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The moment Zuo Rong kissed, he had already anticipated such an unhappy ending.But what he didn't expect was Kong Feicheng's fierce resistance and his own sudden heartache.

It was already late at night after the concert. Instead of going back to school, he drove aimlessly on the road.When he regained consciousness, he realized that he had actually driven the car downstairs to Kong Feicheng's company.

In 18 years of life, this feeling of losing control has only appeared twice.Once because of my mother's illness, and once because of Kong Feicheng.

He stopped the car safely, opened the sunroof and looked at the moon.The moonlight of this season is silvery, with a metallic coolness.

But compared with Kong Feicheng's eyes, it turned out to be very hot.

Zuo Rong suddenly realized that he was never God's favorite.

Given his extraordinary appearance and brains, he will be deprived of some things that ordinary people can easily obtain, such as a happy family, such as consensual love.

He strongly hopes that he is an ordinary person, with average looks, average grades, and a well-off family.He is often nagged by his mother, skips class with his friends to go to an Internet cafe, confesses to the girl he likes, and will most likely be rejected, and may even be charged protection money by the school bully.

But he couldn't do all of this.

He has been held since birth, little by little, until a high place off the beaten track.

There is bright and beautiful, there are strange things, there are ghosts and monsters everywhere, and there are always being attacked by wind and snow.

From a child who knows nothing about the world to a young man facing the wind, he sprouted in the extreme cold and grew in the dark.A pair of hands supported him underneath, making him aloof and crumbling.

From childhood to adulthood, only Zuo Le can give herself the most appropriate warmth, because she stands taller than herself.Where she was, the wind and snow were probably as sharp as a knife blade.

A [-]-story building, people at the top look down on all living beings. They seem to be outstanding, but they are already covered in bruises.

They have a deep understanding of the hardships of climbing up from one level to the next.Countless people are trying to climb under their feet, and those small hardships make them feel distressed.

But the people downstairs only think that they are successful and famous, and cannot understand the pity and sadness in their eyes.

Kong Feicheng also seems to be a person who was born at the finish line, with excellent looks, brains, and family background.But Zuo Rong could clearly feel from him, the unique aura of people in the high cold.

He is not as happy as he looks at all, he has a secret that cannot be revealed, and walks alone with such a burden.

Whether it is Zuo Rong, Kong Feicheng, or Zuo Le, they are all living a precarious life under the envy of others, walking on thin ice every step of the way.They must be careful, so that the world can continue to run well according to their own wishes.

Zuo Rong is a competent science student. He loves perfect logic and is fascinated by numbers. Even if he studied psychology, a subject that studies people, he always likes to speak with data.He longs for and rejects all surprises and out-of-control, so art and pure love are things he can't reach.

And Kong Feicheng is a huge uncertain factor in his life.

The logic that should have been reasonable suddenly encountered a fork, and a multiple-choice question lay there.Without any preconditions, he has to make a black and white decision.And this decision is directly related to the final result of logic.

Obviously there is a better choice, but I always choose the worst one without hesitation. Zuo Rong has never been so painful and vicious Murphy's Law.

He began to think about Kong Feicheng again, and the other party's performance today confirmed some of his previous conjectures.

His politeness, his banter, and even his refusal may not be his intention, but the result of years of psychological hints to himself.He just wants to protect himself and eliminate all uncontrollable factors for his planned life path.

Zuo Rong wanted to know what kind of knots that person had in order to get to where he is today, living with a mask forever, using politeness as the best alienation.

No matter how clever a person is or how hard he tries, there is always an unqualified position waiting for you, and you will definitely get there.

Zuo Rong felt that Kong Feicheng was probably his insurmountable Peter principle.

He didn't leave until the sky turned pale, and went to the time-honored breakfast shop to pack the signature steamed buns, and took them to Zuo Le's house.

It was rare that she hadn't woken up yet, Zuo Rong helped her aunt put breakfast on the table, and Zuo Le came down from upstairs at 7 o'clock sharp.She wasn't surprised to see her younger brother, who was supposed to be here for the weekend but never came.

"Didn't you sleep all night? Is listening to a small concert so high?" She asked, yawning.

Zuo Rong served her a bowl of porridge, sat down and said, "Sister, I met Kong Feicheng at the bar yesterday."

Zuo Le paused, this was something she hadn't expected at all.Although she had only met him twice, she had the impression of Kong Feicheng as a very elegant scholar. She did not expect him to be like her younger brother, who doesn't like classical music and prefers rock and roll, which is really strange.

"And then, have you tried it?" she asked.

"Try it, I like him." Zuo Rong had already calmed down, and found that he had no appetite.

After hearing this expected answer, Zuo Le drank the porridge slowly.This silly boy probably doesn't understand now that he has fallen in love with him a long time ago, even if it wasn't love at first sight, he still favored him a lot.

"Then why do you look like you've eaten shit?" She couldn't understand this.

Zuo Rong rubbed his face vigorously, and said wearily: "I kissed him forcefully, and then he rejected me."

"Pfft!" Zuo Le squirted out a mouthful of porridge, never thought that his younger brother with thick eyebrows and big eyes could do such a wild thing like a forced kiss, it's really promising.

"Cough... If you have something to say, why are you kissing someone?" She wiped the corner of her mouth with a tissue.

Zuo Rong was also very annoyed, "I just couldn't hold back for a while, hey..."

"You still can't help it? Heh, I've opened my eyes too. This Kong Feicheng is really a god, who can make you unable to control yourself." Zuo Le put on a frivolous tone, wanting to liven up the atmosphere .

But Zuo Rong was still depressed, "Sister, what should I do now? I'm sure I like him, but he ran away."

"Didn't you say that liking doesn't necessarily result in results?" Zuo Le put down his chopsticks.

"Yeah, but I'm... uncomfortable. It hurts to see him resist so much."

Seeing his brother's distraught look, Zuo Le, who always liked to be an emotional mentor, didn't know how to comfort him for a while.

Zuo Rong stared at the front with empty eyes.But Zuo Le unexpectedly discovered that there seemed to be light inside, which was extraordinarily dazzling in the dark pupils, burning obstacles and melting ice.

He suddenly said: "Sister, I think he has a problem in his heart, just like the two of us, he has some secrets that he doesn't want to reveal. Although he refused, I want to help him."

When Zuo Le heard this, his heart seemed to be caught.

Yes, they all have concerns that they don't want to mention.In the eyes of others, this is a full-fledged moan, but only they themselves understand that throwing a proud heart from the clouds into the mud, anyone can come to express condolences, this is absolutely unacceptable pain.

So they never want to say these things out loud.

They have everything, but they don't love the world.

"Then you go to approach him, get to know him, help him, and let him come out. Even if you are not together in the end, you will not regret it in the future because you gave up easily without doing anything. If you can really make him look away Yes, it can be regarded as doing good deeds, so I support you." Zuo Le gently grabbed his hand.

She had never seen Zuo Rong's firm eyes before. He was like a general in charge of one man, standing on the wall of countless flesh and blood, without frowning in the shadow of swords and swords, just guarding his king devoutly like that.

Zuo Rong never gave up on what he decided on.Although he has no confidence this time, he will never let go easily.

"Sister, Zhu Qingyan likes you." After talking about his own affairs, he suddenly remembered that there was still an unresolved matter with his sister.

This nonsensical sentence almost made Zuo Le spit out again.

"Why are you saying this all of a sudden?"

"Sister, you already knew." Zuo Rong suddenly moved closer.He was already tall and tall like an adult man, which immediately brought a lot of pressure.

Fortunately, Zuo Le has read a lot of psychology books, so he can manage to stabilize himself.

"Yes, I've seen it for a long time. Did you quarrel with him?"

"No, I chatted with him, and he told me everything, including the note." Zuo Rong sat back and crossed his fingers on his lap.

Zuo Le almost panicked, but immediately realized that he was testing himself, so he chose the safest way: "Then what do you think?"

Zuo Rong realized that his routine had failed, and his sister was indeed not a little white rabbit, so he could only give up.

"I think, in fact, he is not bad, you can try."

Zuo Le didn't expect that his younger brother, who had always taken "sweeping all peach blossoms for his sister" as his duty, would say that, and burst out laughing with a "puchi".

"Rongrong, let's not talk about anything else, I'm six years older than him."

"Female junior, holding gold bricks. Six years older, holding two bricks. Sister, why do you care about such insignificant things as age?" Zuo Rong said seriously.

Hearing his younger brother lashing back with what he had said, Zuo Le was momentarily speechless.

"You need to start a new life, so don't rush to deny it. Believe me, Zhu Qingyan will only love you more than Wang Zuo. We are indeed young, but love is a human instinct, and it has nothing to do with age. You are more than me. I understand. I won't let you spend your whole life clinging to an illusory idea, absolutely not."

Zuo Rong's words were firm and unquestionable.

How could Zuo Le not understand these truths, but it was because she understood too much that she was unwilling to start a new relationship.

She didn't have the confidence to love another person with all her heart and soul as before.If you pretend to be someone else in your heart and still fall in love, then such an incomplete relationship is unfair to both parties.What's more, the other party is Zhu Qingyan, a simple child who has just begun to fall in love and has no hesitation.

Some things are not because she doesn't want to, but because she can't.

The education and social experience she has received over the years has brought her not only knowledge, but also morality and reason.Let her restrain her emotions at the critical point of whatever she wants, stop losses in time, make the right choice, and never make mistakes.

Zuo Le thought that there was no trouble in this life, and everything went smoothly all the time, except for Wang Zuo.

That's right, it's just the death of a boyfriend who has been dating for less than a year, and he hasn't even reached the point of talking about marriage, so there's nothing to let go of.

Is there anything you can't let go of?She murmured in her heart.

My life was almost ruined by that accident, put it down?How can it be that simple...

She didn't let go until the end, Zuo Rong was helpless.After dinner, he went to catch up on sleep, and then went back to school.

He sent a message to Lu Li, telling him what happened last night.

When the phone vibrated, Lu Li was wrestling with the color palette. He couldn't get the color he wanted, and he almost lost his temper. Fortunately, the message from his junior brother saved him from the fire.

Sure enough, I was not mistaken, that child really likes men.The corner of Lu Li's mouth twitched when he saw the message, and he immediately turned back, "Now tell me who he is. If I want to help you, I should first understand the other party's situation."

Zuo Rong hesitated for a moment, but decided to be honest.

The two chatted one after another, Lu Li and Zuo Le's words were similar, they were all encouraging him to bravely pursue true love, it sounded very secondary but inexplicably passionate.

A whole week of working days passed, and Kong Feicheng didn't post a single Moments. Zuo Rong felt that the time was getting longer and longer. He even used his mobile phone number to search for Weibo accounts, but he couldn't find any users.The moment he put down his phone, he felt like an idiot, no different from Zhao Yangyang.

He even thought about making chance encounters downstairs in his company in the past. He drove to the underground parking lot before realizing what a mentally retarded thing he had done, and hurried for a walk before he got off work.

Faced with things that have never been touched, no matter how smart people are, there will be a learning process that they are not good at.For Zuo Rong, talking about love is such a new field that he has never set foot in, let alone actively pursuing others. He never thought that he would have such a life experience.

The day finally came to Saturday in his expectation.

Before the western literature class, he suddenly realized that the teacher of this class was Kong Feicheng's father, so he had to behave well and make a good impression on his elders first.It is difficult to break through directly, so devious tactics are not impossible.

In fact, he had other considerations.Generally speaking, people's psychological shadow is not due to natural disasters and man-made disasters, it is very likely to come from the original family.Get in touch with Professor Kong more, maybe you can find out the crux of Kong Feicheng's psychological problems.

With such careful thinking, he sat in the middle of the first row for the first time.

Professor Kong had a face-to-face meeting with this handsome young man as soon as he entered the door. This student left a deep impression on him in the first class.The appearance and temperament are quite outstanding, and the answer to the question is also clear, which can be used as a template for answering the question.

But no matter how you look at it, the child feels indifferent, doesn't like to be close to people, and always sits away from the crowd.It was the first time since the class started nearly three months ago that he sat so loudly under everyone's sight.

Kong Wenxing nodded approvingly, thinking that the child was probably overwhelmed by the charm of literature and wanted to get closer to knowledge.

After a class, every time a question is asked, the student will take the initiative to raise his hand to answer, and every time the answer reaches his heart.He looked at the roster and wrote down the name Zuo Rong.

After class, Zuo Rong ran to the podium with a warm smile on his ever-changing iceberg face, which seemed quite out of harmony.

But he didn't care, and said to Kong Wenxing: "Professor, after listening to your class, I have developed a strong interest in Western literature. I have some questions to discuss with you. Can you leave me a contact information?"

For studious students, Kong Wenxing never refuses, and immediately takes out his mobile phone to open the WeChat QR code.

Zuo Rong happily added "Old Zhangren" on WeChat, scolded himself for being shameless, then raised his voice by a degree, and said obediently, "Thank you, professor, goodbye, professor."

As soon as he left the classroom, he changed back to his iceberg face, feeling a little tired.My face was stiff from laughing just now, and I almost vomited myself when I practiced in front of the mirror in the dormitory.

Thinking of his twitchy tone just now, he suddenly felt that it was hard work for a person who was laughing and joking every day, grinning and opening his cheeks every day, wouldn't his face really get bigger?

But among other things, Professor Kong's WeChat has been added, which is the first step to success.

However, he felt that Professor Kong was an excellent person no matter what he looked at. He was gentle and polite to others, and he definitely couldn't find fault with the children, so the problem probably wasn't here.

Just as he was about to go to the cafeteria, Lu Li sent a message, "I'm visiting your school, and I'm near the canteen of Xuewu, do you mind if I grab a meal?"

Zuo Rong happened to be going there for dinner, so he texted him back: "Wait at the entrance of the cafeteria, I'll be there in 2 minutes."

He saw Lu Li breathing white gas from a long distance away, wearing a thin coat in the cold weather, rubbing his hands together.

Zuo Rong walked over quickly to say hello to him, and said, "I still have class later, so I can only invite you to the cafeteria. Order whatever you want, and don't be polite to me."

As soon as you enter the room, the heat and aroma of the food rushes over, making you feel warm and leisurely.Lu Li smiled, "I just wanted to come and taste your cafeteria, but you're just a human-shaped meal card. Quickly recommend some dishes to me, I'm already hungry."

After the two ordered their food and sat down, Zuo Rong opened the hot milk for him, put in a straw and handed it over, and said to him, "Have you read my class schedule?"

This is a declarative sentence, showing his affirmation of his guess.Lu Li also knew a long time ago, with his ingenuity, he would definitely be able to guess what was going on.

"This is the cafeteria closest to the teaching building where I attend classes, and I sent your message just after class. I never believe in coincidences. So, what's the matter with you?" Zuo Rong didn't lift his head, and turned Pick out the thorns from a few tender fish fillets and place them on the opposite plate.

Lu Lili enjoyed the treatment with peace of mind, and said slowly, "The teaching assistant for the next class will be your Kong Feicheng, right? Take me to have a look, how about it?"

Zuo Rong raised his head, met his slightly narrowed peach blossom eyes, and still kept a trace of guard, "What do you want to do?"

"Don't be nervous, I just want to see who is so powerful and can fascinate our school grass. And, I also want to know who lost to me." Lu Li had a teasing look.

The author has something to say: Lu Li is just an assist, trust me