The so-called perfect

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This winter, there have been several snowfalls, each of which is very strong. Looking from the window, the whole world is white.

Time flies by so fast, and before it's too late to grab a tiny bit of it, it's gone.

No, winter is over, the second winter is over, and the third winter is also over.

This year, Ran Jingyu will be 21 years old.

Ran Jinyu has been here for three years.

All efforts were not in vain.

Now Jing Yu is almost the same as an ordinary person, and he hardly takes any stress medicine.

early spring.

The town has a new greenery.

On this day, Jing Yu plans to have hot pot with Jin Yu.

Everything is ready, just waiting for Jinyu to come back.

Jing Yu is nestled on the sofa, playing with her mobile phone, browsing the recruitment information of various companies, it's time to find a job, it's time to face the world.

The door was suddenly opened, and Jing Yu looked over to the door. "Are you back? Let's eat. I'm ready, and I'll wait for you when you come back."

Jinyu put down her bag, walked towards Jing Yu, and left a kiss on Jing Yu's forehead. When did she develop this habit?Can't remember, it's been a long time.

"Don't bother brushing it for me, you can eat it too. I bought a lot of duck necks you like." Jing Yu was still eating, and she didn't know how she managed to say this.

"Okay, I'll eat too." Although Jinyu said so, she continued to brush Jing Yu.

Jinyu had a dream a few months ago.There was a white-haired old man in the dream, she asked herself, has the grievance been resolved?

Jinyu felt very strange, what's the complaint?What is the solution?

In the previous life, you were unwilling to go, unwilling to go, and resentment urged you to go back to the past in the parallel world, trying to save another you.Now that your wish has been fulfilled, should your grievances be resolved?

Jinyu felt baffled, but seemed to know what the old man was talking about.

Now that you've solved it, let's go.There are some places that don't belong to you, and you will never be able to stay there.

Jinyu thought it was just a dream, but after waking up, there was a time in her mind. The old man said that this was the time for her to leave.

Count the days, it's today.

Although still a bit unbelievable, Jin Yu still gave Jing Yu a drink

.

Twelve o'clock at night.

The town was almost completely dark, but the home of the two was still bright.

Jing Yu felt that Jin Yu was a little strange tonight, which reminded her of a dream she had last night.

In the dream, an old man with white hair said to her: The person next to her pillow is leaving, and she must leave.She does not belong here, if she continues to stay here, the consequences will be disastrous.

She originally came here with her last breath. Since she has saved you, she has no reason to stay here any longer. The only thing you can do is to carry her breath and live a good life in the future go down.

Unlike Jin Yu, Jing Yu believes in this dream very much.

It's so real, isn't it?

Jing Yu wanted to get drunk, Jin Yu said, "Since when did you drink behind my back? Drinking too much."

When Jing Yu heard Jin Yu's words, she laughed, sadly and tragically.

Jinyu couldn't hold back and kissed her.

The two people depend on each other with lips and teeth, each with their own thoughts.

Pushing and shoving, Jinyu let go of Jing Yu, with a puzzled look on his face.

"Are you leaving? Forever." Jing Yu said, with a hint of despair.

Jinyu was startled, "You, why...you, you know..."

"I know, not only that you lay alone on a cold hospital bed in your last life, recalling all kinds of suffocating words in your mind, and then died slowly, but also that you came here with your last breath, just to save I also know that tonight is the day you leave. I know, I know everything..."

While talking, Jing Yu left a line of tears, which were tears of despair.

"Why? Why do you have to leave? Why don't you leave and the consequences will be unimaginable? Fucking shit!" Even swear words came out, and it seemed that it was really good.

"Yeah, fuck the shit."

There was a bang, and there was thunder and lightning.

Qi Ming seemed to be saying: Go, go!It's time!

"Ran Jinyu, can you not leave?" Jing Yu said this for a long time.

Before Jinyu could speak, she noticed something strange.

My body is changing, becoming illusory and ethereal.

Jin Yu looked at Jing Yu, but didn't know what to say for a moment.Jing Yu is the same, what to say?At this time, there is still time to say?

No, there are still.

"I am your future self, do you remember?"

Jinyu wiped away Jingyu's tears with her hands.

Jing Yu nodded.

"Then, can you come to me? After tonight, live a good life and come to me. One day, you will find me."

Jing Yu still nodded.

"You have to manage your emotions well, don't be led away by others, if you really can't do it, just take a medicine, understand?"

Ok.

"The winter in the north is too cold. After tonight, you can go to the south. It's hot there, and you are most afraid of the cold."

Ok.

"In the future, you have to remember to eat breakfast, or your stomach will hurt."

Ok.

"In summer, you should go out for a walk more, don't stay at home if you think it's too hot, go out to get some fresh air."

Ok.

"Go back and see your uncle and aunt, they are getting old too."

Ok.

"Go find a job and pass the time."

Ok.

"Be nice to yourself, alas, what am I talking about."

Jin Yu actually cried too, silently, then hugged Jing Yu, crying quietly, like a child.

The thunder sounded again.

It also started to rain.

Hush, huh, huh.

hit the road.

Hit the tree beside the road.

Hit the leaves on the tree.

It hit Ran Jingyu's heart.

Ran Jinyu left without leaving anything behind.

That day, Jing Yu held back and didn't cry afterwards.

Hiding under the quilt, the boss stared wide-eyed.

When I woke up the next day, I found myself at my uncle and aunt's house.

Everything has changed.I'm not mentally ill anymore.

Well, it was just three years ago.

There is a stable job and a happy family, but no object.

It seems that everything is so natural.

Uncle and aunt don't know Jinyu's existence, and everyone doesn't know.

It seems that this person has never appeared.

Days go on, and people have to move on.

Jing Yu quit her job and took the adult college entrance examination.

Studied medicine, psychiatry.

I went to work in the provincial hospital and became a student of that aunt's son that year.

It's fine, everything is fine.

Ran Jinyu, did you see it?I'm doing well and I'm slowly coming to you.

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The author has something to say:

The ending was rushed because I couldn't write any more.

This is the first time to write about the subject of mental illness, but it should also be the last time.

There are actually quite a lot of mental illnesses like Jing Yu in life. We don't know what he is going through, what he is thinking, but in short, it is not that good.

May all patients find a soul sustenance similar to Jinyu and recover soon.

May the people around you be merciful and care more about the mentally ill instead of swearing at each other.

……

This is the ending I thought from the beginning, Jin Yu will leave, the future is very long, and Jing Yu will always have to face it.

So be it

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