The so-called perfect

25

Afterwards, for several months, uncle and aunt did not come to see Jing Yu and the others, but this is what Jing Yu thought.

Uncle and aunt did not enter the door, but they would come once a month, outside the rented house, looking at it from afar.

Seeing that my niece is well, that's all right.

Jinyu feels a little strange recently, inexplicably, at a certain time of the day, she feels that her body will become lighter and ethereal, and sometimes, still, still smoke...

An incredible idea appeared in her mind: the time has come.

This kind of thinking is very strange and dangerous, but Jin Yu thinks it is very real.

If this is the case, what about Jing Yu?Although Jing Yu has improved, but not much progress.One can imagine what Jing Yu would do if he was gone.

26

The company has been a little busy these days, and finally finished, Jinyu decided to do something important.

When Jin Yu came home, Jing Yu was nestling on the sofa watching a variety show, she didn't know what it was, but she was giggling anyway.

Jinyu thought, it would be fine if it was like this all the time.

"Jing Yu, I'm back." Jin Yu put down the vegetables she just bought in the supermarket. "What are you looking at? So happy."

"It's nothing, it's just a talk show, and it's quite funny. Shall we watch it together?" Hearing Jinyu's voice, Jing Yu raised his head and blinked his eyes that were no different from Jinyu's.

"En." Jin Yu replied, thinking in her heart, looking for an opportunity to speak clearly with Jing Yu.

Jinyu also sat down on the sofa, feeling that something was wrong, so she moved a little closer to Jing Yu, but it was still wrong, so she simply got up, sat down next to Jing Yu, then hugged Jing Yu with one hand, and wrapped her in her arms, um , I feel comfortable now.

27

Jinyu sat down for less than 5 minutes, and the TV was showing commercials.

Maybe now.

Jinyu put down the hand holding Jing Yu, then got up and squatted down in front of Jing Yu, and at last thought, held Jing Yu's left hand again.

"What's the matter? Are you acting weird today? Are you tired? Is the company busy?"

"Jing Yu, you may not like to hear some of the things I'm going to say next, but can you let me finish?"

Jing Yu didn't think there would be anything Jin Yu said that made him dislike it, it was Ran Jin Yu, the person she liked from head to toe, Ran Jing Yu!

"Well, you say. I listen."

"Jing Yu, you know you are a little different, right?"

Jing Yu didn't expect Jin Yu to say this, she didn't want to bring up this topic, she felt it was unnecessary.However, the person in front of him was Ran Jinyu, and he had just promised her to listen to her.She wants to be her good girlfriend, and she wants to be obedient.

"Yeah." Jing Yu nodded, "Anxiety, panic attacks, mania, what else, I don't remember. But I don't think I have these diseases. I am a normal person, they insisted on saying I'm not normal."

"Jing Yu, do you know the difference between depression and mental illness?"

"Difference? Is there?"

"Depressed patients will be conscious, will feel the changes in their emotions, and will take the initiative to seek medical treatment. But mentally ill patients will not, they just live in their own world, doing some things..."

"Are you saying I'm mentally ill?" Jing Yu interrupted Jin Yu, with a sullen look on his face.

"Jing Yu, we can't avoid some things, we have to face what we should face. Isn't there me?"

"Do you think I'm strange?" Jing Yu didn't answer Jin Yu's words, but asked Jin Yu a question.

"Not surprisingly."

"That's fine. As long as you don't think I'm weird, can't we continue to live like this?"

"But isn't it very painful when you are sick? Seeing you in pain makes my heart ache too."

Now that you have spoken, let's just talk about some things.

28

Painful?

Jing Yu didn't think about it, but maybe it was really painful.

At that time, I had no consciousness, my brain couldn't think, everything around me was unpleasant, I wanted to die, I wanted to kill people, I wanted to do so many incredible things...

In the past, everyone said that they were mentally ill. At first, I didn't believe it, but then my uncle and aunt took me to see many doctors. Every doctor said so, but I still didn't believe it.

But today, hearing Jin Yu say this, Jing Yu suddenly believed it.Ran Jinyu would not lie to her.

Startled Yu stared at Jin Yu blankly, and after a while, two tears flowed down her cheeks.

She reacted!useful!

Jin Yu hurriedly hugged Jing Yu, and said softly: "Shall we go to the hospital? No matter what, I will accompany you. If there is trouble, I will eat for you; if there is difficulty, I will fight for you. You just stay well." You are receiving treatment in the hospital, and I will watch over you every day, every minute, every second."

To be honest, Jin Yu didn't know why she still wanted Jing Yu to go to the hospital.It stands to reason that I died in the hospital in my previous life, and died of those anti-excited drugs, shouldn't I resist it?

But I didn't, maybe because I became a normal person.Jinyu believed in medicine, or rather, Jinyu believed in herself, she would not let Jing Yu be in a dangerous situation.

That day, Jing Yu, who was hugged by Jin Yu, cried for a long time, but later agreed to follow Jin Yu to the hospital, not because Jin Yu persuaded her, but because she believed in Jin Yu, she would not harm herself.

29

The cold and humid air from the Mongolia-Siberia high pressure has swept across the town where Jing Yu and the two live, and winter is here.

Yes, it's winter.

Those who chewed their tongues hid at home in the cold.

The weather is fine today, with warm sunshine streaming in through the windows.But Jing Yu's mood was not very high.

Today is the day to see Dr. Liao from the psychiatry department of the Fourth Hospital.

Jing Yu dawdled in the closet for a long time, Mei Le pretended not to know what to wear, but in fact she was just delaying time.She didn't want to go, Jinyu knew it.

However, she had no choice but to go.This is a disease, which must be treated, and should not be avoided.

It was already 10:30 in the morning when the two arrived at the Fourth Hospital.

Dr. Liao seemed to be free in the morning, or he only had an appointment with Jing Yu, and when the two entered the consultation room, Dr. Liao was ready.

There is no difference in the previous life, the process and the result are all the same.Dr. Liao prescribed medicine for Jing Yu, explained some precautions, and let the two leave.

This kind of disease has to come slowly, be patient, and don't rush.

Jin Yu took Jing Yu's hand and walked out of the hospital.However, when he just walked to the outpatient hall, Jinyu saw a person, a familiar person.

It was a man, tall and handsome, but a beast in clothes.That was Jinyu's boyfriend in her previous life, Yin Shaodong.

Since coming here, some things have changed, and some things have not changed.

Before Jin Yu decided to send Jing Yu to the hospital, she went to a professional place to inquire about the cause of her death in her previous life. It was not the excessive intake of stress hormones that she thought at the beginning, but the aggravation of mental problems, resulting in suffocation-style death.

Yin Shaodong must be part of the problem in his heart.Jinyu thought.

Not long after we got together, Yin Shaodong was messing around with other women outside, and he didn’t know where he heard about his illness, so he made all kinds of insinuations to himself, although after the breakup, this disgusting man often came to disgust him .

At that time, I was plagued by illness, day by day, fading and haggard.How long have you been worried after hearing Yin Shaodong's words?It seems that at the moment of death, those unbearable words were also passed by my ears, right?

Jing Yu obviously felt that Jin Yu was holding her hand tighter, but she didn't say anything, she seemed to know why Jin Yu was like this, especially when she saw the man in the distance.

30

In the past few months when Jinyu and Jingyu lived together, there was always a string in Jingyu's heart-about Jinyu.

She is very different, no ID, but can do a lot of things, and seems to know a lot of things that didn't happen.

For example, once before, I wanted to go to the supermarket to buy something, but I didn't want to go, so I decided to take a shortcut. At this time, Jinyu said to herself, don't go there, there are bastards fighting, although she was in a trance, But in the end it didn't go that way.The next day, the local news broke out about the fight.Asking himself how Jinyu knew, Jinyu smiled and said nothing.

By the way, she still knows herself very well, better than herself.Another point, the most suffocating point, is that the two look almost identical. When I went to the supermarket to buy vegetables, several aunts came to ask if they were twins.

Jing Yu has been obsessed with this matter for a long time, and wanted to find a chance to ask clearly.

31

The cold and humid air flow became more intense in the small town, and a gust of wind came from the northwest, bringing snowflakes all over the sky.

It's early winter, and it's snowing.

Jing Yu was a little excited. When he lived in the south, he rarely saw snow.Jinyu also knew Jing Yu's excitement, so after the two of them took a nap, they walked to the town square to watch the snow.

The snow is still falling, but not as much as last night.Falling from the sky, some encountered debris on the way and disappeared in an instant, and the rest all rushed underground in unison, wanting to join the large army.

When Jing Yu and Jin Yu arrived at the square, there were already a lot of people, most of them were parents who brought their children out to play.

Jinyu felt a little cold, and there happened to be a glove shop nearby, and they looked pretty good, so she wanted to buy a pair for Jing Yu.

Originally, he wanted to take Jing Yu with him, but Jing Yu was teasing a two or three-year-old baby and didn't want to leave, so he let Jin Yu go by himself.At first, Jinyu was a little hesitant, but under Jing Yu's urging, he went anyway, just for a short while, nothing will happen.

But, unfortunately, something really happened.

When Jinyu came back, the little milk baby and the aunt who brought her were still there, but Jing Yu was gone.

Jinyu hurriedly wanted to ask the aunt about the situation, but before Jinyu could speak, the aunt spoke.

"Girl, does that girl have some mental problems?" The girl was naturally referring to Jing Yu.

"Auntie, where's she?" Jinyu asked under his breath, with an inexplicable anger.Although it is true that Jing Yu is mentally ill, she doesn't want others to say it so clearly.

"Don't worry, she went to buy water with my son. My son is a psychiatrist from the Second Provincial Hospital, and nothing will happen. Hey, look, he's back." The aunt pointed her finger in the direction where Jinyu's back was facing. .

The moment she saw Jing Yu, Jin Yu felt relieved.

The aunt's son is indeed a psychiatrist at the provincial hospital, and he is quite enthusiastic.So, a few people went to eat a meal in a toot.

It's a restaurant chosen by my aunt, it's near the square, there are no people, it's very clean.

Embarrassed, the aunt and son spoke up. "How long has it been since you were diagnosed?"

Jinyu didn't expect him to ask so directly, "It's been several years."

"Yeah. It's still under control. It's not serious. The situation has improved recently." The tone of the last sentence is clearly affirmative.

"Actually, this disease is difficult to say, but simple to say. It is easy to treat with medication, but the environment is wrong and there are too many interference items, making it difficult to cure." The aunt and son sighed.

"There are always some people who like to make irresponsible remarks, and they say it all day long, even in front of patients. Patients are inherently fragile and need to be cared for. As a result, they are messed with by these people. They got it back."

That's right, these are the people who have harmed many people. Didn't their parents teach them to be fearful?Every time I stand on the commanding heights of morality, give pointers to some things, and think that I have done something amazing.

Jinyu held Jing Yu's hand under the dining table, um, Jing Yu was very calm.

After a meal, even if there are other people, Jing Yu's behavior is no different from staying with Jin Yu, which is an improvement.

32

It was getting dark and the snow was getting heavier.

The two were walking home. Jinyu held an umbrella in one hand and held Jing Yu's hand in the other, and then put the two hands into the side pocket of the down jacket. The pocket was quite big, and the two hands More than enough.

People may be going home for dinner, the road is very quiet, the warm yellow light of the street lamp hits the two of them, and hits the road ahead, guiding the way forward, it is very peaceful.

Jing Yu felt that this was an opportunity.

She stopped, and Jinyu also stopped.

"What's the matter?" Jin Yu's voice was very soft, accompanied by the cool air, it entered Jing Yu's ears, making Jing Yu's heart tremble.

"I..." Jing Yu suddenly hesitated, but after the hesitation, he became firm. "Who are you?"

"What's the matter? Ask this? I'm Ran Jinyu, Ran Jinyu who only belongs to Ran Jingyu." Jinyu leaned a little closer to Jingyu, and rubbed the tip of Jingyu's nose with her mouth. Jinyu thought that Jingyu was acting like a spoiled child.

"I ask, who are you?" This kind of non-procrastinating words made Jinyu understand what Jing Yu meant.Finally, the day has come.

Ran Jingyu is such a smart person, how could she not see the strangeness.

"I said that I am you, and I will be you 11 years later, do you believe it?" Jin Yu didn't intend to deceive Jing Yu, so she told the truth.

Jing Yu stared blankly for a moment, but quickly reacted.

Yeah, it's me after many years, if you say it like this, it all makes sense, why is it so like yourself... why you know yourself so well... why you know what might happen... and why, take care of yourself... …

"Do you love me? It's not your love, just..."

Just love the person in front of you.

Before Jing Yu could say the words, she felt warmth on her lips.

The lips of the two leaned together, Jin Yu seemed dissatisfied with such a light kiss, slowly stuck out her tongue, and licked Jing Yu's lips, Jing Yu opened her mouth slightly, taking advantage of this gap, Jin Yu Yu's tongue stuck into Jing Yu's mouth, it was full of ups and downs, full of beauty, Jin Yu was no longer so slow, and deepened the kiss, the kiss was eager, and the kiss was terrific.

The kiss made Jing Yu have difficulty breathing, so Jin Yu stopped the kiss.

"I love you, I love the you in front of me, nothing else, just love you."

Well, me too, I love you too, I love the you in front of me.

There are tens of thousands of people in this world, and no one knows what kind of thing is happening in which place, whether it is joy or sadness.