

"Wei Xiaoduo, what do you plan to do about Qin Hai?"

Bai Yu stopped and stared at me with a pair of deep eyes.His sudden words made me a little dazed, and I looked at him puzzled, not recovering from the situation just now.

"Let me ask you, what are your plans for Qin Hai?"

I suddenly remembered what my mother asked him to talk to me in the morning, and I was pulled back to reality from the dream just now.Enduring the loss in my heart, I couldn't help sighing silently, this road is really short, so short that even a complete dream becomes a luxury.

"No plan, I'm not you, after so many years, I'm still that person in my heart."

"Then where is the person in your heart? If it's not Qin Hai, then who is it?"

I looked at him in amazement, it's really rare to be able to say such words from his mouth, after all, he always hides from me in the past.

"Let me ask you, who is the person in your heart all these years?"

Evenings will always make passionate people think about it, especially in front of someone who has been thinking about him for so many years. If I hadn't known his thoughts on Full Moon early in the morning, I really thought he had feelings for me other than friends.It's just that Bai Yu in front of me looks calm and calm, and the slight pain in the palm of my hand has become an illusion produced by my delusion.

"Since I haven't said it for so many years, it's even more impossible to say it now."

"why"

"Because if you don't say it, the impossible is only in your heart. If you say it, it really becomes impossible."

The male protagonist in the story is obviously standing in front of me, but I calmly seem to be talking about other people's sadness.

"How do you know it's impossible if you don't tell me?"

There was determination in Bai Yu's cold eyes, as if he would keep asking if I didn't say anything.

I smiled helplessly, raised my other hand and gently attached it to the hand he was holding me. When Bai Yu looked at me inexplicably, I pulled out the hand that was held by him with some pain .

"Because from the very beginning, the person in his heart is not me."

Bai Yu looked at me silently, and the inadvertent pity in his eyes made me laugh at myself involuntarily.If possible, I really want to tell him that although my love is humble, it does not need your sympathy.If you are like me, you have experienced love but you should understand that at this moment, all I need is your bright smile, because my heart is sad enough, and any kind of relief can comfort me, except for pity.

"Is it Cheng Wei?"

The night was too quiet, Bai Yu's words were so indifferent, without any emotion, but fell into my heart very clearly.I looked coldly at this person I loved since I was a child, maybe I hid it too deeply or he has always turned a blind eye to me.All my involuntary feelings yesterday became extremely ridiculous at this moment, and I was naively worried that he would find out what was on my mind.Fortunately, he didn't remember, otherwise I would really be a person who couldn't stand the temptation in his heart.

There was silence all around, I looked at him stubbornly, I really hope that at this moment he can find my love for him that has been beyond words under my affectionate gaze, I want to see if it is really only me in those emotional moments One is deep in it.It wasn't until my vision became more and more blurred, and the tears in the corners of my eyes were about to burst, that I turned around and walked home in disappointment.

"By the way, tell my mom that if you arrange a blind date next time, try to find out as much as possible. You definitely don't know how embarrassing it is to go on a blind date with your classmates."

I wiped my tears and smiled brightly at him.I know the night is too dark, he can't see my joy and naturally he can't see my sadness