Goddesses are born

Under the cultivation of this kind of education, although Gu Chinian clearly knew that this relationship was abnormal, he was unable to seek help from the surrounding environment, and was inevitably affected.

Only those who are obedient can receive the protection of the family. If they are disobedient, or even if they show a little resistance, they will be tortured or beaten severely.At the beginning of this kind of life, Gu Chinian didn't realize that it was wrong, and it wasn't that she didn't realize that she had to resist. She tried to say "this is wrong" to the man, and she had to go to school in pain the next day.That man is very smart, he specially picks the waist, back, buttocks and other invisible places to hit. These are the places where Gu Zhinian, a little girl, is instinctively ashamed to show to outsiders, so the risk of being discovered is greatly reduced.

And if she doesn't resist, obediently follow the man's wishes to serve tea, pour water, wash his feet, set the table and chopsticks for him, and still smile at him without changing his face after bearing all the insulting names, and be satisfied as much as possible except for the real intercourse. After all the man's request, the man will be kind to her, buy her what she wants, buy expensive toys and snacks, beautiful clothes, and spoil her like the little princess in the book she has read.

Gu Zhinian had no choice.How can you resist?She cried and said to Dad, the kindergarten teacher Xiao Yuan said you can't touch me like this.The man's big rough hand that was lingering on her collarbone and fleshy arm stopped, and then he lifted it up and slapped her angrily, scolding a bitch furiously, raising you so big, wasting so much effort, helping you I don't know what is good or bad when I take a bath.

The man thought she was too young to distinguish the difference between a father's love and a man's love for a woman, but Gu Chinian could clearly caress her neck and shoulders repeatedly, rubbing the palm lines on her chest intentionally or unintentionally, and befriend the man. There was something wrong in the thoughtful expression and the straight eyes.

Gu Zhinian knew this was wrong, but she couldn't do anything about it.The resistance was suppressed again and again, whether it was crying, verbal rebuttal or scratching and biting, all were violently suppressed. That man sometimes had the leisure to judge a commodity, watching her cry, and sneered and said that crying was ugly, next time If you cry so ugly like this again, I will throw you away. Look in the mirror to see if you are ugly. If you cry more honestly, maybe I can sympathize with you.

Then hit harder.

At that time, when she was still young and her sense of shame had just emerged, facing the vicious control and training of an adult man, like a mayfly shaking a tree, she had no major effect at all, and she still had to obey the man's will obediently.

The other children were so happy after school that they jumped up and down, only Gu Zhinian walked slowly with his toes on the ground, looking more ladylike than other children of the same age.She was afraid of the man's obscene smile, the eyes that looked at her developing body curves and naked eyes, and was afraid of suppressing all these and forcing a smile, just for the low feeling of living.

For more than ten years, she can only feel at ease when she listens to the loud snoring sound of the man in the next room at night. It means that the day's flattery and pretense can finally end, and the insulting words and deeds can also stay away temporarily. She stared at the moonlight outside the window in a daze To fall asleep, this is already a rare clean time.

From trying to resist to catering to the survival instinct, and finally this catering has gradually become instinctive. She is used to dressing herself exquisitely, beautifully, weakly and obediently, and showing weakness to those around her to achieve her goals.She felt that the touch of the hand touching her body was disgusting, the man's gaze was disgusting, and she was even more disgusted when she smiled and catered to her.When she couldn't sleep at night when she was a child, she would think of her mother who never existed in her memory. She didn't know that woman's face, but she thought that that woman was definitely not the "slut" her father said, so unbearable.

But she would occasionally think, why not take me with her?

She has no means of contacting her mother.She hasn't seen her mother since she was a child, and her father's saying is that "that bitch died long ago".From the chatting between her grandparents and grandparents, she knew that her mother probably left here resolutely after she was born, without bringing anything that would evoke old memories, including her child.

In her eyes, her mother is sometimes like the book says, someone who will protect her and love her, and sometimes she is worth hating, a "slut"—why didn't you take me away?Since you decided to leave, why did you give birth to me and let me bear all that you should have endured?

She had never had close contact with women before, and her father took over all the tasks that should have been done by her mother.At this time, being hugged by Xie Jin in his arms and comforted clumsily, she felt that Xie Jin had no malice or calculations towards her, and felt purely feminine care, not the sweaty smell of a man, and nothing from a man's heart Thinking about it, so I almost shed tears.

She held back tears for many, many years.

But after blinking for a long time, she finally chose to hold back all the tears in her eyes, not letting them rush out, but snuggled closer into Xie Jin's arms.Xie Jin felt the movement of the person in her arms, and silently tightened her arms, so that her whole body was nestled in her arms.

She is used to pleasing people, not to mention that Xie Jin is someone she quite likes, and she also wants Xie Jin to be happy, not sad for her past, so right now she doesn't want to tell these dirty pasts to ruin Xie Jin I don't know how to export my feelings, so I can only temporarily absorb some warmth in this arm, and feel quite at ease.

Xie Jin also couldn't tell the whole story about the past due to various reasons; at this time, Gu Zhinian and Gu Zhinian were cuddling each other, they had their own concerns, but their actions were surprisingly tacit.Although the two of them only spoke a few words, they seemed to understand how huge the iceberg was hidden under the other's few words, and understood each other's pain.

Xie Jin felt the pajamas on her chest being tightened, and then her neck felt warm, and the shoulders of the girl in her arms trembled slightly.The tip of her heart seemed to be scalded, and it ached.She was not good at comforting, so she raised her hand and continued to rub the back of the girl in her arms.

The movements of her hands went from fast to slow, and her consciousness gradually became blurred. I don't know how long the hesitation lasted. The air was so quiet that it was reassuring. The impression she had at the last second of her loss of consciousness was that she lowered her head, and the girl didn't seem to be crying anymore. , eyes closed, eyelashes very long, a little white and smooth side face exposed from messy hair, as if reflecting light in the dark.

She fell asleep.

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Early the next morning, Gu Zhinian got up one step ahead of Xie Jin. When Xie Jin poked his head out of the quilt in a daze, Gu Zhinian twisted the face towel, and had already changed his clothes for going out, as if yesterday's crying was just an illusion , nothing happened.

Xie Jin hugged the quilt and sat on the bed in a daze for a while, belatedly remembering that the apprentice's fragile side should only be shown to herself last night.Usually she looks so energetic, beautiful and happy, making people feel good just by looking at her, only last night...

Thinking of this, she suddenly felt happy, and besides being happy, she also felt a little distressed.

Gu Zhinian didn't know anything about Xie Jin's mental activities. He just felt that he was ashamed last night, so he smiled brighter and tried to hide it. When he saw Xie Jin wake up, he waved: "Master, I'm going out first! I have an appointment with Renchen." Run, now people are calling me, what do you want to eat in the morning, master? I will bring it for you when I come back."

Exercises like running, or meals like breakfast, have never been in line with Xie Jin's dead house. She got stuck in the middle of yawning, thinking for a while, but didn't think of what to eat, and because she didn't brush her teeth, she didn't want to eat. After speaking, he turned his gaze to Gu Zhinian for help.

Gu Zhinian saw her disheveled hair, blank eyes, and the fluffy air she just woke up from, and thought she was so cute.Originally, she had twisted her hands on the doorknob to go out, then she turned back to the bed, raised her hand and rubbed Xie Jin's long hair messily, like a puppy.

Xie Jin didn't resist either, or it could be said that she was still in a dazed state, and her head commands couldn't keep up with the speed of her muscles.Being rubbed, she just raised her eyes and looked at Gu Zhinian with a bit of doubt in her dazed expression.

Gu Zhinian had had enough rubbing, laughed so hard that he said, "Master, you are so cute", and left with a small backpack on his back, dangling a white plush ball on it.Before she left, she turned her head, and the fluffy ball also shook violently: "Then I'll just watch and bring something to eat for Master? Master doesn't have any taboos, does he?"

Xie Jin sat on the bed and watched her off, and shook her head upon hearing this.

The door was shut softly before his eyes.Xie Jin stared at the door frame in a daze for a long time, shook his head, and then became a little awake, and began to unconsciously comb his messy hair.After combing for a long time, she plucked one or two strands of hair between her fingers. She finally remembered to get up to wash up, so she reluctantly lifted off the warm quilt and got out of bed with her slippers.

With her toothbrush in her mouth, she glanced at herself in the mirror, and suddenly realized something, and her drowsiness faded away—she hurried out of the bathroom, with a mouthful of lemon toothpaste in her mouth, and casually dabbed water on her pajamas I swiped open the phone screen with my hand, and when I was about to transfer the meal money, I found a problem.

She doesn't seem to have Gu Chinian's contact information - except in the game.

This is very distressing.She decided to ask Gu Zhinian when she came back. In order to prevent herself from forgetting, she solemnly used the memo function that she hadn't used since she bought the phone, and wrote it down.

"Looking for an apprentice requires x letter"

After writing it down, she felt relieved, the short-lived sobriety disappeared, and the drowsiness came back... She slowly dragged her slippers back to the bathroom to fetch water, rinsed her mouth, and grunted...

When Gu Zhinian entered the door, sweating profusely, he saw Xie Jin wiping his face indiscriminately.After rinsing the towel with clean water, he took it up and covered his face, like wiping the table, and fooled him roughly twice.